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I DO NOT OWN Twilight or the characters... This is fan fiction... NOT REAL LIFE

WARNING: Talk of murder, and some lovin'

CH 12 Can I Trust You?

As promised, Jasper arranged for them to have dinner in their wing. After they woke from their love making on the couch, Jasper insisted she shower separately so he would have energy to make love to her all night. Taking her in the shower now would keep him from doing what he wanted to her all night.

There was a knock on the door and Jasper rolled in the carts. One had five covered trays of food and homemade ice tea and lemonade. The other cart had plates, glasses, napkins, utensils, and a small trash bin. Bella watched him begin to set it all up in their small dining area. The way he moved around, the way he wanted to make it perfect for her swelled her heart. Slowly walking over, she began to help him. That typical Jasper smirk appeared, she loved that smirk. She smiled back

Almost as if he could read her mind, he walks to her and pulled her into a sweet kiss. Tears filled her eyes as she held onto him tighter. Feeling her need to just be held, he did just that while rocking her slowly in his arms. She squeezed tighter into him, molding her body to his.

Bella broke the silence with a whisper. "I'm scared, that if I open up to you, you won't believe me and send me back to him."

Jasper swiftly picked her up, happy that she finally opened up to him, but also concerned of her fears. While cuddling her in his arms, he asked "Bella, you need to be honest with me. What has your father done to you? You need to be honest with me. I want to protect you."

Bella shakes her head, too terrified to say it aloud and make it true. "You won't believe me."

Hurt flares across his face, "I will always believe you, Bella. I will always protect you. Now I am telling you as your fiancé you must tell me what is going on. No more games."

Bella takes a deep breath and decides to actually trust him. "He killed my mother. He made it look like she had an accident, but he killed her. He's tried to kill me, but I'm too smart for him. He's tried to beat me when drunk, but I've never let him. He's going to run out of the money you gave him and come back looking for more and if he doesn't get it he will kill me, your whole family. He's the chief of police, who is ever going to suspect him of anything."

Jasper listens as Bella tells him what her father has done to her. Now it all makes sense, why she thought he would kill her that first night. Why she was so scared of Jacob. Why she didn't fight off Jasper, she wanted him but though it was all a plot set up by her father.

Bella watches him waiting for a response and fears the lack of response mean she doesn't trust her. She starts to panic and motions to get off his lap, but he holds her tighter. "I swear to you, on the lives of our future children, I will never let anything happen to you, Bella. I will always protect you. You are safe with me. In fact your father is the one who should be scared. If he ever tries to hurt or threatened you again, I will kill him with my bare hands and we know too many people to ever get caught."

Bella imagines her father coming here and looking for her. "I don't want to see him again. I'll do whatever you want. I'll play the part you want, be just like Rosalie and Alice, but don't let him come to the wedding."

Jasper was thrilled at the prospect at all the things he could get her to do, but knew he liked the real Bella. She's like his mother, strong and powerful, Rosalie and Alice could never be like her.

"No, I want you to be like Bella. I like this fight in you, the strength, attitude, determination. You are going to be great for this family. I want your father to come to our home; I want to torture him till he dies slowly and painfully. There is no way for you to talk me out of this."

Bella looked at him, in shock…not at the thought of him killing her father, but the fact that she wanted to participate. What is wrong with her? This is not like her?

"I want to be there. I want revenge for my mother."

Jasper stared at her…his cock hardened at her statement. She wanted to help in torturing her father. She wanted to be there. He didn't want her to witness the gore or be involved in the crime, but it turned him on more than he could imagine.

"Bella, I don't know. Let's talk about it with my parents first." Jasper insisted.

Bella jumped off his lap and stood up. "No, I confided in you and bared my soul. You want me to trust you, well I want this. He killed my mother and tried to kill me. Then you come along and woo me and make me fall in love with you, the entire time thinking you are in love with someone else. Then you propose and keep me here against my will. You take me against my will, your brothers and father threatened me in disgusting ways, despite all this I still love you, I don't know why, but I still love you and need you. I want this and it's the least you can do for all the confusion, pain, and embarrassment you have caused me."

Jasper tried to listen to what she said, but the only words he could really focus on were the I love yous. He stood up slowly smirking as Bella began to start yelling again. He slowly pulled her to him and kissed her, trying to show just how much he loves her.

The kiss shut her up, it was deep and passionate and full of love. She relaxed into him then pushed him away from her, "You cannot distract me. I will not change my mind."

"Bella, you do anything you want as long as you tell me you love me again."

Bella looked at him and tried to think about her words. She blushed and looked down, realizing she admitted it. She loved him, before and now. Even though he was a sick fuck, even though his family is twisted, she loves him. Looking up at him with tears in her eyes, "What does that say about me? I love a man who tricked me, a man who is going to kill my father and I want to help, a man whose family threatened me. What kind of sick woman am I?"

Jasper smiled big. "It says you are the perfect woman for me and my family. I don't want a woman like Rosalie and Alice who gave in rather than fight. I don't want a woman who will be meek and submissive. I want a tough and independent woman who knows how our family runs and will match my wit and intelligence. I want a woman who will one day want tattoos to match mine. I want you, Bella." Jasper was interrupted by their growling bellies. "I think we need to eat dinner, Bella. Then perhaps we can talk to my parents tomorrow. Tonight, I want to focus on us."

Bella nodded and thought about his words as they sat down to eat dinner. They traded stories about their childhood; Bella's when her mother was still alive. Jasper told Bella all the embarrassing stories of when his brothers were little, how Emmett is loud and silly, and Edward always such a klutz. Bella shared the wonderful traditions she shared with her mom and how much she missed out on holidays the most.

"Bella, you now have a family to share holidays with. All the traditions you shared with your mom can become our traditions and we can pass them on to our children. What do you think?"

Bella nods her head as tears fill her eyes again. Maybe this is why Rosalie and Alice gave in. Maybe giving up their freedom was easy to do when you had a family to give it up for.

"I want that." Bella sniffles and gently touches his cheek. "I want that, I want you. I want them. I'm just afraid and scared."

"I told you, Bella. We all love you. You now have a mother, father, brothers, sisters, and a future husband."

"Thank you, Jasper. Thank you for everything." Bella wipes her tears away.

Jasper stands up and holds out his hand. "Bella, let's clean up later." He pulls her up to him and kisses her softly. Bella returns the kisses pulling Jasper closer to her. Kisses, sighs, touches, removal of clothes, and a slow walk down the hall all happen in perfect sync until they are naked and in bed. Japer pulls Bella on top of him and eases her down onto his hardened length. They make love in perfect harmony, moving against each other, caressing each other's bodies, moving slowly enjoying being connected physically and emotionally. They continue, holding off, then starting again…wanting it to last all night. The pleasure reaches the limits of their bodies and they both explode in pure bliss.

Jasper rolls off Bella and pulls her close to him, as she cuddles into him and falls asleep safely in his arms.

A/N: SORRY this took so long. This is no longer beta'd. I will post short chapters/drabbles and most of it is written. I will no longer be able to respond to reviews, but know I will love to read them. Some parts are written, some are not…I may change the direction a bit…but my ending will never waiver from how I planned.

There is no posting schedule, but will try to post at least every two weeks…NO PROMISES though.