Okay so this chapter is very long, I recommend getting comfortable with a cup of tea. There is one more chapter to come after this and that will be the end of the series, however I'm working on something that goes along with the series but it's a bit more adult so only read it if you're 18+, I hope you enjoy this as I've worked really hard on it!

Jana's POV

I haven't seen Carys in a few months now. We've called each other almost everyday and we text most of the time but I've been really busy with work, both at Segolia and the Kafe. She works with Maddy and Rhydian at Segolia Newcastle, Sweeney jumped at the chance to have her on her team.

It's been nice to be back in the city though, me and Katrina have been getting a lot closer. TJ and Selena come round all the time and we just sit around watching films and stuff.

Matei and Emilia moved to London with their dad, Emilia's getting some really good specialist treatment at Segolia, and they're both getting along with Emilia's dad, he's called Jonathon. I've been up to see them a few times and she's looking quite well. She lost her hair at the start of her treatment but it's started to grow back now.

I really miss Carys, it's different to last time we were apart. I think back then I was just trying to get away from how strongly I felt for her but now all I want to do is tell her how much I love her everyday. I want to be with her everyday. We've been talking about what to do for Christmas, I can't get away from work to go and stay with her so she's coming to stay with me while Katrina's back home with her family, she's staying until Christmas Day and getting the train back for midday. It would be her first Christmas with her family but we've made a plan to alternate where we go each year, next year we'll go to hers for the holidays. Matei and Emilia are also coming to stay with us which is super exciting, but they're not coming until tomorrow so I'll get to spend some alone time with Carys.

I've decorated the whole flat all red and white for Christmas and I've gone out and bought a huge real tree that almost touches the ceiling. We're going to decorate it together.

The door knocks and my heart skips a beat, I can't wait to see her. I sprint downstairs to the closed Kafe to let her in. I swing the door open and feel breathless when I look at her. She instantly rushes in to kiss and hug me. I've missed this so much.

"Oh my God," She laughs as we pull apart, "I didn't realise just how much I needed that."

"Come on," I take her hand, "You're gonna love the flat." I help her carry her luggage upstairs and set it all down in my room.

"Holy moly, this is insane Jana!"

"Christmas is by far my favourite human holiday, in the wild we just celebrate the new year and it's hardly a party. So now that I have a flat I wanted to go all out. Do you like it?"

"I love it, I thought my house looked like Santa's Grotto but this is like the whole damn North Pole."

"Yeah, maybe I did go a little bit overboard." We laugh. "Can we get Chinese?"

We sit around all evening picking at our food and watching Christmas films. We decorate the tree, I lift Carys up to put the star on the top. I made sure to hang mistletoe in pretty much all the door ways so we end up kissing like every 10 minutes.

We go to bed pretty early, she's had a long journey here.

"So how is everything back home? I haven't heard from the others much."

"It's been okay, the first couple of weeks were harder than I anticipated, not for me particularly, mostly for Rhydian. But he's a lot better now, he goes to his counsellor and we go to work and it's like he's almost back to normal. Maddy and him have both been staying with us at home, they've properly moved out of their flat now."

"Oh right, are they planning on getting a new place?"

"I don't think so, not for a while anyway. They've been arguing a bit, well most days actually. Rhydian's always waking me up in the night so we can go for a run to blow off some steam. I think Maddy's just a little bit annoyed to be in a house full of people, she likes her space. It's not proper arguing, it's just little tiffs. I'm sure it's just because everything is so cramped in the house."

"They'll be okay, it's them. They could never really fall apart. Like us." I smile at her and she kisses me. "What about Bryn? How's human life treating him these days?"

"I think he loves it, he doesn't want to admit it though. He's made two friends and he goes round their houses all the time, he told me he wants them to come over to our house but he's worried someone will let the secret slip."

"Why doesn't he just tell them?"

"He's going to, but not yet, he wants to form a strong friendship first."

"That's fair."

"What about your friends? How is everyone here?"

"Good, TJ and Selina have finally admitted that they love each other and they're dating now, it's kind of incredible how well things are going here, Imara's not on my case all the time, Dr. Whitewood and Jeffries are now on the Board of Administrators for Segolia, they're the first humans ever to be on the board. They're kind of like ambassadors for humans, it's pretty cool. Have Matei and Emilia stayed in touch with you still?"

