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A/N: Hey guys, this is just a quick look into what happens after the kiss in the first chapter, there will be more chapters like this one throughout the rest so do not despair! Just try not to get confused :P
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FLASHFORWARD – Present Day
EPOV
"What the hell did you do to my best friend?!?" Alice shouted at me as she stormed through my bedroom door.
I was still in tears, standing exactly where I had been when Bella left, probably wearing the same look on my face. Alice's beautiful face crumpled and she was lost for words. Her eyes searched my face for some sort of explanation.
"I love her Alice..."
This was all I was able to choke out through the tears coursing down my face.
"Oh Edward..." She said and flung her arms around me. I could feel her shuddering, she was crying, I had made Alice cry.
Alice, the toughest person I had ever known, tougher than Emmett.
I had made her cry...
Guilt washed through me as I pushed Alice away and fell to the floor, my face buried in my hands.
"Bella is stubborn, give her a little time to realise her feelings for you..." Alice trailed off as I shouted up at her.
"I've given her months Alice! Ever since the party she humiliated me at! I know what I did to her, what I put her through, I heard it all, Rose and Bella were talking about it, I had to know Alice! She thinks I'm a monster, I'm a terrible person and she knows it. She doesn't love back me Alice, she never will!"
"Edward..." Alice tried to interrupt me and my self-loathing.
"I'm a disgusting excuse for a human being Alice! No wonder she totally blew me off. Why couldn't I see how horrible I was towards her? Why did I need to take everything so far? All I wanted was a reaction, but it was the wrong one. I want her, no, I need her to love me Alice! But she doesn't!"
"She does Edward, she just can't see it yet..." Alice said.
"Yeah right..." I trailed off.
"You'll be sorry if you bet against me Edward." She shook her head and walked out the door.
"I'm already sorry, sorry I thought that Bella loved me." I said to myself.
I lay on my side in the middle of my floor and cried.
"I give up." I mumbled to myself pathetically.
BPOV
I couldn't get the image of Edward, looking lost and alone, out of my head.
I couldn't shake off this feeling of guilt, as if I could sort what I had just done.
What the hell did Cullen think he was playing at anyway?
He kissed me and just expected me to love him right away?
He thought that he could sort everything?
He has no idea what he put me through.
The worst night of my life, and then the hellish months afterwards where all he could do was ridicule me, give me stupid looks and make my life a mockery.
Wait, those stupid looks, had they been real all along?
Did he really like me like that?
He had kissed me...
Well, he had kissed a whole lot of me really.
It was more of a ravishing than just a simple kiss...
Why did I react to that?
Am I really as oblivious to Edward as I think?
I at least understood how he felt for me now, surely that was good, wasn't it?
Yeah, it was... well... different, better than fighting I guess, but it's not right.
How did I feel about this?
It wasn't what I wanted.
Was it?
Edward Cullen wasn't who I wanted...
Was he?
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A/N: Yeah I know, all of you are sitting there screaming at your computers "Of course you want him! It's EDWARD FREAKIN CULLEN!"
Review if you love Edward!
(Haha its like honk if you want cookies)
:P
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