*Akira Kuran*
My eyes flickered open and I yawned. I then sat up. I didnt bother to look and see if Kaname was with me because I already knew that he wasnt. I then got to my feet and got changed into my school uniform. Another day of Maria was what was waiting for me. I sighed. I just wanted her gone. That was when I remembered that exams were today. I sighed and headed out of the room. There was still about an hour until class started but I didnt care. I wasnt tired. I walked down the stairs just in time to see Kaname and Takuma walking from the Moon Domitory together. I followed after them. They headed to the school building and walked around until they found Yuki. Kaname then pulled Yuki aside to talk to her while Takuma fended off the girls. I stood behind a tree listening in on their coversation. "I wanted to discuss the ball with you." I blinked in surprise. Was he going to... "I'll see you there wont I?" Yuki raised her hand to her forehead in salute. "That's right. I've been asked to patrol the ballroom." I sighed. "That's not what I mean." I felt tears welling up in my eyes. I was right. Kaname was here to ask Yuki to go to the ball with him and I... I would be all alone the whole time. Tears began to escape down my face. Takuma then peeked his head around the tree that I was hiding behind. I gasped. "Akira what are you doing here?" He asked. I gasped. "Uh... Nothing. Just dont tell Kaname I was here!" I then ran back towards the dorms, tears streaming down my face. Why was I so foolish? I had known that he would ask Yuki and yet I was still getting emotional over it. I felt like such an idiot. And yet even thought I knew he would ask Yuki there was still a part of him that said 'No, he will ask me.' There was still a part of me that believed that Kaname loved me, the same way he loved Yuki. I had given everything to Kaname in the hopes that those things would make him love me. But I knew that it was stupid to think that way. Kaname would never love me the way that I wanted him to. Kaname would never be who I wanted him to be. And Kaname would never do what I wanted him to do. He was Kaname. He did things his way.
*Takuma Ichijou*
I blinked in surprise as Akira ran from the clearing back towards the Moon Dormitory. I glanced at Kaname. He was watching Akira as she ran from the area, away from the source of her heartbreak. It was obvious that Kaname had known it would come to this. But even though Kaname was my best friend I could not agree with it. He had taken her heart, her virginity and her freedom. She had taken her away from Senri right when they were growing close. He had taken everything from her and from Senri and now he was practically throwing everything -he had taken from them- on the ground and spitting on it in order to say 'I dont want it.' And throught doing such a thing he wasnt only hurting Akira but Senri as well. Akira and Senri who had once been close had been torn apart because of Kaname. There was now a large gash between them that they were both too afraid to bridge- Because of Kaname. Kaname had forced them apart because he wanted Akira then had thrown her away like a piece of trash. Not only had he done that but he had thrown her away after taking her twice. He had allowed her to grow extremely attached to him just so that he could later trample that same bond he had allowed to flourish. It was cruel.
*Senri Shiki*
I sat on my bed looking at a picture of Akira, Kaname and I from when we had first started school here at Cross Academy. Akira was pulling us both towards the new dormitory. I grabbed the scissors from my bed side table and cut Kaname out of the picture so that it was just Akira and I. I then cut the picture of Kaname into little pieces and scattered it on the floor. I walked over to my mirror and put the picture of Akira and I in the corner. It was the only thing that I really had to decorate my side of the room. That and a poster of Akira an I. It was a picture that had been taken when we were both modeling. I had been modeling for the Japan Boys Collection and Akira had been Modeling for the Japan Girls Collection. When we had been leaving a fan had gotten a picture of the two of us together and it had been put on the cover of a magazine and later onto posters. I had bought one of the posters and put it up on my side of the room. I flopped back onto my bed. That was when I heard the front door of the dorm slam open then slam shut. I heard people gasp and I heard the sound of running. I got up and ran to the door. I opened it just as Akira was about to. She looked up at me with tear streaked cheeks. She then jumped into my arms and I gasped. She burried her face into my shirt and sobbed. I wrapped one arm around her waist and gently rested my other hand against the back of her head. "Im sorry Senri. I was stupid. I believed that If I gave him everything that I could make him love me. But I understand now that I was stupid to believe that. I gave him everything that I had until there was nothing, not even one thread left for me to hold onto. And now I have nothing left. So I am here... Because I was a fool." Tears rolled down my cheeks as Akira continued to sob into my shirt. "I was stupid. I gave... Gave him everything. I gave away everything in the hopes that he would love me. Even you. I cant believe I was so stupid. How can you possibly forgive me?" She looked up at me and I kissed her. I then pulled away. "I can forgive you because I love you. No matter what you do, even if you give you're life for him, I will forgive you. Because I need you. And if I dont forgive you then I lose you and that is something I cannot handle. Because I need you Akira. I cannot go on living without you by my side. So even if you give away you're soul for him I will forgive you. I will continue to forgive you until the end of time because I love you. I love you, not him. And I need you, not him. My whole life, my whole existence means nothing if I dont have you with me. Because I need you. I need you more than I need anything else in this world." She sobbed into my shirt and I rested my head against her's.
