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Chapter 12: I Need You Tonight

~Matthew~

Well, the day had finally arrived. Kelly's kids were back. Now I was at the airport, watching her run to her kids and shower them with kisses and hugs.

I was going to miss our nights alone together, but I was happy to see her reunited with her kids. She loved them so much—there was no doubt once you saw her with them.

Before picking the kids up, we had dropped my dogs and cat back home so as not to confuse Hermés. Tonight would be my last night at Kelly's anyway. It wouldn't kill them so spend one more night alone. I walked the dogs and fed them and Moby before we left for the airport, so they were good to go until tonight.

I admired the way Kelly didn't say anything more than she had to to her ex.

Daniel kissed the kids goodbye and gave them hugs as he said something to them, then he left, nodding slightly at me as he passed.

I nodded in return, then headed over to Kelly and her kids.

"Hi!" Hermés said so cutely. He held his hands up to me, and I picked him up. "Well, hello there! Did you have fun with your dad and grandma?"

He grinned and nodded.

"Well, I'm glad to hear it!" I kissed his cheek.

He kissed mine too, and hugged me.

"You're so good with him," Kelly said with a smile.

I smiled too, and gently stroked his hair. "Well, he's a pretty incredible boy."

Kelly placed a hand overtop of my shoulder. "And you'e a pretty incredible man."

We grinned at each other.

"What do you say we go get some lunch, then head to the park?" I suggested.

"That sounds great!" she agreed. "I figured maybe we can do some sled riding today. I don't know if I should see if Jenna can stay with Helena or not."

I shrugged. "I think Helena might like it. Of course she'll have to share a sled with one of us, but I think she might like it as long as we don't take her down too steep of hills."

"Well, let's get some lunch first, then we'll take her to the park and go from there," Kelly suggested.

I nodded my agreement. "Let's go."

"And so, Kelly wheeled Helena's stroller out of the airport, and I followed right behind her, Hermés still in my arms.


~Kelly~

We went to La Pan Quotidian for lunch, and we all enjoyed our meals. I was glad that Matt now went there with me without complaint. It really meant a lot to me.

After we ate, we headed to the park. Hermés was clinging to Matt more than I'd ever seen him cling to anyone besides me, and that includes my husband! Matt was so good with him too. I was so blessed.

When we got to Central Park, we went for a nice walk down the trails until we got to the Bernard Family Playground. Hermés instantly ran to the slide.

"Be careful!" I called after him as I placed Helena in the baby swing. I put her little legs through the leg holes, then pushed her gently. Of course, those swings aren't a hundred percent safe, so I couldn't push her too high, but she enjoyed it anyway. She smiled and laughed, and I couldn't help but smile and laugh as well.

Matt grinned. "You're such a great mother."

I kissed his cheek. "Thank you, My darling. You're a pretty good father too—even to kids that aren't yours." I winked.

Matt blushed, but smiled.

"Matthew, come see me slide!" Hermés called out to him then.

Matt quickly kissed my cheek, then ran off to watch my son slide.

I sighed, then turned back to Helena. "I wish he was your daddy instead. Things would be so much easier if Matt and I had met before he met Naama, and before I met your daddy. Maybe your daddy and Naama should have been a couple instead." I shook my head at the thought. "No, I'd never wish Daniel on her." I laughed at my own joke. "I'm sorry, Helena. I know, he's your daddy, so I'll be nice. He's good to you guys at least, right?"

Helena smiled as if she understood. I grinned.

"What's so funny?" Matt asked, coming back over to me, looking amused at me.

I smiled. "Oh, nothing. Just thinking about how lucky I am to have you."

He walked over to me and placed a hand around my waist. "Mm, and I'm lucky you have you. I'd kiss you, but you never know who's watching, so just imagine what I did to you last night."

I shivered, and it had nothing to do with the cold. Actually, I was suddenly starting to feel quite warm. "Maybe after the kids go to bed tonight..." I trailed off.

He licked his lips and nodded. "I was counting on it." He then nodded towards the slide. "Hermés wants you to slide with him. I'll stay with Helena."

I grinned. "All right." I went off to slide with my son, thinking how perfect Matt was for our family. I just hoped he was a permanent fixture. I'd worry about that later though. Tonight I was just going to concentrate on our perfect night together with my kids.


