So writing three chapters ago about Mike totally gave me a great idea for a new story about Mike and Edward fall for each other in the vampire world. Tell me if you think that would be a good story.

So Chapter 12 is here! Sorry it took so long; school started and I've just been really busy. Anyways thank you everyone who has reviewed my past couple of chapters. I loved all the long reviews. I'm really glad you guys liked this story. I know in the last chapter I made everyone hate Bella. Thank you all so much for the great reviews. Thank you for the extra long ones, I love when people talk about all the parts of the story. Enjoy this one.

Song Title = Bottom of the Ocean by Miley Cyrus. Very good song, I loved it I knew I could work it in here.

It's been in the past for a while
I get a flash and I smile
Am I crazy?
Still miss you baby

It was real, it was right
But it burned to hot to survive
All that's left is
all these ashes

Where does love go?
I don't know
When it's all said and done
How could I be losing you forever?
After all the time we spent together

I gotta to know why
I had to lose you
Now you just become
Like everything I'll never find again
At the bottom of the ocean


Time slipped away. It ticked by and slipped away like the sand of an hourglass; it meant nothing anymore. Every second made my body ache until after a few weeks had passed; I became completely numb. Numb to everything, to every touch, every sound, every sigh and smell, nothing seemed to faze me anymore. I was nothing now. I would have been more useful if I didn't have any bones, at least that way the neighborhood children could use me for silly putty. Everything seemed blurry now. All the days were blended together now. No way to distinguish one hour from the next. The only thing that seemed clear anymore was Alice.

That night Ed… that he turned me away, she stayed at my house till almost midnight. She wanted to make sure that I would be all right. Carlisle came and picked her up after I had fallen asleep. The next morning she showed up in her yellow Porsche to take me to school. All the way to school she talked about something I had no interest in. I knew she was just trying to keep my mind off of things but it wasn't easy. School was nothing less then hell on earth. Every class seemed to drag by while my teachers all seemed to talk in words that fell on deaf ears. I didn't care. Gym was one of the hardest. Having to see him everyday; he looked perfectly fine, almost happy to be free. He never even sent me a second glace. I couldn't find the energy to participate anymore. I just sat out on the bleachers. Lunch became the same as the car ride; Alice and I would get food, she would eat and talk while I just poked the unappetizing food on the tray and then throw it away. Art was the same as gym only a little less painful; at least he sat in the back so I didn't have to stare at him. Study Hall with Bella would be no different if I had showed up or not, she treated me like I was just an empty chair. Then Alice drove me home, we did homework and she would stay until I fell asleep or it just got too late to stay up. I thought this was only going to last a couple of day, a week tops, but the next day Alice was there, and the next was the same thing. Even the weekends she came over at the crack of dawn, dragged me out of the house and drove to Port Angeles to do shopping and keep me out till it was pitch black. It became routine after a couple of weeks.

Alice was strong, stronger then I was. She kept a tough face on while I was nothing more then a large puppet to play with. I could see when she's at my house she would want nothing more then to look out the window just to get a glimpse of Bella coming home. She was strong enough to keep her head above the rising water and try her best to keep me from drowning.

After a while I stopped taking my medicine. At this point I thought 'why bother, it was only delaying the inevitable.' After that I was hard to find the energy to keep up with Alice, she was like a pixie on speed. She wasn't too pleased with me not taking the meds but I didn't care, every time she nagged me about it I would just let the darkness of my mind flood and fill my every thought and soon everything I could see or hear was nothing but blackness.

Every night before I went to sleep I would look at locket that hadn't moved from my neck since I got it. I just wanted to capture that moment I had gotten it, I was so happy my heart felt like it was going to swell and burst… in a good way. I looked at his picture, his perfect face, Ed… He was so beautiful. I didn't want to say his name anymore, it hurt too much to even say. My finger would always run over those few engraved words. Then I would close it and drift off into the darkness of sleep. Everything was totally numb.