Neither of us ever knew how we would get by. We lived day by day. Akira lived her life day by day, trying to get Kaname to love her the same way he loved Yuki. And I lived my life day by day, trying to figure out how to pry my previous Akira from the arms of the one whom I now despised more than any other. We both tried to find a way to make the ones we loved, love us in return. But we both also searched for something else. Something that would keep us here. A sense of belonging. We both wanted to know that we had somewhere that we belonged. We didnt want to be the children that Rido Kuran never should have had. We both wanted to have meaningful lives. We both wanted to know that we had a place in this world. Until that day. That day when we realized how much we truly needed each other. It was that day that we realized that we had a place. We had a place we were just the only two in it.
I held Akira tightly to my chest as we both cried out all of the pain we had been feeling for such a long time. All the pain that had been growing within our hearts to the point that it made us believe that we would breakdown because of the sorrow within us. We knew that it wasnt healthy. That it wasnt right to keep such emmotions locked away inside. The emmotions just grew and grew and released at random points. It wasnt healthy to keep all you're emotions bottled up. But how could we have expressed those feelings before now? We could have cried silently during the night, careful not to alert those around us to our pain. But how did that help? It just meant that you cried out some of the pain. Such a small bit of pain that the pain returned almost instantly accompanied by even more pain because you realize that no one even noticed you crying. Really all that did was make things worse, not better. After a little while we both stopped crying. That was when I realized that everyone was standing in the hallway with worried looks on their faces. "You two okay?" Asked Hanabusa.
But maybe we were wrong in our thinking. We had believed that we had a place and were the only two in it. But no, that wasnt right. We werent the only two in it. Everyone else was in that place with us. Takuma. Rima. Ruka. Akatsuki. Hanabusa. and Roku. But then there was Kaname. He lived in a different world then we all did. He was different from us. He thought only of how he could use us in order to protect the only thing he cared about. He didnt think about our feelings. He didnt think of the heartbreak that he brought Akira and Ruka with his actions. He simply focused on protecting the only thing he truly cared about -Yuki Cross. He protected her from everything. He would protect her from everything even if it meant sacrificing all of us who cared about him. We all knew that, we simply refused to believe it. It was another thing that we simply didnt want to admit.
Hanabusa snapped right in front of my eyes. "Hey Senri, you okay? You seemed a bit distracted for a minute there." I looked at Hanabusa. "Im fine." Akira sniffled and kept her face burried in my shirt. That was when I saw Maria standing around the corner. Akira's head shot up and she looked at Maria. "Class President Kuran, can we talk please?" She asked. Akira nodded. "Sure Maria." I released Akira. "I'll be back in a minute Senri." I nodded and watched as my precious Akira walked away with Maria.
*Akira Kuran*
I stood at the back of the dormitory with Maria. "What do you want?" I asked. "Does it hurt? Knowing that Kaname doesnt care about you." I gasped. She walked closer to me and cupped my face in her hands. People like him only ever deceive others Akira. People like him and Rido are the type of people you can never trust no matter what." I blinked in surprise. "Kaname and Rido will only ever hurt you. And the same can be said for Rokuro. So do not trust them Akira." I gasped. Was Shizuka trying to protect me by telling me this? It sounded almost like she was telling me to stay away from them because she didnt want me to get hurt. "You're trying to protect me aren't you? That's one of the reasons you came here isnt it?" I asked earning a sharp gasp from her. She then smiled. "I guess you caught me. Even purebloods like me have something that we wish to protect. I never thought that I would find a vampire that I wished to protect. But when I saw how small and frail you were when you were born I simply knew that I needed to protect you from you're big brother, from Rido and from Kaname. I knew that they would take advantage of someone as delicate as you. But it seems that I couldn't do anything to truly protect you up until this point." I looked into her eyes and saw myself reflected in them. She released me. "Well I'm going back to check on my Zero. Remember what I said and stay away from those three. They will bring you nothing but heart ache." She then dissapeared. I sighed then turned and headed back towards the dorm. "Thank you, mother."
