a/n; Sorry it's been a while since my last update. lot of things happened. D: I wrote this using my phone, so forgive me for the errors. I'm blind as f***. I'm quite sick tbh, but I did promise that I'll update as much as I can.. so please enjoy.

p.s. I was listening to U2's 'With or without you' while writing this one. OTL


CHAPTER TWELVE

"Ah, I'm so dead. Please let us rest for a while captain." Hinata laid his back on the cold gymnasium floor, while the rest of his teammates sat beside him. So far, the training they had was intense, even for the veteran players like Kageyama and the rest of the boys. Kenma on the other hand, quits the practice halfway through, and the others did not force him further since it is evident on his face that he reached his limit.

Their team breezed through eliminations, all thanks to Kageyama and Kenma; who somehow manages to play with each other despite the obvious irritation from the taller setter. They did not expect, however, that Kenma is also someone who gets fired up in the heat of the games. Maybe during practice, he isn't moving much and always complaining how it is a pain; especially towards Hinata who always misses his tosses. At the games, Kenma is as reliable as he can be.

"Three days from now, as you guys already know, we are competing against the team in Tokyo. And as always, we are going there. In case we won this round, we have to stay there for at least one week during the semifinal rounds. Then we will have to get back here, for the finals will take place two weeks after. I advise you guys, especially those who works to notify your employer of your schedules. If in case you need some official notice, tell us and we will have our Coach to make you one." the Team Captain looks compose and not at all tired like the rest of them. In the back of Kageyama's mind, he can't help but admire this man. Of course, Sawamura is one tough cookie as well. He stood besides the Captain just as compose as he is.

"It's back to your training. We'll close the gym in an hour, so make use of your time wisely. Let's go." the Captain addresses the last part to Sawamura and the two looked over their line up and talked to the Coach about the concerns they have about the stay over in Tokyo. Indeed, they have been doing well for the past years and the University considered giving them a bigger budget, but that is nearly not enough if you count the year round expenses.

"Ah, Kozume-kun. You grew up in Tokyo, right? Do you think you can help us out with the lodging? We can't waste our money on hotels. And we can't really let you guys stay on capsule hotels* when you guys are too tired playing the whole day." The coach said and while the others are practicing, they were listening to the conversation as well.

"Err. I can ask my mother to let us stay. But our house is not that big so we have to share some space. If that's okay with you guys." Kenma said. He is not oblivious to their need for money and since his mother is not always at home, he thought it would be fine if he offer their house for the stay.

"Eh? That would be great. Tell me how can I contact your parents and I'll talk to them personally. To send some money for the things needed to be prepared." the coach said and Kenma nodded.

"Kenma! We're going to your house? Can I see some picture of Kuroo? He he. I'll use that when he teases me again." Hinata said with a wide grin on his face and Kenma nodded, tightly gripping the ball on his palms.

Kuroo? Who the fuck is Kuroo? One particular raven is scowling in the corner while he tosses some balls to the second string players.


"Kageyama, don't wait for me. Kenma and I are meeting a friend and probably stay late for some drinks." Hinata said at the raven when they were changing clothes at their clubroom.

Kageyama just finished a quick shower and was applying deodorant while Hinata is half naked on the bench, drinking water.

"What're you staring at?" Hinata asked. It's not like it is unusual for someone in the clubroom to be in their boxers that he needs to be persecuted for his appearance.

"Where are you guys going? A hotel?" Kageyama asked and slips into his black t-shirt. Hinata finishes his drink before he answered. "We're meeting Kenma's friend or something like that.", he can't say it's Kenma's boyfriend they are meeting so he was vague about it.

"Don't get caught drinking. You're underage, we'll get in trouble." Kageyama reminded and leaned in for a surprise kiss. It's effective since Hinata was caught off guard. "You!" Hinata looks around and saw Yamaguchi wearing his shirt swiftly, his ears are red and his actions are clumsy. Obvious that he knew something about the two.

When the freckled face man left them, Hinata gave Kageyama a slap in the face.