~Matthew~

I continued to push Helena, and she giggled, smiling bigger than I'd ever seen her smile before.

I couldn't help but laugh and smile too. Her laughter and smile was contagious.

"You like swinging, don't you?" I asked her. I stopped her swing and tickled her ribs.

She giggled even harder.

I closed my eyes, and then uncovered them. "Boo!"

She laughed so hard her face was now turning red.

"You're so good with her! I've never seen her laugh so hard," Kelly said with a smile as she came over with Hermés.

Hermés walked over to his sister and kissed her cheek. I then stepped out of the way, allowing Hermés to push her.

"Careful now, sweetie. Remember not too high," Kelly gently warned him.

"I know, Mommy! I'm not a dummy!" Hermés insisted.

I burst out laughing. I couldn't help it.

I could tell Kelly was trying to remain serious, but a smile appeared at the corner of her mouth. "I know you're not. I'm just reminding you."

After a bit, Hermés swung for a while, then we left the park.

"Let's go back home for a bit. Your sister needs a nap," Kelly said to her son.

He nodded. "I don't have to take a nap, do I?"

"No, you don't have to." Kelly looked at me. "I miss the days when he would take naps too. They grow up too fast. Enjoy it with Aven while you still have it."

I nodded. "I know it!"

"Can we go sled riding after her nap?" Hermés asked.

Kelly nodded. "Sure, but we'll probably get dinner first."

She got Helena out of the swing and into her stroller, and Hermés took my hand in his own.

We then headed back to Kelly's place. I was surprised at how much like part of the family I felt like. I kind of liked it.


~Kelly~

I put Helena down for her nap, then I came back into the family room and saw Matt and Hermés, sitting on the couch watching Bob the Builder.

Hermés looked positively enthralled, but Matt looked a little bored.

"How can kids watch this stuff? Did we watch this kind of thing when we were kids?" Matt asked.

I smirked. "Well, Bob the Builder wasn't on when we were younger."

He smirked as well. "You know what I mean."

I shrugged. "Well, when we were kids, cartoons were much cooler than they are today."

Matt nodded. "I know that's right! Everything is drawn so weird nowadays. The other day, Aven was watching something where this kid has a triangle-shaped head."

I laughed. "That is quite weird. So, where would you like to have dinner tonight? I picked lunch, so you get to pick dinner."

Matt grinned, and raised his eyebrows up and down. "Oh, really?" He rubbed his hands together. "Hm, this is going to be good."

I rolled my eyes, but smiled nonetheless.

Before he could say anything more, his cellphone rang.

He saw who it was, then smiled at me. "I'll be right back," he said before clicking the on button and heading outside to the front porch to talk in private. It was obvious who it was.

I sighed. I sat down next to my son, and pretended to watch the show with him. Even so, in my mind, I couldn't help but think that I could hardly wait until Matt told Naama about us. Then I could have him all to myself.


~Matthew~

"So, my plane gets in at two in the afternoon tomorrow. You can go ahead and have lunch without me. They will be serving lunch on the plane. But, come dinnertime, you're all mine," my wife said. I could practically see her smile on the other end of the line.

"Well, I'm looking so much forward to seeing you guys! I missed you both like crazy!" I don't know why it felt like lying. It really wasn't lying. I did miss them both like crazy. Just because I was with Kelly didn't mean I didn't miss my family. Yes, I'm aware of what a jerk I was being. I wanted to have both. I knew I wanted both, and a part of my mind convinced me that there was no reason I couldn't have both. It wasn't the way I was raised, and I was disgusted with myself, but the fact still remained that I planned on having both for as long as I could get away with it.

"Do you want to talk to Aven? She's eager to talk to you. She keeps holding out her hands and saying, 'dada!' She's so smart, isn't she?" my wife asked, sounding so proud.

I grinned widely. "She sure is! Put her on."

I heard my wife in the background telling Aven to say hello, so I knew that Aven was on the line.

"Hello, Aven! It's Dada. Do you miss me? Because I sure miss you."

"Dada!" she said happily with a little giggle.

I laughed too. "I'll take that as a yes!"

I talked with my daughter for a moment longer. Unfortunately, there wasn't much you could say to an almost one year old, so I said goodbye to her, then went back to talking with my wife.

We talked a bit, then she had to go.

