Hey everyone. Back with another chapter! Thank you so much for all of the reviews. I really appreciate them. Ok, so this chapter as promised is longer than any of the other chapters. It also does have a small trigger warning in it as well. Enjoy!
"Millie?" I ask her, "What are you doing here?"
"Oh nothing, just looking for you." She steps into the house, "We haven't seen each other in a long time…"
"Look I don't care what you want, just get out of my house. I never want to see you again."
"Ok I know you hate me, but I had to do that to you."
"No you didn't you chose to!" She sighed.
"Look" she started, "Me and my sorority decided to do a dare game. My friends and I were dared to find a high school boy and….well you know."
"So you raped me because of some stupid dare game?!"
"Hey if I did it successfully which I did, I'd earn $100 bucks." I take a deep breath.
"Who keeps posting things online of me at the party?" Millie shrugs, "Don't lie to me!"
"Ok fine I know who it is" Millie replies, "But I'm not telling you who." I point at her.
"It's probably you!" She laughs.
"No it's not me. I wouldn't have the guts to post it online."
"Why is someone posting the videos and pictures online?"
"Part of the dare was to post the videos and pics of you online after we were done. We were then supposed to text you about it." Ok, so one of Millie's friends must be posting them then. "Look at it this way, you helped a broke college girl earn some money." She smiles. I feel anger boiling inside of me. I point to the front door.
"Get out!" I scream, "You're lucky I'm letting you off of the hook! Now leave!" She grabs my hands. I jerk my hands away.
"Chase…" she says soothingly, "I'm sorry for what happened that night. I had to do it, or I was going to be called a loser. You know how it feels to be a loser…"She runs her fingers, through my hair. I don't stop her; instead I jam my hands into my pocket so I can contain myself from attacking her "Truth is, I really like you… and I know you still like me somewhere deep inside of your heart." No I don't. Was she crazy? "All you have to do is just forget about what happened that night and we can be boyfriend and girlfriend again…" Did see really think that I still want to be with her? "You can have a pretty girlfriend again…" Before I can say anything, she kisses me! Ok that does it! I push her off.
"GET OUT OF MY HOUSE!" I scream so loudly that the neighbors can probably hear, "And don't ever come back here again or I will sue you!" Her face reddens.
"Fine I will leave" she screams back at me, "I don't like you anyway. I was just trying to make you feel better. Nobody wants to go out with you. You're a big nothing, remember? You'll never become anything successful in life because you're a big baby." She glares at me, "Why don't you do everyone in the world a favor just kill yourself already?" My heart skips a beat.
"Hey!" I hear someone scream. Millie and I quickly turn around to see Bree standing in the kitchen with her fists curled up. How long had she been standing there?
"B-bree?" I stutter out.
"What did you just say to my brother?" Bree asked marching up to Millie and me. She then pushes me out of the way to be face to face with Millie.
"Oh" Millie says chuckling, "I was just kidding around…"
"No you weren't. Don't you ever say anything to my brother ever again! Now get out!" the girls start yelling at each other. I guess Adam and Leo hear the commotion and run up into the living room as well. They walk up to Millie and Bree and start talking to them. I slowly back up into the kitchen and then into the elevator. I head down to the lab. How much did Bree hear? Does she know about the party? Does she know about what Millie did to me? I hope not. I blink back some tears from my eyes.
Once I get to the lab, I run towards the counter and sit down in one of the seats. I look at my phone to see that another post from unknown was posted onto the blogging sight a couple of minutes ago. I hear the front door slam shut from upstairs. Millie must've left. I start to think of all the things that have been said to me…
You're a big nothing
So, you're not going to tell? Good choice.
Look just forget about what happened...
Why are you still worried about this? The past's in the past!
Kill yourself
Finally I get so angry that I slam my phone down hard onto the floor. The glass from my phone shatters. I put my head down onto the desk. I felt something against my head. I look back up and I see a candle and a box of matches. Why is there a candle on Davenport's desk? Oh yeah, Adam's science project involves one. I wish I could just light myself on fire and be done with everything. Hmm maybe that's not a bad idea. Maybe I should just take myself out of my misery. It's not like anyone would care….They all apparently want me gone anyway…
I grab the matches and light one of them up. I then light the candle. I put the candle close to my left wrist and wince in pain as the fire touches my skin. Ok, this isn't working as I planned. Maybe I need some ….