"What the fuck was that?" Kageyama stroke his cheeks. The slap itself isn't as painful as it seems, but the fact that he received one from Hinata is a shock.

"I don't care how disgusting you see me, Kageyama. Quite frankly, I am disgusted at myself for fucking you and smiling so sweetly at Yachi. But I'm okay with it, miraculously. That's what I think. But please refrain doing something like this in broad light. I am not willing to throw a fight with a girl like her, I know no one in their right mind will side with me." Hinata slams his locker door after he gathered his things and dresses himself quickly.

"Yamaguchi is aware of our relationship." Kageyama tried to hold Hinata's hand and the other one swats it off.

"Did you also tell him that you threatened me to expose my past? Tell me that you will tell Kenma or everyone, rather, what shameful things I did? Did you let him know that you decided to put salt on my gaping wound?" Hinata didn't mean to be angry, he can't understand himself as well. All he knows is that he loves this man so much, yet he can't stand how he is being treated.

"I'm going to cool my head. See you." Hinata said and Kageyama just gritted his teeth and sat down on the bench as the redhead slams the door shut.

He sighs while he finger combs his hair when Kenma went inside the clubroom, hair wet from the showers, though he's already wearing his pants.

"Kenma, can I ask you a question?" Kageyama said and Kenma paused a bit to test the air. It seems like Kageyama is in a bad mood, and although he did want to say he wants to stay out of it, he got the feeling like saying no is not an option so he nodded meekly.

"What would you do when you find out that the love of your life is living a different life than you thought he did? Will you forgive them?" Kageyama is annoyed by how much Hinata thinks highly of this man, that he is even willing to throw away his pride to save his relationship with Kenma.

Kenma; for a fact, did not like what Kageyama's been doing to Hinata decided to say his piece.

"If you are talking about Hinata's porn gig, then the answer is I already forgave him. You know nothing of what he has been through, and what he is still going through. I don't judge him as much as I don't judge people who watches these kinds of videos."

Though Kenma's voice is soft, Kageyama felt the sharpness of pierce from it.

"What do you mean by that?" Kageyama stood up and grabs Kenma's collar, the tinier man, however, just stared at him with those eyes and the raven felt like he is being judged. Like Kenma knew all along that he still loves Hinata and he is acting like this because he's a sore loser.

"What the fuck are you staring at?" Kageyama let go, and Kenma resumed to fix his things at an unhurried pace. He was gone after a few minutes and Kageyama was left with his rage with nothing to burst it with.

"Fuck!"


"Shouyo, don't you think it's better to tell Kageyama the truth? I think your problems will be solved if you talk things out." Kenma said and Kuroo who is serving some meat on his lover's plate dropped his chopsticks on the dish, splashing some sauce on Hinata's sleeves.

Hinata shook his head while he wipes himself. "No, Kageyama is dating someone. Which means that I will just look desperate to be with him, and I don't want to add another embarrassing thing to my name. Ah, but if you think that it is a burden on you, then I will say we broke up and find someone else. Of course it is a bother, right?" Hinata scratches his face and peeks at Kuroo but the other one didn't mind it. They both understood Hinata's desperation so even though what the redhead did was all kinds of wrong, they went along for the sake of lessening Hinata's burdens. Kuroo finds it amusing though, that his lover is willing to put up with it. This is the first time Kenma likes someone other than him. If he didn't know how much Kenma loves him, he'll feel a bit jealous. But, Kenma is hopelessly in love with him. That's what Kuroo can guarantee, arrogantly.

"Chibi, let's have threesome." Kuroo said with a grin on his face and both Kenma and Hinata coughs and sputtered their food on the table. Luckily, their dishes wasn't on the trajectory of their spits.

"Kuroo." Kenma said and the taller guy wipes Kenma's mouth with a napkin before giving it a lick. Hinata is used to them being like this, and while Kenma is shy, he appreciates how Hinata doesn't judge his relationship with Kuroo.

"But you're a virgin, technically. Since we three are close enough, even letting Chibi be your pretend boyfriend.. Then don't you think we can do this? Something friends do." Kuroo continues to tease and Hinata ignores him. Sitting comfortably under the kotatsu while he eats the tasty meal. They are eating dinner at Kenma and Kuroo's place, which they often do whenever the older male receives his paycheck.

