Chapter 12 : Pride and confusion.

Sh's POV.

I was still stuck on his lips when the thought popped on my mind: Sharpay are you really kissing him ? Are you really kissing your own twin brother ? Yeah I was...But as weird as it happens I enjoyed it because deep down I knew what I was doing first of, and then I enjoyed it because it was him I deserved better than other boys that I'd always known. Still, I broke the sweet and oh my ! Forbidden contact and made for Carla's room. I was mean, leaving him alone with his thoughts...But be that as it may, I had to be left alone but no sooner had I been in the chamber that my daughter appeared by the entrance staring at me.

" Mom...What is it ? Is something wrong?"

I always was stunned when my cute little girl talked to me because she was so young but at the same time old in her head and by the way she spoke.

" No sweetie it's grown up's problem that's all. You wouldn't unde..."

No sooner had I finished my sentence that she interrepted me mid-phrase.

" Mommy, I know I'm young but I'm witty and understanding and above all I've earned your cleverness. I know that you and Daddy..Hum..Uncle Ryan often argue these past days. Sure I don't know about what, but I see that."

" Hum...Yeah...Carla...I...I'm astonished by what you've just said to me. It's true still what you've told but nevertheless what's between me and Uncle Ryan only affects us not you. It doesn't affect our love towards you one bit." I replied proud of her.

I made her sit on my lap and began to caress her hair and asked her a question:

" Do you what's your lastname dear ?"

" Of course Mom you always told me I'm Carla Denceforth and you are Sharpay Evans and Uncle Ryan's Ryan Evans. So what ?"

I glanced at her and smiled quite frankly (witted but still young).

" So what can you make of that?"

" Ryan's not my daddy. You've always told me so."

" That's right dear. You surely...No nothing. Drop it. How about me fetching you something to eat and drink."

She glared at me – my own daughter – and decided to drop the case (Thank God) and the both of us went downstairs. I did not know what Ryan was doing, if he was still in my chamber or outside or in his own bedroom I didn't care a bit (I pretended I didn't). I, for, one was locked up in my pride and my confusion. Too confused about him and about what had happened in my bathroom a bit earlier in the evening. I made for Chad when Gabriella grabbed my arm.

" Say Sharpay, where's Ry ?"

I stayed speechless...How dare she call him that ? I was the one who could only ever call him 'Ry'. Oh Jealousy.

" Dunno Gabriella."

And I tried to head to Chad, but Gabriella kept my arm onto her hold.

" I saw you went upstairs you seem to be the only one he'd been seen with."

What was that ? An inquiery ? Oh boy I hated that black-haired gril...

" Yes but anyway if you want to see 'Ry' you just have to go looking for him I'm not his mother but her...Sis...Her...Sister, for Pete's Sake !"

I was out of control...But she had it coming. She called him 'Ry' first and then she made that sort of inquiery and she also made veiled reference...Hints..That were not so false after all. But anyway she had it coming !

At long last I arrived at his side. When he saw me he smiled and offered me a drink (not again...please...). I declined it and forced myself to smile.

" Chad...How's your evening ? Enjoying yourself so far ?"

" So far so good Sharpay thanks".

He kept that truthful smile of his and gently kissed me on the cheek. I was startled.

" Oh...What was that for Chad ?"

" I wanted to."

I didn't recognize him, it was too much for me. I began to lean in but inside me the voice of Ryan kept saying ' No Shar it is our kiss don't do that don't '. I immediately retreated from him adding a fake smile.

" What's wrong Sharpay?"

" I don't even know..." I retorted painfully.

At that moment my head was in a whirl. I took a very important decision.

" Chad I've got to unload what I have in my chest".

" Whenever you want gril." He said in a kinky-like voice.

I snorted angrily understanding his meaning.

" Not that you dumbass."