"CHASE!" I hear someone scream. I jump as I turn around. I see Adam and Bree standing right behind me about a few feet away.
"What do you think you're doing?!" I glare at them.
"What does it look like I'm doing?" I reply. Bree and Adam start to run towards me, "And don't you dare come any closer to me or I'll burn my eyes out quicker than you can say the word burn!" They stay where they are. Bree gives me a worried expression as does Adam.
"Chase please" Bree pleads, "Don't do this to yourself."
"Why shouldn't I?" I can feel my hands shaking, "No one would miss me, and especially you remember? You hate me." Bree kept quiet.
"Chase" Adam said calmly, "Look I don't know what happened between you and Millie upstairs, but don't listen to her. Everyone loves you here. We couldn't bear losing you." He looked down, "I couldn't bear losing you." I raise an eyebrow. I hear the door from upstairs open and shut. Tasha must be home.
"Don't any of you go upstairs" I threaten.
"Ok" Bree replied, "We're not going to." She quiets her voice, "Chase please. We love you and whatever happened between you and Millie upstairs, we can help you get over it." So she didn't hear the details about the party. "Please, just put the match and candle down. We can help you get over whatever you're thinking about….we love you…" I started to shake even more. I was shaking so badly that the candle and matches accidently slipped out of my hands and onto the floor. Bree used this chance to run her and Adam over to me.
Bree grabbed me and we went tumbling to the floor as Adam blew out the fire on the match and big candle with his super breath.
"Chase" Bree exclaims, looking down at my wrist, "What were you thinking?" I start to think about what had just happened. What did I almost do? Did I really just try and kill myself? What's wrong with me?
"I-I" Before I could finish my sentence, Bree started yelling at me.
"What is wrong with you?! Are you crazy? You could've been killed and our house could've caught on fire!" As she continued rambling, I felt hot steaming tears fall down my cheeks as I clutch my injured arm. I couldn't hold it in any longer, I just couldn't. I whimper as Bree continues to shout at me. Bree and Adam finally notice me starting to cry. Bree stops shouting. "Chase what's wrong?" Before anyone can say anything else, I wrap my arms around Bree and start to squeeze the living daylights out of her as I sob onto her shoulder. I really tried to not cry, but I couldn't help myself.
"I-I" I spit out, "I-I can't do this anymore. I can't." I feel Bree start to rub my back. Adam leans down to face me and I can see his concerned face reflecting back at me through my teary eyes, "I-I -"
"Hey" Bree says, her voice being calmer and more soothing than the last time she had talked to me, "Relax. It's ok."
"I-I tried so hard to make myself believe that it didn't happen" I choke out, "But it did."
"What happened?" Adam asked me. I didn't answer him; I just continued to cry harder.
"I-I just want this to s-stop…"
"Adam" Bree exclaimed, "Go get Tasha." Adam nodded and ran towards the elevator. I felt Bree loosen her grip on my back. I squeezed her harder.
"Don't leave me."
"Chase I'm not going to leave you ok?" she replies calmly. She starts to run her fingers through my hair, "I'm not going anywhere." She took a deep breath, "Now, can you tell me what's wrong? It'll make you feel better." I shake my head. "Chase please.."
"It's embarrassing"
"It can't be that bad."
"It's all my fault. I shouldn't have ever gone out on that date."
"Aww Chase, are you still upset about the whole break-up thing? Chase-"
"I'm not upset about the break-up" There was a pause of silence.
"Then what are you upset about?" I don't answer; I just start to sob even harder than I ever have before. I'm surprised I'm not out of tears yet. "Hey. Everything's going to be ok alright?" I hear the elevator door beep and I hear Tasha's heels clack against the floor. I then see Tasha crouch down next to Bree and me. Adam and Leo are standing up in front of us.
"What happened?" I hear Tasha cry, "Chase are you ok?" I shake my head as I feel Bree hand me over to her. Tasha cradles me in her arms.
"I-I couldn't do anything…" I say.
"It's ok Chase. Mommy's here now." Tasha's never said anything like that before. I must look really horrible. "Tell me what happened sweetie." Instead of answering her I just cry and cry and cry until I bawl myself to sleep.