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"Get up!" Alice's voice rang out like a wind chime as she pulled the covers off me to reveal me in only my boxers. It's a good thing I wear something to sleep. "Those are cute!" She commented about my underwear with various types of Pokemon on them. I just pulled the covers back over me. It was a Saturday and I didn't feel like getting up. She opened the curtains and the bright shimmering lights blinded me. "Get up you ass, it's so nice out today. It's almost in the seventies so we better enjoy it 'cause the weatherman said it's going to become frosty again." She pulled the blanket off me again and this time pulled it far away enough so I couldn't pull it back on. "Get up 'cause we have a very long day ahead of us. We're going to the beach to enjoy this weather."

"But it's February. There's no way I'm swimming." I rubbed my eyes in an attempt to wake up.

"We don't have to, we can just chill there. I'm sure it will be nice. Now come on, I want you in the car in ten minutes." She turned on her heels and left my room, my blanket still in her hands. I just sighed and got up from the soft mattress. I didn't feel like doing much so I just grabbed my black hoodie and jeans, slipped on my sneakers and stepped outside. It was a very bright day and warmer then it should have been. The car ride was the usual; Alice talked while the radio played lightly in the background but my mind was elsewhere. I just watched the trees pass by in a blur of green and brown. I think she knew I wasn't listening but still went on.

"So what beach are we going to?" I asked forcing myself to join in her conversation with herself.

"The one down in La Push, it's pretty nice. We didn't go at all during the summer because it rains so much but because it is such a nice day I decided I might as well get a jump on going. The people there are really nice. Have you ever been there?"

I just shook my head. "No… I remember my dad saying that him and my mom used to go a lot when they were younger."

"Are you part of the Quileute tribe? You look like you could be Native American."

I shrugged. "Not sure, my dad has never really said anything about our family. I think I remember him saying that both set of grandparents were from there. Other then that I have no clue what I am." 'Hmm' was all she said after that. The rest of the car ride was silent except for the slight sounds of bubblegum pop music leaking from the speakers.

The beach wasn't what I expected; it was filled with people today. Alice wasn't the only one who thought it was nice enough for an outing. The water sloshed back and forth on the tan sand. A small little souvenir shop sat near the shore with a woman working and what must have been her teenage son helping. In the distance, I could see people jumping off the edge of a cliff into the water below. "You know, we should stay here all day and watch the sun set from up there." She said as she rolled out a blanket, slipped on her sunglasses and laid in the warm sun. I just sat next to her, my hood up.

"You should really uncover, relax in the sun a little."

"I will in a little bit." I lied. I didn't feel like being here. There was only one thing on my mind. I felt the locket hanging from my neck like it was on fire. That's all that ran through my mind. It hadn't left my body since I received it. Now it felt like it was permanently etched into my skin. I just wanted to feel his arms around me again, just one last time. I decided that sitting here was not going to be the best plan of action. "I'm going to go for a walk," I said to Alice. "I need to clear my head." She went to get up but I convinced her to stay.

I walked down the sandy beach, watching all the people go by as I passed them. Some parents with their kids making sand castles or splashing around in the water, some girls just laying in the sun trying their best to get a tan before the weather changed. There was a young couple, a large brawny guy and a young girl with long black hair cuddling on a beach towel. She had a large scar running from her eye down her face to her arm. I cringed away from them. Even someone who had horrible scars had a better love life then I did.

I just kept walking till I found a large tree of driftwood. I sat down on the brittle trunk and just looked down at my feet. I don't know how long I sat there but I was trapped in my thoughts until I heard a voice that startled me. "A little hot to be wearing a hoodie isn't it?" the voice asked. I looked up to see a young boy standing before me. He had short black hair and very tan, copper skin. He was younger then I was, probably a freshmen and he had a cute smile. I forced myself to laugh at his question. "Yeah, I guess I just like to be warm." I thought that would be the end of it but the kid didn't leave. He just stood there awkwardly.

"Is there anything you need? I came to talk to you because you looked pretty upset about something. If you wouldn't mind I could talk to you about it. I'm Seth by the way." He held out of one of his hands. I shook it and went back to looking at my shoes. "I'm Jacob and believe me, you don't want to get into my problems." He took a seat next to me on the driftwood tree. "It couldn't hurt to let someone listen." I took a deep breath and let out a hard sigh, this kid just wasn't going away.

