Hey! I have Chapter 12 for you! You all are spoiled! I know I updated late and I felt so bad so I wrote like crazy just to make sure I would have a chapter to post for Saturday! I am so glad you all liked Chapter 11! I was a bit nervous because of the great reviews I got for Chapter 10 and I didn't want to disappoint! So here we are again! I hope you all enjoy chapter 12!

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Chapter 12: Ship Dare?

Clare POV

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"Finally!" I said out loud as the bell rang signaling it was time to go home. I had been in Detention all freaking day and it was driving me insane! It wasn't as bad as I thought it would be but still it sucked. Drew had detention with me and that made it easier. The first half I spent my time trying to get in on his really good side and make sure he trusted me.

That was just phase one in my mastermind operation.

But what was odd was that it wasn't hard for Drew and I to get along. This may be easier than I thought. The teacher started to not care what we did as long as we didn't get him into trouble so Drew and I talked the whole time or passed notes. We talked about random things like our first crush, or our most embarrassing moments. It was funny to learn all these things about him because when you watch him on TV he looks like a big asshole sometimes. I guess that's just good TV.

"Are we still on for tonight? I need out of the house too, Adam's getting on my last damn nerve." Drew asked as we walked out of the door and heading to our lockers.

"Yes please! I do NOT want to deal will Ali tonight; this morning was enough for me!"

"I can see that! I just wish I had been there to see it! It's crazy how one day you are totally in love with her and then the next day you hate her and want her gone!" Drew said laughing.

I actually was crazy to me. I guess I thought Drew was the kind of guy who was a player that would always cheat on girls and if someone cheated on him he would understand. But last night with our chat and the multiple conversations we had today proved me wrong. Drew was a real faithful guy to his lady friends and he was one hundred percent against cheating. After everything that happened with Julia it really did change him. All around Drew was actually a real good guy. Too bad I was about to try and be the biggest bitch on the planet and possibly break his kind and sweet heart.

"I actually have a plan to sort of get rid of her for a while. At least for Christmas break!" I said giving the best sweet smile I could.

"Oh really and just how are you going to do that? And you are not allowed to say you are going to "Accidentally" kill her." He laughed.

"Damn!"

We both laughed. I didn't really WANT to kill her. I think there might be an evil smirk on my face. Oh lord.

"Seriously though how do you plan to do that?"

"Watch." I smiled as I grabbed my cell phone and looked through my contacts. Clicking on a name I waited as I heard the phone ringing until a familiar voice rang out.

"Clare! So nice to hear from you!"

"Hello Mrs. Bhandari. How is Ali's favorite Aunt doing today?" I spoke into the phone and Drew gave me a questioning look.

"Oh just fine! What brings you to call me? Is everything ok?"

"Oh yes Mrs. Bhandari everything is great! Actually I was calling to talk to you about something. Ali has been hinting around for a couple of weeks about how she misses you all and hasn't gotten to see you much this year. So I thought maybe as a Christmas gift to her you could come get her and take her home to India for Christmas break?"

Oh yes, I know I am good. Drew obviously thought this too, he was hardly controlling his laugh and he was grinning from ear to ear.

"That is a wonderful idea! I will put together the arrangements! You all finish school this week no?" she asked her voice heavy with an accent.

"Yes we do! That's so great! Now remember it's a surprise so don't tell Alli! See you soon!"

I hit end on my phone and looked at Drew who couldn't contain himself anymore. We both burst out laughing right in the middle of the hall way.

"See! Now it will be a nice peaceful Christmas holiday!"

"I gotta hand it to you Clare, I didn't think you had it in you."

"What can I say? I'm turning over a new leaf!"

After making a stop at our lockers we began walking out side. I was just putting my coat on when Eli walked over to me. I hadn't seen him all day because of Detention so I hadn't gotten to flaunt myself in front of him. He sure seemed to notice now thought; he was eyeing me up and down taking every single sight of me in. I could tell he was uncomfortable because I normally wouldn't wear anything like this and it was almost as if he wanted to cover me up to protect me from unwanted stares.

"Can I help you?" I said to him as I watched him stare me up and down.

"Oh uh… Just I didn't see you all day." he spoke softly.

"Yeah I had detention."

