A/N: I wrote 3 different versions of this chapter and hated every single one. For the sake of continuing on with more imperative parts of the story, however, I chose the least terrible version to publish. If you find punctuation or grammar errors please let me know! I usually go back through and reread the chapters, but some stuff still slips past me. Anyway, enjoy!

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Waiting Game -BANKS


In my dreams, Bella was naked and writhing beneath me. Her hair splayed out around her, her face flushed, lips parted as she moaned my name. She was begging me for more. Her long, silky legs were wrapped around my waist, pulling me in deeper. I watched her full, luscious breasts bounce in the glow of the moonlight than shone through my bedroom window. Her entire body rocked from the force of my hips. The scent of her invading my senses and making me dizzy. I could feel her nails raking down my back, surely leaving marks, but I didn't mind. Her head was thrown back and her eyes were tightly shut as she came around me.

"Edward," She moaned, "Edward wake up."

A small warm hand came in contact with my bare skin of my back beneath my shirt and it felt lovely. I was doing better pleasing her than I anticipated. I didn't want to leave dream Bella, I wanted to keep going, I wanted to give her more.

The warmth of her body left me as I stirred awake. Real Bella's hand slid across my back, tickling me lightly with her fingertips. I felt the mattress dip under her weight as she crawled into bed beside me. She laid her head down on the pillow and faced me. I was lying on my stomach; my head already turned her direction as I cracked one eye open to see her. It was dark in my bedroom so I couldn't see much more than just the outline of her body. Besides the dark, I'd fallen asleep with my glasses on which smudged the glass a bit, making everything blurry.

I didn't realize I'd fallen asleep so quickly. I was going to do some homework, then sleep, but my body had other plans. I let out a yawn, careful to bury it in my pillow.

"Hi." I whispered, turning back to her again.

"Hi." She replied just as quietly. Her hand moved up my arm and down again, giving me goosebumps. I wanted to ask her what time it was, but I didn't want to deter her from whatever she had planned for us tonight.

A few minutes passed while she lightly rubbed my arm before I felt myself slipping back into sleep again. I registered the shift of her body as she sat up beside me and heard some rustling before she laid back down again. I hummed in contentment as I felt her hand on my back again. I'd never been touched so many times in a few days as I had been lately. I could get used to it.

Suddenly the small warmth of her hand was replaced with hot heat as she pushed my shirt up and settled her body on my back. I immediately realized she topless as the heat was too intense for her to have been clothed. Her soft breasts pressed tightly against my shoulder blades. I was more than awake after my realization, but I made no attempt to move or speak.

I felt her hot mouth on my skin as she pressed soft kisses along my neck. Gently, she tilted my head to expose my jaw and trailed kisses down until she reached my lips. I returned her kiss but didn't open my mouth when her tongue prompted me to for fear of morning breath. She didn't push it, thankfully. It felt like an eternity of lazy kisses before Bella grew bored and climbed off me.

She laid down beside me again, keeping herself up with her left elbow. I felt a soft shove on my arm, signaling to turn over, which I obliged to. I rolled onto my back and prepared myself for the unexpected. Bella straddled me again, settling herself just above my groin. Her upper body leaned over my face, brushing one of her hardened nipples across my mouth. I was stunned and unsure of how to proceed. I'm not dumb, I knew she probably wanted me to pull it into my mouth, but I had never in my life been faced with this, so give me a break.

Perhaps she sensed my nervousness or uncertainty, because she pulled on my chin gently with her thumb, successfully opening my mouth. I leaned forward just a little to take her nipple between my lips. Bella took a sharp intake of air at my action, encouraging me further. I tired to be as gentle as I could with her as I sucked. She seemed to be enjoying it, I think, although I was unsure if I was doing it right. I continued to suck until she pulled away and grazed her other nipple against my lips. This time I darted my tongue out, flicking it in the hopes she'd like this better. I was rewarded for my efforts with a small mewl of pleasure. I decided to take another chance by reaching up and cupping the sides of her breasts. They were so incredibly soft and had a decent weight to them. I moved from one nipple to the other, sucking and flicking my tongue across them. Bella moaned in approval, making my ego swell. I smiled around her right nipple, teasing it with my tongue again in hopes of eliciting more sounds from her.

She pulled back up to a sitting position as she looked down at me. I could barely see her face, but I could make out the curves of her body. She had a gorgeous hourglass figure that I couldn't help myself but run my hands over. She hummed at my touch. I pulled my glasses off and placed them on my bedside table. I couldn't see in the dark of the room anyway.

Bella grabbed the hem of my shirt that was bundled under my neck and tugged, signaling she wanted it off. I sat up, allowing her to pull my shirt over my head and toss it into the darkness. We were chest to chest as she straddled my lap. She lightly trailed her hands up my arms, her touch light as a feather. When she reached my shoulders, she snaked her arms up and around my neck. Her nose brushed mine, making her giggle lightly. I smiled in return. I love the sound of her laughter.

Her lips pressed softly against mine. I could tell she wanted more but I shook my head.

"Morning breath." I mumbled, running my hands down her naked back.