"Ashley's taking me out to a club for the night as a farewell. Her older sister is staying with Aven. She's the sister who has the daughter that Aven loves to play with, so she's in good hands. I'm sure Aven won't have a problem playing with Gabby. Gabby is Ashley's niece," Naama explained.

"Well, have fun, but not too much fun. No picking up any hot guys, you hear me?" I joked.

"Oh please! We both know you're the only hot guy I'll ever need." My heart sank as the words fell from my wife's mouth. If I felt like a jerk before, I felt like a donkey (as Kelly would put it) now.

"And you're the only woman I'll ever need. I love you, Sweetie." I felt as if I had been punched in the stomach. I felt as if I was not only betraying her, but Kelly as well. How much longer could I carry on with this charade? Anyone's guess was as good as mine.

"I love you too. Have a goodnight. I'll see you tomorrow, my love," Naama said, her voice soft and gentle.

"Goodnight, Sweetie. I'm looking forward to it too," I said in almost a whisper.

I clicked off the phone and sighed. I had no idea what I was going to do. I'd pray to God to ask for His guidance, but I had a feeling God was angry with me at the moment. I couldn't say I blamed Him.


~Kelly~

"You were a little quiet at dinner. Is everything all right?" Matt asked me, a hand over my back as we walked to the park.

I smiled at him. "Of course! I'm just sad that this is our last night together."

He moved his hand up the back of my coat. I shivered as his fingers found their way up my shirt and onto my bare back. "For now," he said so low I almost didn't hear him.

I didn't know how to respond to that, so I place my arm around him instead.

He removed his hand from under my coat and shirt, and placed his arm around my waist as well.

I fought back a sigh. The truth was, that phone call from his wife had really bothered me. I know she was his wife, and she had every right to talk to her husband for as long as she liked, but Matt had been out there for quite a while. I just hoped he wasn't changing his mind out leaving her for me. I ignored the voice in my head that reminded me that he never actually said he was leaving me for his wife. I just kind of assumed it. But who's to say I wasn't assuming right?

We arrived at Pilgrim Hill, where we would be sled riding. We rented some sleds. I found that they had small plastic sleds for kids Helena's age with a rope at the end for the parent to pull. We rented one of those, a toboggan, and a red, plastic sled.

"Do you want to take Helena down on hers first to see how she likes it?" Matt asked me. "I'll stay with the sleds."

"All right," I agreed. "Thanks."

He nodded, and I headed up the hill with the mini sled. Hermés followed right behind us with the plastic sled.

We sat side by side, but enough feet apart so as not to crash into each other.

"You ready?" I asked him.

He nodded. "Count to three!"

I smiled. "All right. One. Two. Three!"

And we were off, racing to the bottom. Though, I let Hermés win. I knew it would make him happy to win. Besides, I was afraid to pull Helena too fast down the hill, for fear of her not liking it, or worse, falling off.

She seemed to love it, for she was laughing again, her cheeks rosy, and her lips spread wide into a smile.

Matt grinned as we arrived at the bottom. "Wow, Hermés was sure whipping down that hill! He creamed you!"

Hermés laughed. "I creamed you!" he said to me, copying his new hero.

I laughed. "I guess you did!"

Matt then grinned at Helena. "I see you liked it too!"

I laughed, and picked her up. Indeed she did!"

"Now you two slide together! I want to take Helena down by myself!" Hermés announced.

I was a little hesitant. "I don't know. You need to be careful," I said.

"Mom, I'm a big boy!" Hermés insisted.

It was against my better judgment, but I didn't want to hurt his feelings. I knew he would be careful with her. He always was. Besides, he was smarter than I gave him credit for sometimes. I sighed. "All right, but not too fast!"

He grinned. "Yay!"

I helped make sure that Helena was secure in her sled, then Hermés headed up the hill with her.

"I'm sure the other sled will be fine over here if we go down once together on the toboggan. What do you say?" Matt asked me, his eyebrows raising up and down.

I hesitated as I glanced up at my son and daughter.

"Relax! They'll be all right. Helena's in good hands with her brother," Matt assured me.

I smiled, then turned back to him. "All right. How can I say no to you?"

He kissed my cheek. "You can't!"

He took the toboggan in one hand and my hand in the other, and slowly led me up the hill.

I smiled to myself. Well, this should be interesting, I thought. Interesting indeed.


