Clarity

Danny's POV

"What are those?" She asked.

"Tickets to Cirque du Soleil. It just came into town a couple of week ago and tonight's there last show." I replied and she lifted her eye brow to me.

"What makes you think I'd want to go to a circus?'

"I just know trust me, you'll love it. The music is very powerful and you'll either hate it or love it." I spoke.

I noticed she was about to speak, but then let it go. Soon we walked all the way there and once we got our drinks and popcorn we grabbed some seats. I watched her most of the time to see her reaction and I could tell she was in deep thought with herself. I knew probably what I was doing was forced upon her, but I will keep my word. Tonight I just needed this one night of emotional clarity. Soon the circus started and the clowns, acrobats, jugglers, tightropes, cannon shooters, and etc. came out on stage and the music started to play. I watched her expression as she laughed and smiled throughout the entire show. I was glad to see her smiling. However, that changed when the tightropes came on last. I watched her expression change suddenly as she stared at their performance closely.

Zoe's POV

I watched closely as the woman tightrope started to walk across with elegance with a bar in her hand. It was just incredible. I watched as the man started to just walk across to her. It was actually a beautiful thing to see as he started to jump around and do tricks. Soon the woman let go of the bar and then started to do flips in the air along with her partner. Soon they started to do like a dance together on the tight rope. It looked so magical . . . The connection they had up there . . . I didn't know if it was the song or them, but I just fell in love with the performance. In fact it made me remember when I was on the tight rope. It wasn't exactly a good memory, but I had to admit besides me falling off, Danny had saved me even in his darkest moment of when he was evil.

I gasped a little along with the crowd as the woman was lifted up into the air on the tight rope. The crowd clapped and cheered and so did I. I felt a sudden tear slip from my eyes and I quickly wiped it away hoping Danny didn't see it. I suddenly started to feel sad . . . I looked to Danny as he continued to watch the performance. This was really our last time together like this . . . It was sad, but it was for the best. The truth is I wasn't mad at him anymore. In truth I really did miss him. I just kept pushing those feelings away because I didn't want to believe it. Danny . . . I'm so sorry for putting you and everyone else through this. I don't deserve you . . . However, just for today I'll be yours.

Danny's POV

Once the performance was over I decided to take her flying all the way back to her house as it was late. Harry was probably worried for her and I didn't want to make things complicated for her as it is. Once we landed and I set her down. She looked to me and gave a warm smile and thanked me. As soon as she was about to let go of her hand, I held it tighter and she turned to look at me.

"You never told me how the date went." I spoke and she gave a small sad smile.

"It was good . . . I had fun. You were right the music was very powerful, it really got to me." She gave a small laugh.

"I'm glad," I replied.

"Well I guess I should get inside now, before Harry worries about me." She replied, but I wouldn't let her hand go.

She noticed this and I saw her expression change as she looked at me. She turned her body toward me and then looked at me with sad eyes.

"Danny . . . I have to go . . . You knew this was going to happen, so please . . . don't make it harder than it already is." She begged.

"I will, but all I ask is for one more thing before you leave and I never see you again." I explained.

"What is it?" She asked.

I looked into her beautiful violet eyes with my sad eyes. I pulled her closer to me and she didn't pull away. All she did was stare at me. I leaned closer to her ear and whispered something that made her shiver.

"Kiss me . . . one last time . . ." I whispered.

I moved away from her ear, until I could see her surprised face again. She didn't pull away from me. All she did was stare at me, which told me she was waiting for me to do something. I slowly leaned closer to her face and I watched as she looked at my lips and then at me again. I could feel her breathe on me and soon our lips met which caused another spark. That same spark I felt when I kissed her before. It was still there after all this time . . . I knew this kiss from anywhere and I knew it was hers. Once we pulled away she stared at me with those same eyes after we kiss, but soon she snapped out of it and stepped away from me. I watched as she gave a small smiled and nodded to me.

I watched as she started to turn away from me and walked away. I watched till she was a pretty good distance away from me. I really was going to miss her, but at least now I knew she was doing ok after everything. Just when I was about to turn away, I heard her yell something to me.

"Danny!" She yelled to me running back to me, to my surprise until we were face to face.

"I really had a great time today so thank you!" She exclaimed and breathed.

"Anytime Zoe," I simply replied.

She then gave a small smile again and then started to run back to her house not looking back at me. I stood there a little surprised by her action, but soon I started to feel something inside ache. It was my heart . . . At this moment it really felt like I lost her now . . . Suddenly I felt something wet on my cheek. I placed my hand on my cheek and then realized . . . I was crying and I haven't cried since six years ago . . .