"You taste fine." She breathed as a reply, taking my lips again more forcefully. I gave her what she wanted, parting my lips to allow her access. She deepened the kiss, plunging her tongue into my mouth. She tasted amazing, like vanilla and cherries. I joked to myself that perhaps she had ice cream for dessert cause she tasted like Ben and Jerry's.

Our lips and tongues met over and over. I couldn't tell you how long this went on, it felt like hours. My heart felt like it was about to burst from pure excitement. Electricity coursed through my body, making every nerve ending a livewire. She must have felt it too as her body shivered in my arms. I pulled her closer, bringing us back down to the bed.

My hands roamed her body for a while as we continued our assault on each other. I'd almost forgotten about the pressure in my groin until Bella began grinding on it. The friction both satisfied me and made me crave more. I was forced to pull away from our kisses to pant for air. Bella took the opportunity to continue trailing hot, wet kisses down my neck and chest, only stopping when she reached my stomach. Her tongue darted out to give a lick to the skin just above my jeans, making me gasp.

"Bella." I wheezed out. She looked up, never looking away as her hands found the button of my jeans. My mind immediately jumped to my earlier thoughts about Bella's intentions. She must want sex, right? Was I capable of doing this now…here? I had no protection, no idea as to whether Bella was a virgin too or not, I didn't even have time to mentally prepare.

She was unzipping my jeans and asking me to lift my hips with a tug on my jeans. Should I comply? Should I say something? I knew for sure I didn't want to ruin the moment, but how far was I willing to go so quickly?

With uncertainty, I assisted Bella in sliding off my jeans, but before she could pull on my boxers, I grabbed her hand.

"Bella, stop." I begged. She couldn't see me, but I hoped she'd hear the desperation in my voice. Thankfully she did and pulled her hands away. She sat back on my thighs.

"What's wrong?" She asked softly. I didn't want to disappoint her. I knew I was acting like a loser, I'd just had a sex dream about her for Christ's sake, but I couldn't help the way I felt. Any guy would happily take my place right now…but the thought of losing my virginity so soon was nerve racking. I took a deep breath as I struggled to steady my breathing. It was honestly kind of difficult to focus on anything with Bella's hands so close to where I need them, but I tried anyway.

"I-I…" I stuttered, mentally cursing myself for sounding so fucking lame, "I…. can't have…sex…. right now."

I was sure I'd killed the mood when Bella didn't reply immediately. She made no move to leave though, so I waited patiently for her to gather her thoughts.

"Well um…" Bella started slowly, "I wasn't planning on that…tonight, but can I ask why?" Oh. I felt ridiculous. I felt my face heat up with embarrassment and was instantly grateful for the cover of night that kept Bella from seeing me.

"I…I am…I'm a virgin. I-I just can't, not yet." I felt like a teenage girl. Here I am, a 20 something year old man with a hot girl on my lap and I'm begging her not to have sex with me. Why am I like this?

"I'm sorry. I know what you're probably thinking, and I don't blame you if—" I was attempting to apologize before she cut me off with her lips. She molded her warm mouth to mine in a soft kiss that calmed my nerves.

"Shhh…" she shushed me as she pulled back, hovering her naked body over mine, "It's okay, Edward. I won't do anything without your permission."

Her voiced soothed something deep inside me and suddenly the weight I'd felt was lifted. I nodded and received another kiss from her. She sat back again, pulling her warm hands down my stomach.

"Do you want to keep going?"

That was a loaded question. Of course I wanted to keep going, but my fear of inadequacy stopped me from answering her right away. I wanted to be enough to satisfy her, but I was afraid…

I nodded slowly, hoping she'd see so I wouldn't have to open my mouth to answer as I'm sure my voice would be no louder than a squeak. She must have seen as she then continued what she had started and slowly pulled my boxers down.

"Is this okay?"

"Mhm."

Her warm hands trailed down my hips and legs until she'd completely removed the final piece of clothing. I was completely exposed to Bella. My heart was racing, not from excitement this time, but from nerves. The insecurities rushed through my head, consuming me. I was considering jumping up and running out of the room, but Bella's soft touch brought me back down. I mentally shook the nerves away and promised myself I'd be a man about this. One hand on my thigh, she inched closer to my erection.

"Can I?" Could she? Say yes. Please say yes. I tried so hard to shake the negative thoughts from my head and just enjoy what was happening. I'd be dreaming about this since I met her and now of course, I was clamming up.

"Y-yes." Way to be a man, Edward.

With my permission, Bella slid her hand up my thigh. A lone finger reached out to slide down the side of my shaft before I her hand wrap around me. I involuntarily jerked up, keeping myself propped on my elbows as I watched her. The moonlight outlined her body and her hair, but I still couldn't see what she was doing to me.

"Okay?" she asked, slowly stroking her hand up to the tip and back down again. I let out a sigh at the pleasure. Having someone else touch you felt a million and a half times better than when you touch yourself.

"Yeah." I sighed again, closing my eyes as I focused on the sensations. Her hand was slowly stroking me from base to tip. Her thumb swiping the head for precum and using it as a lubricant to bring back down. It was so good.

