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I cannot believe Lydia kissed me. What brought that on? I mean yeah, I care about her and all but really? Maybe I should have not said what I did. Im not sure what to think. A khajiit and a human? Ive heard of same sex relationships before…my uncle was even in one…but at least his lover was of the same species. I better think of something to say to her when we are done with this party thing. I don't think a relationship is going to work out or if its even for the best. But why did I even kiss back? I always thought kissing a human would be weird…it wasn't weird. At least not with her. Oh, Devines! What the hell am I going to do! Its ok..it was just a kiss. One kiss does not mean they like you in that way. I've been kissed by khajiit males before and it wasn't so bad. Not the best but not bad. Except for one. K'lor. He was horrible. Made one simple kiss into a whole nightmare. But Lydia's was soft and gentle. Not like K'lor's; harsh and demanding. And what he did afterwards.
Maybe I can try being in a relationship….? Lydia would never do anything to hurt me. Not like him. But im going to use caution. I have never been more scared since that one time.
A/N: ok kind of short. And the next chapter will be a flashback on what this K'lor did to J'Tago and made her uncertain of any relationships. Then ill bring the story back on track.
