Lily's Will

Disclaimer: I don't own Gossip Girl in anyway, and right now, I'm okay with that. Chuck and Blair are finally together!! Everyone rejoice!!

Chapter 12

"Since when are you and Nate together?"

Blair glanced at Chuck who was giving her a grilling look then she shifted her gaze nervously to Eric's.

"I thought you knew we worked out our differences. We made up a while ago. I guess with everything happening so fast, I forgot to tell you", said Blair glaring at him, almost pleadingly.

"Oh", said Eric, catching on quickly. "That's good then. I knew you couldn't stay angry with him for long."

"Of course she can't", said Nate from behind her.

Blair turned around and said, "You know I can't", while giving him a fake sweet smile.

He returned the smile and said, "How about dinner tomorrow night?"

"That sounds—"

"Weren't you leaving?", asked Chuck curtly.

"Yes I was", said Nate looking past her towards Chuck.

Chuck gave him a sardonic look then Nate's eyes settled back on Blair. "I'll call you later and we'll set something up."

"Okay", she said as she watched him walk out of the living room towards the exit.

"You can stop salivating over him, he's already gone", said Chuck dryly as he heard the door slam.

Blair turned and looked at him derisively, noticing he had vanished the pair of silky pink panties, then averted her eyes towards Eric. "So, why don't I help you get settled?"

"I only have a few things its ok—oh, yea I would love some help", said Eric reacting to Blair's pressing look.

Blair smiled then turned to Chuck who was looking at her suspiciously. "Can you stay with Will or do you need me to take him?"

Chuck shifted into a comfortable position then reached for the toddler who laughed as he lifted him up. "We're fine, go help Eric."

"Good", said Blair while grabbing a box and lifting it. Eric rose and gripped his suitcase and a duffle bag then started walking out the living room.

"Blair", said Chuck as she was following Eric out.

"Yes?", she asked as she turned around and glanced at him.

Chuck looked past her towards Eric.

"Uh, I will go on up ahead", he said, taking Chuck's hint.

Blair turned to him and said, "You can take the room that's upstairs, third door on the right."

"See you in a few", he said as he made his way out the room and up the stairs.

"What do you want?", asked Blair in a clipped tone when she refocused her eyes on Chuck.

"To let you know that I'll find out what you're hiding eventually."

Blair flushed and said, "I don't know what you're talking about."

Chuck put William down to play with one of his toys and said, "Two years may have passed but I still know every single thing about you. I don't think there's anything I've forgotten", he paused then said, "Let's see, I still remember how your eyes light up over the simplest things, like, a one of a kind headband."

Something warmed in her but she ignored it, "I haven't worn a headband since Constance", she said matter-of-factly.

He shrugged, not fazed, "Or how excited you get when you shop at Bendels."

"I banned the place. I haven't shopped there in years."

He looked fixedly towards her,"That's a shame. I remember how much you loved it when I got them to shut the whole store down, just for you. You were very grateful."

Blair looked away as memories from that day flashed in her mind. She had been so happy, like a kid in a candy store, and what they had done later, in the dressing room…she shook her head as she vanished the thoughts, "Was there a point to all this?", she asked, irritated that he had caused those memories to resurface.

His eyes narrowed and he said, "Yes, I know you're lying."

Her breath hitched but she lifted her chin in defiance, "I'm not lying."

He smirked, "Your eyes still do that thing where they don't match your mouth."

She huffed and said, "What would I have to lie about?"

"I don't know and that's what I'm going to find out", he said while gazing at her intently.

She stood transfixed looking into his eyes. He hadn't looked at her like that since, since…, she blinked rapidly breaking the spell. She couldn't let him get to her.

"I'll leave you to your delusions. I'm going up to help Eric", she said as she turned around and made her way to the stairs.

"Go ahead. Go and catch Eric up on whatever it is you're hiding. I'll be here with William when you're done", he called out after her.

Blair stopped momentarily but quickly continued on her way. She couldn't let him find out, not yet.

With every step she took, Chuck's words kept replaying themselves in her head. He didn't know her anymore, she thought frustratingly, he didn't. The Blair Waldorf he knew had died. She died the day her future went up in flames and he hadn't been there. She had needed him but of course, you could never rely on Chuck Bass, and it was best if she kept reminding herself of that.

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"Are you ready to fill me in on the twilight zone I just walked into?"

"Thank you for playing along", said Blair as she put the box down on the floor.

"Why are you and Nate pretending to be together?"

"I didn't want to at first but Nate convinced me."

"Why?"

"Because—because it would keep Chuck away from me."

Eric frowned at her. "That's the least way to keep Chuck away from you. He covets what he can't have, and you know that better than anyone. So tell me what's the real reason, or is that it? You want him to want you?"

Blair's eyes widened, "No, I don't want anything to do with Chuck Bass."

"Other than playing house, you mean?"

"Eric."

"What?"

