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Chapter 12- Untold stories

"You know you never told me why you left Hogwarts," Hermione said as she lay in Severus' arms. They had just finish love making.

"I never told you because it not important," he replied sleepy.

"How about this I tell you why I refuse to go back and you tell me why you left?"

"Fine. As you know by now Headmaster asked me to kill him. You have no idea how painful it was to actually go through with it. He was my best friend. He was like the father I had always wanted. My father was just like Richard, he would hit me and and my mother. To tell you the truth, I actually wish I was the one to kill him. He died when he got too drunk to stand, but that didn't stop the idiot from driving. He killed himself and my mom. That's one of the reasons I really hate getting into cars unless I am a passenger. I fear driving then dying. Anyway, when Headmaster ordered me to kill him, we argued for months. I told him that I would rather be found out than kill the only person I had left in this world. When the truth came out about how I was on the good side, I had witches throwing themselves at me, even the married ones, and wizards I had never seen in my life telling people I was a great friend of theirs. There were reporters everywhere I went. I couldn't go to his tomb without someone following me trying to make a name for themselves. It was annoying; one time I actually snapped on Rita. I actually grabbed her by her collar. That didn't go over too well. The press ate that shit up. There was books written about me and statements that I never even gave! I left because I couldn't take it no more. I had no privacy. No one had any type of respect for me or my privacy. Like they were the only ones that could mourn and feel bad about shit. Hey, I don't give a shit about that place anyway; if I really thought about it, that place was just full of pain and sorrow. The only happiness I had was when Lily was around and you know how that went."

He finish his confession, his dark eyes avoided her gaze. She could tell that he was feeling a bit emotional. She really didn't expect to give in and be so blunt about it.

Hermione stared at the way his muscles tensed as he tried not to cry. She couldn't believe she loved this man. He was her professor and now all she wanted was for him to take her panties off and have his way with her. She loved his need to be strong. She loved how he always tried to protect her. However, she hated that Emily still called him.

"So, Severus, why is Emily still calling?" she finally asked.

Severus' head shot up from the ground. Was she serious right now? He just somewhat opened up to her and she is worried why his pregnant ex-girlfriend was calling him? He never knew Gryffindors were so jealous.

"Hermione, I just opened up to you and all you can do is ask about Emily? I do not even care for her. I love you and I will shout it from the roof tops. Please my love, can we not talk about her? Do not mess my day up," his words sounding more harsh than he intended.

She looked down, maybe she was overreacting about stuff.

"I'm sorry. I do believe it is my turn. Well, after everything was over with, Ron and I decided to move in together. It only seemed right, I erased my parents memories and they left. I don't know where to find them...," her voice hitched as tears freely left her face, "I miss them so much. I don't have anyone but you right now. Anyway, Ron wanted to get married right away. I told him I wanted to further my education. I don't want to be like Molly. Living to please my husband and thirteen kids was never my goal in life. Hell, one kid seem enough to me.." Severus couldn't help but smirk at her words. It was true Molly lived just for her kids and not herself. "When I turned him down and told him 'let's wait', he yelled at me and told me that I am not wife-worthy and that he was seeing Lavender Brown behind my back and she wanted to be his wife. He told me that he was a man and that he needed more than hugs and kisses. I didn't want to sleep with him til I was married. That backfired. He is such a fucking asshole. So, we split up and I couldn't take my name in the newspapers. Ronald had the nerve to tell them that I cheated on him. Do you have any idea how much the press ate that shit up? I left for good and I met Richard at the university. He married me and took me to bed. It was perfect until he found out that I was a witch. He snapped my wand and that was when the trouble began," her face was streaming with tears.

For the first time, Severus saw loneliness in her eyes. He could do nothing but hold her. He allowed her to cry on him.

"You are not alone," was all he said before laying her down and placing tender kisses all over body, kissing away all the tears.

He couldn't bring himself to tell her just yet. He doesn't want to hurt her.