"Detention?" he asked. "You have never gotten detention in your life."

"Yeah well I have also never gotten heartbroken because my boyfriend slept with my best friend either, but things just happen I guess." I said sarcastically getting a pained look from him.

I didn't want to talk to him anymore so I nudged Drew and started putting on my coat again so we could go out into the frigid cold and snowy weather. I hurried myself along because honestly even though I was trying to be a bitch it was really hard for me. I am still so in love with Eli and I want nothing more than to be with him forever but I just cant. He hurt me and hurt me deep and that's just not something he is going to get away with.

"Clare wait!" I heard Eli say as Drew and I were entering the parking lot walking to our cars.

"What do you want Eli! I don't want to talk to you anymore!"

"Please Clare, I lov-"

"Stop staying you love me over and over again! No you don't Eli! I cant keep doing this with you! I said all I wanted to say to you last night! It's done we are over!" I screamed at him feeling the tears stream down my face.

"Come on Clare, lets get you away from here." Drew said kindly pulling me into a side embrace to lead me to the car.

"Get your hands off of her. You really cant stand for me to have anything can you jock boy?" Eli said pushing Drew away.

"Really? That's what you think this is about! You need to get the hell over yourself and just back off and leave her alone. She doesn't want to see you anymore."

"That's not true!" Eli yelled back at him in his face.

"Yes it is Eli." I said softly, still feeling tears falling down. I guess I just cant be a bitch all the time.

"Why Clare?"

"Eli you Cheated on me! Even if I do want to see you sometime later I just cant right now, You hurt me so much and I just cant deal with it!"

"I didn't do anything wrong!" Eli screamed at me. I just stood there staring at him. I was so confused by this. First he admits he did and then last night he says he didn't technically and now he thinks he didn't do anything wrong at all? What is wrong with him.

"Dude you cant be serious!" Drew said.

I could see Ali, Fitz and Adam all walk up behind Drew. Ali looked like she had been crying all day and the other two just looked pissed.

"Ok yes I cheated and Clare I get that and again I am so sorry! But I was drunk so it honestly shouldn't count. At least I didn't show up to school looking like a total prostitute trying to act like you don't fucking care!"

Not the right words to say Eli. Drew pulled back his arm and decked Eli in the face hard. Eli fell back to the ground covering his nose. I wasn't shocked that Drew did that, I was actually kind of glad.

Eli stood up bloody nosed and red faced ready to give what he could to beat the shit out of Drew but Adam and Fitz stood in his way. About that time Drew noticed Ali standing to the side. He hadn't seen her since the party and I doubt he was very happy about seeing her now. Ali looked at him and she was crying, while Drew seemed to tense up a little bit.

"You asshole." Eli said making Drew stop looking at Ali.

"No I will tell you who the asshole is. You are the one who cant keep your god damned mouth shut. Don't you dare call her anything like that again! She said she doesn't want to see you anymore so just leave her the hell alone! You two-" He pointed at Eli and then Ali. "Have done enough damage to the both of us. We just fucking found out last night what the hell you two were up to! The least you could do is give us some fucking space!" He finished screaming at the both of them.

"I'm so sorry Drew." Ali said softly with a cracking voice.

"Bullshit Ali! If you were really fucking sorry you wouldn't have lied to my face last night!"

"How can you be pissed of at her when you are basically being a hypocrite!" Eli said to Drew.

"Wrong Eli! I didn't fucking have a girlfriend at the time all the shit went down with me and Julia. I have never cheated on anyone and I never will so I wont sit around and be cheated on!"

"Drew I didn't want to cheat on you! I don't even remember that night and neither does Eli! I cant even remember how I got drunk!"

"That doesn't matter Ali. If you wouldn't have tried to lie to me It would have been different."

"Whatever! Quit trying to play all nice here Drew everyone knows what kind of guy you are. You want every girl you see and you always make sure you get what you want."

"Playing the field is different than playing girls Eli. You know I am not even sorry anymore about what happened between me and Julia! You took her from me and pay back is a bitch after what you did to me!"

"What?" Ali and I both said at the same time. I think Ali and I were both really confused. I thought Drew slept with Ali, Eli got pissed, Julia got pregnant and then said baby was aborted? Man, we all are really meant to be on a reality TV show. Oh and great to know that the camera crew had finally found our little dram fest situation outside and decided to join us. Nice to know the world is going to just love my misery.

