I was away yesterday, and I will be for the newt days, so this is the chapter 12. I hope you'll enjoy it.

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The phone's alarm rang, Spencer sought under the fingertips. His head was like a balloon: noise, conversations, and ... subway. When he returned he had pressed the scene dozens of times before going to bed with a lot of drugs.
And yet, here, despite the night, he saw himself in the metro with Asma who asked:
"Do you believe in God, Spencer Reid? "

He remembered that he said nothing at first and then he articulated an explanation of the invention of God by men, this notion that maybe God did not create man in his image, but rather the reverse, for reassurance to control the world around humans. And he wanted to start telling the history of religions, polytheism, monotheism, until recent sects, and she had let him speak. When he finished, the metro came to the station, where she went down then she said:
"And you? What do you believe ? "
And the doors were closed behind her, leaving Reid alone with himself, and only deal with this issue that he never really wanted to ask ... God.

He was, of course, born into a family of Christian traditions but no one around him had never really practiced except Christmas, Easter, and other small parties placed here and there, and divided the calendar holidays, but it remembered he had also celebrated Halloween a pagan holiday ... whatever monitoring Toussaint where he went flourish family members. But he felt it was relevant? Were there a moment believed in God? He had looked in the mirror and began to recite from memory the first sentence of the Old Testament:
"In the beginning God created the heavens and the earth. The earth was formless and empty, darkness was over the surface of the deep, and the Spirit of God was hovering over the waters. God said: Let there be light! And there was light. "

He remained there, standing in front of his reflection to ask if he believed or not ... Was he one of those atheists who saw in the Sacred Texts that folklore when it was not the biggest lie of Creation.

Could you really be an enlightened man decently if you believe in God? Some philosophers have abandoned God, as Diderot, the author of the first encyclopedia ... yes but ... Voltaire, he believed. He did not believe in the Christian God, nor the Muslims, but he believed in God, he was a deist. Perhaps he aw too... He had never asked if anyone was above all that and if there was a heaven, a hell, all very difficult to understand for such a rational mind things. Especially when we saw all the horrors in his work ... Should he think that if God existed he was able to let these things happen? If he was there why did not he intervene?
He had thought of his colleagues, Prentiss had a bad experience with the Church, Morgan no longer believed since he was abused, and Rossi was still attached to the parish ... Perhaps he has to talk with him.

He got out of bed and headed for the shower, the cold water woke his muscles and he hoped it would clarify his ideas but also he found dressed and took his coffee without the answer came to him. God ... What a story. And if it came to the question is that doubt to believe but it certainly gave him a glimpse of possibility that this is still the case ... How ironic.

He went to the office with the intention to talk with David Rossi.

"What happens Reid? "Asked the officer who had replaced Gideon in team.
"I want to talk about a problem. "Reid mumbled hoping they could find a secluded place to discuss.
Agent David Rossi looked and decided to bring in his office, the pale face of the young man left him almost think he had seen a ghost.
"A cup of coffee? "He suggested, pointing to his own coffee.
"Thank you. "He replied.
The brownish liquid flowed into his cup.
"You'll finally taste the real coffee. "
Reid smiled and took the steaming cup.
"So what do you talk about? "Asked Rossi.
Deciding not revolve around the subject, the young man replied:
"God. "
Rossi set his cup on his desk and looked at him, until he explains why.
"I want to know, how can we still believe in God when we do our work. "
Rossi was silent, he sought his response, and then he opened his mouth.
"God is not there to make us live in a perfect world, he gave us something to create a perfect world and it is why we have to make our own decisions. As in the work we do: the good guys, bad guys, all at one time had a choice, and chose to do evil, or to prevent it. "

Reid did not know if this answer satisfied him but he thanked his friend and finishes his cup. He stood up and walked to the door
"Reid ... Look in yourself, you are the only one who can know... No one else will tell you whether you believe or not. "
He gave him a look and left the office without saying anything when he found JJ

"Hey! Spence, nice to see you, we have to go to the meeting room... Something to work on."