When I wake up, I'm lying on a bed. I open my eyes, look around and realize that I'm in one of the house's guest rooms. On the edge of the bed, I see Tasha sitting there, talking on the phone to who I assume is Davenport.
"I don't know what's wrong with him Donald" Tasha says, "He didn't tell me anything. He was just crying his eyeballs out. He's obviously upset about something more than the whole break up thing. Adam and Bree told me that he was about to set himself on fire!" I continue to listen to Tasha talk until she hangs up. "Ok. I'll talk to you when you get home. Bye." She hangs up the phone.
"Tasha?" I squeak out. She turns to face me.
"I'm here sweetie." She scoots closer to me. I partially sit up. "Do you want to talk now?" I shake my head. Even though I really wanted to tell her everything, I was scared to. What if she didn't believe me if I told her the truth? What if she gets mad at me?
"Can this wait until Davenport comes home?" She nods.
"Oh yeah. Sure thing. He's almost home anyway."
"I want to talk to both of you alone."
"Ok." Tasha scoots next to me and cups her hand on my cheek. It looks like she's about to cry.
Mr. Davenport finally arrived home. He sprinted up to the bedroom where I was and sat down on the bed next to Tasha.
"Chase what's going on?" He asked firmly, "First you come home at midnight, then your grades start slipping, then you faint and now you're crying your eyeballs out and trying to set yourself on fire?" I look them both in the eyes. "I want you to tell me what's wrong and I want the truth."
"You guys will probably be mad at me." Mr. Davenport relaxed his face.
"Chase whatever it is, I promise not to lash out on you ok?" I gulp.
"It" I stutter out, "It has to do with Millie." Mr. Davenport sighed as he and Tasha pulled me into a hug.
"Look Chase" he started, "We already told you that you'll find your true love-"
"It's not about our break up" I speak up.
"Oh.." I take a deep breath. Ok here it goes.
"I didn't go to the movies the night I came home late" I start to explain, "I-I went to a college party with Millie."
"What? Chase I can't believe you lied to me! So you were partying around till midnight-" And he said he wouldn't lash out on me.
"That's not all.." Davenport stopped and continued to listen to me. "I went to go get a pop for Millie at the party. She held onto my pop can while I went to go get her one." I blinked back my tears that were threatening to fall. "She went to the kitchen to go get us some snacks while I was gone. When I saw her again, she handed back my pop can and I gave her hers. After drinking my pop and talking I started to feel funny, so Millie took me upstairs to a bedroom to lie down. At first, we were just talking, and then she started kissing me and then she….she…." I couldn't even finish my sentence. I started to cry again, "It was awful!" I burry my head into Davenport's chest. After a minute or two I feel someone rubbing my back.
I told them everything that happened after that, including the video recordings, the text messages, everything. I could hear Tasha crying on top of me as she and Davenport ask me why I didn't say anything.
"I'm pressing charges" I hear Davenport bark as he stands up from the bed. I burry my head in Tasha's stomach as she whispers comforting words to me.
"No" I reply, "It'll only make things worse." He walked back over to me.
"Chase I promise things will get better after I press charges against those girls, ok?"
"No. I'm going to be the laughing stock of the school. And-"
"No." He sat down on the bed again, "No buddy I promise no one will laugh at you. Something like this is very serious." Yeah right.
"B-but I should've been able to get her off of me…and her friends too."
"You were drugged. There was nothing you could do."
"I couldn't sense out the drug in my drink."
"Chase you wouldn't have been able to. Drugs like those can be odorless." Tasha hands me a piece of tissue and I blow my nose with it.
"I don't even know if it actually happened."
"Chase if you're having memory flashes of you at the party and people keep posting videos of you at the party, then it happened."
"But boys don't get raped, unless they're little boys. I'm sixteen." I sniffle, "This is embarrassing."
"Boys get raped all of the time" Tasha replied, "Even at your age. It's less likely to occur, but it still happens." She hugged me tighter. "And don't feel embarrassed sweetheart. Those girls should be embarrassed of themselves. You didn't do anything wrong." I nod. I still feel like I did something wrong inside though. Mr. Davenport pats my back.
