Please read A/N at the end...
Chapter Seven
I yanked open the door and slammed it shut. I got in my car and as I drove to the hospital, I let out the tears that I had been holding back and I sobbed the whole drive there.
What have I done?
You used to talk to me like
I was the only one around.
You used to lean on me like
The only other choice was falling down.
You used to walk with me like
We had nowhere we needed to go,
Nice and slow, to no place in particular.
We used to have this figured out;
We used to breathe without a doubt.
When nights were clear, you were the first star that I'd see.
We used to have this under control.
We never thought.
We used to know.
At least there's you, and at least there's me.
Can we get this back?
Can we get this back to how it used to be?
I parked my car and ran through the parking lot to the front door of the hospital. I swung open the door and nodded to the night guard as I ran passed him. He knew I was Carlisle's son and that my daughter was in the hospital so he didn't question why I was there at almost four in the morning.
The elevator ride up to the fourth floor took forever. When it finally stopped, I got off and jogged to Lizzie's room. As soon as I got there I could here her sobbing.
"I want my daddy," she said.
"I know my angel," I heard my Mom say to her. "He's coming, I promise."
I pushed the door open and walked right over to her bed. "Daddy's here baby," I said as I sat down on her bed.
"Daddy," she said as she released my Mom and latched on to me.
I took her in my arms and held her close. "It's okay Lizzie, daddy's here now." I said stroking her hair and then looked to my Mom. "I got her, thanks for calling me."
"I felt so bad Edward, I didn't know how to comfort her," my Mom said.
"Its okay," I replied. "You should go home, I'm sure you're exhausted. I'll stay with her."
"Are you sure? I can stay?"
"I'm sure," I said. "I'll see you later on."
"Okay dear," she said as he kissed my cheek and then Lizzie's. "Good night."
After my Mom left, I shifted Lizzie so I could get into bed with her. I rested over the blanker as she curled in next to me under the blanket. Her little head rested on my chest as I rubbed her back.
"Did you have a bad dream angel?" I asked her.
"Yeah," she sobbed. "Real bad."
"I'm sorry about that," I said. "Daddy wont let anything hurt you, you know that."
"Daddy, sing to me please."
"Sure thing baby," I said. I choked back tears as I sang to her.
I've got sunshine on a cloudy day
When its cold outside
I've got the month of May
I'd guess you say
What could make me feel this way
My girl, my girl, talking bout my girl.
As I sang our favorite song to her, I could feel her relaxing in my arms. It never failed, that song always made her feel better when she was upset. I kissed her forehead and leaned back on the bed. She snuggled in closer to me and before I knew it, I was asleep next to her.
The next day came and I was once again sitting in the chair by Lizzie's bed. My dad had come in with a cup of coffee for me.
"Thanks," I said as I took it from him.
He sat down across from me in the other chair. "You know Bella asked me for your address last night before she left. I hope you don't mind that I gave it to her."
I looked at my dad and sighed. "She came over last night with a pizza."
"Oh, well that was kind of her," he said. "So you all just ate?"
"And talked," I said knowing my dad was not being very subtle in his questions.
"Did you have a good talk?"
"She explained everything to me," I said. "Seems Charlie had quite a hold on her. He basically told her if she told me she was pregnant he would have me arrested for rape."
"Well Chief Swan was always ruthless," he said. "So that's the reason Bella left… to protect you?"
"I guess you could look at it that way," I said. "It still hurts that I didn't know about Masen."
"I know Edward, but Bella was only thinking of you and your future it seems," he said.
"I know dad," I agreed.
"So you ate pizza and talked… anything else?"
"Dad what are you implying?"
"I'm not implying anything son," he said. "I just want you to have a clear head and not let past activities cloud your judgment. I know you're a grown man… I just want you to be careful son."
"Is that why you gave her my address?" I asked. "Were you testing me?"
Little did he know I completely failed.
"Of course not, Edward," he said. "You both needed to talk, she asked for your address, and I gave it to her… no underlying agenda."
