Hey I'm back! Sorry it took so long! But really I'm back and it's on to the next chapie!

If you haven't guessed yet I don't own beyblade or the song 'Perfect' with Simple Plan owns, they're a good band. Hope you like!

Innocent skyangel 173 – Thanks for the review and that sucks big time that it deleted all of your stories! I really liked that growing up one too…!

Kaely Mel- Yeah it is really hard, I agree. Ana's trying though lol. Boris is an evil monkey! lol thanks for the review!

JusticeDream- thanks, aww you missed me yay! Yeah she's changed… well at least a little; she's really the same inside especially in her head (well when she's mad at least.) It's gonna take some time to find herself again, but right now…yeah she's screwed.

Just Wanna Be Me

Chapter 12: Not the Same Anymore Part 2

Ana was getting really nervous now, she had no idea what was going to happen after tomorrow, she bite her lower lip nervously. Ana drank the rest of her wine in one big gulp, which was pretty much the whole glass. It took a minute for the liquid to go down but once it did she felt strangely better, a little dizzy but better. Ana wanted another glass but the waiter that was just there had took off so she went to the nearest waiter with wine, put the empty glass on the tray and grabbed a full glass. The girl the headed up the stair to her room, tonight she was cutting her party short. Kai

Kai watched as Boris led Ana across the room, he got closer went they stopped to see what they were saying. Kai watched as they talked but didn't pay much attention; he was too busy staring at Ana. He noticed she didn't look much different from what he could tell except for her height and her body that was more filled out: something that defiantly turned him on. The more Kai stared at her though, the more he realized how much he missed her in the past year, and how much he wished he were Boris right about now. Boris didn't deserve Ana, he did. Kai was much nicer and respected Ana more the Boris ever will. Unfortunately that's not how life goes; it's not always fair and you just have to deal with it sometimes. Kai and his friends knew this better then anyone after their families died, they were young and didn't deserve to lose their parents but it happened anyway. Kai guessed he was used to dealing with it by now but for some reason he couldn't deal with, or get over the fact that an asshole like Boris got the girl like Ana.

Boris said something about the wedding and Kai saw Ana nod even though he could tell she was annoyed. Boris then asked Ana to dance and led her to the dance floor.

On the way there, Boris grabbed Ana's butt. This made Kai extremely mad and something inside him clicked to protective mode. He soon calmed down though when Ana moved his hand back up to her waist again.

"Still has her limits," Kai thought smiling.

Boris and Ana started to dance while Kai watched not too happy wit what was happening in front of him. Everyone made a circle around them and watched too.

Kai noticed that Ana looked like she wasn't really enjoying herself.

"Well a lot of things have changed, but one thing that never will is her hatred for Boris," Kai laughed to himself.

When the song ended, Ana and Boris stopped dancing, and the crowd clapped for the young couple. Kai then watched as Boris made yet another move on Ana, he kissed her…again.

Kai could fells jealousy raising in his throat, and it was coming up fast… he could kill Boris right now. He calmed down though when Ana pushed Boris off.

"Horny bastard," Kai thought tightening his fists.

Suddenly Ana started coming his way, he quickly turned his back on her hoping she wouldn't recognize him. All Ana did though, to Kai's relief, is take a wineglass off his tray just as Boris came over.

Once Ana had taken her glass, Kai silently walked off to put distance between him and Ana. Kai spotted a pillar close by and hide behind it so he could listen to what they were saying.

Boris started talking to Ana and asked her what was wrong. When she shook he head, Boris kissed her again only this time it was all over.

"This is getting pretty old," Kai thought angrily.

Then Ana started to tell Boris to stop, which of course he didn't. This time Kai didn't feel jealously, but anger, and lots of it, raising in his throat.

"Get the fuck off of her!" he screamed in his mind. Kai was really going to kill him now…slowly and painfully.

Then finally Ana had had enough and blew up at him.

