Sorry it's been awhile! Not exactly writer's block, I've just been trying to work on updating my other stories that I did have writer's block on. Also, I'm going to write new stories soon so I can hurry and get the ideas out of my head...
Also, I've been meaning to tell you guys (If you actually read author's notes, I realized some of you probably don't) that only part of this story will be told from Queen Suzuka's POV. The rest will be switched from different POV's by the kids since they'll of course, age in this story.
Oh, god, I'm so exhausted...
I felt terrible since we left the park. I was overcome by all kinds of feeling of nausea, soreness, and fatigue.
I wanted to be home before the other symptoms arrived. I could already feel a headache coming on. I couldn't believe that a baby currently the size of a sesame seed was causing all of these torturous symptoms already.
"Oh..." I moaned, slumping against Kazuto and clasping a hand over my mouth in case something came back up. Suzune was currently the only quiet being in this limo. Hana was teaching the kids a folksong and they attempted to clap along and keep up with her as she sang, but in the end it was just a bunch of loud screaming.
Kazuto turned to brush the hair from my face. The light pouring in from the window only made everything worse.
"What's wrong, darling?" he whispered in my ear, kissing the top of my head.
Oh no, he'll get suspicious if I show I'm not normal..
"Uh.. um, I-I'm fine." I quickly pulled away from him and laughed nervously. "...J-just a little carsick, is all..."
Kazuto raised an eyebrow, "Carsick? Aren't you the one who loves to drive wildly all the time?"
"E-eh, uh.."
"And ride roller coasters?"
"Um.."
"And Bumper cars?"
"Uh.."
"And Go karts?"
"Well, today I'm carsick!" I pouted and crossed my arms, "Geez..."
Kazuto's smart. He'll figure this out sooner or later.. Damn...
"Waaah, I'm so glad you're back, Kazuto.." I wrapped my arms around my husband's next and kissed him all over his face. Kazuto wrapped his arms around me and pulled me against him.
"I am, too. And I'll be here for a while. They want to hold off on the research for awhile at the lab, so all of the scientists will be at home temporarily."
I sighed and pulled away to look into his eyes, "Temporarily?" I pouted.
Kazuto played with a strand of my hair before tucking it behind my ear, "Temporarily can be a year at the most.."
"A year... well.. that's alright, I guess." I said a little disappointedly. We may as well enjoy the time we have together now.
I slid my hand into Kazuto's and led him to the bed.
"Come lay with me.. I'm sleepy." I yawned and kicked off my sandals before collapsing on the soft, long awaited bed. Kazuto pulled the covers over my shoulders and turned to lay on his side of the bed. Tossing the covers over him, I pulled my body closer to his so I could lay on his warm chest.
I closed my eyes as Kazuto wrapped his arms around me and gave a contented sigh. As I listened to his calm heartbeat, I drifted off...
"Kazuto, I'm pregnant again."
Ah, just SAY it.
I glanced at Kazuto across the table as he told our waiter what we'd like to have for dinner. Well, I certainly couldn't tell him now... that would be strange..
Maybe when the waiter leaves..
But as time passed by, and I shared awkward conversations with Kazuto since I was focused on something else, I couldn't find the right time to tell him. My heart began to pound as I began to question the right moments.
Hmm.. he just swallowed his drink, so if I tell him now, he won't ruin the table cloth. Just blurt it out.
Can't. He's taking another drink.
Maybe the ruined table cloth wouldn't be so bad.
Uh.. he just finished texting.. oh, he's getting up to go to the bathroom now.
"I'll be back in a second." Kazuto said as he stood up from the table and headed in the direction of the restrooms. I watched him go for a moment before something in my purse vibrated. I took my phone out of my purse and gasped as I saw the familiar contact number.
I glanced around a few times before answering.
"Uh, um, hello?"
"Your highness! Thank goodness you picked up, your phone must have been off. I was calling to make sure you would show up for your ultra sound this evening. You scheduled 7:30, correct?"
I sighed as I remembered the doctor's appointment, "That is correct. Uh.." I turned around and my eyes widened when I saw Kazuto walking back to the table. "...I'll be there!"
I hung up the phone as Kazuto sat back down in his chair across from me.
"Who was that?" he asked, resting his chin in his hands, "You seem jumpy. Are you alright?"
"Uh... just someone trying to sell something, is all." I looked down at my empty plate. I couldn't remember the last time I'd eaten a whole steak. I was surprised I'd even left the bone.
"Wow, you're finished already?" Kazuto laughed, "Were you really hungry? Don't tell me you were starving yourself while I was gone, or something.."
I shook my head, "It's not that.. I just.."
I'm eating for two, now. I could have said.
"...had a.. small breakfast..." I looked solemnly down at the plate with the few bones. Why was it so hard to tell him?