Zoe's POV

Once I stepped inside the elevator tears poured from my eyes and they wouldn't stop. Soon as the elevator opened, I saw Harry waiting in front of it. I saw that he didn't look to happy.

"Where were you!? I tried calling you, but you didn't answer!" He exclaimed.

"Not now Harry," I replied still in tears and I tried to walk past him, but he grabbed my arm tightly almost hurting me.

"You didn't answer my question." He said, but I just shrugged him off and I saw as he feel the ground and groan in pain.

"Harry!" I shouted.

I quickly got up and helped him back up slowly and lead him to the couch. I stayed with him for a little while, but soon got up. I felt his hand grab mine, but I pulled away from him and looked to him.

"Harry . . . please . . . I just need some time alone right now, let's talk tomorrow." I spoke and walked away upstairs.

I closed the door and felt myself sliding against the door crying in sadness and pain. My heart was pounding still from his kiss and I knew what that meant. I was still in love with Danny . . . I cried even more. I thought I could deny all my feeling for him, but I just couldn't anymore. My heart ached so much. I can't feel this way . . . I just can't . . . I love Harry, I mean I'm engaged for god sake! I can't just leave him after everything . . . I mean I still loved him . . . right? Suddenly I saw the key still on the floor and I went over to pick it up. I held it close to my heart and cried my sorrows away . . . "DxS" that was on the key . . . It can never be . . .

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"Alright talk, I gave you last night now I deserve an explanation." Harry said and I sighed.

"Can't we just let it go, I was just late getting home that's all." I explained, but he wouldn't by it.

"Zoe please, just tell me the truth. Why were you late getting home . . .? Was it him?" Harry asked.

I suddenly looked to him shocked by his question. Out of all the answers he could have asked, he asked me about him. I stood up from my chair and stared at him a little angry.

"Why would make you bring him up Harry? Why not anyone else like my mother or grandmother? Were you spying on me?" I questioned.

"And if I was? I have a right too, I mean we're engaged now Zoe! You being with another man, your ex, is very concerning to me!" He exclaimed.

"Look all I did was spend one last day with him! He told me he'd leave me alone after that, that's all besides I came home to you right Harry!?" I explained, but I saw something I never saw before in his eyes.

Anger . . . He kind of looked scaring, but then his expression changed into a calmer one as he gave a smile to me now. I saw him get up from his seat and slowly walk toward. I actually a little afraid, but I tried not to show it in front of him. I watched as he grabbed a strand of my hair and place them on his lips and then let it go.

"I believe you Zoe . . . So there is nothing I need to worry about then right?" He questioned and I quickly nodded and put on a smile now.

"Well if you excuse me Harry, I have to go out and meet with my client now. She's expecting me," I replied and then started to grab my stuff and head toward the elevator, but then Harry spoke.

"I'll be waiting for your return home Zoe, so try not to be late this time." He spoke and I gave a hollow laugh and nodded.

"I won't," I simply replied.

I headed into the elevator and headed down to the drive through. I quickly got into my car and started it immediately. I quickly left the house in a hurry just trying to get away. I had never seen Harry act like that before . . . It was my fault though, because I must have really hurt him by being with Danny. My heart was aching inside and I just didn't know what to do anymore. As I was driving, I passed by a diner and then noticed who was heading inside the diner. It was my grandma! I slowly pulled over to the side and saw her greet some people and then went inside. I felt my hands clasp the tire wheel tightly in my hands.

I bit my bottom lip and thought about going inside. I really wanted to see how she was doing. Without even thinking twice I stepped outside my car and walked into the diner. I asked the hostess to seat me somewhere closer to my grandma and to which she did. I sat down and order some coffee and looked to my grandma who was sitting down watching the news on the TV. I saw her start talking to the waitress. I noticed how she looked so happy as she would talk. Soon though as I watched her, I saw her facial expression change as she watched the news.

"In today's news yet another plane crashes into Amity Park in a lake, but thanks to the pilots practical decisions no one was hurt and everyone came out alive. It was said the cause of the crash was because of an engine breaking down in mid-flight . . ." The new reporter spoke.

"My granddaughter was in a plane crash before . . . She was coming back from France to visit." She spoke to the waitress who listened.

"Unfortunately though . . . no one survived the plane. So every time . . . I hear a story like this . . . on the news . . . I think of how lucky they are . . .! That they get to go back home and see their loved ones, while I . . . while I have to go once a year to see my granddaughter's grave . . .!" She cried and then all of a sudden tears started to fall from my face.

I watched as the waitress and couple other of nice people, tried to calm her down a little and soon enough she did and then tried her best to put on a smile as she spoke once again.

"I'm sorry please don't worry about me . . . I'll be fine . . . I just get a little carried away at times that's all . . ." She spoke again.