When she was done, Boris just smiled at her and said that once they were married, she was his. Ana gave Boris a dirty look, but Kai could see in Ana's eyes that she was terrified of what was going to happen. It took all of his self- control not to turn around and beat the living hell out of Boris right then and there. Kai wanted to beat him up then hold Ana and tell her everything would be alright; he wanted to hold her again in his arms and feel her warmth and her body on his. Kai knew he couldn't though, and it killed him. He left for the kitchen before he blew his cover.

Kai put the tray back in the kitchen and started out the way he had come in. Once outside he started for the front gate where he was suppose to meet the rest of the group. When he got there, no one was there yet, Kai knew he was a little early so he sat down on the nearest rock and started thinking of what is next plan of action would be.

Ana

By the time Ana had drug herself up the stairs, she was feeling a little dizzy. She grabbed the railing to keep herself from falling backwards and slowly made her way to her room.

Once there she shut the door behind her and walked over to the balcony doors and opened them, letting a fresh, cool, night breeze blow past her. The breeze filled her room making it smell fresh and rustled the curtains that were hanging on the huge window door that they were connected to.

Ana breathed in the fresh air making her feel a little less dizzy, and walked on to her balcony where she set the wineglass beside her on the railing and leaned on the railing too.

She took another big gulp of her wine, and waited till it roughly made it's way down her throat, it sent another wave of dizziness to her head. Ana knew she shouldn't drink this much at once since it was the very heavy and expensive wine, but every time she took a big drink, she felt like she was washing all her troubles away, something that she desperately wanted to happen right now.

Ana looked up at the dark sky and it's stars. She sighed, she was under so much stress because of the stupid ceremony tomorrow when she would become queen. Yes, her birthday had come and past, and now she was ready to take on the responsibility of a whole kingdom, it would all be in her hands tomorrow… which in her opinion meant disaster. Then there was the wedding right after.

"Why couldn't it have been like a week after the crowing so I could at least get the hang of being queen, instead of having it all come crashing down on me in day?!" she thought angrily.

Actually that was Boris's doing of course. He wanted to be married right after the crowing, ASAP.

"Yay for me," Ana said sarcastically.

Her parents wanted her to be perfect – have a husband, be a perfect wife and queen, have a perfect kingdom…but that really wasn't going to happen, Ana was far from perfect. She'd done her best but it always seems it's not enough and that they always expect more.

Just then she thought of Tala, Hillary, and Mariah.

"They were the only ones that were always there for me. Too bad I haven't talked to Tala in a while since he was kicked out. I miss him though…wait…kicked out…A New Found Glory…Kai…" she thought and it all come flooding back to her, tears stung her eyes as she bit her lower lip.

Her friends…she missed them so much, they had so much fun together. The day she ran away and met them was the day she really found herself, she'll never forget how they helped her do that. She especially missed Kai of course and hated being apart from him for so long. Ana wanted to be with him rather them Boris.

Ana violently shook her head, "No," she told herself firmly, "that's the past, I'm not going to dwell on that, it's stupid and not important. I have a future to worry about," she thought. But she couldn't make herself let go of it all, it was hard to forget all of those memories.

Ana felt a tear go down her cheek as she finished the rest of her wine in one big sip.

When she was done, Ana just stared carelessly at the empty glass she was holding, for a couple minutes. Then she opened her hand and let the glass fall from her room to the ground with a bored expression on her face.

Ana watched as the glass came in contact with the hard ground and shatter into a million pieces. This suddenly gave her an idea.

Ana slipped off the shoes she was wearing and as gracefully as she could, climbed on the railing so that she was now standing on top of it looking down at the ground below her.

The girl's toes curled around the cold, metal railing. She lifted her hands out to her sides: all she had to do was let herself fall and she wouldn't have to worry about any ceremonies, crazy husbands, or haunting memories.

Ana looked up at the sky again and closed her eyes. She took a huge breath and thought about letting herself fall, one more time. Images came flooding to her, and she saw pictures flashing before her closed eyes. Boris. Mariah. Hillary. Skye. Tala. Tyson. Max. Kenny. Ray. Kai. Suddenly the last picture stopped in front of her eyes; it was her parents, they were smiling right back at her.

