Two Lonely Souls ch. 12


After spending nearly a week and half trying to think of ideas and watching nonstop romantic comedies with Jesse, I'm ready to scoop my eyes out with a spoon as I'm not any closer to thinking up a makeup date for Beale. The last date that I took her on was almost perfect until it started raining outta nowhere and once again we end up in bed together which was amazing but it's becoming a thing for us. I know that I'm not the most open person with their feelings or easiest person to get along with at times but I can't help wondering what redhead sees me that she wants to be around me so much as I'm sure that she could get sex from a multitude of people at our school. I'm sure that there's a waiting list to get the singer and I don't want to think that she might be settling for me which isn't the best feeling. The composer text me early this morning saying that he has some idea for my date that he wants to run by and needing my help with hauling some of the equipment into the AV room.

I was passing a classroom, overhearing a conversation that Tom and his meathead friends were having about me and Chloe as the basketball captain was basically saying that they were end up getting back together as I was passing interest for her. The guys agreed with him, saying it was only a matter of time before the singer gets bored of me, hitting every insecurity and doubt that I was having about pursuing something with the taller girl. I couldn't stop myself from wondering if this was something to pass time until she got back with the meathead or get with someone better before moving away from the room towards the AV room, blinking away the tears that were prickling behind my eyes. God, I'm such an idiot. I really let myself believe she honestly likes me. There's no way that someone like Chloe would be remotely interested in someone as brooding and emotionally stunted like me. I can't believe that I let myself believe that someone would see that I was worth something.

I didn't realize that I was standing in AV room until Jesse calls my name, shaking me a little to snap me outta my thoughts as he asks me if I was okay with concern in his eyes which is the last thing that I need right now. I shake off his concern, saying that I was fine but I could tell that the composer doesn't believe although I'm thankful that he doesn't call me out on it as he tells what equipment that we need while bouncing different date ideas. I couldn't bring myself to care or listen because I'm not going through with the date as I'm sure that the redhead isn't really interest in me like I had thought that she was and I don't want to get my heart broken needlessly. It took a couple of trip to get everything but we got everything when the rest of the guys walked in Benji asks to get some feedback on his magic show that he's putting on for the kids in a local hospital.

I was so lost in my thought that I completely spaced through the magician's act and almost late for my first period class but I couldn't focus on anything until I'm going through my class in a daze thinking about how to avoid a certain someone. Before I could think a solid plan of action, I'm forced to do a complete face plant into the floor while being crush by an unknown weight as I rub my now sore face to that it was by the person that I didn't want to see. She's looking at me with that bright smile of hers and my stomach flops uncomfortably as the conversation that I overheard by that meathead and his friends as I quickly turn on my heel. Chloe calls out to me but I ignore her because I don't want to deal with my feelings as thankful the teacher arrive so it made it easier not having to deal with the redhead and her questions.

She keeps trying to get closer to me and the looks that she sends my way isn't making it any easier as I nearly ran out of there when we were dismissed, quickly changing out of my PE uniform and moving onto my next class. My short stature helps me blend into the crowd as we play this game of Hide and Seek but I knew that I have to meet the guys for AV club and I know that the singer's gonna find me there if I show up. I text Jesse, saying that I was feeling well so I was heading home early and he texts me to say to feel better as he'll tell everyone what's going on before making my way home on foot since the apartment isn't too far from here. I didn't think much of it since I normally walk to and from school until I regret it when a familiar car pulls up besides me as the window rolls down revealing a certain blue eyed songstress.

"Beca, please talk to me. Whatever I did to upset you, I'm sorry but at least talk to me so we can work it out"

I keep my mouth closed and my feet moving because there wasn't really anything to say as the redhead keeps trying to get me to talk to her while driving along side me until we reached the apartment as I quickly her out but it proves to be futile. The songstress pushes her way in, demanding why I was being so cold towards her as I scoff lightly because I'm on to her games and I refuse to be strung along like an idiot but she steps in my personal space, taking my face in her hands while looking a kicked puppy.

"Please Beca, talk to me. What's going on?" Chloe pleads.

"You really want to know what's going on with me. I'll tell you, I know that you're using me to pass time until you get back together with Tom or finding someone more interesting but I'm not playing your games anymore" I said angrily.

"What?! I'm not playing games with you" Chloe said frowning.

