'Well, that was… interesting.'
'You are too amused by all of this.' I took my jacket off and threw it against the hangers, not really caring where it would land, generally pissed off at the end of the night.
'Amused? Only because you seem to take it so hard, when there's absolutely no reason to.' I turned around with my arms crossed, watching him pick up my jacket and taking his own off as well.
'We were assaulted, how is that no reason to take it hard?'
'I understand that you've never had this before?'
'… …' When he stepped towards me, wanting to kiss it away, I turned back around and kicked off my shoes, helping myself to the couch. I'd protested coming back here, but he'd somehow convinced to come along either way, saying it would blow over.
'I'm sorry, but you do know not all people take too kindly to same sex dating, especially not when there's an age difference. You stalk people for your family, you must have seen this before.' I sighed deeply, of course I have, but…
'It's different when actually being on the receiving end, Chrollo.' He raised his hands when he heard the hostility. On our way back from the restaurant, where we'd mainly enjoyed the meal by talking - but even then had gotten some looks - someone had flown at us, screaming one thing or the other, and I'd taken care of it immediately.
'Either way that was quite a sight, you becoming so elegantly brutal in the blink of an eye. Although I know that's not something you want to be praised for. …And you may had gone a little overboard.' I sighed and let myself fall back on the couch completely, lifting my legs over the backrest.
'I don't take kindly to narrow-mindedness.' At least that guy won't bother us ever again. Granted that I indeed may had overreacted slightly. I'd just been enjoying today so much after the last two weeks, that someone interrupting it – especially for a reason like that – had needed to disappear immediately.
I tried to calm down from it a little, because overall the day had been nice, and took a couple of deep breaths. Let's just focus on the good things that happened today. I started to follow Chrollo around with my eyes while he locked all the doors and windows, putting on some extra surveillance, and disappearing to another room I didn't know existed. You actually have hidden rooms. That piqued my interest. When I heard some soft bleeps coming from there, curiosity overtook enough of my current anger, and rolled myself off the couch to follow him. 'What are you doing?'
'You're aware that I'm an Assassin, aren't you? I know how to cover my tracks, and I know how to stay hidden from even my clients, but for you to sleep soundly tonight, I'm putting on maximum security.' I stopped behind him, and watched him pressing in some controls. We take safety measures as well, but this was way beyond what I was used to. 'Excuse me.' I stepped back outside the room, and let him do all of this. In the first place, it had seemed only natural that I was witness to this; but when I gave it some extra thought, it was a sign of trust that I was allowed to be here and observe him do this. Not that I've ever had any kind of bad intention, but still it felt good.
'You're really easy to put in a good mood, you know that?' Stepping out of the room again, he locked that as well. I looked away, a little disgruntled that I'd forgotten about my anger so quickly. But weighing off this entire day, there really wasn't a whole lot to stay mad about.
'Let's just go to bed, please.'
'At half past ten on a Saturday night?'
'It's been a rather tiring day.' I already walked up the stairs, him following me close after.
'Hopefully not too tiring.' I snorted when I heard the words, and scolded myself for giving in so easily.
'We're not doing anything anymore today. You're incorrigible.'
'Yes I am.' Walking back into the bedroom, first thing I did was take off my shirt, second was that I took the lens case out of my pants pocket. Looking down at it, I realized there really wasn't a whole lot of choice. I couldn't possibly keep them in the entire day. 'You can keep your eyes closed for the rest of the night if you want, but after all we've done up until now, I don't really understand why that's still a sensitive subject.' He approached me from behind, and softly kissed me on the cheek when he noticed my musings. He leaned his head down on my shoulder after.
'Well actually I do. But I don't think that saying the reason out loud will help convince you to take them out, will it.' I sighed and closed my eyes. I'm a very, very open book to this man (something that still makes me slightly uncomfortable). I'm not embarrassed about anything concerning my physique – the sex this afternoon not counting – the only thing I'm actually still hesitant about is anything concerning my family. So he must've realized it a while ago, that whatever was to be seen in my eyes, was something shared in my family that needed to be kept a secret.