"Ok, I'm going to go get this all settled out" he says standing up and heading towards the door, "Don't worry Chase." Before he opens the door, he says, "And listen to me very carefully. None of this was your fault….alright? None of it. You did nothing wrong. You didn't deserve any of what occurred ok?" I slowly nod. If none of what happened was my fault, then why does it seem that way? Davenport opened the door to leave and outside in the hallway was Adam, Bree and Leo.
"Great" I mumble, "Now they know about it too."
"Hey" Davenport told them, "Didn't I tell you guys to stay downstairs? How long have you been out there?"
"Long enough to know that our brother has been assaulted" Bree answered as she, Adam and Leo step inside the bedroom. Davenport heads downstairs to make some calls on the telephone. I groan as I feel my siblings' eyes pasted on me.
"Tasha" I tell her, my voice being muffled by her shirt, "Make them leave."
"Kids" Tasha replied, "This is kind of personal for Chase. He needs some space." They all nod and slowly start to head out of the bedroom door.
After nearly twenty minutes of sobbing on top of Tasha, I lie down on the bed again, feeling dreary again. Tasha had left to go downstairs to talk to Davenport an hour ago and I haven't seen Adam, Bree or Leo since I had kicked them out. Soon Tasha came walking back into the room and sat down on the bed beside me. Since I don't feel like talking or crying anymore, I turn on my side, my back now facing Tasha.
"Hey sweetie" she tells me stroking my hair, "How's your arm?" I look down at my injured arm that had been bandaged up by Mr. Davenport earlier.
"It's ok." I mumble.
"That's good. Well, dinner's ready." I nod, "I made your favorite; spaghetti with meatballs." I nod again. She sighs, "You want to come down and eat with us?" I shake my head. She sighs again, "Alright sweetie. I'll have Donald bring you up a plate after he's done eating ok?" She gets up and starts to walk out of the bedroom, "If you need anything, just yell ok?" I nod again.
I end up dozing off and when I wake up, I see Davenport sitting on the bed, with a plate of spaghetti in his hands.
"Hey" he says to me, "I was just about to wake you up." I slowly sit up against the wall. "I brought you dinner." He tries to hand me the plate, but I don't grab for it. I'm not hungry. "C'mon Chase its spaghetti. You love spaghetti."
"I'm not hungry" I tell him, still staring at the wall behind him. He picks up some spaghetti with a fork and shoves the fork in my face.
"It's really good…" I swat the fork away. "Alright fine. I won't force you to eat it." He places the plate down on the table next to the bed, "I'll just leave it right here if you change your mind. How's your wrist?"
"Ok I guess."
"That's good."He takes a deep breath and places a hand on my shoulder, "Chase?"
"Hmm?" I still don't look at him.
"I just….well I…" There was a moment of silence for about two minutes, "...well I'm just extremely proud of you." Oh no. Don't make me start crying again, "I know it must've been hard for you to…..you know, deal with this. I'm sorry I grounded you the night you came home late, and I'm sorry I yelled at you for your grades slipping and-" This was the worst apology ever.
"You didn't know."
"Yeah I know I didn't, but maybe if I would've calmed down and just tried talking to you..." He didn't finish his sentence. "Do you want to tell me anything else?" I shake my head.
"No. I'm kind of tired."
"Ok, well I guess I should let you sleep then" He pats my leg and stands up from the bed. I lied. I wasn't tired. I just wanted to get out of this awkward conversation. "I'm going to head back downstairs. If you need anything, just yell. We're all here for you." I nod as he shuts the door behind him. I grab the plate of spaghetti and start to pick with it. I guess I'm a little hungry. After taking a couple of small bits of spaghetti, I put the plate back on the table and lie back down. I know he's just trying to help me feel better, but I already feel awkward as it is. I don't need him to make it worse. He's already made it worse by calling me a liar earlier. I yawn as my eyes begin to droop. I guess I am a little sleepy. In a minute I fall fast asleep.
So that was in total of about 3,535 words I think, so this was a really long chapter. What'd you guys think? Yay Chase FINALLY told someone! YES! Are you guys happy that he finally told? I am!
Also, before you leave can you PLEASE go check out my newest story "Blurred Vision"? It hasn't had much feedback and I want some feedback on it. Thanks. You guys are the best. Also "Out of This World" was updated yesterday so feel free to check that out too. Make sure to leave a review for me and see you next chapter!