~Matthew~

We got to the top of the hill. "Do you want me to lead, or do you want to?" I asked.

She smirked. "I think I'll let you."

I nodded. "All right." So, I sat down in front, and she sat behind me, holding on tightly to my waist.

"Are you ready?" I asked, holding tightly to the front.

"Yes!" she said, squeezing me tightly.

"One... Two... Three!" I said right before I made the sled go down the hill.

Woosh!

Our sled went dashing down that snow fast. I could feel the wind in my hair, and my hair wasn't even that long!

The bottom was rushing at us with incredible force, and I was a little freaked out at the last few seconds.

I could hear Kelly screaming with delight, and I realized I was too. I hadn't been sled riding in quite some time. I had forgotten what a rush it could be.

I don't know how it happened, but, as we got to the bottom, the sled tipped, and Kel and I fell off. The sled went one way, and we went the other way. We landed on our sides, Kelly's arms still wrapped tightly around my waist.

She released me, and I turned to face her.

We grinned at each other.

"We gotta stop falling like this, huh?" she asked.

I licked my lips. She was so beautiful even covered in snow. "I don't know. This kind of works for me."

She smiled, and wrapped her arms around my neck.

"Kel, remember where we are." I had to remind her, even though I wanted so badly to go where she was thinking of going.

She released my neck. "Sorry." She smiled weakly and blushed.

I took her hand and helped us both up. "It's all right. There'll be plenty of time for that after the kids go to bed," I murmured in her ear once she was standing up with me.

She smiled again, then headed over to Hermés and Helena, who were both giggling at us. She swayed her hips slowly as she did so, and I knew she was doing it for my benefit.

I moaned to myself as I watched her. She was definitely going to get what she wanted tonight, because I wanted it too. Scratch that. I needed it.


~Kelly~

Sledding had been so much fun! I was really glad we had done it. Matt treated us all for ice cream as Baskin Robin's afterwards. I gave Helena a little bit of mine, and she really seemed to like it. We then went to Matt's apartment so that Matt could walk the dogs and feed them and the cat. Of course Hermés loved seeing the dogs and petting them. I even helped Helena pet the cat. She smiled when her tiny hand touched the cat's soft body.

Afterwards, we went home, and I nursed Helena, then gave her a bath and got her ready for bed. Then, the sweetest thing happened. Matt came into her room and sang her a little lullaby. It seemed to put Helena right to sleep. I had never been more in love with him then I was at that moment.

Hermés swore to me his father had him take a bath this morning, so I took his word for it. I helped him dress for bed, and made sure he went to the bathroom and brushed his teeth. I then read to him.

When I finished, he still didn't want to go to bed yet. "Can I have a drink of water please?"

I smiled. "It's 'may I?' and yes, you may. But then you have to go to sleep!" I went to get him a glass of water, and when I came back, I found Matt sitting at the edge of the bed beside my son.

"I wish you were my daddy too," Hermés said to him.

Matt gently stroked my son's hair. "I'd love to be your daddy. You're the best kid a father could ask for."

Hermés grinned, and held his arms out to Matt.

Matt leaned down, and Hermés kissed his cheek.

Matt kissed his cheek in return, then Hermés lay back down.

"You have to go to sleep for mommy now, all right?" Matt said.

"Why," Hermés asked.

"Because, if you don't, the tickle monster's gonna get you!" Matt tickled Hermés' ribs for emphasis.

Hermés giggled hysterically, and tried to push Matt's hands away.

Matt stopped tickling him. "I'll tell you what. If you go to sleep, tomorrow I'll talk your mommy into going to Chuck E. Cheese's for lunch."

Hermés eyes got big. "Promise?"

Matt crossed his heart with his finger. "I promise."

Hermés grinned. "Okay!"

Matt grinned too. "That's a good boy."

"Will you come too?" Hermés asked.

Matt nodded. "You bet! Do you think I'd miss out on Chuck E. Cheese's? No way!"

Hermés giggled. "Goodnight, New Daddy."

Matt quietly chuckled. He gently stroked Hermés' cheek, then kissed it. "Goodnight, New Son."

I pretended to just be coming in. I walked in, and handed Hermés his water.

"Thank you, Mommy," Hermés said as he took the glass from me, then took a big sip.

