Chapter 12 The Journal of Past Truth EPOV:
I finished writing the journal for Bella about my previous life and gave it to her last night. There are a lot of things in it that I am not proud of. I wonder if I should have left a few things out. But I swore I would be honest with her and that's what I'm going to do.
We had a meeting with the dogs this morning and Sam actually thanked me. The elders help him thew the first phase and this time around instead of going insane he new what was happening to him.
I told them to expect Paul next then Jared right afterward. He said he has not imprinted on Emily yet and is using this time to gently let Leah down. Maybe she wont be as biter this time around. He promised to be careful when he does get around Emily.
I honestly hope it works out better for him this time around. Sam was a good leader even if he did go nuts about my daughter. I still have not mentioned Jacob becoming a wolf to Billy Black. We should have about Ten months before that happens.
Monday Bella was still reading my journal. She had brought it to school with her. I did not wont to bother her until she was finished with it, I'm sure she will have a lot of question's.
I was right Friday after school Bella told me she was spending the night at my house and she wonted to talk.
I hoped she didn't think to badly over what I had done back then, after all It never actually happened to her.
"Edward you say a vampire used his time travel ability on you and all this happened to us in that life?" She looked oddly composed. "Yes and yes again, I know I made a lot of mistakes."
"You did not rebel against Carlisle in this life and hunt humans?" she asked "No I didn't, I held a lot of guilt from those days and used my second chance to right the wrong I felt I had done."
"You saved Rose form those men?" she asked "Yes I prevented that but she still became one of us. The vampire that sent me back told me some things are Fate and can not be changed. I believe the van accident was one of those things as-well, You was meant to find out about me then."
"Why did you save me from the van in that life then ignore me for week's?" She asked "I ignored you because at the time I didn't know why I saved you, I was blinded by your effect on me and didn't understand it until later when I realized I was in love with you." She smiled and I smiled back.
"So those men in port angles are the reason you got upset about me going dress shopping with Angela?" She stated.
"Yes I was worried, I followed you to make sure you didn't run into them." She smiled again.
"Tomorrow is the baseball game?" She asked "No we will be staying here together tomorrow I don't wont you anywhere nearJames or Victoria."
"Okay I think that is a good ideal I really don't wont Charlie hating you. Which reminds me YOU WILL NOT LEAVE ME! for my on good and YOU WILL NOT GO TO ITALY EVER!" She stated boldly with a severe look in her eyes.
I swooped her up in my arms "Bella I promise I will never leave you, I would never put us threw that awful pain, I have learned from my mistakes I swear to you." I kissed her with the promise. "Good." She murmurd against my lips.
"Jacob Black, I feel bad for using him to lessen the pain I felt in my heart. I think I should befriend him however or better yet we both should together. He seems to be an important part of our lives. But I do not wont him to fall in love with me."
I grimaced at that. "I don't know Bella he will become a werewolf at some point and they are dangerous."
"That is true but Edward as the true Alpha we need to be on at least friendly terms with him besides he is a childhood friend and Billy is Charlie's best friend." She stated.
"Yes you are right but after he starts phasing into a wolf, will you agree to only see him when I am present at least for a few months until he can control it?" She smiled.
"Actually I was thinking him and billy could come the Charlie's house once a month or so for super and a ball game. While we are both there of course, when he see's us together there will be no room to doubt I am yours." She said while reaching up to me and biting my lower lip.
"I knew there was a reason I loved you." I said as she pretended to pout which caused me to suck her bottom lip in return.
"I don't wont Jacob Black anywhere near our baby girl until she's at least eighteen." She blurted out. "You still wont to have our child after reading about all the pain it caused you you?" I asked.
"I have never even thought about having kids to tell you the truth. But this is our one and only chance before you change me after graduation. I have thought about it and there's nothing I wont more then to have your child Edward, I love you and wont to spend forever with you. How could we not take the opportunity while we have the chance?" She asked vigorously.
"I love you and it would give me great pleasure to to have a child with you Isabella, knowing what we know now perhaps the delivery will not be quite as bad for you." I kissed her softly and got down one one knee. Her heart sped up and her breathing became erratic.
"Isabella Marie Swan I promise to love and charish you for all eternity will you marry me?" I waited for her. "Yes, Edward I will merry you.
You can take me to Las Vegas the day I turn eighteen if you wont, I love you with all my heart." I slid my mothers, now Bella's, engagement ring on her finger.
Alice screamed in the background somewhere, Bella laughed, tears flowing down her cheeks. "You can give us a full blown over the top wedding after I graduate Alice." Alice squealed in joy.
"Really Bella you will merry me on your birthday? You fought me so hard in my last life?" She smiled "Your not the only one that can learn from past mistakes Edward. Even if I didn't actually make them yet.
"We have to wait to tell Charlie after my birthday tho, I'll wear my ring on a chain around my neck until then. After that I'll be eighteen and I can do whatever I wont."
"Five month's and you will be Mrs Bella Cullen I like the sound of that." I couldn't help the grin on my face. "Your going to make me wait til our wedding night aren't you Edward?" She knows me so well. "Yes but that doesn't mean we cant practice until then, I don't seem to recall you complaining about last night." I said smugly which earned me a pillow to the head.
I cant believe she agreed to marry me so easy I thought I would have to beg her like last time. A satisfied Bella is so much easier to deal with.