"Well I guess the easiest way to put it is someone I loved decided it would be best to leave me and my best friend decided to stab me in the back."

"Oh" he said. "I guess I can't really help with that. I haven't even been anywhere near love before."

"Be happy… because when it's gone… it… it just makes you feel like you're going to break into a million little pieces and no one can put you back together again. I know how Humpty-Dumpty feels now."

"Well if you ask me," Nobody did but I didn't interrupt him, he seemed like a sweet kid. "Maybe she just wasn't the right person for you. Maybe you have to keep looking till you find your soul mate. That's what I believe in. One day I'll just be walking down the street and I'll see someone and it will hit me like a ton of bricks." If he was anymore cheerful, I was going to get cavities just listening to him.

"I guess that's one way of looking at it but I don't think that's for me. I was so sure that he was the one," I had to make sure that I put an emphasis on the 'he', no point in lying. But when I said that, Seth didn't seemed to be so shocked or even fazed by my sexuality. "There was just something about him, he's not an ordinary guy. He's like every girl and guy's dream, I'm talking, dream-phone-Ken doll-Efron kinda guy. A total babe with a sexy smile and bronze hair that makes me pulsate with urges to run my fingers through it like in those titillating shampoo commercials. He treated me so great too, like I was a king. He's perfect, the type of guy you meet and the next day you tell your mom and friends about as if he's already yours. His scent, his haircut, his clothes, his confidence, his smile, his style, his way with words, uhh, it disgusts me how flawless he is and yet he was mine already." Talking about him like that only made my heart ache more, knowing that I was now considered lower than nothing to him. Seth was silent for a second; probably absorbing everything I had just said and then, finally, he started laughing. I shot him a death glare.

"Sorry, I didn't mean to laugh but just watching you talk about him makes me wonder if you could drool over him any more." I DON'T DROOL OVER HIM! I screamed it in my head. "But I'm sure he wasn't as perfect as he seems. Nobody's perfect."

I snorted. "You must have never met Edward."

"Well that may be true but I believe if it's meant to be then everything will work out in the end, sure the road may be bumpy along the way but it will be all worth it. I think in the meantime, you need to start to heal." His words struck me deep. How the hell did this kid know so much in his little time of life?

"You know Seth, you're a very wise kid." He smiled and went to opened his mouth to respond but didn't say anything when someone started screaming his name.

"Seth? SETH! WHERE ARE YOU?!" It was an angry screeching voice of a very pissed off woman. The source of the voice came into view. She looked for a second and then stormed toward us. "Seth, how many times do I have to tell you not to bug people you don't know?" She scolded him. I could tell from the way his face changed that he didn't appreciate getting yelled at in front of someone. Probably embarrassed. "I'm really sorry about him, our mother dropped him on his head a couple of time when he was a baby."

"Jeez Leah, you don't need to flip out. I saw him sitting here looking all upset so I thought it would be nice to see if anything was wrong." He spat back at her. This only seemed to enrage her more.

"Well, let's go, it's our turn to find the wood and I'm not doing it all night so let's move it." The boy got up from his seat and started walking off but stopped and turned towards me. "It was nice talking to you, Jacob. I hope you feel better. You know, some of us are having a bon fire tonight and if you want, you can come." Then he and Leah walked off from me to go search for firewood. I decided it was time to make my way back to Alice. As I walked back, Seth's words echoed in my head like bells ringing from a church steeple. I needed to get over him; I needed to find a way to be strong and fight it. I began stripping away my hoodie and shirt and began running through the sand shirtless, letting the sun warm my skin. I wanted to take off the locket, I wanted to get it off of me but when I touched it, I could have sworn that it burned my skin. Maybe I could start but I couldn't let this go just yet. When I got back to Alice, she was reading a magazine and was very happy to see me; a large smile spread across her face.

"Well, I'm glad to see you finally decided to join me in enjoying this delicious weather." She flipped the page as she read on in her gossip. I plopped back down by her and started to soak up the sun. We stayed in the sun for a little bit long, then we played in the water; it was freezing. We didn't stay in there long. The day seemed to fly by. Soon the sun was getting low to the horizon.

