Little Sister

Trina's p.o.v

[ A/N Bold words are lyrics to the songs Little Sister by New Medicine and I'm the one remaining from One life to live sung by Kristen Alderson]

Hey Tori

How's it going Kid?

Uh I can't believe mom and dad are being so ..uh

I mean they act like I committed a crime or something

So I went a little crazy and blew $2000 on these new boots can anyone blame me?

I mean hel-lo their gorgeous!

I flashed my boots for Tori to see I mean they looked gorgeous on me all sparkly pink and blue with rime stones all over them they came up to my lower calves.

Aw come on Tori no reaction don't hate me cause I'm fabulous and your well...

Well not all of us can be so amazing like me

I grinned as I pointed to myself

Uh I miss you Tori when will you come home

I need you to set mom and dad straight

God Tori it's not fair!

I stomped my feet screaming anyone walking by us would think I was insane.

Julliard is just great thanks for asking

Tori oh I know you were getting to it uh so slow I tell ya

Yea but for real it's amazing I love living in NYC is so full of life and energy it's vibrant just like

ME!

I know I know don't say it

I'm putting the city to shame cause I shine so bright

NYC is jealous

Oh Trina you haven't changed

I jumped as I saw Andre came up my heart skipped a beat as my stomach came up quickly. I covered my mouth taking a deep breath . I hadn't seen him in four years he looked so much older it brought back so many memories and tears rushed to my eyes.

Oh Trina don't cry babe

He wrapped his arms around me rubbing my back.

How are you Tri?

I guess I'm okay

His hug felt warm and strong I couldn't believe it had been so long my mind ran back to that night that started it all. Andre was so drunk but so funny he had me laughing so hard I never expected to fall so but I did I fell in love with him or at least I thought I had maybe it was the booze.

Trina babe are you really okay?

I looked away

You don't have to lie that night effected all of us in so many different and profound ways

His hand was warm on my shoulder the smile spread across my face , he smiled at me through both of his kissable lips and his soulful eyes.

We all had our lives and futures changed

Some of us mine in subtle ways others Trina..

I looked away as a cold wind went through my very soul. Andre could never understand just how much my life changed . Rubbing my own arms I tried to warm up but nothing seemed to work it's way for me it's been that way for a long time now.

So how have you been?

Where have you been?

I hit his arm he smiled laughing I couldn't take my eyes off of him Andre had shaved his head he was building up now his biceps were huge he was starting to grow facial hair.

Ew your not getting a goatee are you?

No man but why are you grossed out?

Uh yea I hate facial hair

He laughed taping my arm then he brushed back my hair behind my ears.

Well no worries babe I'm just been super busy

Haven't had time to shave

Oh likely excuse

I laughed

Oh no man it's for real

Yea busy with the ladies huh

He laughed but not as hard there was a look in his eyes I recognized it cause it's the same look I had in mine for awhile.

No man I'm focusing fully on school

I'm in my Junior year at UCLA

We all are

A bitter taste formed in my mouth as I nodded everyone meant Jade.

How is everyone?

Good man I was just coming to tell Tori

Don't let me stop you I already talked her ear off she'll be glad for a fresh voice

Andre laughed sitting by her.

Wassup Beautiful?

Silence as usual.

Tori's been very quiet today

So kay Tori Trina I like it when people listen it shows they care

So anyway Tori I just wanted to drop by and fill you in

I know you hate being left out or alone in the dark

I never want you to feel that way

So I brought something for you babe

Andre pulled out a sparkling piece of jewelry shaped as a star around it was a array of pearls and rubies

All in a shaped V

Little Tori made it for you

She's becoming like her aunt more and more everyday you should come see her she would

Love to see you we tell her all about you she asks for you constantly she's so cute

I had heard Jade and Beck had a little girl before I graduated and they named her Victoria West Oliver.

She's always dancing on tables and singing Jade and Beck have their hands full with her she's already

Playing guitar and learning piano she'll be a HAHS for sure

I just found out that Jade's screenplay is being made into a mini movie she's stoked of course and she asked me to the score for it which is sweet.

Cat's playing the lead she has a killer song in it called I'm the one Remaining damn that girl can sing she's really come along way now she's shed her shyness she's budding into a real star Tori she has a music video out for her song Put your hearts up she's dating a rapper he seems cool.

Cat's really excelled at dancing she just got a world tour with a dance troupe she created it she calls it

IMV or In Memory of V their really taking off babe.

Chiz I gotta go back to class but I promise I'll be by later kay Tori...

She didn't answer but Andre bent down and kissed her my eyes never left him should I tell him..shouldn't I ?

Trina it's been great seeing you please keep in touch we all miss you crazy antics and all..

And I'm the one remaining knowing the past can't be undone...

Lyrics from that song Cat sings filledmy head he took my hands. I smiled promising him that I would even though I really didn't plan on doing so not in physical form. I watched him grab his bag he had no idea that I did keep track on everyone that's how I knew Cat's song. Getting up heading off to his car my mind lingered back to that night so many imagines so many memories.

And I'm the one remaining remembering the night I fell in love

Mommy ! Mommy!

My head instantly cleared as my son came running up yelling for me my throat caught as Andre turned to look at the young boy running over he was taller then most kids everyone wanted him to model but he just loved dance he was already prepping for a competitive dance team.

With his height and baby face those deep milk chocolate eyes high check bones he was a beautiful child he had a head full of

Dark curly hair which he wouldn't wear in any other way then braids.

Andre stood in shock looking closely at me his reaction was what I excepted what I was trying to avoid as I reached down to scoop my child up he looked at us both I trickled his stomach as he giggled.