"I don't know if you are just trying to break the tension, but I won't bottom for you, Kuroo-san." Hinata said nonchalantly. He knew Kenma wouldn't like it, but what would he do if he does? Will he agree?

He shuddered at the thought.

"Then, I'll just watch and you guys have lesbian sex." Kuroo snickers and Kenma rolls his eyes and sighs. "Stop being disgusting." he added.

They finished their meals and soon after, Kuroo cleared the dishes while he left the two to discuss the things Hinata came in here for.

"This is all the evidence I could gather through the years I've been in their office. As you can see, they are also auctioning some underage girls, willing or unwillingly, to people with perverse sexual preference. Though I don't think this will help my case now, since this was taken 2 years ago. From what I understand, they change MO every time, even offices. I also talked to the other victims, but they were too scared of the consequences of their actions so they decided to keep their mouth shut." Hinata spreads out the sheets in front of Kenma and the other one reads the materials.

"I see. What about the porn studio?" Kenma said and Hinata shook his head. "They frisked us before and after and checks our things. So I couldn't get a hold of any evidence to incriminate them of forcing minors to record porn against their will. Plus, I don't think me saying I have recorded porn against my will is a credible story." Hinata gave the porn videos he made to Kenma and the other one accepts it without malice.

Kuroo by this time gave them coffee and sat on the bed, while the two are on the floor. They are living in a one living and dining room, so of course there won't be enough space for sofa and other stuff. It's been weeks since the two started gathering things to see if Hinata can win a case against the group who forced him from selling himself to porn. He knew Kenma is careful enough not to poke his nose where he shouldn't so he lets the two be.

Still, one of his condition to allow Kenma and Hinata do these things is to discuss it inside the safety of their home.

"Ne, Hinata. Why did you study Psychology then? Wouldn't it be better to pursue something like Kenma. Law?" Kuroo asked curiously and Kenma would like to know as well, so he paused for a bit to listen.

"I thought about it, but when I see the emotional stress it does and how little support we have for these people, I feel like I'm needed more in a field of counseling or something like that. But to be honest, I'm not sure myself either. All I know is that, I've seen far too many shits happening to keep my eyes close. More than anything, more than being able to reach justice, I want to reach out to people who have experienced the same things like me, on an emotional level. There was one phase where I think I'm so unclean, I wash myself a few times a day. And I can't even eat, there was no one I could talk to and I feel like I deserve what has happen with me." Hinata said, and while what he is saying is a sad thing, he is far from that. It is evident that he has accepted this and is trying to move on gradually.

"All because of Kageyama." Hinata said softly and his two friends heard him. "That's why the idiot is still on my mind. It's a love hate thing. He came at the time where I came to accept that porn is all I could do. And that I've been doing fine. When he loved me, I came to love myself a little bit."

Kuroo looks at him and sigh. "Then foursome it is."

Both Kenma and Hinata threw a pillow at the man's face.

"Yosh. I really think we should have some group sex. I bet it's fun to see Kenma struggle how to top you." Kuroo said and Hinata thought about it for a second before bursting out a laughter.

"Don't laugh. I can do it if I want to." Kenma pouts and the two laugh some more at his expense.


Kageyama received the call from Hinata saying he lost his key and he should just open the door for him. He is still watching a recorded match between their opponent from the previous year, so he decided to just wait for the redhead. However, each passing minute he grew anxious. Since Hinata spent the afternoon with Kenma. Of course, as lovers, it is inevitable that they did this and that.

The raven clicked his tongue, remembering what happened earlier between him and the pudding head. He got an unnecessary talking to from Kenma. But the biggest surprise of all is that Kenma already knows and accepts the fact the Hinata has a history with porn.

"What's up with that? How long have those two known each other for Kenma to imply he knows what Hinata has been through?" Kageyama paused and thinks of what he has said.