I looked over at him with a cocked eyebrow. "I know there is a lot to figure out between Bella and I and last night made that so much more apparent."
I sipped my coffee and remembered how I left things with Bella. I was so confused about everything. Making love to Bella last night was so amazing. It made me feel alive for the first time in six years years, but it was also very confusing, as we now have to deal with the aftermath of our night together.
Would she leave again? Would she stay? I wasn't sure I could bear losing her for a second time in one lifetime. And I had to think of Lizzie, I couldn't welcome Bella into her life if she was only going to leave again. My mind was in a million directions and it was giving me a headache.
A couple hours later, my Mom came back to the hospital with fresh baked chocolate chip cookies, which Lizzie managed to eat one. We were sitting in her room when my dad came in to let us know Bella and Masen had arrived. I swallowed a huge lump in my throat as I walked out into the hall with my mother. My father had to go do his rounds but before he left, I saw Masen give him a high five.
"Hi," Bella said when she saw me.
"Hey," I said back. She looked just as tired as me.
I felt like such a dick. I straightened up and cleared my throat.
I could see my mother looking at each of us and I knew she could tell something was up.
"Hi Bella, its nice to see you again," my mother said trying to change the air.
"You as well Esme, although I wish it was under better circumstances."
"Hi buddy, " I said to Masen as I knelt down to his level. "Did you sleep okay last night?"
"Yeah I slept okay," he said.
My mother looked down to Masen. "So who is this handsome young man?"
"Oh sorry," I said as I got up from my knee. "Mom I'd like for you to meet Masen. Masen this is my Mom, so that would make her your grandmother."
"Its very nice to meet you Masen?" Esme said.
"You too," he said. "What do I call you? I already have a Grandma."
"Well, Lizzie calls me Nana, so how about that? Or you can call me Esme, whatever makes you comfortable."
"I like Nana," he said.
"Then Nana it is," she said. I could see my mother looking at Bella and I again. "Uh… so Masen do you like chocolate chip cookies?" He nodded. "Well why don't you come in and see Lizzie and I'll get you a couple?"
Esme took Masen's hand and then patted my shoulder. Once they were in the room, Bella and I were left alone. There was some awkward silence before I spoke.
"How are you?" I asked her.
"I'm okay," she said. "I didn't know when would be a good time to bring him here. He's been up for hours asking me when we were going to go. I thought I'd give you some time."
"Its fine Bella, anytime would have been fine," I said. I lowered my head and ran my fingers though my hair.
"Edward… about last night…" she started.
Fuck.
"I'm sorry I left in a hurry," I said.
"No that's okay, Lizzie needed you, but I… I mean last night was…"
I fought back tears as I spoke.
"I'm sorry, I shouldn't have let it go that far," I said cutting her off. I could feel my heart breaking. "It was just a moment of need between us, lets not make it into anything else."
What I really wanted to say was I love you and I miss you, but my pride and fear got in my mouth.
"Do you realty think that's all it was?" She asked in barely a whisper.
I looked at her, her cheeks were flushed, and I could tell she was holding back her own tears.
I was about to answer her, but then we both heard my Mom screaming from Lizzie's room. Masen ran out of the room and came up to me.
"Lizzie… she can't breathe," he said.
I bolted up from my chair and ran into her room. Bella grabbed a hold of Masen and held him back.
When I got to Lizzie she was coughing so hard and wheezing for air.
"Lizzie, its okay," I said as I tried to comfort her but then the alarm on her monitor started going off and her little body went stiff. "Lizzie!"
In a matter of seconds, three doctors including my dad and two nurses ran into the room.
"Dad, what the hell is going on?" I shouted.
"Stand back Edward," he shouted and then I felt a nurse push me out of the way.
"Mr. Cullen you need to stand back," she said to me.
I didn't want to move, but I had no choice. The monitor was blaring and all of the sudden I heard a long beep.
"No!" I screamed.
"She's coding!" I heard a doctor shout.
"No!" I screamed again.