"Bullshit! Why else would someone like you waste your time with a freak like me? This is some kind of romance movie or book where someone like me ends up with a happy ending with the popular and hot girl" I scoff angrily. "I'm not that naïve as people may believe and I overheard Tom and his idiot friend saying that you were getting back together"

"Beca, there's no way that Tom and I are getting back together as I'm not remotely interested in being anything with him. I like you because there's something about you that draws me as I never felt this way about anyone and I'm not the kind of person to play around with their feelings" Chloe said lightly caressing my cheek. "I don't think that you're naïve but someone that's been by people that didn't deserve you. I know that it's asking a lot of you but I want to you take chance on me because I want to show what it's like for someone to truly care and appreciate you"

Everything in me is saying that I shouldn't trust the redhead, that I need to push her away but the sincerity in her baby blue eyes is so intense that it's almost impossible to look away. I'm so used to people abandoning or giving up on me that I don't know who I can really trust as I don't know what to do when someone really wants to be there for as a part of me should've known not to believe anything that Tom said. My insecurities got the better of me, I nod in agreement because I don't trust my voice in that moment as Chloe smiles brightly before wrapping her arms around my shoulder, hugging me while whispering that she'll prove to me that she wasn't going anywhere. I don't know if it was true or not but I guess only time would tell as the redhead pulls back, finding myself missing her warmth as she looks in the eyes for a moment before leaning in to place a chaste kiss on my lips.

An electric spark flies when our lips met as the songstress leads me to the couch before accessing my Netflix account, resuming where we left off with Daredevil the last time that she was here. I'm glad for the distraction because I'm feeling rather emotionally drained to continue to talk about feelings as Chloe guides me to lean back against her with arms wrapped protectively against my middle. I'm not for physically contact but with the redhead and I prefer my personal space but it seems that I'm doing be doing a lot of things that I normally wouldn't do when it comes to her, baffling me. After an episode or two, my eyelids are getting heavier and heavier as I lost myself in the feeling of nails lightly scratching my scalp before unknowingly falling asleep and waking up to find myself in my room on my head.

Looking at the digital clock to see that it's a little after seven when Shelia comes in, knocking on my door with a smile on her face to ask me if I had a nice nap and that dinner's ready as I stretch my stiff limbs. I walk into the kitchen to find Chloe standing over the oven, pulling out a pan of lasagna, confusing me as I thought that she had left while I had fell asleep on he and yet she's still here, making dinner for us.

"So Chloe here, tells me that your date last week went well before it started raining on you two" Shelia said biting her food.

"It was so much fun and Beca even won me a stuffed panda. My little sister Charlie keeps trying to steal him from me but Barry's one of the few things that I refuse to share with her" Chloe gushes.

"Oh God, you're still called him that" I said rolling my eyes.

"Yes, I'm still calling him that as he reminds me a lot of you" Chloe says smirking. "Small yet adorable"

"Hey I'm not adorable" I said crossing my arms, pouting.

"And pouting like that is proving my point about you being adorable" Chloe coos.

"Ugh, I'm never winning you anything ever again" I said rolling my eyes playfully.

"Somehow I doubt that but maybe I want to win you something"

"Aww you two so cute together and you're an amazing cook, Chloe" Shelia said smiling.

"Thank you and Beca, are you free on Saturday?" Chloe asked curious.

"Yeah why?" I asked raising an eyebrow.

"Well you and me are going to the day together and I'm going to uncover things about you"

"And I want to subject myself to that because?" I asked raising an eyebrow.

"Because you say that I don't know anything about you and I can't think of a better way than spending the whole day, getting to know you" Chloe said grinning.

"She has a point, Beca" Shelia chimes in. "How will you know if you two are compatible if you don't get to know each other better? If you don't work out then you can always be friends, right"

"I guess so" I said shrugging my shoulders.

A part of me is worried about Chloe really getting to know me that she'll realize that I'm not worth the hassle of having around and would rather not having to deal with a moody, brooding alt girl. Maybe if she sees the truth now then it's save us some time and me the heartache of getting too close to someone that'll eventually leave in the end. I clear the table and clean the dishes when I feel a pair of arms wrap around my waist, a body press lightly against my back.

"I promise you Beca that I'm not going anywhere even if we don't end up dating, I still want you in my life. You might not think so but you're important to me and I want to be someone that you lean on, that you can trust"

It's rare that I hear someone tell me that I'm important but I don't know if I'm ready to let myself believe those words just yet as Chloe holds me a bit longer before having to get home. Once I hear the door, I let out a shaky breath that I didn't even know that I was holding as I try to not let the songstress words effect me too much. What am I getting myself into.


~Nicole The Dragon Rider signing off

End of ch. 12