"Yeah a little bit, Emilia sends me photos of the progress of her hair growing back all the time. Matei sometimes calls me if he's getting a bit overwhelmed just talk things through."

"Yeah me too." That was a lie, he hasn't really spoken to me that much. I have no idea why I said that but I just keep talking. "I went up to see them, Emilia's getting used to her prosthetic, she's like a pro with it now. I did catch her in a weak moment though, sometimes when she wears the fake leg for too long she starts to blister, she'd been in pain all day and she hid it from me because she didn't want to ruin my trip, I went up to her room one evening to say goodnight and her dad and Matei were both in there trying to get her to stop crying and trying to sooth the pain, she got a bit hysterical when she spotted me. It was hard to see."

"It's so weird seeing someone you see as strong break down, but at the same time is strangely reassuring, like, it makes you know that not everybody is perfect and we all have off days."

"How do you do that?"

"What?"

"You make light of everything, you help me see the bright side to every little thing."

"I guess I'm just perfect." She laughs, then we kiss more, and more and then, you know.

I have the most beautiful dream that me and Carys are married and all grown up, we have little kids running around our country house and get to run wild through the woods at full moon, it's all so perfect, and I just know it's going to be real someday.

Carys' POV

Spending yesterday with Jana was so perfect, she's turned her flat into a winter wonderland and wakes me up with breakfast and a hot chocolate, my favourite. Matei and Emilia are coming tonight, Emilia's been texting me non-stop about how excited she is, we've become pretty close since I left the hospital. Same with Matei, he calls me for advice and comforting words, which I guess I've gotten pretty good at now. From my point of view it seems like he's finding Emilia's cancer more difficult than she is, but after what Jana told me I'm guessing it's just as hard for her. Jana and I spend most of the day in bed and few hours on the couch watching classic Christmas movies, later we go downstairs to the Kafe and start setting up a little party for the four of us. The Kafe's been closed over Christmas break because Katrina's back in Stoneybridge with her family. We hang tinsel layered with fairy lights absolutely everywhere. I bought a load of presents for everyone so while Jana's not looking I put everything into stockings and hide them under the counter for later. Jana's bought another Christmas tree so we decorate that too, everything looks amazing. We're probably a little bit too proud of ourselves.

"Hello?" We smell Matei and Emilia.

"Merry Christmas!" They come inside with presents in their hands and big smiles on their faces, it's really good to see them they basically drop the presents and run over to hug us, well Matei runs, Emilia limps. Something kind of weird happens, after we all hug, Matei kind of hangs on to me for a little bit longer. He sort of shakes it off and smiles.

"Was the journey okay?" Jana asks as we usher them around the table.

"Yeah, dad dropped us off just by the bridge, the stairs down here were a bit of a challenge but I made it in one piece." Emilia laughs. "Anyway, we got you these." She picks up the two presents wrapped in shiny red paper and hands them to us.

"Shall we save them for Christmas?" I ask Jana.

"No, you have to open them now so we can see your reaction!" Emilia's so excited.

Jana goes first, she tears through the paper so quickly it's probably a world record, they've given her a beautiful faux fur coat, it's not too bulky or posh, it's Jana's exact style.

"Oh my God, this is amazing!"

"We thought you could wear it out on your missions and stuff, to keep you warm." Matei says.

"Thank you guys so much, I love it!" She hugs them both.

Now it's my turn. I like to savour it when I open presents, I peel back the tape slowly trying to keep the wrapping paper nice but Jana gets a bit too excited and ends up helping me open it. Inside is a book, it's old and the cover is beautifully illustrated. It's Peter Pan. I almost start crying.

"I... I don't know what to say."

"Do you like it?" Emilia says. "Matei picked it out." I told Matei a few weeks ago that I used to have this book when I was younger, it was my favourite but I lost it when we moved to Newcastle.

"Did I get it right?" He asks, looking at me with his cub eyes.

"You got it perfect Matei, thank you so much." I tear up. I get up and give him a big tight hug. It's so thoughtful and sweet. I can't stop looking at it. I shake myself out of my trance and go behind the counter to get the stockings.

"I got you all these," I hand the stockings out to the three of them, "It's gonna be pretty hard to follow that but I did my best."

"These are so cute!" Emilia looks through hers. I didn't get them anything too special, just little cute knick-knacks that reminded me of them, but I did get them all these cute little wolf statues that look like them when they transform, I found them in a little boutique in the train station yesterday. I got them things like chocolate coins and candy canes, stuff that Rhiannon would put in my stocking.

