I had seen Erik like this once before and that time I had let him off to easily this time it wasn't going to work that way. This time he had not only hurt me but my son had almost been hurt in the process and that wasn't something that I was going to stand for.

"Erik when we found out that I was pregnant you made me promise that I would love the baby no matter what and I promised you that I would. Well now I'm holding to that promise. I love that little boy and I swore to myself the first time I held him that I would do anything and everything in my power to keep him from having the life that you have. He is NEVER going to doubt my love for him. I also promised myself that I would never let anyone treat him the way you've been treated. With that being said, No I don't forgive you. You can't just come crying every time you do something wrong and automatically be forgiven, you have a child now and you need to grow up. Notice, I didn't say that you're a father now because there is a HUGE difference between having a child and being a father. You don't get to be a father just because you should up…late. Being a father is privilege and a blessing, it's something you earn. So I'll go back to the house with you but you should know that it's only because I don't know where my family is, if I did I'd be finding them and going back to America with Noah. So what's going to happen now is that we go home and we'll take of Noah just like we were going to but you're going to have to prove yourself and your going to have to earn my trust back. One of the big things you're going to have to do is learn that not everything is about you. You can't get mad and go into a rage every time you THINK someone judged you by your face. Your face doesn't make you the person you are, your actions do. O and by the way… John is coming with us, He saved our lives and I am not going to let him stay here and be blamed for his brother's death."

Erik and John both just stared at me like I was crazy. Erik stood up and sat on the edge of the bed. He tried to take my hand but I pulled it away before he could.

"Everything you said about me I completely agree with but taking him with us? That is crazy. Yes he saved you're life so let me give him some money and be done with it."

I just looked at Erik opened mouthed. "See this is what I am talking about?"

I turned to John giving him a small smile. "John how old are you?"

At that moment Noah started to whimper softly. John went over to him picking him and rocking him softly. Noah immediately calmed down falling back asleep.

Erik tried to hide it but I saw the flash of jealousy on his face and the anger in his eyes. I couldn't help but smile, he deserved it.

As he rocked Noah John answered my question. "I'm 14 Emily. Are you really going to take me with you? I…I don't have anywhere else to go."

The tone in his voice broke my heart. He was scared; scared of being left by himself at such a young age but also afraid of Erik. But I knew that he trusted me and that if I asked him if wanted to come with us he would.

I looked at Erik pointedly. "See John is only 14. He's a child. A FATHER wouldn't just leave a child by himself with no one to help him or take care of him. How could you leave a child to fend for himself?"

Erik looked at me with a confused expression on his face. "What is the big deal? I did it. I had to fend for myself and I was younger then he is."

"And look at you! Look how you turned out!" I yelled. "You have no compassion what so ever. You are a selfish stubborn bastard. If John wants to come with us then he is, that's it end of discussion." At this point I lowered my voice knowing that if I continued to yell the baby would wake up. "Besides Noah needs a big brother; someone to eventually take him outside and play with him since the man who made him seems to lose his mind every time he steps anywhere near the sunlight."

John set Noah back down then came running over to hug me. I laughed hugging him back. "You really mean it? You're going to take me with you; I can be Noah's big brother?"

I nodded my head smiling at him. "Yes John I mean it. You saved our lives. Erik may not understand the meaning of that but I do then I'm the one with bruises all over my face and a couple broken fingers. Noah already feels safe with you and so do I. I know that I am not that much older than you John but I will do everything that I can to be your friend and maybe someday like a mother to you but I promise that will always treat you the same as I do Noah. Just because I actually gave birth to him doesn't make you any less important."

John hugged me once more and as he put his head into the crook between my neck and shoulder he started to cry. I put my arm around him.

I saw the look on Erik's face but I ignored it. But I did see the look of pain that crossed his face as John began to speak. "My Mama she never liked me at least not as much as she liked Dean. He was always her favorite. She was always kissing and hugging him, she pretty much ignored me."

I moved John away from me so that I could look at him. "Sweetie I promise it will never be like that with me and I'm sure someday when Erik grows up a bit he won't treat you like that either."

Erik just shook his as he spoke. "Fine if that's really what you want we will take him with us."

John showed Erik to one of the other bedrooms and then we all went to bed. I lay awake for a while longer thinking about Erik and thinking about now having two sons and my baby having a sweet bog brother. Also I thought about how I really hoped that someday Erik would accept John.