'Well, if you understand, then it makes it easier for me to just keep my eyes closed.' He kissed me again before I followed him into the bathroom to wash up before going to bed. I didn't have the energy anymore to do anything. Somewhere I was glad that I didn't, enough happened already.
After finishing first, I was told to just take whatever side of the bed felt better for me, and he started walking around, closing the curtains here as well. Sitting on the edge of the bed, I waited until he was behind me to take those lenses out. Immediately closing my eyes, and crawling under the blankets with a borrowed sleeping shirt of his on. Somewhere, I really just wanted to be able to open my eyes, or still have the energy to enjoy this moment some more. I understand that the color draws attention, but if anyone's good at keeping the secret, it's Chrollo. Plus, he'll only know the color, not the actual reason why some people are interested. I know perfectly well that curiosity can easily take over as soon as the color's revealed, so do I trust Chrollo not to get that?
I rolled over to my back and covered my eyes with my arm, sighing deeply. What an eventful day.
'You sure you want to keep your eyes closed? You're missing one hell of a striptease.' He let some piece of clothing fall a little harder on the floor, and I snorted at that very subtle action of his before responding,
'You're kidding, right? I already saw you naked this afternoon, you think this is going to convince me to show you something I've never shown before?' I already realized the grave I'd dug for myself while the words left my mouth,
'...….'
'Don't you dare say it!' I raised my free hand, pointing a finger up in the air to make him stop. After doing that, I heard more of his clothes drop to the floor.
'Well, I'd hoped that seeing me this afternoon would have convinced you to strip me, actually. But now I'm still doing all the work.'
'You're still terrible.' I dropped my hand again. When I did, I felt extra pressure on the end of the bed, of Chrollo crawling up on it. 'What are you doing?'
'Perhaps you don't want to strip me right now, but the reverse is true.' He stopped when he hung over me on all fours. Leaning down on his elbows, he searched out my lips with his. Slowly, I let my arm glide off my eyes, still keeping them closed, but not objecting to the tender, soft affection I was receiving. My hand found its way up behind his neck and into his hair, massaging the sensitive skin there. When I felt both his and mine breaths increase a little in anticipation, I quickly decided that doing some more of this really couldn't hurt. I'll find the energy somewhere, if only to just end this day on a happy note and forget this evening and my eyes,
'Well, you have my permission to strip me if you want to.' I brought out with a lot of trouble, and I could only half believe that I'd said something embarrassing like that. I felt his amusement through his breaths, and he pulled the blankets down. He started by gliding his fingertips down my neck, and unbuttoning the sleep shirt I'd just put on. Well, you're not letting the chance slip by, are you. When he'd opened it wide, I sat up and let myself slide out of the sleeves. Sitting back on his knees, he let a hand slide along the side of my face and into my hair a little. Starting to trail his kisses to my neck, my own hands slid up his legs to his hips, and I laughed,
'You really stripped down completely?'
'I'm really confident in my persuasion skills.'
'Apparently, you are.' I let my hands find their way a little further up his abs and chest. For a short second I felt really smug for monopolizing this man.
'Kurapika?'
'Hm?' My hands glided back down to his bare hips.
'I understand your protectiveness over your family, but I really want to be selfish today.' I sighed deeply, and let my head fall against his chest. His hand glided down from my face to my waist. 'I understand it all really well, but that doesn't take away that I want all of you. I don't know what else I can say to persuade you, because pretty words will only drive you away, won't they.'
'I just buried a family member a week ago.'
'I'm sorry.'
'I also understand your point of view, I'm also sorry.'
'Being a couple of understanding persons doesn't bring us closer to a solution, does it.'
'Yeah, it really doesn't help sometimes.' I've been taught the reasons why it's not allowed all my life, but this was the first time I was actually frustrated that it wasn't. It's been bothering me from the day we got together, but I'm not allowed until I'm eighteen, and that's little over a year from now. Am I going to wait until then? Waiting this out would purely be a test to see if the relationship would hold.
It's just too dangerous… if it won't hold, he's about the last person allowed to know of the color.