Because 6 children is more than enough. Having another child - well, you're not even sure if it's just one, will complicate the decision for the heir even more. Kazuto and I already talked about more children... but I don't think he was actually thinking the outcome through... As long as we're King and Queen and having children, we can't expect everything to be alright as the number grows.. So many things could happen.. That's why... now that I'm thinking more about it.. I'm worried about bringing this child into the world..
Ah, what am I thinking about now?! These are just excuses..I...
Kazuto and I will protect all our children, and when the time comes, the right heir will definitely be chosen. Having many children isn't exactly a problem unless we don't want any more...
But.. of course I want all of his children...
Ugh, I hate being so frustrated!
"Suzuka..?" Kazuto's worried tone snapped me out of my thoughts. He put a gentle hand on top of mine. "..Is something bothering you?"
I shook my head, "N-no.." I whispered before bursting into tears.
Oh.. my hormones must be making me emotional.. I don't like keeping things from him... is that why I'm crying..?
"What's wrong?!" Kazuto looked alarmed, taking my hand in his.
As the tears rolled down my cheeks and I was unable to stop them, I spoke in a shaky voice.
"I-I have to show you... something... let's go.." I took Kazuto's hand and lay a rather large tip on the table before grabbing my purse and pulling him out of the restaurant building.
"Ah, hold on a second, Suzuka, where are we going?" Kazuto asked as I pulled him toward the limo and tried to hide my face from the reporters who had spotted us walking into the restaurant without disguises.
I stopped walking and turned to look at Kazuto through blurry eyes.
"T- The hospital...!"
I told the nurse to cover Kazuto's eyes as the doctor spread the cold ultrasound fluid around my stomach and positioned the screen a little closer as the transducer was moved around to find the baby. We watched the black and white screen together until we spotted the tiny black circular space with a blob inside.
It's only 5 weeks old... so tiny..
"Uh.. um, can I open my eyes now?" Kazuto asked.
I smiled and turned to look at him, "No, not yet, it's a surprise."
I find it silly how much I worry..
I turned to look back at the screen and felt my heart flutter in excitement. The doctor whispered about how happy he was about the baby and how it was developing nicely.
"Alright, Kazuto, you can open your eyes now.." I motioned for the nurse to uncover his eyes and he slowly opened them.
At first, he turned to look at me, and then the monitor.
I watched his golden eyes widen in surprise as he stood out of his chair and walked over to get a closer look.
"I-is that..?" he pointed to the screen and turned to look at me with a bright smile on his face - the result of him being excited and shocked at the same time.
I took his hand and nodded, "Yeah."
"It's 5 weeks old." The doctor told Kazuto, "Congratulations, your highness."
Kazuto leaned down to kiss me, "But.. how long have you known?"
"3 weeks.." I said, feeling guilty.
"Suzuka! Why didn't you tell me?" he looked upset, which is rare for him, but I couldn't blame him, of course.
"I was scared.." I whispered. The doctor and the nurse took this as their cue to give us time to talk to each other. As the door closed behind them, I sat up and wiped the ultrasound gel away and pulled my shirt down over my mid-section.
When that was done, Kazuto and I embraced each other.
"I'm sorry.. there were so many reasons that made me afraid to tell you about the baby."
"Suzuka, why would you be afraid? Did you think I'd leave you if we had more children?"
"Uh... um.. that was one reason.."
"Dummy!" Kazuto pulled away to look at me seriously.
I smiled softly.
" Of course I'd be happy that you were pregnant! There's no reason why you should worry.."
"But.. I was scared that the decision for the heir would be even more difficult... and.. I knew we talked about more children, but I wasn't sure if we were both ready to have any more now... and.. uh..."
"You worry too much... did you ever think about the good things?"
"Huh?"
"The children we have now are going to be happy about being older sisters and brothers, even though they may not understand quite yet.. and the kingdom is going to throw those long parties to celebrate.. and we'll be able to raise yet another child properly after being taught by our own kids.. Oh, and we'll get to think of another way to give the news to our parents.. and Hana will be excited to get to take care of another baby... ah, and, those old ladies we met will probably throw us another baby shower and invite the whole kingdom... And we'll get a good laugh out of the names my mother will try to pick..."
I laughed.
"No more secrets, okay?" Kazuto cupped my cheeks and leaned in to kiss me passionately. "I'll take care of you... I don't want you to be so scared that you have to hide anything from me. I love you."
"Me, too.. I love you, too.." I gazed into his eyes and sighed in relief as I calmed down.
"Hmm... I guess I should have noticed your symptoms earlier today. You looked like you were going to throw up on the ride home from the park and then I thought you ordered all of those meals on the way to the restaurant.."
"Honestly, Kazuto, I think anyone would have figured out I was pregnant by now!" I giggled. " What have you been thinking this whole time?"
"Ah, um, well... I guess I just hadn't noticed.." he laughed.
"Even though you should have been used to something like that." I smiled.
"Come on, let's go home so you can rest.. you look tired."
"Yes."
Things got better after that. I couldn't wait to tell the kids.
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