"Let's go get a bird's eye view and watch it set." We drove for a couple of minutes until we were up on the cliff. We parked a little bit back and walked our way to the edge where we sat eating food Alice had packed. The sky was a mixture of beautiful shades and hues of different colors; blue, red, yellow, purple, pink, all mashed up into something you only see hanging in a museum.

"Today was really fun." I said as I placed my head on Alice's shoulder. "Compared to the last couple of weeks, it sure stood out as one of the best days since…" I didn't want to finish that. I didn't want to say since Christmas, since we both were dating people we truly cared about. It almost brought the tears back to my eyes but I held strong.

"I know," She whispered back. "It was pretty great." Alice's phone started playing a tune. She opened it; it must have been a text. "Who is it?" I asked. She blushed and clicked it shut again. "Bella."

"What did she want?" The acid in my voice began to rise.

"She just said she wanted to talk. I don't think it's anything important." Another couple of minutes passed and the phone began to sing again. A different tone played this time. She pulled the phone out again, now it was a call. "Hold on, I have to take this." She got up from the edge and walked far back to the car. I would have hoped she was far enough so I couldn't hear her but her voice rang out like a wind chime and carried itself to my ears.

"What do you want Bella?" She said faintly. There was a long pause before Alice spoke again. "I know… I miss you too… but I can't forgive you for what you did." Another pause. "It is totally inexcusable." Then her voice began to change from angry and irritated to soft and longing. "I'm with Jacob right now." Another pause. What was Bella saying that made her change her tone so much? "Ok, we can talk tonight when I come home… I love you too." Hearing those words made my stomach lurch in pain. I thought that would be the end of it but she kept talking. "Fine, let me talk to him." There was another long silence from Alice. "Hey Ed… yeah I know we haven't talked in a long time… well I've been cleaning up the mess you made." Was that what I was to her? A mess she had to clean up? It hurt when Edward and Bella were no longer in my life but now Alice felt like I was nothing but a chore, which hurt more than anything in the world. I thought she wanted to be with me, not because she felt like she had to be. "He's not good Ed… don't say that, no one ever deserves that… you don't know what I've had to deal with, he's like a zombie." Pain from her words shot through my body. I didn't want to be a burden. I didn't need Alice to suffer anymore because of me. I looked down at the dark water below. A flash of memories sprang through my mind of the people jumping off it earlier. I wonder if the height would kill me. Would I feel it? Would my end be peaceful or would I feel everything till my last breath? I stood up, dusted off my pants, and stretched my arms out. Giving the beautiful sky one last glimpse, "Goodbye Alice, I don't have to be your plague anymore."

One step and I was falling. What a glorious way to go, at the end of a wonderful day, at the point of a graceful sunset. The air blew on my face and body, through my hair. It had become quite cold out since the sun was going down. I kept my eyes closed the entire time. I didn't want to see the water drawing closer and closer. I didn't even seem like I was ever going to hit it until my body was finally in it. In seconds my body was frozen; the water drew out all of the heat from my body and every nerve ending was on fire, shooting flames to my brain. I couldn't breath anymore; it was far too cold to do so. The tide was also strong. I didn't realize that until my back smashed into a nearby rock. Hitting it knocked the remaining air out of me. Back and forth, I was pushed around from rock to rock. The pain flooded my body with more pain now. I just wanted this to be over. Soon everything was numb again. Not the same numb as before, this time it was a physical kind instead of emotional but it all felt the same. There wasn't any energy left in me to even try and fight it. The water began seeping into my mouth and nose, filling my throat with the salty liquid that burned my throat. Everything was getting darker as the water invaded my body. The darkness was taking over, dragging me down into the bottom of the ocean. Before it completely took over, Edward's face flashed through my mind. 'I'm so sorry Edward, I just can't live without you.' That's what I would have screamed out if he was really there but it was too late. The last glimpse of his beautiful face left my mind and now it was all over.


I know this chapter turned out shorter then the others but I thought this would be a great place to end it all. I was going to go a lot farther with it but decided this would be better. So hope you enjoyed it, PLEASE REVIEW and tell me how evil I am.