"I can't get my whole hand around you, Edward. You're too thick." She whispered. Was this real life? Bella thinks I'm thick. A pressure swelled in my chest at her comment…I recognized it as pride. Even if she was just being nice, it still felt good to hear.

Her actions continued for a little while before she shifted closer and hovered over my dick.

"Can I please taste you?" She asked, opening her mouth to expose her little pink tongue. I nodded violently, probably looking like a crazy person, but I didn't care. She smiled in approval as she took a long swipe of me with her tongue.

"Oh GOD." I cried out, my head falling back and eyes closing. She did it again, taking one long lick from the base to the tip where she lightly sucked my head.

"Mmm is this okay?" she teased, sliding her mouth down my cock and pulling back up again. The electricity pringled in my fingertips and spine, spreading throughout my body. Bella didn't wait for an answer as she continued greedily working me with her mouth. I forced myself to open my eyes so I could watch her head bob but the sight was too much and I quickly shut my eyes again.

"Bella." I moaned. My chest was heaving to keep up my oxygen intake with the rate at which my heart was pumping blood. Her hot, wet mouth slid up and down, sucking and licking. Her right hand held me up at the base as her mouth swirled around me. I suddenly wished I could take back everything I told Bella about not wanting to have sex. If it felt like this but better, I wanted it.

Her body shifted, settling herself between my legs to get into a more comfortable position. My hands gripped the sheets beneath me hard. Another few minutes passed, and I really thought I was about to lose myself when she suddenly pulled her mouth off me. I whined at the loss, opening my eyes to look at her.

She laughed lightly, gathering her hair in her hands to push behind her shoulders. She moved from between my legs to the spot next to me.

"I want to deep throat you, is that okay?" She asked giddily. Fucking hell, she could do that? I squeaked out a yes as I prepared to venture, once again, into new sexual territory.

"Okay, lay on your side, facing me." She instructed, which I followed. She scooched down the bed so that her face was eye level with my dick again, but this time we were both on our sides. She grabbed my cock with her hand, giving it a few strokes before looking up at me.

"Let me know if its too much. Otherwise, do whatever feels natural to you." She bent down to give my shaft a few light licks. I very much enjoyed when my cock rested on her face. Jesus I was fucked up.

"What do you mean?" I questioned, never taking my eyes from her.

"I mean if you feel like grabbing my hair or thrusting into my throat, go ahead." She said nonchalantly. I was taken aback at her words.

"Ready?" She asked, taking me back into her mouth again. Honestly, she could ask me anything in this position and I'd be compliant. If she wanted my entire life savings, I'd give it to her. I was a pool of jello. I told her yes, and before I knew it, Bella was angling her head and neck to take me into her throat. I don't have the words to describe how it felt, all I can say is it was fucking amazing. Her throat was tight around the base of my dick, squeezing and massaging me. I cursed as my left hand flew to the top of Bella's head so I could tangle my fingers in her soft hair. She seemed to like that as she picked up the pace and made sexy as hell little gagging sounds.

"Fuuuck." I groaned in response to her noises. Bella was gagging on my cock. Fucking fuck. My dick felt hard as concrete at this point. I'd never been so turned on in my life…but then again, every experience I had with Bella resulted in me saying that. She pulled her mouth off me after a few moments just to take a gasp of air before returning. I couldn't believe this was happening.

"Bella, I'm not gonna last." I warned her through tightly clenched teeth. The pleasure was intensifying every second, winding up that coil in my stomach that was threatening to spring loose. Her lips squeezed around my base and made a slurping sound in response. Did she want me to...in her mouth…?

I felt the urge to take her grow stronger. I wanted her body so fucking bad, I wanted to pull her mouth off me, bend her at the waist and let her feel deep inside how hard she made me. I felt a gross, animalistic urge to dominate and punish her. I bet she was so tight, I desperately wanted to see for myself. It wasn't like me to have these thoughts, and a small part of me felt disgusted with myself, but I beat that part down as I focused on the moment we were in. My grip in her hair tightened. I held her head, stilling her bobbing actions. Her eyes opened and flashed up to mine in a silent question. I timidly began moving my hips, thrusting my cock in and out of her throat on my own. With her question answered, Bella's eyes closed again. The more I did it, the more confident I became. I thrust slowly at first, careful not to hurt her before I tested a little more intensity. Soon I had a steady rhythm going, making Bella gag a little again. She never moved away or made any indication to stop, so I continued, but always watched her for any sign of distress. The sounds that filled the room almost completely undid me. The wet, slurping sound of Bella's lips around me, her hums, her gags, and the sound of my pelvis slapping into her face over and over. What did completely undo me, finally, was the smile that formed on Bella's lips as they were wrapped around my cock. Something about her enjoying herself while she did this to me was where I reached my peak.

"Bellaimgonnacum." I called out in a grunt as I tried to pull myself back, but her hand flew to my ass, pulling me in deeper. She wanted me to cum in her mouth. I exploded with that knowledge, unraveling like someone pulling a string on a ball of yarn until I was completely empty.