DISCLAIMER: I do not own anything that J.K. Rowling had written in her Harry Potter Series, but would like to thank her for letting me use her characters to my own twisted pleasure.

Also I would like to thank to reviewers that I have gotten feedback from so far. They made my day I hope you enjoy this next chapter as much as you have the other eleven.

Author's Note: This is the same chapter still. I just added some things and fixed a lot of the mistakes. I was in a hurry to update that I didn't check it very well sorry. But knowing that I probably won't go back and fix the other chapters cause I'm lazy. But if anyone else want to be my guest.

Chapter Twelve

James and Sirius came through the fire place laughing seeing Matt half asleep in one of the chairs close to the fire place. Sirius nodded towards James then to Matt's sleeping form as he slowly creped forward.

"Don't even think about it Black. I'm not in the mood."

Sirius turned a shocked face to James. He was at a loss for words. Only few people knew when he was coming and going about. To Sirius knowledge Matt wasn't a person he thought knew to do it.

"How?" Sirius finally managed out.

James just grinned as he walked over to the now fully awake Matt. James could now see bags under his eyes and long nail scratches down one arm.

"I'd say you've had an interesting day."

"What?" Matt asked confused.

"Your arm," James gestured as Sirius began for the door. Making head jesters all the way for James to follow.

"Oh, yes it was itching earlier. I guess I didn't realize how hard I was scratching," he said standing. "I've haven't been sleeping good lately, maybe I should head to bed early."

James just nodded his head in bewilderment and watched the Ravenclaw pass Sirius at the door way.

"Wonder what his problem is?" Sirius asked as he and James headed towards the kitchen.

"I don't know but I bet it has to do with Lily."

Sirius stopped to look at James. Rising a hand to touch James's forehead. James swatted his hand away.

"Still got Lily fever."

James reached to hit him; making Sirius almost jump into the wall to get out of the way.

"Mate, everything doesn't have to do with her trust me. Fine a different girl."

James shot him a dirty glare. Sirius knew it all. For the past three years he heard it all.

Changing the subject quickly he picked up his pace. "Now lets go get some of Muzzy apple pie and fire call Moony."

James nodded his head along but couldn't shake the feeling of wrongness in his gut. Something was wrong in Lily's world in could just feel it.

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Matt headed up the stairs toward his and Lily's room. Stopping at the door he just stood and waited. Not wanting to go in yet but not wanting to be caught in the hallway either he reached for the handle of the door.

Walking through the sitting room taking deep breaths with every step he stopped again. Closing his eyes for one last deep breath he moved pushing the door open just enough to slip inside. It was starting to become dark. lighting some candles around the room he saw.

Lily laid perfectly still on the bed as a rock. Matt walked more towards the bed and saw she had awaken but was trying to pretend that she wasn't.

"Lily its only me, Matt," he said calm walking the rest of way. Stopping at the edge of the bed furthest away from her and sitting down.

Lily tensed up immediately when she felt the bed shift.

"Please"

Matt barely heard the whispered word but he knew what she meant. 'Leave'. It had been unsaid this time but she'd been saying it so much how could she not want anything else. Matt had news for her he wasn't going anywhere she could learn it now or later but she would learn it.

"Lily, I'm not going to do anything. Just sit here like I always do."

He didn't try to move any further just sat there in the silence listening for anything she would have to say. In the end he just listened to the sound of her breathing like she herself was doing with him. Neither willing to move just staying in the companion of the silence till she finally fell back asleep.

When Matt was sure her breathing even out better he crawled more onto the bed and follow her into dreamland.

Lily had awaken again this time she must have turned in her sleep because now she was up against Matt's sleeping form. Not wanting to wake him she quit her movement. Just stared out into his face. A face so familiar she was sure it would be imprinted on her soul. 'Protector, Brother, Man'

Man, that brought a unwanted shudder from her making Matt move a little in his sleep. She froze afraid to move again but memories were coming back now: the stairs, her mother, the dark haired man as he moved over her abused form.

A cry escaped her lips which awaken Matt. His eyes flashed open as Lily move to be as far away from him as possible on the bed. Her hands tried to cover her face as tears started to slide out then down her cheeks. Matt's heart was aching. He knew if he tried to go near her she would push him away. Never before had she push him away before this punishment but now it was all she did. More and more it seem to Matt.

"Lily," he croaked out.

It was like she could hear the pain in his voice but it had no effect. Her body tried to curl into a ball with the cast still on though the task was lost a cause.

"Lily," he said this time reaching out the touch her shoulder. She shouted a louder cry.

"Lily," he said forcefully; her green eyes snapped open this time.

"Matt," she whispered his heart melted. "Matt make it stop."

Matt rolled over and moved off the bed quickly to her other side. Leaning down he pulled her into his arms; rocked her back and forth till her tears stopped. Looking down he saw that she was staring out into the space.

Wishing more than anything to know what she was thinking he curled her tighter into him.

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Lily felted his arms around her, rocking her; trying his hardest just to calm her. Slowly reminding herself over and over that this was Matt and Matt would never hurt her she still her movement.

"Why?" she cried over and over. "Why would she do it?"

"Lily, its ok your safe now."

"No," she said trying to move out of his reach.

"No," he repeated holding on just as tightly as she tried to fight away.

"Please, let me free."

"Never, sister."

Lily's struggle stopped. It had been years since he used that nickname with her. It was a joke between them; how they use to joke that she was born into the wrong family. As they say its easy to deny then to say the truth. Oh yes, because the truth hurt so much more and a person could only take so much pain.

The silence between them became comfortable when Matt finally let Lily go. She laid back in the bed looking up at him with her green eyes full of doubt. Lily began to pick at the invisible lent on her clothes before she looked up at him.