I've been trying really hard to make this Christmas a good one, all the memories I have of Christmas have turned sour. My whole childhood was a lie, including every Christmas. I've been doing pretty well, it's the 23rd and it's been pretty good so far. Mum and dad have decided to make all these new traditions, it's was going to be our first Christmas with the whole real family, but I'm not there now, it's okay though, there's always next year.

"Damn," Jana looks at her phone, "It's Imara, I have to get to work." She starts to get ready to go.

"Really? Right now?"

"I'm sorry," She kisses my cheek, "I'll see you guys later." She puts on her new coat and rushes out the front door, she didn't even get to go through the whole stocking.

"Well that sucks." I was hoping Imara would at least give her a few days off, I guess she wouldn't have called her in if it wasn't really important.

"Don't worry, we can still have fun until she's home." Matei says.

"Actually I'm pretty tired, I think I'll go to bed."

"Sure, okay, I've set up Katrina's room for you, you don't mind sharing right?" I say as I help them carry their bags upstairs, Emilia has to take it pretty slow.

"That's fine, we've shared a million times before." She says breathlessly.

Matei helps her get the prosthetic off and helps her get into bed, it's cool to see that she's accepting his help. I leave the two of them alone for a while. After she's finally ready for bed, Matei joins me on the couch and turn the TV on. He seems pretty quiet.

"Are you okay?" He's not even looking at the TV he's just kind of staring down at the ground. "Matei?"

"Sorry, uh yeah I'm fine."

"Okay," I turn the TV off, "Talk to me, you haven't said a word since you sat down."

"No it's fine, just don't worry about me."

"Matei."

"It just gets hard around this time of year, especially now that Emilia's ill." He tears up a little bit. "I guess I'm... I'm scared, I don't know."

"Of losing her?" He nods, then suddenly he breaks down, trying to keep his whimper silent. "Look how far she's come, the doctors said the chemo is working."

"I know but it's in the back of mind all the time. And Emilia, she's been having panic attacks almost every night. I just don't know if I can keep going on like this, it's too much." He's a mess, I take his hand.

"It won't be this way forever, you'll both be fine. You just need to take care of yourself too." Suddenly he looks up at me with a strange expression on his face, like he's confused. Without warning he swoops in and kisses me. I'm so shocked that I don't really pull away, then eventually he does.

"I'm sorry, I'll just-" He gets up and walks away into Katrina's room, leaving me dazed, confused and riddled with guilt.

Jana's POV

Imara had me running around the city chasing some rouge Wolfblood, he has some kind of mental disorder and had become dangerous to the rest of us, I managed to catch him but it took a few hours. Everyone is already in bed by the time I get home. Carys has tidied up the whole flat, I tried to find my stocking but I think she's put that away too. When I go into my room Carys is already asleep. I really want to cuddle up to her but I know her too well, I can tell somethings upset her, she does this thing where she curls up her toes and grinds her teeth in her sleep, only when something's wrong though. I could wake her up and ask her, but I know she's still pretty tired, and tomorrow's Christmas Eve so we all need to be wide awake for the day of fun I have planned. Hopefully Imara won't call me into Segolia.

Emilia comes in to wake us up in the morning, I was hoping to wake everyone up to the smell of bacon but I guess I'm pretty exhausted. Instead Matei's cooking for all of us.

"Come on, it's Christmas Eve!" Emilia's really in the Christmas spirit today, I guess she's just really trying to stay on the positive side of things. She tries her best to drag us out of bed and we all go out into the kitchen. Matei serves us each a big plate of food for breakfast.

"So Jana, what's the plan for today?" Emilia asks.

"Well, I thought we could down to Winter Wonderland and ride the ferris wheel and the carousel and have hot chocolates and everything, and then maybe go to the cinema?"

"Oh cool, I've never been on any rides before." Emilia digs in.

"You up for it Carys?" I ask, she's away with the fairies.

"Huh? Oh right, yeah should be fun." She picks at her food, there's definitley something wrong.

"I don't wanna be a killjoy, but I feel kind of sick, is it cool if I just hang out here today?" Matei says, he seems a bit miserable too.

"Come on Matei, it's Christmas Eve!" Emilia begs.