'Don't do it if you feel forced into it.' He must've noticed my doubt. To be honest, it's got to be really difficult not to notice the heart beating out of my chest at this point. If secret leaks out into the underworld through him… we won't be able to defend ourselves against the kind of contacts he most probably has. 'And especially don't do it if the pressure makes you this nervous.' I'm nervous because I've been drilled the reasons all my life, and the first time I want to go against them, all I can feel is anxiety. I either do this tonight, or I give in to what I've been taught and wait until I'm the right age, and I'm sure we will last. That is not a decision I can make. I felt his hands squeeze my waist a little, 'It's really alright, we'll just go to bed for tonight.'
'I'm sorry.' I let out a deep breath. I really can't make the decision, can I.
'Don't be, it's been a long day already.'
'No, I meant, if I'm going to show you this, I need the guarantee that we're going to stay together.'
'So that I won't betray you and your family?' I nodded, 'I'm sorry to say this, but… if I were to turn on you and your family at this point, it wouldn't really matter if you'd show them now or not.' A jolt went through me before he continued, 'Before I even asked you tonight, it was clear that it was an important secret to the family, and if I'd leave you now, I'd just work on trying to uncover why it is a secret.' That wasn't exactly making me feel more comfortable… 'But I'm not. I thought that it was clear by now that I'm not going anywhere. This is the longest I've ever been with someone and enjoyed it. I'm staying right here.'
'… …'
'I'm sorry if I've made you even more uncomfortable by saying-'
'There's still a light on, isn't there?' He didn't say anything after I interrupted him. I stopped the slight tremble, and pulled away from his chest. Lifting his hands to cup my face, he gently turned me to look at him. Although his words had made me beyond uneasy, he had a point. As such there was no real reason anymore to merely hide the color – which was only a novelty – and I just wanted to get rid of this stress.
I took a deep breath, opening my eyes to slits first, adjusting to the light. Somewhere, some words were stuck in the back of my throat, but I let them be, and opened my eyes at him completely.
I didn't really know what to expect from him when I did. But not that the first thing he did was making me close one of my eyes again so he could softly kiss it. He lingered close to me,
'Do you want to hear the cliché's? Or do you want me to tell you that I'm moved that you did this for me when you've never done it before?'
'No, please, tell me some cliché's, I need to laugh.'
'Well, that's not exactly what I'm aiming for.' He created a small distance again, and looked at me for a while, unblinkingly. 'But it's a beautiful color. They seem more alive than any other pair of eyes I've ever seen.' He massaged my skin a little with his thumbs, 'I could list off a thousand things that I find special about them just looking at them. Like that your pupils aren't completely round, and that it fascinates me, that their color seems to become more intense the longer I'm talking… … and please don't thank me for saying this, it would feel strange if you would.' I laughed a little when he said that, because I'd been on the brink of doing just that. It's been such a cause of stress my whole life, and he responds so calmly about it all. 'Ah, at least I've succeeded in making you laugh.'
'You idiot.'
'I told you I don't need thanks, calling me names is taking it a bit too far, don't you think.' I laughed a bit harder.
'This whole goddamn day is unbelievable, and you're still sitting naked on top of me.' I remarked, blushing a little.
'Well, I really didn't think my timing through a whole lot when asking you to do this.'
'You really didn't.' Liar. 'But let's just continue where we left off, please.' If only as a distraction to this event,
'Since you asked so kindly, I'm not questioning it.' He let go of my head, and pushed me back down on the matrass, laying himself a little better on top of me. I was still letting a whole lot of tension go… but… at least it's gonna go away now, and not in the least favorable way either.
He broke away a second to whisper in my ear though,
'If you'd like to, I can ride on top of you tonight?' He broke all of the tension with that single sentence,
'Goddamnit! Don't ask embarrassing stuff like that, just do it.' He laughed when I accidentally said that out loud, and didn't give me time to change my mind. Dear god, this damn guy…
A/N
Chrollo dragging Kurapika along into his depravity in a very unusual way.
Also fulfilling my fantasy of Kurapika being ridden instead of the other way around \o/
But yeah, no, taking advantage of Kurapika's good mood like that to drag information out of him that he shouldn't give...
Manipulative people have way too good an eye for timing xD
I will now go out in a thunderstorm to get groceries because apparently I need food to survive. Wish me luck on not getting struck down by lightning ;_;
