Authors Note: Well it's been a little while again. Sorry it's taken me so long. I was watching an episode of OTH tonight and decided i needed to start working on this. Is everyone excited for Friday??? I know i am but i have to wait till next tuesday to see it. Oh well it'll be great no matter when i see it. So anyways I really like this chapter because there are some funny cheesy lines and some good christmas stuff going on. So let me know what you guys think. This chapter has two songs that are basically the same. They're called 'Feel this' by Enation. Please listen to them both. The first one is the new 2008 version and the second one is the original. It'll help with the story i promise. Ne ways and enjoy and let me know what you think.

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Loves Bond:

Chapter Eleven: Feel this…Can you feel this?

Edward was sitting in front of the piano when I walked in. He was playing the most beautiful melody I had ever heard and my heart ached to hold him. I walked over to him quietly and sat down on the seat beside him. He turned to me and smiled.

"Hi," He leaned over and kissed me gently as I sighed into the kiss.

"Hi," I whispered to him as he smiled at me.

"Are you glad to be home?" he asked as I nodded.

"I'm always glad to be home when you're with me." She said as he laughed.

"Cheesy Bella."

"Sorry." I said as he laughed even harder.

"I love you." He whispered.

"I love you too." I said as I pulled his face to mine and kissed him passionately.

We finally pulled apart for some much needed air and he held my face between his hands.

"So what brings you up here?" He asked as I turned to the piano.

"I heard you playing."

"Ah I see." He said as he turned his body back to the piano and placed his hands against the ivory.

"Will you play for me?" I asked quietly as he nodded.

"I'll always play for you." He whispered as he stared into my eyes.

He moved his hands across the piano and hummed along with the tune. I watched him in awe as he started singing the song he'd written.

"Said the more I sing this song

The more I feel your love fall down on me

Said the more I sing this song

The more I feel your love fall down on me

In the darkness I am found

Found with your love surrounding me

Feel this

Can you feel this?

My heart beating out my chest

Feel this

Can you feel this?

Salvation under my breath

Said the more I sing this song

The more I feel your love fall down on me

Said the more I sing this song

The more I feel your love is breaking me

In the darkness I am found

Found with your love surrounding me

Feel this

Can you feel this?

My heart beating out of my chest

Feel this

Can you feel this?

Salvation under my breath

Can you let go?

Can you let go?

Can you let go of the past?

Could you let go?

Could you let go?

Could you let go of the past?

What if I told you?

If I told you

Your tears have never been ignored

You're beautiful

You're beautiful

You're brighter than before

You're brighter than before

Feel this

Feel this

My heart beat out of my chest

Feel this

Can you feel this?

Salvation under my breath"

I stared at Edward with tears in my eyes. "That was…"

"I wrote this song…when you were Jacob and I recently decided to change it."

"What was it before?"

"About the same only a little different."

"I want to hear it." I said as he stared at me.

"I-"

"Please." I whispered as he put his hand against my cheek.

"There isn't anything in the world that I would deny you of." He said before he turned back to his piano.

It's gotta be this one

You don't have to fake it

You know I can take it

What if I told you your tears haven't been ignored?

And everything that was taken can be restored?

Feel this

Can you feel this?

My heart beating out of my chest?

Feel this

Can you feel this?

Salvation under my breath

It's gotta be just right

The soul and the spirit

The chord and the lyric

What if I told you that innocence is yours?

And the beauty you have now is brighter than before? Before

Feel this

Can you feel this?

My heart beating out of my chest?

Feel this

Can you feel this?

Salvation under my breath

(...feel my soul...)

Let go

Let go and believe

Let go

Let go and believe

Feel this

Can you feel this?

My heart beating out of my chest?

Feel this

Can you feel this?

Salvation under my breath

He pulled me into his arms as the tears continued to fall from my eyes.

"I never thought he deserved you. But you were so happy so I kept it to myself. Instead I sat here and every moment that I wasn't with you or Alice I was here…writing." He said as I stared up at him.

"I love you more than words can ever say."

