Just Us
Twelfth Meeting
I really wanted to disappear at that moment.
I wanted to dig a hole for myself and climb into it. The hurt was unbearable.
Once I came back to my senses, I saw Natsu staring down at me. I stared back, questioning to myself why he's doing such a thing to me. What did I do to deserve this...?
"Well...I suppose I'll be leaving for now. It was nice meeting you, Miss Assistant," Lisanna finished. Then, she turned to Natsu and kissed him on his lips. My heart dropped. Natsu quickly pushed her away with a disgusted look on his face. She giggled. "I'll be back later for you, sweetie."
"Leave. Now," Natsu hissed.
Lisanna sighed heavily. "Fiiine." She pouted her lips until going out the office.
It was completely silent once she left.
I remember the words he told me when we first met.
"I don't have girlfriends...So don't think for a second that I have a girlfriend. And, I never will have one."
I lowered my head. He never dated before, but he was married? How sick is that? I should be ashamed of myself…Natsu Dragneel is a married man. Does that mean that I'm his mistress?
My stomach churned at the thought of it. Am I the sick one, then?
I stood from the floor. I made sure to not make any eye contact with him. I turned towards the door, ready to walk out and never speak to my boss ever again.
"Wait, Lucy. Don't go anywhere. I need to talk to you," he cut in with a sigh.
"There's nothing to talk about," I snapped. I twisted the doorknob. That's until I felt his hand around my wrist.
"Hear me out, okay? There are a lot of misunderstandings."
I wiggled away from his grasp. My eyes began to burn with tears. "Misunderstandings? I already know the real story...You're a married man who cheated on his wife for someone who is a pathetic assistant who trusted you too easily because of your words and your actions! Oh my God - I'm so shameful!" I cried out, slamming my hand on the door.
"Take those fucking words back, Lucy!" Natsu shouted, taking my face in his hands. "You're not pathetic and you're not shameful! If you hear me out, I'll prove it to you...Please."
I kept silent. I didn't want to hear his idiotic story. But, I can't help being confused.
"I met Lisanna over a year ago," he started with his eyes to the side. "We had a one-night stand together, and I thought it was done and over...But, then, she came to my doorstep, saying that she was pregnant with my child a couple of weeks later. I didn't know what to do at that point. I was confused and blank. But, for the child's sake, I ended up marrying Lisanna."
I gulped. "B-but...You said that you've never…" I trailed off with a sour taste on my tongue.
He sighed. "I know what I said. Though, when I told you I never dated before, it was the truth. It was just a small fling - I wouldn't even call her my wife. Just someone I had to be with in order to take of a baby."
He grunted, ashamed of his past mistakes. "Worse is that...She was never pregnant. She was just a lying bitch who's after my money. I filed a divorce once I found out about her demented secret...Trust me, Lucy, I made sure to cut all ties off of us...I didn't even want to see her face anymore. But now...she's back."
I took in a sharp breath. I couldn't believe it. "Why didn't you tell me this a long time ago, Natsu…?" I whisper out.
Natsu shook his head. "I didn't want to remember it again. I only want to think of what's happening now - not then. And that's you and me."
I averted my gaze. Me and him? Why did that sound so...bitter to me?
He must've noticed my down face because he took my hand. "Lucy...Please don't let Lisanna ruin what we have."
I looked him in the eyes. "Do you mean what we had?...I can't take this anymore. I certainly can't take you anymore." I moved away from him and towards the door.
"Wait, Lucy!"
However, I'm already out of the door in a flash. I reached the elevator, quickly pressing the close button so Natsu wouldn't come in. The doors close immediately.
Then, I broke down. With my face in my hands, I cried like I never have before. Why am I such a crybaby when it comes to Natsu? Why is it always me in these situations?
I made sure to tidy myself once the elevator doors open so I don't look like a wreck. And when the doors do open, I rushed out the building, trying to not be noticed by any of the employees.
At this point, I just wanted to go back home. I wanted to turn off all the lights, close all the windows, and curl up in my bed. I wanted to be alone.
Suddenly, I felt my hand being taken as I walk on the streets of Magnolia.
"Get in the car, Lucy."
I knew that voice anywhere.