"You're welcome, my love." I set the glass down on the night stand for him when he was done drinking. I then kissed him goodnight, and we hugged.

"Goodnight, Mommy," he said sweetly.

"Goodnight, My Love," I said.

I turned his night light on, then shut the door behind Matt and me.

I wrapped my arms around Matt then, and kissed him passionately.

He grinned. "What was that for? Not that I'm complaining, because I most certainly am not!"

I smiled. "For being so good with my children. I love you, and I know they do too."

He kissed me. "I love you and them too. So much." He began kissing down the side of my neck. "Do they usually sleep through the night?"

I closed my eyes. "Mm, yes, they do. But, I have to take a bath first before we do this."

He raised an eyebrow. "Can I join you?"

I smirked. "The tub's really only big enough for one." I began heading to the bathroom, undressing myself along the way. I didn't look back even as I added one last thing. "I don't lock the bathroom door ever. I just figured you might want to know that."

I heard him moan a few feet away from me, and I smirked. I gave it two minutes before he'd be right there in the tub with me. I wouldn't even kick him out.


~Matthew~

There was no way I wasn't joining her in that tub. This was our last night together, and I was going to take advantage of it. Besides, seeing her clothes on the floor, and knowing she was naked in that bathroom was definitely way too much for me to handle.

I heard the water start to run, so I stripped my clothes off as well, then headed to the bathroom.

She smiled when she saw me. "You better lock the door this time." She was sitting in the tub lengthwise, her legs bent and her feet resting against the wall above the spout.

There were bubbles in the tub, covering up her body. I didn't like that part too much.

"Well, are you going to get in here and join me, or what?" she asked me with sly smile.

"You bet I am!" I said. I locked the door, then climbed into the tub with her. I straddled her, sitting between her legs.

She wrapped her legs around my waist, and we kissed.

I ran my hands over her breasts, and she moaned. I kissed down her neck, gently nipping at the skin there.

"Mm, make love to me, Matthew. Now. Please?" she murmured in my ear.

Like she even had to ask me. I made love to her, and it was incredible. I had made love in the shower before, but never while taking a bath.

Her moans echoed off the tiled walls, and she was driving me insane.

We continued to move together, our bath long since forgotten. Now that I think of it, I don't think she ever really intended on taking a bath. She just wanted to be with me. Well, that worked out perfectly because I just wanted to be with her.

We cam simultaneously, then continued to kiss until I need her again. "Let's move this to the bedroom," I said, getting out of the tub and offering my hand to her.

She took my hand and got out of the tub, but stopped me when we got to the door. She pressed her back against the wall, and pulled me in front of her. "More. I want more now. Right here."

I chose to act instead of respond with words. I certainly couldn't be bothered with words. Action was what we both wanted anyway. I took one of her legs and lifted it up, making her wrap it around my waist. I then rested my hand over her butt, taking her right against the wall.

Soon, she could barely stand on her own, so she ended up with both legs around my waist now, and I was practically holding her up against the wall as I continued to thrust into her. I knew her body so well by now. I knew where I needed to hit to send her over the edge. So I made sure to hit that particular spot—hard.

Her scream of pleasure as she instantly came was more than enough to send me right over the edge with her. I covered her mouth, so that she wouldn't wake the kids.

She toned it down, as if just remembering them.

"Let's go to bed," I said quietly.

She nodded.

I unlocked the bathroom door, then opened the door and carried her to the bedroom. I gently lay her on the bed, so ready for our last night together until who knew how long. But I didn't want to think about that.


~Kelly~

As Matt and I made love, I tried not to cry. This could be our last time making love for who knew how long! I couldn't live without him. Well, obviously I'd have to for my kids. My kids could get me through anything. But I needed Matt to be truly happy. I never used to think a woman needed a man to be happy. That was before I met Matt. Now I knew that I needed him. I was so in love with him—more in love with him than I had ever been in love with anyone.

Our lovemaking was more gentle; more romantic this time. I think we were both thinking how this could be our last time making love for a while.

When we came, it was simultaneously, as it usually was. It was a bittersweet moment. But, as he held me afterwards, so lovingly in his arms, and as he kissed me so sweetly and whispered that he loved me, I felt calm.

I snuggled deeper into his arms and closed my eyes. "I love you too."

It wasn't long before sleep overtook me, and all my worries evaporated.