That was who she was doing all of this for: not her, or the kingdom; it was for her parents because that's what they wanted. Sure, they didn't know what a jerk Boris was but they were doing what they thought was best for Ana, to make her happy and Ana respected their efforts so she would give them what they wanted in return… a perfect daughter.

Ana had promised herself she would do this for them no matter what. She could adjust to this life to make them happy, and to make up for what she had done a year ago. She would be the best she could be. Ana couldn't be perfect but she would try.

Ana's eyes snapped open.

"What am I doing," she thought, "this is stupid, I should be resting or something for the big day tomorrow."

She climbed down from the balcony, got ready for bed, then laid down thinking still. Ana couldn't fall asleep though; it made her mad now thinking about what her parent's excepted from her and how she's tries all the time but it always seems like they want more from her. . She was still going to follow through with everything; it just made her mad is all.

To work off her frustration and to get it out of her head before she changed her mind about everything, Ana grabbed the notebook she wrote all her songs in, (which had the previous on in it all well) grabbed a pen, then walked out onto the balcony again and sat down on the railing, and started writing.

(This is also a good song! Read it carefully, it makes since. Oh and remember she's thinking about her parents when she writes this.)

Hey dad look at me
Think back and talk to me
Did I grow up according to plan?
And do you think I'm wasting my time doing things I wanna do?
But it hurts when you disapprove all along

And now I try hard to make it
I just want to make you proud
I'm never gonna be good enough for you
I can't pretend that
I'm alright
And you can't change me

'Cuz we lost it all
Nothing lasts forever
I'm sorry
I can't be perfect
Now it's just too late and
We can't go back
I'm sorry
I can't be perfect

I try not to think
About the pain I feel inside
Did you know you used to be my hero?
All the days you spent with me
Now seem so far away
And it feels like you don't care anymore

And now I try hard to make it
I just want to make you proud
I'm never gonna be good enough for you
I can't stand another fight
And nothing's alright

'Cuz we lost it all
Nothing lasts forever
I'm sorry
I can't be perfect
Now it's just too late and
We can't go back
I'm sorry
I can't be perfect

Nothing's gonna change the things that you said
Nothing's gonna make this right again
Please don't turn your back
I can't believe it's hard
Just to talk to you
But you don't understand

'Cuz we lost it all
Nothing lasts forever
I'm sorry
I can't be perfect
Now it's just too late and
We can't go back
I'm sorry
I can't be perfect

'Cuz we lost it all
Nothing lasts forever
I'm sorry
I can't be perfect
Now it's just too late and
We can't go back
I'm sorry
I can't be perfect

Max, Tyson, Ray, Tala, and Kenny finally came walking out of the castle and to their meeting spot where they saw Kai already there sitting on a rock, deep in thought.

The arriving boys were still talking about their night.

"She's changed so much," Ray said sadly.

"Yeah I know, she talked to a group of people about history! I thought she hated history," Tyson replied throwing up his hands looking a bit confused.

"Yeah, she even let Boris touch her," Tala pointed out.

"I miss the old Ana," Kenny muttered.

"Yeah me too, I want our really friend back," Max added. They all nodded.

Kai looked up from where he was sitting, "We all do. And I've got a plan to give her one last chance to figure out who she really wants to be," he replied starting each one of the boys in the eyes.

A smile slowly spread across everyone's face.

"Now we're talkin! So what's the plan?" Tyson asked evilly.

Kai smiled, "Here's what we're gonna do…"

Alright! That took a while. Next chapter is chapter 13: Preparations. And it's about the day of the ceremonies and what happens before then. Hope you liked it and please review! Oh and if anyone cares I revised my story A New Friend, except it's not called that anymore it's called . It sucked so I changed stuff around if anyone wants to read it, but go easy on me plz…it was my first story lol.