"Well, I supposed I didn't really took the time to know Hinata. Why he did what he did." Kageyama recalls the time when they were dating, that Hinata is always the one asking how he is. And he is always pouring his frustrations towards him while the other one listens to him.

"I suppose I wasn't an ideal lover as well." He cringe while he recalls the times when he's being a baby about everything and expects the redhead to nurse him.

He didn't know how many minutes have past, but all he knew that the recording he is suppose to review is already finished and the door suddenly opened. He clicked play as reflex and saw Hinata came inside. He expects him to still be angry. But the redhead greeted him with the same smile like before.

"Oh damn, my heart skips a beat there." Kageyama mutters while he assist Hinata with his things.

"I'm home, Tobio." Hinata said and it's obvious that the redhead's been drinking.

"Welcome home." Kageyama said as a conditioned reply and to his surprise, Hinata pounce on him and clings. "Ugh! You're heavy." Kageyama said.

"Carry me, I'm so tired." Hinata wraps his arms on Kageyama's shoulders and buried his face on the raven's neckline while he breathes in the scent. "As expected, your smell is the best." Hinata babbles and Kageyama felt his face got warmer.

"I..IDIOT!" He carried Hinata, with difficulty. He sat on the sofa first and lets the man clings to him while he lets Hinata sits on his lap.

"How much did you drink, idiot." Kageyama unfastens the button on Hinata's jacket and the other one shower his neck with wet kisses. He admits that he misses this kind of affection, when Hinata is drunk and acts like a spoiled kitten.

"Are we fucking?" Hinata asked when Kageyama lets the jacket fall to the floor.

"No! Geez, you drunkard. I'm just letting you rest. Come on, let's remove this too." Kageyama lifts the sweatshirt off Hinata and the said man obliges. Kageyama threw the cream colored shirt on the floor as well and Hinata immediately went in for a kiss. His fingers entangled in the silky coal black hair.

"Mhnn." the redhead moans when Kageyama tried to push him away. He is annoyed at the taste of alcohol from Hinata's mouth, since he isn't a fan of it to begin with.

"Hinata, just rest. Aren't you tired? You were in Kenma's apartment earlier, you must have had enough." Kageyama's voice tried to soothe Hinata, but the redhead keeps on touching the raven sensually, snaking his hands under the black T-shirt Kageyama is wearing.

"We didn't fuck. Kuroo wants threesome, I don't want to. Kenma said so too." Hinata nods as he speaks, like he is justifying an event which made Kageyama more confuse.

"Sounds like a kinky relationship." Kageyama finger combs Hinata's hair while he looks at his face.

"Kageyama, I like it when you do that.. More." Hinata's eyes are clouded with lust and Kageyama gulps at the pressing erection coming from the man on his lap.

Face to face, Hinata took Kageyama's fingers that's been playing with his hair and licks it. "Ngh." Kageyama can't help but shuddered at how hot Hinata's tongue is. The redhead continues to play with his fingers while his own hand traces Kageyama's lips.

He gently pushes his finger on Kageyama's mouth the both of them started sucking and swirling their tongues on the tangy tasting fingers.

"Kageyama, let me tie you up." Hinata said and Kageyama immediately shook his head. "No, you're drunk. We can just do that tomorrow. It'll be dangerous to do that since you might lose yourself in the sensation and hurt me or yourself in the process." Kageyama strokes Hinata's thigh, his breathing is obviously faster now since Hinata keeps grinding his hard penis on Kageyama's stomach.

"Tch. Do you promise to let me tie you up the next time? Probably play with your nipples too?" Hinata asked and the raven nodded.

The both of them whipped out their own penises and started stroking each other.

"Will you let me insert at least a toy inside you?" Hinata asked with his whisper voice, breathing audibly as if to tease the man and Kageyama paused for a bit before agreeing.

"Nghn.. Kage..Kageyama, I kinda want you to fuck me senseless.. But I.. Guess it's bad. And I can't last long.. too.. Ah." Hinata said while he digs his nails at Kageyama's back. The raven removes his shirt so he can at least feel the redhead's skin.

