Chapter 11: Shock

I looked at the boy shocked, he was Ishida Naoki from my class, he was glaring at me as he held my arm in one hand and my knife in the other. He was trembling with anger and I didn't know why.

"Ishida... Let go.."

I murmured as I tried to drag my bloodied are away from the red head's grasp, his grip on my arm tightened and he pushed me against the wall, it didn't hurt surprisingly.

Why would he care... I don't exist in class..

"No! Sendou do you have any idea about what you've just done?! How can I sit there and watch as someone hurts themselves?!"

His voice was trembling and his hand that was holding the my knife was shaking. I couldn't believe the words he had just said, I was filled with anger and I pushed Ishida away from me, and glared at him.

"Sit back and watch?! That's funny, very funny.. That's what everyone has been doing for years! Nobody cares... And you think you can just waltz up to me and tell me to stop?! What right do you have?"

I was shocked when he slumped to the ground, he had tears flowing out of his yellow eyes, I couldn't believe that I had hurt him.

Oh no... I can't believe I was so cruel just now...

I covered my mouth and crouched down so I was at eye level with Ishida, I wanted to comfort him and apologize to him but I didn't know how.

"Ishida I'm sorry.. I shouldn't have yelled at you.."

He shook his head and hastily wiped away his tears with his sleeve, he looked up at me with sadness swirling within his yellow eyes.

"No Sendou... You were right.. I had been ignoring you like the rest of them.. I was afraid of being judged.. I realized today during the science lab just how much you've been hurting..I wanted to apologize so I followed you here..."

I was shocked by Ishida's confession, I felt strange emotions appear within me, I didn't know how to react to this red haired boy's words. He had been watching me all this time, I remembered back to the times when I felt like I was being watched, it was often but I always brushed the feeling off as being impossible. I couldn't believe that there was a person who acknowledged my existence besides Mr. Kiri and my family.

"Ishida... Is this true..?"

He nodded sadly, I easily saw the shame that was written all across his face, I could tell that be wasn't lying.

"Why have you bothered to watch me anyway? It's not like I'm special or anything.."

Ishida smiled sadly at me.

"I felt like we were alike... I've always been the loner type who had not may friends, the ones i had wernt very close, you had no friends at all though ... The difference was that you seemed to attract unwanted attention so easily while others didn't bother being mean to me.."

I sighed as I Remembered how I never saw Ishida smile and laugh happily with the people he was always around, from my memory I knew that I could believe him.

"I forgive you Ishida.. Now could you please leave and let me continue what I was doing before?" My eyes flickered towards my arm that had blood trailing down it onto the floor then to my knife. Ishida's eyes went wide and his sadness was replaced with anger.

"No! It's stupid doing that to yourself! You shouldn't harm yourself just because you're sad!"

His fists were clenched and I frowned and couldn't meet his gaze, I didn't want to face him.

"I'm not trying to die... I don't want to make my family sad... I just want to relieve myself from my loneliness..."

I'm always alone... I'll probably always stay alone... The only light within my world is my dear family and my friend red..

Ishida backed away, his eyes expressed a mixture of hurt and sadness, I could also detect some shock. He began to tremble, it confused me because his moods had been switching a lot.

"Sendou... No Aichi... I'm so sorry.. I-if I knew how much you've been hurting all this time.. I would have come to you sooner... Please... Let me make it up to you.."

Ishida was crying, I couldn't believe that he was crying for me. I never expected that anyone would ever cry for me with sincerity.

"Ishida... How?..."

He ripped off a piece of his shirt and began to wrap it around my fresh cuts that I had made, when he had finished he looked at me and smiled lightly, he had stopped crying but his eyes were still a little moist.

"Aichi, let's be friends"

I gasped in shock, I had never heard those words said to me before. I looked at Ishida with wide eyes and nodded hesitantly.

Is he actually going to be my friend?... I hope this isn't a trick but... I'd rather take the risk..

can't have this story all depressing~ X3 anyway don't worry there's no parings