I glanced around to see if there's anyone around. No one. "Let me go, Natsu," I calmly said with my back to him.
"No. Get in my car. Now," he ordered.
Anger built inside me at that very moment. "Fuck off, cheater!" I shouted. I turned around and his eyes were burning with rage.
Next thing I knew, he lifted me up and over his shoulder. I pounded at his back, screaming, "Let me down, Natsu! I swear to God if you - "
I felt my body being placed onto a seat. A door slammed shut next to me. Before I had the time to go out, Natsu locked the doors. He hurriedly put on his seatbelt and began to drive.
"Put on your seatbelt," he said, eyeing me.
I ignored him.
"Lucy - "
"Stop the car," I demanded, turning my attention to him.
"You were crying. I could hear you," he changed the subject.
I took in a hard breath. "And you don't care! You've never cared, Natsu! I'm simply your plaything! Will you just stop and leave me alone?!"
Fuck. I'm on the verge of tears again. But, I have to hold them back. Don't you dare cry, Lucy.
"I'm a divorced man, Lucy! Yes, I've been married before, but that was over a year ago. And that marriage lasted a little over a month," he explained.
I blinked, trying to trust him. But, I can't find the heart to.
"I'm bringing you to my condo so you can rest. I bet you're exhausted...And please put on your seatbelt. The last thing I need is you getting hurt," he said with a stern, yet soothing voice.
I did as I was told reluctantly. Then, I stared out the window.
Our relationship started in a flash and I don't want it to end in a flash.
What am I going to do now?
The car ride was uncomfortably silent.
Soon, we arrived in front of his condo. He led me in and I was greeted with the familiar scent of his cologne.
"Are you hungry, Lucy? I'll whip you up some food," he offered.
I shake my head. "No...I'm not hungry."
"Do...do you want to talk some more?" he asked, taking my hand.
I moved it away from his grasp. His eyes glinted hurtfully. I had to look away so I don't see it. "Yeah, that'll be nice."
We sat on different ends of his couch.
"It...it won't happen ever again, Lucy. I'm so sorry. But, you have to trust me in this. You need to be here for me...I don't want to lie, though...My past will have to be kept a secret. I'm sorry you had to experience it like this," Natsu started, running his hand through his hair.
Suddenly, his eyes connected with mine. I gulped. "Do you think you can trust me?" he muttered.
I bit my lip. "I...I don't know…"
His mouth gaped. "No...Don't say that."
"It's true...I guess I just need to think about this - about us...I can't do this right now, Natsu." It was difficult for me to say it, but I finally got it off my chest. Yet, I can't help feeling extremely guilty.
His eyes closed. "I understand…" He opened his eyes again. "Don't quit your job as my assistant, please."
I chew at the inside of my cheek. "Actually...I was thinking of going back to my former boss, Loke, and be his assistant again."
He blinked. Then, he widened his eyes. "What…? You can't do that!" he yells. I jolted away. "If you want time to think, I'll give it to you. But, I won't allow this."
"If I continue my job as your assistant, I won't have time to think," I say, trying to convince him.
"No," he denied.
I sighed. "Then, I'll quit."
"You won't do that either," he hissed out with a set jaw.
"Please, Natsu...Let me do this. I want to take this step by step." We already got so sexually attracted to each other, and it was all too quick. I don't think I can go on with a relationship like this for any longer.
"Lucy, don't," he breathed under his breath, coming closer to me.
We embraced and for some reason, I feel like I'll regret my decision.
"Goodbye, Natsu," I whispered, holding him tighter to my body.
"No, don't say goodbye. There will be no goodbyes," he replied. He leaned in to kiss me, but I moved away.
"Let's take it slow, okay?"
I wiggled out of his embrace. I went to the door, and without looking back, I left his condo with a deep feeling in my chest.
What have I done?
A/N: Hey guys! This story has gained a lot more readers since the last chapter. And I'm pleased to see that! Hello new people!
Well, what's going to happen to the couple now? Ahh...This actually hurt my heart trying to write this out. Break up scenes aren't my thing, really T^T
I'll write the next chapter quicker this time. I'm sorry to keep you guys waiting! Bye, for now~!
RE-WRITTEN: 5/30/17