Hinata leans in, and right before he gave Kageyama a kiss, he licked his own lips to wet it and his free hand played with the raven hair.

The kiss itself is sweet, slow and sensual. The kind of kiss that takes patience to give. A small bite, the sucking of the lower lip, the slow thrust of his tongue inside the raven's mouth. Kageyama's penis grew harder and hotter from Hinata's palm and the redhead can sense that Kageyama is feeling it from the petting.

Hinata lets Kageyama froth both of their penises while he gives Kageyama a massage at his shoulder. He circles his thumb with it and moans in the kiss. He then spits inside the mouth of the raven and the other one retaliate by spitting in Hinata's mouth as well. Kageyama likes how dirty and messy Hinata is when it comes to sex, even before he knew the his past. He likes how Hinata pay attention to his needs, how Hinata traces his back, letting him feel the goosebumps on the redhead's skin when he play with his own nipples. How Hinata begs some more, and how Hinata's eyes is filled with tears every touch he does.

The redhead grinds his hips so they can have more friction and he lets go of the kiss. Hugging the raven, Hinata buried his face on its neck while he pants and moans.

"You sound so damn sexy." Kageyama said while he shuddered from his leaking pre-cum. Hinata teases him and licks Kageyama's ear. "Why thank you." He answers, and breathes on Kageyama's neck.

"Kageyama… I'm cumming." Hinata's body shook and Kageyama leaned back to see Hinata's tip leaked with the white hot cum. "Ah.." Kageyama moans when he is reaching his climax as well, seeing and feeling Hinata's cum all over his own hard member. His lips search Hinata's and he bit the lower lip of the man on his lap while he rides out his orgasm.

Hinata embraces Kageyama tightly and the other one receives it. They both were silent for some time, smelling each others hair, kissing, and gazing at each others eyes. Their kisses where now longer, and the hugs were tighter than earlier. Like they were gauging to see if they can opt for another round. Hinata hugged the raven though, and sigh audibly.

Kageyama was the first one to move, wiping himself on the bathroom while he gets a towel for Hinata. He carried him to the bed and lets him rest his head on the soft pillows. He wipes Hinata cum filled stomach clean, and gets another clean towel to wipe the redhead's body.

"This feels nice." Hinata said, while his eyes are close. Breathing with satisfaction from Kageyama's caring attitude towards him. The raven then tucked Hinata under the covers and sleeps beside him. He was ready to roll to his side when Hinata placed his head on Kageyama's chest, and snuggled with him. Giving the raven a lovely surprise.

Kageyama felt all kinds of emotions flowing in him, especially since he just heard Hinata earlier saying something about a threesome, yet he went ahead and feel the redhead up. And now his fingers are playing with the familiar hair, that weight on his chest he longed to feel again. He can't help but feel sad and happy at the same time. Without much thought, Kageyama kissed the top of Hinata's head.

"I'm such a masochist. It's freaking scary." He whispered and hugged the redhead, safely cradling him in his arms. How I miss this. Damn it. I think I can't take much more of this. I need to end this soon. Kageyama said while he strokes Hinata's hair, like he used to do.

Kageyama, I'm sorry. I'm only pretending to be drunk. I just want to be willful to you, just like before. Please understand how much I love you, that's why I have to lie.

Hinata clutched Kageyama's shirt tighter and drifted to sleep as well.


a/n; A capsule hotel (カプセルホテル kapuseru hoteru) is a type of hotel developed in Japan that features a large number of extremely small "rooms" (capsules) intended to provide cheap, basic overnight accommodation for guests who do not require the services offered by more conventional hotels. I experienced sleeping in one, and it's small. LOL my height is 182.88cm.. the capsule is small for me. But is was drunk that time, and there are no trains anymore. BTW, taxis are expensive so it's best to wait for trains in the morning. and these capsule hotels are perfect for this type of situation. No girls are allowed though. If you're a girl.. you will get turned down.

anyways.. sorry for this update. I did my best, but I guess my best wasn't good enough, cause here we are back where we were before.. seems nothing ever changes.. we're back to being strangers..

[you sang that, didn't you? :P]