"Why, would she do this to me? I've done everything she's ever wanted. I tried so hard," she as tears began to fall down her face once more. Matt move her so that her head laid on his legs as he brush her red hair away from her tear streaked face. She wrapped her arms around his middle and cried hard. Trying to remove her frustration and pain through the tears.

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This was good Mrs. Potter thought as she had a house elf go check in on Lily. The elf reported that she was crying on the young man's lap. Mrs. Potter nodded and the elf disappeared to finish her duties for the day. 'Tears,' Mrs. Potter thought 'the healings begun.'

Mrs. Potter walked through her study when a knock came.

"Mum," James said as she turned around. "I wanted to let you know that Remus and Pete are coming over later."

"That's nice Hun," she said distracted yet again.

"You know mum I can listen just as well as you sometimes."

Mrs. Potter turned to look at her son.

"I could come back and talk to you later, yes."

Mrs. Potter nodded her head. 'Had she been neglecting her son,' she thought to herself before returning back to the folders in her hand.

She needed to get Lily to open up to her. Tomorrow she would start her sessions.

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Lily looked up at the face leaning back against the head board.

"How long was I out?"

"Which time?"

She gave him a look.

"I found you at your mothers and called Dumbledore. You were in St. Mungo's for about 3 days and then you arrived here early this morning while the boys were out."

"Boys," Lily said lifting herself up to slide away from Matt.

He looked down at her reaching out a hand. She looked at it and shook her head trying to pull her knees to her chest.

"Its only Potter and Black; its their house remember."

Remember, oh she remember a lot of things. The blackness, the pain of each stair, the knife as it dug into her shoulder blades. A shudder ran down her spine, across her body as Matt went to reach for her again.

"Lily," he called.

Shaking her head she looked up at him with a sad smile.

"There is more than enough for me to remember as is," she said turning away from him.

Silence

"How about we think of all the good things then."

"Like how the summer just started," she said turning back to look at him. "I don't know about you but it doesn't look so good for me so far."

"What about the plans we made for the summer? Its suppose to be different this year and so far your mother's still controlling you even here."

She gave him a pointed looked telling him just where he could shove it.

"Well, if that's how you feel there's the door," she said laying back down to face away from him.

Matt went to say something but thought other wise. Instead he got up and walked over to the door. Just before walking out he turned to look at her pained expression.

"You know I'll never go."

Lily didn't move, knowing full well he'd be back and probably with something to shovel down her throat.

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Matt stormed down the hall irritated with himself. Sometimes he just couldn't control what came out of his mouth. Specially with the mood Lily was in. Not paying attention where he was walking he ran into the two people he wanted less than anything to see.

"Potter," Matt said moving to walk around them but as always Black stood in the way.

"Not now," he said holding up his hands in defeat.

"Now now Baker what's the rush to run away. Scared?" Sirius asked with a grin.

As always Gryffindor to the core. No one would ever confused Black with anything else.

"No I'm just not in the mood. I have other problems to deal with at the moment than you two."

Taking the space gap in between them he slipped pass them Moving ahead for the end of the hall. Not wanting to look back to see if they would follow he picked up his pace and swiftly moved down the stairs and out a side door.

The grounds were beautiful as the night air filled his lungs. He needed the fresh air to think. 'Merlin what was he doing', he thought to himself. Lily needed help and a lot of it. Thinking of the fiery red head he use to know. Never in a million years did he think Mrs. Evans would take things as far as she did. But why? There was the question he wanted answered most. What he would like to do the women when he saw her again. The spells he read about just to try out on her alone.

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Lily could hear bangs coming from the other room. It sounded like someone was trying to brake inside. Men! Her mind screamed. People that would caused pain were trying to get into the room. That had to be the only explanation, otherwise they could have just walked right in. 'Right' her brain argued. Rolling herself out of the bed, she landed on the floor with a hiss of pain that left black dots before her eyes. Looking around the room for a good place to hide she saw none.

Nowhere to run, Lily started crawling anywhere. Which to her dismay got her no where thanks to her bad arm and leg. Pain felt like it was coming from everywhere. The black spots in her vision stayed as her pulse began to race. Somewhere in the back of her mind she heard a door open and close.

'Magic', she wanted her magic. But it had abandon her too.

Another door opened.

"Oh, my wands. What are you doing?"

Lily didn't look up to see the woman's face she just tried to curl in on herself. Making herself as small a target as she could get.

"Miss Evans? Lily?"

A hand touch her shoulder; Lily smashed her eyes tighter together.

"Lily, come lets get you back into bed."

Bed!

"Its only me, Mrs. Potter. Remember your staying in my home safe and sound. Nobody's going to hurt you here."

Mrs. Potter, she thought. Therapists, the women who thought she could solve all of her problems with a wave of her wand.

Opening her eyes she saw the older women leaning down over her face.

"I'm fine, go away." she whispered angrily.

Lily moved for the bed knowing she was going to put back there anyway. The moments of thinking someone was going to brake in faded away from her mind for the time being.

"Here let me."

"No," Lily all but screamed at the women. "I can do it myself."

Amelia watched as the girl slowing crawled the two feet back to the bed and stop.

"Where's Matt? I want Matt," she said breathless.

"I don't know. I thought he would be here with you as he has been in the past three days."

Lily nodded then tried to think of away to get back into the bed without much pain. By now she was just glad to be awake enough for the pain.

"Let me," Amelia said pulling out her wand to levitate Lily over the middle of the bed and back down again.

Lily was out like a candle by the time Amelia was done. Moving to cover her up she quietly left the room to speak with James and Sirius about their actions early. Really trying in brake into the room. Luckily she had the house elves put wards on the rooms just in case they did try something funny.

Low and behold they did, on the first day for Lily being there no less.