"I feel the same way." He said as he crushed his lips against mine.


I walked into my father's house with my brother at my side and was immediately bombarded with hugs from my family. My dad was the first to pull me into his arms, followed shortly by my mother.

"Oh Bella look at you." My mother gushed as I blushed.

"Mom stop it."

"No Bells you look wonderful. So grown up." She said as I pulled away from her and walked towards my father. My mother pulled Jasper into her arms as Charlie looked down at me.

"Uh Bella...I have something to tell you."

"What?" I asked as the front door opened and someone walked in.

I looked over and cringed.

"Jacob is coming over." He said as I made eye contact with my ex.

"Bella." Jacob said as he walked in.

"Hey," I said as he stopped beside me.

"Merry Christmas," He said and I nodded.

"You too Jake." I said before I walked over to my stepfather and hugged him.

Jasper walked up behind me and put his hand on my shoulder.

"It's okay big brother," I said as I looked up at him and he nodded.

"He tries anything."

"I know." I said as we followed everyone into the dinning room.


Dinner went by uneventful though I could feel Jacob staring at me the entire time.

My father kept giving me sympathetic glances here and there just to say sorry. I wasn't really mad that Jacob was there. I was confused more than anything.

After Dinner we went into the living room and I was instantly bombarded with questions.

"So honey whose the guy?"

"Mom you have to remember Edward." I said as she laughed.

"Oh Edward. I always knew you two would end up together." She said as I heard Jacob snicker from his spot on the couch and jasper glared at him.

I ignored him and continued talking with my mother. "Yeah well it happened. Guess we were the only ones that never thought it would." I said as she laughed.

"That's usually how it goes honey." She said as she patted my hand.

"So how are things going Phil?" I asked.

"Great. The team just got a new sponsor so we should be getting more money to travel more." He said and I nodded.

"That's great. I'll have to come down and check out a game when I'm out of school." He nodded then went back to watching television and playing with my mother's hair.

"So honey where is Edward?" She asked as I sighed.

"His parents kidnapped him for the evening. I'm going up there in the morning."

"Well make sure he comes around here before I leave. I'd like to have a talk with him."

"Oh mom come on." I pleaded as she laughed.

"I'm your mother so that gives me the right to have a talk with your boyfriend. Especially if it's as serious as I think it is." She said as she winked at me.

"So Jasper tell me all about this fiancée of yours." My mom said as Jasper gave me a quick glared.

I smiled and turned away only to find Jacob staring at me.

"So Jacob what have you been up to?" I asked trying to take the attention off of Jasper and possibly me.

"I've been going to school and just hanging around. Nothing too special." He said as Charlie sat up.

"What about that girl?" He said and I turned back to Jacob.

"A girl?" I asked.

"It's nothing."

"It didn't look like nothing the other night." Charlie said under his breath and I couldn't help but laugh at the situation.

"Come on Jake tell us about her." I said as I moved over to the couch.

"It's Leah." He said as I started laughing.

"I always knew she had feelings for you." I said as he turned to me.

"Wait what?"

"Yeah whenever we'd go to the beach or something I could always tell. She just had this look about her. Like I was touching something she wanted." I said as I laughed.

"Figures." He said as he stood up.

"Jake where are you going?" I asked as I stood up.

"It's been nice hanging out with guys again but I have to get going. Billy worries." He said as he walked towards the door and I quickly followed him.


"Jacob wait." I said as I ran outside after him.

"What?" He said as he stopped but kept his back to me.

"I thought we were going to try to be friends."

"I am trying Bella." He said as he finally turned to me.

"I'm really happy for you and Leah. You two go together." I said as he laughed.

"Yeah we do. We both have horrible tempers and half the time we're too busy fighting to really have a great relationship."

"Oh," I said as he looked down at the ground.

"But sometimes it's good. She gets me for the most part and I get her."

"That's great Jacob. I'm glad you found someone. I always knew you would."

"Yeah like you did."