"Nah, I really don't feel so good, sorry guys." He walks off back to Katrina's room, not before giving Carys a weird look, she doesn't notice it. Maybe they had a fight last night or something.

"I'm just gonna go outside for some air." Carys leaves her full plate of food behind.

"Do you want me to-" She shuts the door behind her, "Come with you?"

"Maybe she's got what Matei's got." Emilia says.

"I don't think either of them are ill, something's wrong. What was Matei like this morning?"

"I don't know, I guess he was kind of weird. But last night, I don't know."

"What?"

"Well after you left, he helped me get into bed and stuff and he started to cry and he said it was just because he missed our parents, or his dad and our mum, but I don't know maybe something more is going on."

"What about Carys? Did you notice her acting weird at all?"

"I went to bed pretty much straight after you left but I did hear her crying too. Do you think they maybe got into an argument or something?"

"I don't know, I feel like she would have told me by now. I'm actually quite worried, I'll go out and talk to her.

Carys' POV

I had a horrible sleep, I feel like I wasn't even asleep I was just sort of lying there, I heard Jana come in but I was too scared to talk to her. Why did I just let him kiss me?

I sit outside the Kafe with a hot coffee and call Rhydian.

"Hey, how you doing?" He asks.

"I did something stupid Rhydian, and I don't know what to do." I realise I'm crying and practically screaming down the phone.

"Calm down, take a deep breath," I follow his instructions, "What happened?"

"I kissed Matei." I bite my lips.

"As in, the guy who's supposedly in love with Jana? How? Explain this to me, because this isn't you."

"I know, I don't know how it happened. She's never going to want to see me ever again. Please help me fix this."

"Talk me through it, what were you and him doing before the kiss?" He says I can hear Maddy in the background.

"What kiss?" She says.

"She kissed Matei."

"Rhydian!" I yell.

"Who?" Maddy asks.

"Carys."

"Rhydian stop!"

"Sorry, tell me what happened."

"Well, he was pretty upset about Emilia and everything and he was crying and I was trying to make him feel better and then he just looked up and kissed me out of nowhere."

"So he kissed you? Carys, you didn't do anything wrong!" I don't say anything. "Did you pull away?" Silence, again. "Okay you have to tell her, otherwise you'll feel guilty forever."

"I can't, I don't want to lose her!"

"There's no other way out of this, okay there's three options, either you tell her and she breaks up with you, you keep it a secret and ruin the relationship by having secrets and she breaks up with you, or you tell her and she forgives you."

"Even if she did forgive me she wouldn't forgive Matei, she'd lose a friend. There's no good outcome to this Rhydian." I smell her coming. "I have to go." I hang up on him, dry my tears and watch her walk out of the front door.

"Are you going to tell me what's wrong?" She sits next to me.

"Nothings wrong, I'm just tired still." I drag it out even more.

"I know you Carys." I ignore her. "I know everything there is to know about you, I know you can't sleep without something in between your knees, I know your favourite colour is green, I know that your favourite thing about me is that I always want to help people." She holds my hand. "So why won't you let me help you?"

"Honestly Jana, it's nothing, I'm fine. It's just from the long journey up here and the late nights and everything."

"You promise?"

"Promise." I kiss her in the most convincingly normal way I can.

"Who was that on the phone?"

"Just Rhydian and Maddy, they were just asking about you and the others, come on let's get ready to go out." I take her hand and we go back upstairs.

It takes us a while to walk to Winter Wonderland because Emilia is pretty slow, but we get there eventually and it's pretty busy, but not as busy as we thought it would be. There's no queue for the ferris wheel but the problem is there's only two seats on each carriage.

"I've been on it loads with TJ, you guys go ahead, I'll watch you." Jana says. So Emilia and I get on and start riding up to the top. I guess I've kept pretty quiet today, I don't want to let anything slip. I know Jana still doesn't believe that I'm fine, and Emilia's on to me too.

"How cool is this view?" She says.

"Yeah it's so cool." My tone is kind of sarcastic. "Sorry."

"What's up with you and Matei?" How could she possibly know that it's to do with him?

"What do you mean?" I play it cool.

"There was some obvious tension between you today, and I heard you last night." She heard me crying into my pillow, I was trying to be as discreet as possible. "Don't be embarrassed, he cried too. Did you guys have a fight?"

"No, I'm fine, it's nothing to do with him. I was just exhausted and emotional."