I couldn't take this anymore. Soon my waitress came I just gave her the money for the coffee and stood up. As soon as I stood up, I accidently knocked over my coffee on the ground making noise. I quickly apologized and then glanced at my grandmother and saw her stare at me. I quickly looked away and apologized once more and headed out the door. I shouldn't have come here, I mean why did I even go inside!

"SAM!" A voice shouted behind me and for some reason I stopped.

I could hear a motor scooter coming toward me and every second I was telling myself to move, but I just couldn't. Once it stopped, I heard an old lady's voice begin to speak as she choked over a few cries in her mouth.

"It is you . . . isn't? Sam . . ." She spoke.

I couldn't say anything to her. I wasn't supposed to be found out especially by my own grandma. Suddenly though I felt her grab my sweeter from behind and I turned around to see her looking at me with her old eyes. I saw tears stream down her face as she looked at me.

"Sam . . .! Please tell me that is you . . .! My Sam . . .!" She cried.

Without even realizing it was I was crying and I tried to stop, but I couldn't. I looked to her and I felt panic in fear in me as I started to take in deep breathes. Soon though I felt my grandma pulling on my sweater and crying as she saw me. I noticed she was off her motor scooter and I was holding her up as we both cried into each other's arms.

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We sat in silence for a little while and said nothing. I still couldn't believe I was in here with my grandma. It was too late now though, what's done is done. I would watch her look at me and then at the table. Soon though she suddenly began to speak to me.

"Is it really you . . . Sam? My little girl . . .?" She questioned at first I said nothing, but in the end there was no use of running away from her anymore.

"I was . . . once called that name, but I go by another now." I spoke and I saw her sigh in relief and another tear fell from her eye.

She looked to me with those eyes and I couldn't look at her anymore as my heart was starting to hurt by seeing the pain look on her face.

"Why . . .? Why are you here . . .? After all this time . . .?" She cried and I started to feel myself start to cry again, but I tried to stay strong.

"I can't see my grandmother after all this time . . . I've missed you. Didn't you want to see me?" I asked and she turned away trying not to cry again.

"Even if I wanted to see you . . . coming out of the blue after so many years of not seeing you . . ." She spoke and I tired even harder not to cry even though I could tell my eyes were watery.

"But I . . . still missed you. Even after everything that had happened to me . . . Why I ran away . . .?" I spoke and she looked at me with confusion and sadness in her eyes.

"Why did come back even when we all believed you to be dead? Why did you run away?" She questioned and I knew it was going to be a long story.

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"I never wanted to come back . . . Even now I shouldn't have come here and see you . . . I wasn't supposed to see any of you." I spoke choking on my words.

"So all that time you were running away from your problems . . . rather than facing them." She spoke and a single tear came out from my eye as I nodded slowly.

I felt her hand slowly reach mine and I saw her start to cry again and soon I began to cry a little as well as she looked at me with those eyes of hers.

"Why come back now . . .? Why come back when you know you won't ever see me or anyone else again . . .? After so many years thinking you were dead and crying over you, why must you reveal yourself now after so many years . . .?" She cried and I shook my head.

"Because I wanted to find clarity . . .! That you all need to stop looking for me, because I don't want to be Sam anymore! I can't go back to that old life after everything I've done . . .! I shouldn't have seen Danny, or even you grandma but I missed all over you so much! However, I didn't deserve to see any of you especially what happened after dad! I was just being selfish and I'm so sorr-!" I cried, but I was cut off.

"Don't you dare apologize! Don't you . . . dare apologize . . .! All that matters now is that you are alive . . . Now I know the truth . . . So won't you come home now?" She asked, but all I could do was stare at the table as I answered.

"Harry's here until his business and the case is settled . . . Can't I just come a visit once in a while? Keep it a secret from everyone else and can't we just see each other?" I asked, but I saw in her eyes that it meant a no as she didn't look at me.

Soon I felt her hands slip away from mine and when I tried to reach for it she pulled away not looking at me.

"I don't want to," She replied and I cried.

"Grandma . . ." I sniffled.

"Sam . . . Even if it hurts your feelings, there is nothing I can do about it sweetie. But . . . I will always love you and I will keep your secret, but that's all I can do. You need to figure out what you will do with your new life now whether you return to being Sam, or remain as Zoe. I don't want to see you hurt, but I also don't want to see Daniel hurt as well . . ." She replied.

I felt myself starting to cry again and soon we just sat there in silence, until I saw her move back into her motor scooter. I looked at her surprised, but then she spoke.

"I'm not trying to be mean Sam, but . . . My heart is just too weak for all of this right now, so it's better if I leave now . . . Good-bye Sammy . . ." She said and then started to wheel away in her scooter leaving me all alone at the table.