Mommy and daddy are together!

No please he didn't just say ..I opened my eyes Andre was looking at me confused shocked and scared full of disbelief.

Did little man just say

Oh you know kids their always yapping

Can never tell what their trying to say

Daddy ..he looks like daddy ..daddy Andre

You showed me photo's ma pictures of you him and Auntie Tori

Oh kill me now..I gulped he was too smart for me sometimes mom said it was a bad idea to show him to tell him why didn't I listen?

Okay I can explain

Well explain!

Wait no you don't have to so just tell me

Is this little dude saying I'm his father?

Yes..

Stop pacing Trina

Yea mommy I'm getting dizzy from your pacing

Sorry ..

Trina what the hell

It happened Dre I mean it wasn't planned we were drunk we were partying hard we had sex and I got pregnant..

Why didn't you tell me!

So much happened Andre there was so much going on after-wards I just ..I was scared you were so angry and I had so much pain.

I just I promised when I graduated that I would never look back and I didn't I went to NYC I didn't

Know I was even pregnant till three months after I was in NYC.

I'm sorry I should of I know I should of ..

Never mind that talk to me now

What's your name little dude?

He looked at our son who looked confused

Go ahead tell him little man it's okay

You said never talk to strangers mommy

Yes I did buddy but he's not a stranger he's your daddy Andre Harris

H..i..

Well hello little dude nice to meet you

You to mommy I'm hungry!

Want me to take him so you can spend time with Tori

You sure?

Yea it would be awesome

So what's your name?

I'm Victor Harris Vega And I'm this many!

He held up five fingers Andre gave him a high five and he laughed. I watched as they left hand in hand turning back to my sister I sighed.

Well that went better then excepted I guess you were right Tori honesty is the best

Policy I know your laughing telling me I told you so

oh Tori..

Getting up I leaned down running my hand over my sister's headstone the only thing that remained of my once vibrant larger then life sister I read the dates.

June 8th 1994 – April 17th 2012

They were much too short they shouldn't be so close together Anger filled my soul.

Little sister I miss ya sometimes you keep me up all night long/

When your memory comes to me if it don't kill me man it makes me strong

Little sister now you'd be 18 posing in your graduation dress / it's probably better were not together

This world's on fire, it's a f...ed up mess

Do your wings fit good?

Can you fly?

It's almost like you carry me

Little Angel watching over me

Save me from the danger I can't see/Always let me know where I'm suppose to be

When I'm in my darkest place

Whoa

Your my light my saving grace

Might be a angel but you'll always be / Little sister/ Little sister/ I'm here for ya

I should be going Tori

I have so much going on Victor needs me but I just can't let go

I have all these imagines in my head

That night is still so clear

I remember being plastered and talking to a panda ..I vaguely remember Andre pulling me to dance our bodies were so close the feel of us pressed together lite me up he lead me to a room

There was so much noise and so many people but it was just us and I know Andre always liked you he talked about you all night Tor I mean it even when we were..

When the gun shot rung out we were getting dressed there was so much noise so many people running around ..then she comes in she was breathless covered in blood ..your blood but I didn't know it then she was in shock she kept saying "it wasn't suppose to be her" we tried to help her get her into a room.

Andre took the gun and made me sit her down talk to her she just kept saying it over and over.

"it wasn't suppose to be her"

Then Robbie came running in he was white as a sheet

Rex kept talking ..we couldn't get him to make sense

There were kids screaming blood so much blood

Oh god Tori I was trying to help this girl and ..the whole time she knew

That bitch knew the person she shot..

Robbie said the words

I didn't want to believe him I was freaking out

All I saw was blood so much..

Tears were rolling down my face I was shaking everything was a jumble in my head.

His words haunted me

Trina it's Tori...Tori's been shot

I remember racing to the room and Jade was there over your body

She was covered in your blood she was white as a sheet and you were laying there so pale

So bloody so much blood Tori I can't get that out of my head how can you lose so much blood and survive?

You weren't breathing I tried to do CPR

but...

I broke down hard crying it wasn't fair Tori should be here with us she should be going to UCLA with the rest of her classmates. She should be going out on dates she should be alive it's not fair that her friends got to live their lives have their kids and have their dreams come true and where is my sister?

That's why I left this blasted town too many memories wasn't the problem for me it's the fact that I will never get to make new memories with her she had so many dreams we had so many dreams and now I'm left here to carry them on to see that Tori wasn't just some Hollywood dreamer.

I need to show people how amazing my sister was and to make sure her death wasn't in vain.

The only cold comfort I had at all was knowing that her killer was locked up and that she'll spend the rest of her miserable pathetic life paying for what she did.

I don't care if she thinks she's innocent . She killed Tori and I will never forgive her.

If you ever need to talk to me not gonna keep you / just love to see you

Is there anyway they'll let you leave?/ Do your wings fit good? Can you fly?/

It's almost like I feel you carry me/ Little Angel always watching over me/ Save me from the danger I can't see/ Always let me know where I'm suppose to be/ When I'm in my darkest place/ Whoa/ Your my light / your my saving grace/ might be...

They say what don't kill ya makes you stronger all

I can say is you are the reason I now have my wings

Your my Angel my saving grace you drive me crazy but I love you Tori ..

I wish I could see you cause no matter what you will always be my little sister..

I'm the one just saying knowing the past can't be undone

And I'm the one remaining Everything changes now that your gone

No matter what I try to mask I can't explain the past

And the love that you given me staring out at a open road I've been broken

I don't want to look back and face it honestly...