"I may be dying but I'm not stupid." It feels like I've been punched in the chest. She realises what she's said.

"You're dying?" Everything slows down.

"We're not talking about me."

"Does Matei know?"

"Carys-"

"You have to tell him."

"I will. Just not yet."

"Today," I take her hand, "You'll feel better once you tell him."

"Fine," She sighs, "And you have to tell me what's bugging you."

"I can't, I-" She's giving me this look, and when I look back at her I know I can trust her but this will really upset her, I don't think she needs that right now.

"Just forget about me for a second, forget what's going on with me and think about yourself, I can tell you need to get this weight off your shoulders."

"You're gonna be mad at me."

"Maybe, but we're friends. Don't forget that. I'm her for-"

"I kissed Matei! Well actually he kissed me but I didn't pull away as soon as it happened and I should have but he was so upset and I knew it was making him feel better and I just wanted to help him!"

"How could you do that to Jana?" She's shocked, it's definitley not what she was expecting to hear.

"I didn't mean to, I should have stopped him as soon as it happened, God I'm so stupid. Do you hate me?"

"No, no of course I don't hate you. I mean it's a little bit weird, but I understand why you didn't stop straight away. You have to tell Jana."

"I can't, she'll hate me."

"She won't, she loves you, and it's pretty clear you love her or you wouldn't be so stressed about this."

"I just don't think I'm brave enough." Suddenly the ferris wheel comes to a halt, and not just a gentle stop a harsh, screeching standstill. The carriage rocks, almost tipping us out, we can hear people screaming below us. We gently lean forward to look down to the carriages below us, there's a young girl, about Emilia's age, dangling from a beam a few carriages below us. Without a second of thought I swing myself out of the carriage and start climbing down to help her. People are screaming at me and I can hear a few people crying, for a split second I feel scared but then I look down at Jana, she's not screaming or crying, she's smiling, like she impressed and then I get back into it. Jumping from beam to beam until I reach the girl. She's terrified and her hands are slipping.

"Don't be scared, you're going to be fine." I swing beneath her and push her up on to the beam so she can stabilise herself then I climb back up. She's standing there shaking hugging a pole, crying her eyes out. "We have to get you up there, I point to her carriage.

"I can't!"

"Is that your mum?" We look up to a woman who seems even more terrified than the girl. She nods. "She needs you, look at her." She takes a few deep breaths and takes my hand.

"Okay, I'm ready." I lift her up she can grab the safety bar on the carriage and step up pushing her over it, her mother pulls her up and she's back safely in her seat. The crowd beneath us starts cheering and clapping. I climb quickly back up to Emilia who has a smug look on her face.

After a few minutes the ferris wheel starts turning again and the crying from below us stops and the passengers are sighing with relief as they step off. When it's my turn to get off, the crowd are still gathered and they applaud for me, like I'm some kind of hero. The young girl and her mother both hug and thank me, still shaking a little bit. Jana comes over to us.

"That was amazing!" She squeals, hugging me.

"I just did what I could."

"Still think you're not brave?" Emilia says, still with her smug smirk on.

Jana's POV

Emilia decides to go home to Matei claiming she's 'shaken' but we both know that this kind of stuff doesn't scare her. So Carys and I wonder around the city a little bit. She still seems really down.

"What time is your train tomorrow?"

"Eleven." She's acting so cold towards me, maybe it's not to do with Matei, maybe I did something wrong.

"Okay," I stop in the middle of the path, "This has to stop. I know something's bugging you. You're not just tired." She doesn't say anything. "Have I done something? Or said something? You've been weird with me all day."

"I'm fine." She keeps walking, I practically have to yank her back to get her to look at me.

"I know you're lying, instincts."

"Okay, okay fine yeah I'm upset, but I don't want to talk about it right now." She's shouting at me. "Let's just go back to the flat." She walks off again. In fact she storms off, I follow a few feet behind her, giving her some space.

Now I'm kind of nervous, what could possibly be upsetting this much that she can't talk to me about it? When we get back she goes straight to my room, ignoring Matei and Emilia's greetings and slamming the door behind her.

"Did you guys have an argument?" Emilia asks, Matei stares at the TV, still acting weird.

"What's going on Matei? I just want the truth and she's not giving it to me."

"What makes you think I know?"

"You've both been weird all day, just tell me. I'm sick of the lies."

