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Chapter 12

It's been a couple of weeks now since Lita left with the kids Randy had never felt so lost. Vince has given him some time off so he can get his head together before coming back. Seeing the kids was hard they didn't understand why he couldn't come home. To be near his family Randy bought an apartment so he could see them Lita still wouldn't talk to him not that he blamed her after everything he put her through.

Randy had such a good day with the kids, he seemed to be spending more time with them now than he ever did because he wasn't on the road he saw them nearly every day. Lita was coming to pick them up soon which he couldn't wait for he hadn't seen her since she left she always had her mom or Trish pick the kids up.

"Daddy when are you coming home" Alana asked for what felt like the hundredth time.

"I can't princess not right now, I really want to but I just can't" Randy sighed it broke his heart every time they asked they were so young they didn't understand what was going on.

"Did we be bad" RJ cried.

"No, come here" Randy said as he placed his son on his lap. "You and your sister are the most important things in my life. I know you don't really understand what's going on, you see I hurt mommy, I didn't mean too sometimes adults do things that hurt people" he cried how do you explain to a six and four year old what's going on.

"Is that why mommy cry" Alana asked.

"Does mommy do that a lot" Randy asked his heart breaking even more.

"Yeah I hear her when I go sleep" Alana said.

"Can you both do something for me, I need you to make mommy smile, so she doesn't cry anymore" Randy cried it broke his heart the hurt he caused the ones he loves the most.

Lita was on her way to pick the kids up, she still couldn't believe she was going through this. Seeing Randy was going to be hard but she knew she'd have to see him some time. She'd been sitting outside his apartment ten minutes and she knew she'd have to knock eventually she couldn't sit out here all day but she didn't think she could handle seeing him. This was all too much she just wished this wasn't happening. After sitting there for a few more minutes she had to knock it was getting late and she had to be at Trish's soon.

"Hi" Randy broke out after moments of silence he missed her so much all he wanted to do was pull her in his arms and never let go but he knew he couldn't, he didn't want to scare her away again. This was the closest they've been since that fateful day where he lost the love of his life for something so stupid.

"Hi. Alana, RJ go get your stuff we've got to get home aunty Trish and uncle Jeff's coming over" Lita said as the kids came to the door.

"So how have you been" Randy asked.

"How do you think I've been, can we please not do this" Lita asked it hurt too much right now.

"Do what, Li please I miss you so much please just talk to me" Randy pleaded.

"I can't" Lita sighed hoping he'd stop this was already too hard.

"Li are you ever going to talk to me again, I said I was sorry, please forgive me" Randy cried.

"Come on kids lets go say goodbye to daddy" Lita said as she walked away she knew eventually she'd have to talk to him again but right now it hurt too much.

"Bye daddy" Alana and RJ said as they hugged him.

"So did you have fun with daddy" Lita asked knowing this was hard on both of them.

"Yeah, we played play station" RJ smiled.

"That's good I know this is hard on both of you daddy not being with us" Lita sighed she hated what this was doing to the two most important people in her life.

"Its ok mommy daddy told us he done bad don't cry anymore mommy" Alana said as she hugged her mom.

"Thanks baby, I'm going to be ok and do you know why I have you two and as long as I have you my life is perfect" Lita said as she hugged her kids.

"Aunty Trish, uncle Jeff" Alana smiled as they came in the room.

"Hey princess, little man what do you say we go McDonalds while mommy and Aunty Trish have their girl talk" Jeff said knowing Lita was upset and needed her best friend.

"Awesome bye mommy" RJ smiled as he leapt into Jeff's arms.

"Mommy can I stay with you" Alana asked as much as she loved going out with Jeff she really wanted her mom right now.

"Alana I would love you to stay, but I really need to talk to your mommy about something and if you stay here who's going to watch these two" Trish smiled.

"Hey I heard that we are completely fine without supervision" Jeff smiled at the face she was giving him.

"Ok, bye mommy" Alana sighed as she took Jeff's hand.

"So Trish what is it you want to talk to me about" Lita asked.

"How did it go with Randy" Trish asked knowing it must have been had she couldn't even imagine going through this with Jeff.

"It was hard Trish but I have to face him sometime I can't keep relying on you and mom. The thing that's killing me Brooke is what it's doing to the kids. I have to try and get though this they can't see me cry anymore. I have to move on as much as this is killing me I just have to that's why I've been to see a solicitor" Lita cried she never thought she'd be going through this her and Randy was supposed to be together forever it wasn't supposed to end like this.

"Li I know you're hurting right now but divorce are you sure about this" Trish asked.

"I have to Trish I have to try and move on and while I'm still his wife I never will. I love Randy with all my heart and not being with him is killing me, but I can't see us getting back together, I still can't believe this happened, he was my forever Trish and he broke that he broke me. I have to do this for me and my kids I need to move on I just have too" Lita cried.

"Ok Li, I still think you should wait a bit longer but I understand and I'm here for you if you need me" Trish said as she hugged her best friend.

"So what did the doctor say about your sickness" Lita asked needing to change the subject.

"I'm pregnant" Trish smiled she still couldn't believe it after she was told a year ago she couldn't have kids this was the news she's been dreaming about.

"Oh my god Trish that's amazing, how does Jeff feel about it" Lita asked.

"I haven't told him yet I'm scared after what happened we came to terms with not having kids" Trish said.

"Trish he'll be so happy trust me he loves you and look at how he is with Alana and RJ. You're going to be amazing parents and I can't wait to be an aunt this is so awesome" Lita smiled this was the best thing that could happen right now and she was so happy for her best friends nobody deserved it more than them.

"Thanks Li, I'm going to tell him tonight" Trish smiled.

After Lita left with the kids Randy didn't really know what to do he was so lost right now if he hadn't been so stupid he'd still have his wife and family. Now he had nothing John wanted to hang out later but he really didn't feel like it and the last thing Randy needed right now was to be around Stacie and with her being best friends with Torrie it would be inevitable and if he did that he knew Lita would never let him back in.

"Hi mom" Randy said as he opened the door.

"Randy get yourself cleaned up your coming home for a few days you need to sort yourself out this isn't healthy" Brenda said to her oldest child she still couldn't believe all this happened but he needed help right now.

"Mom I can't I've got the kids tomorrow" Randy said that was the only thing he had to look forward too he wasn't leaving again.

"No you don't I spoke to Lita earlier and told her your coming to St Louie for a few days and your sister is going to being the kids in a few days so we can see them then.

"Mom I can't, I know what's going to happen and the last thing I need right now is dad being an arse" Randy sighed he knew he'd ruined everything he didn't need his dad to remind him of it. It was like he got a sick laugh his life was falling apart.

"You're coming and that's final Randal now go and get ready the plane leaves in an hour" Brenda said.

Randy knew he had no choice but to go his mom was a really stubborn woman and there was no stopping her when she knew she was right. At least it gave him some time to spend with his sister she was getting married soon and he knew he had to be there for her he'd missed so much with being on the road and living so far away.

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