Sometimes She Just Wants to be Loved

Chapter 12

Sakura's POV

Kakashi and I arrived in Suna Wednesday; Gaara came to meet us and walked us to the Kazekage tower himself. We're staying in a suite there, well we both actually have our own suites, but I spend almost all my time off in Kakashi's. I've slept in there ever night since we got here, which I know is only two nights, but I don't think I can sleep without Kakashi.

It's Friday already, I worked at Suna's hospital for the last few days, I didn't realize they needed as much help as they actually do. Gaara says it's because they sent all there best medics out on important missions where it's likely people will get hurt.

Right now, I'm sitting on top of the Kazekage tower, just looking out over Suna. It's a nice view from here, and I really am enjoying the pleasant warmth from the sun. Kakashi's in a meeting with Gaara right now, I don't know what about, but I'll ask him later I guess. It's so pretty here; I almost wish I could stay for longer then a week. But this is my escape, my excuse so I don't have to attend Ino's wedding tomorrow.

I can't believe she's really getting married tomorrow, I asked her so many times, and she always said no. We were together for three years, and she wouldn't marry me, she wouldn't commit the rest of her life to be with me. But after a month or so with this red head she's perfectly happy with spending the rest of her life with someone she can't possibly know as well as she knew me. I'm starting to think Kakashi may be right, Ino's being spiteful, and she's going to end up hurting her soon to be wife in the process.

Sometimes I wonder, what would have happened if Ino hadn't walked in when she did? What if she had never found out it happened, would it have ended anyways? Or would we still be fighting in our apartment? I sigh I feel like I'm breaking my own heart thinking about her and her wedding. But I want to move on; I want to think back on the memories without feeling so hurt.

I still love Ino, I still miss her, but even if she came back today and begged me to take her back, I'd say no. I've changed since we broke up, I'm starting to find myself without her, and I like the me I'm finding. It doesn't change the fact that I love her, but I know now that I can live with out her, I can still be happy. She was my first love, besides Sasuke, but he never liked me back so I don't count it.

If I saw her on the street I'd tell her that I miss her, I'd tell her that me and Kakashi aren't really together, then I'd tell her I'm happy for her. I'm happy for her if she's happy, and if she's not happy then I hope one day she will be. I'd tell her I miss her smile, and I miss her laugh, I miss her friendship. I'd ask her if could be friends again, not even best friends, just friends.

I feel like while I was with Ino, I let things that really mattered slip by. I let my friendship with many people slid away until it was barley there. I let myself become blind to everything going on outside of me and Ino. Maybe then I would have seen her changing. I might have noticed Naruto's pain when he finally found out the fourth Hokage was his dad. Maybe I would have realized how much I needed a best friend who wasn't my lover, someone to talk to about all the things happening between us.

I know that our break up wasn't my entire fault, and that Ino had a part in it. I think that I would have left anyways even if Ino hadn't caught Sai and me. There wasn't much more I could take, and the second I kissed Sai, I think I knew somewhere inside me it was over. I just wish I had admitted it to myself so much.

I'm finally ready to let me and Ino's chapter in my book end, I'm ready to start the next part of my life. Maybe in this chapter I'll find my self and maybe I'll find my love.

And maybe I've already found him.


Kakashi's POV

My meeting with Gaara's finally over, if you can even really call it a meeting. I just gave him a few scrolls and answered any questions he had about them. Hardly a difficult mission to complete, I wonder why he even wants those scrolls.

Now I'm wondering where Sakura is, I check my room, then hers, but she's not in either of them. A window in my room is open, and as I go to shut it, I can feel her chakra on the roof. I push some chakra into my feet and walk up to join her.

When I get to a place where I can see her, I stop. She's standing, her back facing my, he short hair blowing in wind. The suns shining down on her and she's smiling, she pulls something out of her pocket and looks at it. I think it's a letter, but I'm not sure. She sets it on the ground in front of her and uses a fire jutsu to set it on fire. I almost walk over to her, I'm not sure if I should stop her or not, so I let her go on. She's so in her own little world that she doesn't notice me.

When it's done burning she watches as the ashes drift away. I know this picture is going to be in my mind for the rest of my life, she looks so beautiful and perfect standing there. I just want to go over and wrap my arms around her. I swear I hear her murmur "I'm sorry, but I have to let go. There's someone waiting for me, and he's becoming my everything, slowly but surely. This is how it's supposed to be, I'm sorry Ino, but we never were meant to last."

I'm not sure what to do, I want to ask her to repeat herself, but I don't want to tell her I heard. I wait a few minutes, I watch her watch the village below, and it takes my breath away.

I walk up behind her slowly; I'm not surprised she doesn't notice me. I wrap my arms around her waist and put my head on her shoulder, and whisper hey. She startles a little, then smiles over at me as she lays her arms over mine and leans back into my embrace, and whispers hey back.

We stand here in silence for what feels like a perfect eternity. Both of us lost in thought, and just a little lost in each other. I think about how we got here, and how far we've come from a few months ago. I think about the rest of my life, and how I'm going to spend it, and if I want to spend it with someone. I know I do, and I wonder when I'll find them.

That is if I haven't already.

I hope you love this chapter as much as I do! This is defiantly my new favorite chapter, I loved writing it! I've been listening to this song called storybook endings that I found on youtube and it really inspired me to write this chapter. (.com/watch?v=0c6OaUGniMc) Please review and tell me what you thought of this chapter, even if it's the only review you post, please =]

-Gaarabear