"You're playing Mom to his Dad. Sooner or later, you're going to end up where all married couples do."

"In divorce court?", she asked sarcastically.

"No, in bed."

"No, I won't", she protested.

"Yes, you will. You should just tell him the truth. You shouldn't need anything to hide behind. These games will only hurt you in the end."

Blair smiled at him, "When did you become Serena?"

Eric smiled sadly as he looked down.

Blair's smile faded and she asked, "Did you find her?"

"No, I looked everywhere. I called Brown, but they said she took the semester off. I called all her friends, checked in all her old hide outs, and nothing."

"She'll turn up soon", said Blair trying to stay optimistic.

"I hope so, her and Will are the only family I've got left."

"That's not true, you have me", she said as she took his hand.

He smiled and gave her hand a small squeeze, "And Chuck."

"Yea", Blair reluctantly agreed. She didn't want to argue over him anymore. "And Chuck."

"And so do you, if you want."

Blair let go of his hand, so much for not arguing over Chuck, she thought. "I don't want him, not anymore. He's hurt me too many times. I ended things with him two years ago for good. I may have put it all aside for William's sake but that doesn't mean I will get involved with him in any... emotional way."

"Or physical?"

"Eric", complained Blair.

He let out a breath and said, "Fine, but you know he's going to find out."

She crossed her arms in front of her and said, "No he won't."

"Blair, it's Chuck we're talking about."

She sighed, she was getting a headache. She brought her hand up and rubbed her temples then said, "I'm going to tell him, just not right now."

"And what excuse are you going to give him for going along with this whole charade?, because let me tell you, you're going to an awful lot of trouble for someone you claim to care nothing about."

"I don't care about him", she denied. "And I'll just say it was to halt his advances."

"So there have been advances?"

"A few, you know what, Dr. Phil?", she said changing the subject, "Why don't we do what we said we were going to and unpack your things? Because I've had about all I can take of this therapy session."

Eric smiled at her as they started pulling things out his suitcase and into his new closet.

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What was she hiding?, thought Chuck as he handed a toy car to William. The moment when Nate had been there replayed itself in his mind, but his thoughts were interrupted.

"Play?" asked Will innocently looking up at Chuck.

Chuck smiled as he put a hand to his aching rib then placed himself carefully on the floor next to Will.

"Okay, let's play", he said as he grabbed a truck and started crashing it against his car.

William giggled and started banging his car onto the truck. "Go boom."

Chuck laughed, "Yes it goes boom", he said smiling at him. William put the car down then went and walked to the other side of the room to grab a stuffed animal.

Chuck tossed the cars into Will's toy box then his mind wandered back to his previous thoughts.

Blair had gotten so nervous when Eric had asked her…then Blair's answer…was that it?, he wondered. Did she not want him to know what the fight she had with Nathaniel was about? Or was it…were they even really together?, he asked himself.

If Nate and Blair had never gotten back together and this was all some game then…his face twisted in a scowl as he picked up his cell.

"It's Chuck Bass, I need you to follow Blair Waldorf, be her shadow. Pay particular attention to her relationship with Nathaniel Archibald, but be discreet, I need to know what she's hiding", he said then snapped his phone shut, not bothering to wait for a reply.

He would get to the bottom of this, he thought adamantly. I will find out what she's lying about.

Will walked up to him while rubbing his eyes, bringing him out of his contemplations.

"What is it Will, you tired?"

Will yawned and Chuck laughed, "I guess that's a yes, I'm pretty tired too", said Chuck as he lifted himself off the floor wincing, trying not to irritate his aching rib any more.

After he was up he reached for William and lifted him.

"Why don't we take a nap?", he said as he settled himself on the couch and laid Will against him.

Will cuddled into him and rested his head on his chest. Chuck smiled then closed his eyes, last night had been wild…he barely remembered it, except…He tried to swallow the bitter taste that had suddenly filled his senses and shut his mind off. Last night was in the past…and that's exactly where it was going to stay.

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"Chuck, Chuck", said Blair awaking him from his slumber.

Chuck opened his eyes, momentarily disoriented. "Yea", he grunted out.

"You should go to bed, it's late", she said as she reached for William who was fast asleep.

"Will you be joining me?"

"No", she said as she glared at him.

"Had to try my luck", he said sitting up and grimacing.

"Your luck ran out years ago", she said as she shifted William's sleeping form against her. "You better get some rest. I've told them we wouldn't be coming in tomorrow, but you need to take that time to heal yourself, you're of no use to me in the condition you're in."

"Oh, I think I could be of great use to you just the way I am, care to test that theory?"

"Goodnight", she snapped as she turned around and headed for the stairs.

"Are you sure?! I could just lay there and let you do all the work. I know how much you love to take control!", he shouted after her.

He smirked as he faintly heard her say, "Ugh", then lifted himself off the couch to make his way to his own bedroom.

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Blair was reading the newspaper after her breakfast, when Chuck walked into the dining room.

