A/N: hello! I just wanted to say a quick thanks to everyone that commented. I really love you guys. Thanks to LoveAsh87 and Coachkimm… you guys have been there like all the way! You rock!
And as for this chapter…. It's not as short as the last three or four but it's like a lot shorter than the next few I think. :P
The Carlins stood in silence, all looking down at their feet, all crying, and all wearing black. This was a sad day for this family because as much as they all despised the old lady, they all loved her.
Paula and Arthur were stood together, Arthur's arm was around Paula's waist as Paula's head was resting on his shoulder. Glen and Chelsea were huddled together sobbing at every break in the priest's speech. Spencer was stood on the other side of her mother, leaning into Ashley who was stood behind her with her arms around Spencer's waist. The brunette had a look of remorse and pain on her face but was the only one in the crowd that wasn't crying. The blonde had recently started crying now had tear stained cheeks.
"Ashes to ashes, dust to dust." The priest finished as he waves his arm to the points of the cross over his chest. Paula and Arthur stepped forwards and placed their roses on top of the small coffin, then Glenn and Chelsea, then Spencer and Ashley.
Arthur, Glenn, Uncle Jack and another member of the family stepped forwards and picked up the ropes that were attached to the coffin. Slowly they lowered it into the ground, each trying desperately not to cry.
Once the coffin had been placed down, people started making their way towards the Paula, giving her their regrets before heading off to their cars to go to the Carlins home. Paula, Arthur, Glenn, Chelsea, Jack, Spencer and Ashley stood for a few more moments, just looking down into the grave as the gravediggers started to shovel the earth into the hole.
Ashley took Spencer's hand and led her towards her new Lamborghini. Spencer was reluctant to follow at first but soon gave in to the brunette. When they got to the car, Ashley held Spencer in a tight embrace and let her break down again.
"Spencer I am so sorry." Ashley placed a light kiss on Spencer's forehead.
"I know Ash. But she was dying anyway, there was nothing any of us could do." She pulled away from the hug and slid into the car, refusing to look into Ashley's eyes, because she knew that those eyes would be full of sorrow, pity and love. It was the sorrow and the pity that she didn't want to deal with.
"Would you rather not go to that dinner? I mean, we don't have to. I'll make something up."
"Ash. That would be great." And with that Ashley ran back towards Paula and Arthur to make up some reason why they wouldn't be there.
"Paula, Arthur," she approached them nervously. "I'm just going to take Spence home. She's really tired and can't stand to be around too many people right now."
"Alright Ash. Just give us a ring a bit later on tonight and let us know that she is ok!" instructed Arthur.
"I will do. And Paula, I'm so sorry for your loss."
"Thanks Ash." Sobbed Paula as her and Arthur headed towards their own car to go to the party.
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Spencer's POV
Ash has been so great to me, ever since Glenn was in that accident and all the way to now, after grandma died. She must be so sick of waiting on me hand and foot and putting up with my family being so completely cruel to her.
I have no idea what she said to grandma though, but the last week and a half with her was so fun. It was almost like we were back before she found out that I'm gay. We laughed and joked all the time. The only time she really clammed up was when me and Ash kissed, hugged, or even held hands around her.
So to keep her happy, Ash did none of those things. And that must have been so hard for her because we always find some way of touching each other when we are out together. It was definitely was for me. And she insisted that I spend as much time with grandma as I could, so that meant we didn't get to spend anytime together. Alone.
Oh my God! How can I be thinking like that right now! My grandma just died, I'm supposed to be grieving!
I led on our bed, hugging a pillow and letting tears run freely down my cheeks. Ash is out at the recording studio with Madison. She made some calls to E! and I start working on Monday. I'm looking forwards to getting back to work to get my mind off of everything that has been happening.
"Spence, are you in here!?" I heard a voice come from the kitchen. I had heard knocking on the door for a long time but just ignored it, hoping that it would go away and I wouldn't have to talk or deal with anyone, other than the one person I really need right now. "Spence, hey, there you are!"
"Hey Ky." I sobbed into my pillow.
She came and sat in front of me, pulling me into a hug.
"Are you alright? It's been two weeks since the funeral and you are still crying! Where's Ashley. She should be here. I'm going to go call her!" she pulled out her phone and held it to her ear.
"No don't!" I push her phone back into her lap. "Ashley is at the recording studio with Madison. Before you start getting yourself worked up, I told her to go. All she has been doing is moping around her waiting on me."
"Hang on! Are we even talking about the same Ashley Davies!" she laughed at me as I shoved her and sat up.
"You have to give her a lot more credit than that Ky! I mean, she has changed so much."
"Yeah, maybe to you. Anyway Spencer, are you alright? It's been what two weeks!"
"Yeah I'm fine. I'm still really upset and I suppose I feel kind of," I sighed.
"What?" I sat up and wiped the remaining tears from my eyes.
"I feel really guilty." There I said it! I feel guilty!
"What do you have to feel guilty for though Spence. You didn't cheat on Ash did you!?"
"Oh my god! Why would I ever do that to her! She's the love of my life! I can't believe you Kyla!" I walked into the bathroom to get some tissue. Seriously! Me, Cheat. On Ashley!
"Seriously though Spencer, why do you feel guilty?"
"Well because all that Ash has done for me in the last four months. She was there for me when she didn't even know why and she has stuck by me through my family treating her like the crap on their shoes. And all I have done is lie here and cry!"
"Spence. When she agreed to be your wife, that was basically what she was saying she would do!"
"I know. But well, while my grandmother was dying, all I could think of doing was well, her!"
"Ok Spence there's some things you tell me about my sister and others you don't. And that was one of them."
"I know, I'm sorry Ky but, I don't feel sad at all that my Grandmother is dead! I mean I was sad for about 3 hours, maybe a little more, but that was it. And now, well of course I'm still grieving slightly but Ash is so understand and she is all I can think of. Like we haven't actually… you know… since we were in Ohio. And I know it's because she thinks that I need my time or space or, whatever."
"Maybe you don't feel that sad for your loss, because the last week and a half you spent with her, you were saying goodbye to her." I nodded at her suggestion, since it is the only one I can think of that makes any kind of sense right now. "And as for Ashley, I don't know, cook her dinner. We both know how much of a guy mentality she has! And Spence," she took my hand and looked into my eyes. "Make the first move. Don't wait for her to do it." We laughed at each other for a little while before I walked with her to the door.
"Thanks Kyla. And say hi to Carmen for me."
"Yeah I will Spence. See you around!" she said as she got to the elevator.
I went back into the loft and got my keys. Tonight I'm going to cook my wife the most amazing meal she has ever tasted.
A/N: Sorry for the enormous lack of Ashley. I cant believe I actually didn't put her in here a lot. Sorry. But the next chapter… I think its just going to be Spashley… not sure though… I haven't decided yet.
Now I'm upset though… Microsoft word doesn't recognise 'Spashley' as a word :O
Leave comments and tell me if you think that that is just unacceptable! :P
