Weekly Drabble Prompt of thebarsondaily (Tumblr): Regret
A guest reviewer wished for the "missing scene" from the episode where Barba finds out about Tuckson – I have to admit, I barely remember the episode, so I hope this has something to do with what you meant. If not, could you give details?
(290 Words)
I Lost You
"Wait... are you involved with him?"
Olivia had long left Rafael's office, but he could still feel the disbelief shooting through his body. He was sitting behind his desk, an open file lying in front of him, but he could barely concentrate on it. Every few seconds, his gaze left the lines he was supposed to be reading, wandering aimlessly through the room, then to the door, as if he was hoping that Olivia would come back through the door.
If he was honest with himself, it had hurt a lot when he'd realised that she was defending Tucker because she loved him. Something had broken inside of him, a hope that he would never have admitted he had – the hope that he would find the right time and place to tell her that to him, she was more than a friend by now.
Over all their late night work sessions and the conversations, he'd fallen in love with her. Not head over heels, but slowly, steadily, a little bit more every day, with every smile. But he'd hidden it, because he'd been afraid that she didn't return his feelings, and that it would destroy their friendship.
And now, it was too late, and he asked himself if it was possible to lose something you never had.
Rafael Barba had rarely ever regretted something in his life. It wasn't like him to ponder, but today, he felt more regret than ever before in his life. He hadn't told her how much she meant to him, and who knew if he would ever get the chance to do it.
The way his heart was aching, it definitely felt like a loss.
