Piper rushed out of Alex penthouse faster than light. She felt like her heart has just been taken off of her chest and trampled multiple times. Even tho she didn't turn around to look at her, she could feel Alex's eyes on her while she was walking away.

So here Piper is, inside of her car. Her eyes are fixed at a random point in front of her, tears falling down always more, her breath heavier from crying and Polly beside her asking for the thousandth time what's wrong.

"Piper!" Polly exclaims shaking the blonde's arm. "Piper, fuck, look at me and tell me what the hell happened!" She barely screams.

Piper takes a deep breath, dries her tears with her hand and slowly turns around to face her friend. As soon as she meets her eyes, she can't help but rush into her arms and burst into tears once again. She cries for two full minutes, letting Polly comfort her, then she calms down a little and decides to speak. "You were right." She says breaking the hug, her gaze at her hands.

"Right about what?" Polly asks, starting to get always more nervous...she's never seen Piper this messed up.

"About Alex." Her voice is a whisper. "It's been a while since I noticed something was strange, but I thought it was just something too personal." She stops for a minute, swallows her sadness and then continues. "I overheard her and Nicky talking about the fact that she desperately needed to tell me something, or it would have been worse. I got worried so I asked her...she didn't want to tell me at first so I insisted, until she broke out..."

"And?" Polly asks impatiently.

Piper takes another deep breath and gazes up at her best friend. "She was a drug dealer." She admits without any hesitation, her eyes fixed into the woman's in in front of her.

Polly's eyes almost pop out. "What...I was kidding earlier in the elevator...wh...how..." She really doesn't know what to say.

"She's been to prison.." Piper eyes are fixed once again at a random point behind her friend, her mind coming always more to reality of the informations she's just got to know.

Polly now really doesn't know what to answer. "I...I'm sorry Pipe...I...I've seen how much you loved her..."

At this Piper broke down newly. Polly rocked her for some other minutes, until the blonde released herself from their hug. "You know, Pol...it's not even about drugs or prison that upsets me this much...it's the fact that she kept it from me so easily...I mean I thought I knew her.."

"We never really know people, Piper." Polly says softly, reaching for the her bestie's hand.

"But I thought with her it was different." Piper says, looking up at Polly. "After Larry, she's been what made me believe in love again. Immediately I've felt this...weird but wonderful connection that I've never had with anybody else." She stops for a seond, her mind travels to all the emotions Alex has made her feel and continues softly. "I thought I was in love...I was in love...and I still am and...she is the love of my life.." After finishing her sentace she can feel as her breath is missing, the void inside of her is too big.

"Okay Piper, you need to rest. Give me the keys, I'll drive." Polly says , takes the keys, exchanges her seat with Piper's and drives them home.


Meanwhile Alex is standing on her doorway, her eyes, blurred from the tears, are glued to where Piper has disappeared into. She doesn't know how much time she's stayed like this, she wants to run after her but at the same time doesn't because...what would happen then? Why didn't she accept her for who she is? Her head hurts and she can swear her heart stopped beating.

"Alex.." Nicky whispers and touches the brunette's shoulder, causing her to slowly turn around. "I'm really sorry...I didn't think she was listening.."

"It's okay Nicky, it wasn't your fault but just mine." Alex says finally moving form the doorway. "Now please do me a favour, tell everyone that the party's over...I want all of them out as soon as possible." She finishes and rushes to her bedroom.

Nicky does what she's been told and, when everybody is gone, she reaches for her best friend's room. She finds the door closed, so she knocks. Soon she hears the brunette telling her to come in. When she enters she finds Alex sat on her bed, her hands in her hair, giving her her back.

"Hey Vause...if I can do something..."

"No thank you Nicky...I just wanna stay alone now." They both knew that during situations like these, Alex has always wanted to be leaft alone. She needed it to cool off, it is how she's been since the day she was born and the wild haired woman knew it as nobody else. Alex has never liked to show off her emotions, specially the deepest ones.

"Okay." Nicky says and before she closes the door, she turns around and looks at her best friend one last time. "But call me if you need company and Alex..." The brunette finally looks into her eyes hearing her name. "Don't do anything stupid."

Alex nods and watches the wild haired woman closing the door behind her, leaving her alone. When she hears her main door being closed as well, she comes out of her bedroom and reaches for her living room. She looks around her house...it is so empty. She should be celebrating the end of this party with Piper... hugging her, kissing her, cuddling with her, making love to her but here she is completely alone and blue.

