Sitting on the bench in the park made Shuichi thought of a lot of things.
What am I gonna do? I can't go against that freaking bastard Tohma! I'm so useless! I guess I have to do it. I can't bring down everyone's life just for my own selfish doings. Hiro has been really happy meeting Ayaka and I don't want to destroy it. Fujisaki has a really great talent and it will be vanquished if I don't leave.
More to it, my family, I know I don't belong there but they were the ones who raised me to what I am right now. I've hurt many people in the past already. I really, really hope that this nightmare will disappear soon!
I guess among all the thing's I don't want to leave behind is my Yuki not when things are getting better between us. It's just not fair. Tohma's forcing me to a dead end. I can't do anything! If I were to live in a world without Yuki then, I guess I'll just have to leave this world.
I still have a Tuesday, a Wednesday and a Thursday till that comes. I'll live my life in these three days. Alright, here I come you blasted last three days! SHINDOU SHUICHI WILL BE ALIVE FOR THE THREE DAYS!!!!!
Shuichi walked home like the usual and was gleefully happy. He reached home at about approximately 2 hours of sulking in the park. He opened the door and crept inside the house.
He was looking forward to pounce on Yuki but soon found Yuki asleep on the computer table. He walked towards Yuki and gave him a peck on the cheek which woke Yuki up.
Shuichi gasped as Yuki woke up. He stood back a little, pretending he didn't do anything. Even though things had been going smoothly during the past few weeks, Shuichi is still trying to cope with Yuki's new treatment. He loves the new Yuki but sometime he just doesn't get what's on his mind.
Yuki mumbled out some words which could barely be heard. Shuichi was curious of what he was trying to say. He went closer and closer to Yuki. Suddenly Yuki opened his eyes, which gave Shuichi a big shock. Yuki's hand cupped Shuichi's cheeks and placed his lips against Shuichi's.
" If you wanted to kiss me, then kiss me. I like your surprise kisses." Said Yuki.
"who would want to kiss a buffalo like you?" pouted Shuichi.
"oh, I wonder who kissed me on my cheeks while I was sleeping a while ago? Hmmm I wonder who it was?" teased Yuki.
"you were awake?" cried Shuichi.
"oh, so you're the one who kissed me. So as punishment, you will have to obey my every command tonight." Proclaimed Yuki.
"and what may your commands be my dear master?" said Shuichi playing along.
"I haven't thought about it but first things first, it's late let's go to bed. I'm gonna be late tomorrow. I've got a meeting with Mizuki and the editorial board. Will you feel lonely?" Asked Yuki.
Shuichi shook his head. He and Yuki changed in to their matching pajamas. They then slid under the warm blanket was snuggled close to each other. Shuichi was leaning against Yuki's chest. He could hear Yuki's heart beat. The sound of the heart beat was indeed soothing.
Yuki sniffed Shuichi hair and planted a kiss on his forehead. Both not letting each other go drifted to wonderland. In the middle of the night, Shuichi woke up and got out of bed, he was sitting on the sofa outside. He didn't want to see an end to his relationship with Yuki.
It was heartbreaking. Again, without knowing, tears were falling like raindrops. he walked out to the balcony and cried. He knew that Yuki couldn't hear him crying so he let out all the miseries in his heart. He knew in order not to hurt Yuki when he leaves is to make Yuki hate him.
So he intends to get kicked out of the place and make Yuki angry at him. he would then leave a letter saying he was sorry for what he had done. So tomorrow's challenge was to make Yuki Hate Shuichi.
My head hurts from thinking too much! I've never used my brain this much before. Why do things keep happening to our relationship? Can't they just bug off? It's our life! Would it be better if we've never met? I'm not regretting meeting Yuki, but it just hurts! It hurts everywhere. Thinking too much makes my head hurts. Listening to nags from other people bleeds my ears. Having the motive to leave Yuki kills my body, but no matter how painful it is, my heart somehow loves the feeling of being with Yuki.
So tell me what am I gonna do! I don't wanna leave him but I have to. I have to leave him but I in a million billion kezillion years never want to! Well, I guess everything ends on Thursday. Ties with Yuki ends there. Full Stop.
Tuesday
Shuichi walked back to the room to see the hippo sleeping soundly like a baby. Again he slid beside the hippo tried to reminisce the last few moments together. Yuki woke up earlier than usual, got dressed up and was off but before he left, he mnagae to kiss a little goodbye kiss on Shuichi's forehead.
Shuichi was actually awake when Yuki did that. After Yuki left, he immediately dialed Tohma's office number.
"hello, Seguschi-san, can I ask for a days off? Just for today. I need to get some things done before I leave Japan. Is that okay with you?" asked Shuichi.
"what ever is fine with me, I'll just need to inform K. well, I do hope you get every thing ready but today." Ordered Tohma.
"Thank you, Seguchi-san. I'll get everything sorted out by today and I promise I will leave Yuki by tonight and my world on Thursday." Said Shuichi as he hung up.
Well, all's done. Time to go shopping!
Shuichi spent the whole day running errands before his big leave. He bought a new computer, a few empty cds, an alarm clock, and a dog. he quickly went home and got started. He wrote letters for Yuki and Hiro.
Shuichi went to Yuki's computer and saved all his important documents including his novel works and their pictures taken together. After burning all the documents, he packed the cd's along with the computer in a box. He wrapped it up nicely and hid it under the bed in Yuki's room.
Then, he went over to his neighbours house. He had gotten particularly close with this neighbour, Ikuta-san.
Ding dong!
"I'm coming" said Ikuta as he opened the door.
"hi, Ikuta-san, I'm sorry to be a bother, but could you do me a favour?" asked Shuichi.
"Sure, no problem. Come on in and we'll talk about it." Said Ikuta.
Shuichi went in the house bringing along Mocha, yup Shuichi named the dog, Mocha . His doggie supplies were also brought along.. He sat down on the couch and Mocha sat beside him.
Ikuta-san prepared the tea for both of them and they sat down getting down to business.
"so, what's this favour you asked off?" asked Ikuta.
"well, you see, it's Yuki's birthday on Thursday. I wanted to hand him a present hand to hand but you see, I'm going on tour with Bad Luck tomorrow. So I was wondering if you could pass Mocha to him on Thursday." Explained Shuichi.
"Sure, why not? Ha ha. But you'll have to do me a favour in return." Said Ikuta.
"if it is anything that I could do in my power to help you, I will!" said Shuichi firmly.
"Shindou-san, you're taking it over seriously. I just wanted your autograph. Apparently, my niece is a really big fan of yours. She kept pestering me to get your autograph for her." Said Ikuta.
"Sure' why not? Do you have a pen n a paper?" asked Shuichi.
After Shuichi finished what he had to do, he excused himself.
"I hope to see you soon after your tour, Shindou-san."said Ikuta.
"I won't be back in a while." Replied Shuichi as he went in to his house.
I'm sorry I lied to you Ikuta-san. I'm not going on tour tomorrow and it's not Yuki's birthday on Thursday. I'm sorry! I truly am sorry. Well, that's done, now it's time Plan C. I'm sorry that I'm doing this Yuki, but you'll understand!
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there!! here's chapter 12 as i promised.
ha ha.. so.. in the next chapter, there will be a bigger problem if i'm not mistaken.. so look forward to read it!! .
ha ha..well.. i juz wanna tsay thanks to the reviewere!! i know i haven really tnaked you guys for reviewing!! well thanx!!!
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