He looked around and said, "Where Eric and Will?"

"Eric left for school ten minutes ago and your maid is getting Will dressed."

Chuck pulled something out of his pocket and said, "As much as you want to deny it, I know you haven't changed and you still look exactly the same."

She frowned then stood and walked up to him. "What are you talking about?"

"I think this was taken at your mother's old country house, if I'm not mistaken", he said turning the picture around so she could see.

"Where in the world did you find that?", she asked disbelievingly as she leaned closer to him to glance at the picture. It was of them, when they had been around Will's age.

"I found it through some of my Dad's old things and would you look at that", he said as he turned his head and whispered in her ear, "You were wearing a one of a kind headband."

She pulled away quickly and snatched the picture out his hand.

"And I was conspiring even then", he said referring to his ever present smirk, and how it was plastered on his face in the picture.

"Yes and I was repulsed by it, as usual", she said as she noted the disgusted look she had on her face.

"Is that so?"

"Yes that's so. I had impeccable taste, even then."

He smirked and said, "I can't argue with that. You did have impeccable taste."

"Of course I did", she said in a self-satisfied tone.

"Which is exactly why I say, you and Nate don't belong together."

She glowered, "What are you talking about? What does one have to do with the other?"

"Because Waldorf, the recipient of that disgusted look is your precious Nathaniel."

"What? You're making that up."

"No, I'm not."

"You can't possibly tell me you remember that moment. We were two years old."

"I don't remember it but I know someone who does."

"Who?"

"Dorota."

"What? That's not true."

"Why would I have to lie? You can always ask her yourself", he said with his left eyebrow defiantly raised, just waiting for her reaction.

She gave him a hard look then shouted, "Dorota!"

Dorota came into the dining room making her way hastily to Blair's side.

"Yes Miss Blair?"

"Do you remember the moment this picture was taken?"

Dorota looked from Blair to Chuck nervously.

Chuck grinned, "Dorota, tell her what you told me earlier."

"Miss, Miss Blair", she stuttered, "You not feeling well there. You had cold—"

"Dorota", said Chuck looking at her darkly.

"Was I looking at Nate when this picture was taken, yes or no?"

"It was long time ago, my memory no good. I—"

"Dorota!", said Blair sharply.

"You looking at Mr. Nate", Dorota finally admitted while down casting her eyes. "Mr. Nate try to play with you but you not want to. You wanted—", she said but then stopped.

"What did she want?", said Chuck putting a finger to his ear. "I didn't quite catch that, can you repeat it?"

"You wanted to play with Mr. Chuck", she concluded looking guiltily at Blair.

Blair pursed her lips and said, "Dorota you can leave, now."

"I'm sorry Miss Blair."

"Go", she said annoyed as she watched her scurry out.

She shoved the picture back into Chuck's hands and said, "That doesn't mean anything."

"Of course it doesn't", he said mockingly while putting the picture away.

"It doesn't, we were just kids. We didn't know anything."

"That may be, but the fact remains, you always rather be with me, isn't that right Blair?"

She looked into his eyes, momentarily speechless, then stammered, "What is wrong with you? That hit on the head must have done permanent damage."

"No, I'm perfectly fine", he said silkily.

"No, you're perfectly bi-polar. One minute you're cursing me, saying how you want nothing to do with me and now, you're saying things like—"

"Like?"

"Like what you just said. I can't take this anymore, what do you want from me?", she exclaimed wearily.

"I—"

Her breath caught. "You what?", silence filled the room and memories of the White Party flashed in her mind. Tears filled her eyes and she said, "It's déjà vu all over again, you still can't say it."

"Say what?", he asked brusquely then looked away from her.

She shook her head and blinked back her tears, "I won't live in the past. I buried us a long time ago and I'll never dig that down deep for you ever again", she said as she brushed past him and left the room.

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A/N: Hello everyone, so sorry for the delay, but my computer caught a virus and I lost everything, but luckily I'm up and running again and my computer is better than ever, so alls well that ends well, I guess. So, what did you think of this chapter? Chuck changed somewhat, I guess the truce and the accident changed his thinking a little but obviously not that much, lol. I know some people will say, why didn't he say something? Lol, but really, did you think it was going to be that easy? I don't think so lol. This chapter was originally supposed to be longer because I had another scene envisioned as the ending but as I wrote, I knew it had to end where it did, so that envisioned scene will most likely appear somewhere down the line. If you want to see CHUCK and BLAIR'S BABY PIC, sorry I capitalized. It's for the people who don't bother to read my ramblings lol, anyway, if you want to see the pic, go to my photobucket account, under Lily's Will, tell me what you thought about it. I want to thank all of you amazing reviewers, you make my day!! I hope you will continue to support this story. Don't forget to keep REVIEWING!! There might be some Chuck/Blair action in the next chapter (don't quote me on that lol) but we'll see, if you want me to get typing, you know what to do…

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