Before she can realize it, her fist is punching the wall, until she feels her knuckles bleeding. She stops and her knees completely yield. She cries, she cries so hard as she's never done before, not even when she knew she would have had to go o prison for four years of her life. She promised herself that she would have never let someone mean so much to her, because at the end she was right...love is pain.

She feels as she is about to explode, she needs distraction and so she picks her phone up and does what she does everytime she isn't alright.

After two rings her mom picks up. "Hey baby! What's up?"

Her mom's voice has always been the only sound that could calm her. "Mom.."

Alex tries her best to not cry, but it is stronger than her and Diane immediately notices. "Alex...are you crying? What happened baby?"

"I told her." The brunette says without hesitation and explains everything to her mother.

"Sweetheart, I am really sorry and it hurts me to tell you this but...I told you it was better if she knew it from the beginning." She hears Alex sighs, the brunette knows her mom is right. "But hey, nothing is lost forever. It's human to make mistakes...specially in love. Try to talk to her."

"She won't listen." She stops, feeling more tears forming. She takes a deep breath and then continues. "I've lost her mom...I've lost the love of my life..." Her voice breaks at the end, which for sure her mom noticed.

For Diane it hurts like hell to hear her daughter like this, it is very rare that she lets something touch her, but she knew how important Piper was. "Alex don't say this. I've seen the way she looks at you, she loves you so much and so do you. I'm sure if you explain to her why you've hidden this from her she'll come around."

"No way mom. I really thought she could accept me for who I am.." Delusion can be heard in her tone.

"Baby, she will. But it's normal at first to have this reaction...lies can kill." She hears her daughter not replying, so she continues. "Alex, don't let her go. She made you happy as I've never seen anybody doing. You are enough to be loved, sweetheart."

Alex alludes a small smile, her mom is really the best. "Thank you mom, I really needed to hear you. Now I'll go drink something and maybe sleep a bit. Goodnight."

"Goodnight sweetheart, don't get too drunk and think about what I've told you. You sure you don't me to come over?"

"I will mom and no, don't worry. I'll be fine.."

"Fine baby, hear from you soon then. Love you."

"Love you too mom." And with that she hungs the phone and throws it on her sofa. Soon a horrible pain reaches her. She looks at her hand, blood still comes out and now it is starting to burn. She reaches for her bathroom and takes out some cotton, antiseptic and a bandage. As soon as the fluid gets in touch with her skin, the stinging gets worse, but she doesn't really care. It will never hurt more than her heart does. Very quickly she winds the bandage around her hand at the best she can and returnes to her living room. She takes some scotch in her fridge and pours herself a glass. She sits on her sofa and takes a sip of it, she can feel the alcohol going down in her body and it honestly feels so good. Her eyes close for a minute, savoring the taste of her drink.

She calms down a little, but her mind can't not think about the blue-eyed blonde that stole her heart. As much as her pride told her not to, she can't let Piper go because after all, since she's in her life her behavior toward love has completely changed. Normally she would have never run after a girl, but Piper owns her heart and soul. She takes her phone and decides to send her a message.

Pipes, I know you're angry, you have all the right to be, but please give me the chance to talk to you...in person. I cannot loose you, you mean too much.

She sends it without even reding it a second time, there has never been the need to, specially with her, but she's not satisfied. Without thinking too much she types the last five words and sends them as well.

I really do love you.


Piper is now at home alone because, even tho Polly suggested for company, she really needed to stay only with herself. It has been like that since she was a little kid or a teenager... when something really hurts her, she has to run away somewhere alone to find peace again.

But this time peace is hard to find, she already misses Alex so much. She can't believe the person she learned to trust more in the less time possible, didn't trust her. She feels completely lost, she feels as a part of her, the biggest part of her, is missing. She's angry, but at the same time half of herself tells her to forgive Alex, that after all she can't be as everybody else.

Suddenly a ring on her phone distracts her from all the thoughts. She dries the tears still on her face so she can be able to see properly again. As soon as she sees the name, her heart skips a beat. She slowly opens the messages and reads them. When she's done she can't help, but cry more...even tho if by now she doesn't have any more tears in her body.

She stares at the last message for a little too long, those five words break and heal her heart at the same time. Now she needs to talk to me in person? She had a full month to tell me the truth, but maybe she just didn't care enough. But fuck, she's shown me the deepest and purest love, how can she not care?! Piper thinks and before thinking properly, out of anger and confusion, she types:

Yeah well I don't.

It doesn't take much for a reply from the brunette.

Don't lie to yourself, kid.

"Kid"...she can melt when Alex calls her like that. Jesus, this girl is really the death for her.

She decides to turn off her phone, take a quick shower and jump in bed...hopefull that sleep would help her feel a little bit better.