By that time, my Mom had gone out in the hall with Bella and Masen and as I heard the flat line, I felt Bella run up to me and wrap her arms around me as my tears poured out of me. I held on to her with all my strength as I continued to hear the long beep.
That was the same sound I heard six year ago when Kate died.
"Oh god, Lizzie!" I screamed again as I sobbed. Bella held me tightly in her arms.
I watched as the doctors worked on my little girl. I screamed out when I saw them put the defibrillators paddles to her and her tiny chest and then she rose off the bed when they shocked her.
"Charge to 300," I heard one of the doctor's say. "Clear."
Nothing, the long beep continued.
"Come on, charge to 350," he said again. "Come on Elizabeth… clear."
They shocked her again and all I could do was watch my little girl slip away. All I could do was hold onto Bells as she sobbed along with me.
And then we heard it at the same time.
Beep. Beep. Beep
"She's back," my dad said. "Pulse is strong, heart rate is steady."
I gripped Bella as I looked over at Lizzie. She was slowly opening her eyes again. Bella released her hold on me and I ran over to the bed.
"Lizzie? Baby?"
"Daddy," she said in a small voice.
"Oh baby, its okay, you're okay now," I said as I kissed her forehead. "It's all going to be okay."
After Lizzie was stable, my dad told me she had caught an infection in her lungs that caused her to stop breathing. They gave her medication through her intervenes that seemed to be working to clear her lungs up.
My dad told me this set back made finding a bone marrow match an even bigger race against time. My dad then left to go check to see if Masen's results were back from the lab.
Lizzie had fallen asleep and I went into the bathroom to wash my face before I went out in the hall. I didn't want to scare Masen anymore then he already was and I needed to calm my own heart down.
I walked out in the hall to find Bella sitting with Masen. My Mom was back in the room with Lizzie.
"Is Lizzie okay?" Masen asked as he ran over to me.
"Yeah buddy, she's okay now. I'm sorry, that was pretty scary huh?"
"I was so scared," he said as he crashed his body into mine. I hugged him close to me. I needed a hug as much as he did.
"I'm sorry to interrupt," my Mom said as she came back out in the hallway and smiled when she saw Masen in my arms. "But Lizzie is asking for Masen."
I looked at my Mom and then at Masen. "Go ahead bud, I'll be in a minute, I just need to talk to your Mom."
Masen went back in Lizzie's room with my Mom and I then took a seat next to Bella.
"Are you okay?" She asked.
"No," I said. "I thought I was going to lose her, when I heard those sounds, it brought me right back to when Kate died in this same hospital. I thought I was going to lose my daughter too."
"I'm so sorry, Edward." She said taking my hand in her own.
I squeezed her hand and turned my head to look at her. "Thank you for being there with me just now. I don't know what I would have done if you weren't there to hold me like you did."
"I'm so glad she's okay now." She said as she looked away from me and took her hand back from my hold.
I looked over at her as she wiped at her eyes. I wanted to tell her I was sorry for being a dick, but I saw my father walking swiftly towards us with a file in his hand. Bella and I both stood to her feet as he approached.
"Edward… Bella, we got Masen's test results back."
I swallowed hard.
"He's a match," Carlisle said. "Masen is a perfect match for Lizzie."
Tears started falling from my eyes again, as did Bella's. I never thought I would hear those words.
A perfect match.
It was a moment that I feared would never come
A/N; Whoa.. wow ok lets all take a deep breath. You didn't think I was going to let anything happen to Lizzie did you? And Edward, damn he just made maters worse.
Just give him a chance, he's trying to do what's best for his daughter, but he's putting his own happiness at risk right now. Remember Bella did leave him before and he's afraid she'll do it again so if he leaves first it wont hurt as much. At least that what he thinks right now. These two have been through a lot and its not going to be all that easy. Yes, maybe they shouldn't have fallen into bed so soon, but they did because they love each other. Remember that. And now that Masen is a match for Lizzie, the kids have to come first. Trust... have faith... believe.
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