"Jacob-"

"No I'm happy for you Bella. I really am. He makes you happy that much is obvious."

"He really does."

"Then I'm glad…that's all I wanted for you…to be happy." He said before he started walking towards his car.

I didn't even try to stop him as he got in the rabbit and drove away.

I turned around and walked back inside.


"Did he leave?" My mom asked as I nodded.

"I wanted to be friends." I whispered as my mom pulled out a chair and told me to sit.

"Honey you cant always be friends with you ex. Sometimes it's just too hard…for both of you."

"But he was my best friend before all of this and now."

"Honey a lot happened between you two…a lot more than you probably are letting on. So it's going to be hard to be friends with him and for him to be friends with you."

"But he's happy now mom. He's moved on and so have I. Why cant we be friends because of it?"

"Because I don't think he's as moved on as you think."

"But I am."

"Oh I know honey." She said with a laugh.

"Mom-"

"Honey how much do you love Edward?"

"With my entire heart. Mom when he isn't around I feel like part of me is missing and that part doesn't come back until he's with me again. I need him like I need oxygen. I can't survive without him." I said as she smiled.

"You're in love with him."

"I'm more than in love with him mom. I can't even describe it." I said as she put her arm around me.

"I'm so happy for you. I've always wanted you to fall head over heels in love like I did, but only better something that was permanent."

"I've found it mom."

"I know you have baby." She said as she leaned over and kissed my forehead.

"I love you mom."

"I love you too honey."

"I'm going up to bed." I said as I stood up and she nodded.

"Good night sweetheart."

"Night mom." I said as I walked up the stairs and into my old room.


The next morning I drove up to Edward's house with Jasper who was half asleep beside me. We got out of the truck and walked up to the door.

"You could have slept in my room." I said as he groaned.

"That wouldn't have been much better sis. You have hardwood floors too." He said as he rubbed his lower back.

"I'm sorry Jazz. Mom said she could afford a hotel right now." I told him and he nodded.

"I know she explained it to me." He said before Alice threw the door open.

"Good you're here." She said as she ushered us in.

"Merry Christmas to you too Alice." I said as she smiled at me.

"Sorry Merry Christmas Bella. And a very merry Christmas to you my future husband." She said as she leaned forward to kiss him.

"Don't push yourself there big brother." I said as I patted his back and he glared at me.

I walked into the living room and was pulled into Edward's arms.

"Finally." He said as he wrapped his arms around me and dug his face in my hair.

"Hi," I whispered as he pulled back and kissed me quickly.

"I missed you."

"I missed you too. It's not the same being so far away from you." I said as he nodded.

"It's painful." He said and I laughed.

"Incredibly." He smiled at me then we sat down on the couch as presents were dispersed.


Everyone got what he or she wanted including me. Esme and Carlisle got me some recording equipment and a microphone. Emmett and Rose got me some DVDs that I'd been eyeballing at the store lately and Alice had gotten me a digital photo album because I had been complaining about our local photo place going out of business.

We all sat around the room and talked until Edward took my hand and led me up to his room. He closed the door and turned to me.

"I wanted to give you your gift in private." He said as he walked over to his dresser and pulled out a box.

He handed it to me and I stared up at him, "Edward-"

"Open it." He said as I slowly opened it to find the most beautiful charm bracelet I had ever seen. I gently pulled it from the box and felt tears come to my eyes when I saw the heart charm with our initials on it.

"You shouldn't have." I said as he walked over to me and put his hands on my shoulders.

"I wanted you to have something to remind you of me…always." He said as I smiled.

"I have something already."

"What's that?"

"Your heart…and you have mine."

"You're just full of cheesy comments lately aren't you."

"Oh shut up and kiss me." I said before he crushed his lips against mine.


A/N: Okay i havent decided exactly what yet but for all the people who review and let me know what they thought of this or any ideas for the next few chapters are going to get something. either a preview or the whole chapter in advance. We'll have to see. So let me know in your reviews guys. Thanks to those who reviewed last chapter. you guys are the reason i continue writing. Thanks again.