"It's not my place." He gets up and goes to Katrina's room.

"Matei!" I shout.

"Maybe, just give them some space." Emilia tries to calm me down.

"Do you know what's going on? Did he say something to her?"

"No, I don't know anything."

"You're lying, I can tell." Whenever she lies her bottom lip shakes.

"Well I don't want to be involved so, ask Carys." She turns away from me. I storm into my room to find her standing by the window, crying her eyes out.

"It's driving me mad. Just talk to me, you know first hand how important it is to-"

"Talk about my feelings, I know."

"So why can't you?"

"Because this time is different." She won't look at me.

"How?"

"Every other time something bad happens, it's not my fault, I always blame myself but it's never ever my fault, I never do anything wrong. Except this time I did!" For a second something crosses my mind, but it can't be that, it just can't be.

"What did you do?" The horrible thought pounds against my skull. I see the veins darken on Carys' face.

"You're going to hate me, you'll never want to see me again."

"Just tell me." The veins appear on me, my eyes turn yellow. I'm angry.

"I kissed Matei."

Carys' POV

I suck up the courage to look at her, I watch as her fists un-clench, her veins fade away and her yellow eyes turn back to blue and fill with tears. Before she was angry, now she's heartbroken. I did this.

"But it was an accident, he was upset and-"

"Go." She opens her bedroom door, trying to get me to leave.

"No wait, just listen-"

"Get out!" She screams at me. I walk past her trying one last time to explain myself, but she turns away with pure disgust in her eyes. She slams the door behind me and I hear her breakdown in tears. The pain is 10 times worse than I imagined. Matei and Emilia stand in the living room staring at me.

"I told you she'd hate me." I say to Emilia.

"She doesn't hate you!" Matei says.

"Shut up, this is your fault!" I scream at him, I vein up and start to feel everything building up inside of me, I turn into my wolf self and howl, I realise it's because I can't cry anymore, at least not as a human.

"You can't do that, you know it's illegal for us to transform in the city!" Matei says. I growl at him, backing him into the corner. I do the only thing I can think of, I run.

I take myself through the city, no one is out, I suppose they're all at home with their families for Christmas. I get to the park and I transform back to human form, collapsing against a tree. I've ruined everything, with one little 5 second mistake. My heart aches. I reach for my phone to call Rhydian, maybe he can help me.

"I did it, I told her. She kicked me out." My voice sounds as broken as I feel.

"Are you okay? Where are you?"

"I've messed everything up. I've hurt her in the worst way imaginable."

"Carys, Matei called me he feels awful about what he did, he said you'd bolted, I just need to know your safe." I can hear my family's voices in the background, Maddy too.

"I'm fine." I take a deep breath, I will not go to that dark place again.

"Go back, try to explain yourself."

"Are you sure? Won't I make things worse?"

"I hate to say it but I don't think it can get worse, but it can get better."

I do as he says and soon I'm standing outside the Kafe, I see Jana come to her bedroom window. She's still crying. She looks down at me and few minutes later she's at the front door.

"I'm letting you spend the night out in the cold, come in." We go inside and sit down in the Kafe.

"Can I explain?"

"Matei already did, said it was his fault."

"Well, yeah it kind of was. But I know I should have stopped it."

"Why didn't you?" She's crying.

"He was upset, for a second I thought that it would just make him feel better, but when I realised what we were doing we stopped. I'm so sorry, I love you."

"It should have never happened, why did you let it happen?" She's sort of shouting at me.

"It was a mistake! The worst mistake I've made in my life, I love you Jana, not him!"

"I know you love me, it makes it hurt even more," She gets up, "You can sleep on the couch." She walks off. I follow her upstairs and sit on the couch. Matei and Emilia emerge from Katrina's room with their bags.

"We're gonna go back home, thanks for having us round." Emilia says hugging Jana.

"You don't have to go, it's Christmas tomorrow." Jana says.

"I think you guys need space." Matei says. "We'll see you soon." Jana doesn't really acknowledge him, I guess she's angry at him too. Emilia hugs me before leaving, Matei just gives Jana and I a strange look as he shuts the door behind him. He feels guilty, but he's still upset about Emilia and everything, and he still doesn't know just how sick she is. She promised she'd tell him, but with everything that's happened I wonder if she will, it's only going to hurt him more. It seems all that ever happens in our lives revolves around pain and heartbreak.