"You mean Mr. Perfect didn't ever tell you Clare?"

"No, what are you talking about?" I asked.

"Shut up Drew." Eli said looking worried.

"Why should I?" Drew challenged Eli. "You see Clare, Julia was mine first; we dated for about a year during Freshman year until Eli moved to town. Julia and I were happy and in love but then Eli came in and fucking stole her from me."

"You are never going to get over that are you?" Eli said like a cocky asshole.

"You mean I'm never going to get over the fact that a week after we broke up you had Julia get an abortion with my baby and never even told me she was pregnant!"

I swear to the holy father I didn't see that one coming! I gasped aloud shocked to hear just the person Eli really was.

"Wait, how is that possible?" Ali spoke up, shocked herself.

"Yeah, Eli was always pissed at you and at the party at my house you apologized to Eli. But you should be mad at him. I am confused." I said.

"Trust me I am fucking more than mad at him Clare. I was never allowed to be mad at him though except for behind the cameras. The fucking reality show made it look like Eli was the good guy in all this and all I did was sleep with Julia. I was told to play my damn part for the show."

"Oh my God." was all I could say. "Eli? Is that true?"

Eli looked over at me with a sad expression on his face as he nodded his head "Yes". All the air escaped from my chest as I stared at him, knowing everything he ever told me was based on a lie. Were we even real? Did he really love me?

"Why?" I asked him.

"Clare I was a lot different back then. When I moved here I was going through family shit and I didn't care about anyone but myself. I didn't know Drew but I honestly wouldn't have really cared back then. Julia sparked my interest and I went for it, not caring about who I hurt. When Julia broke up with him and came to me she found out she was pregnant. She was going to leave me and go back to Drew but I was crazy about her and didn't want her to leave me. So I convinced her that Drew would never be with her and he would leave her and that she should get an abortion." He sighed and came to a stop as he remembered the moment.

"It was the worst things I have ever done and to this day I wish I could take it back. We never told Drew for a while and he eventually got over Julia and we became best friends. I started feeling like shit about what I had done and I sat down and told Drew one night about what had happened. He hated me and I didn't blame him but I didn't think he would sleep with her and that just pissed me off. I know it wasn't right what I did and I have tried to apologize to him but he never would accept it."

"I thought I finally had that night at your house Clare, but after all this other shit with him and Ali it ignited the flame again."

"You really aren't the person I thought you were Eli." I said sadly.

"Please Clare don't let this ruin a chance for us to fix us." Eli responded almost begging.

"There is no more chance to fix us!" I screamed at him as I turned away to leave.

"Clare please." he said as he dropped to his knees crying.

"No Eli. No more. Just stay away from me."

I ran to my car, got in and sped away; not even waiting to see what happened or if Drew left. I cant do this! Why is it so hard me to tell him to just stay away from me?

"He hurt you Clare!" I screamed to myself.

I pulled over to the side of the road and got out of my car. I was by a deserted park, I went and sat on one of the swings and just slowly started to rock back and forth.

"But I love him." I said to myself in response to my out burst earlier in my car.

I started crying over everything that has happened in only two days. Yesterday I was the happiest I had ever been. In love and with the most amazing guy. Then disaster struck and my whole world falls apart. Eventually I would have forgiven Eli and I know he would have been right there to make sure he could prove himself faithful and trust worthy to me again; and I would have let him. But now, I find out that everything he had ever told me had been based off of a lie. How can I be so sure that he ever truly loved me.

The swing started to go a little faster and then I felt someone start to push me. I turned my head to see Drew standing there giving me a small smile.

"Sorry I got a little cocky back there." He said.

"It's ok I understand. I just cant believe it."

"Yeah its been a rough couple of years." he said coming to sit down on the swing next to me.

"Drew I don't know what to do."

"What do you mean?" he asked softly.

"I want so badly to be so mean to him and make him hurt for hurting me. I dressed like this today to piss him off and that's not like me. I got a detention and that's not something that normally happens to me. I wanted to get back at him by using you but that's not like me either."

"You were going to use me?" he said sounding a little hurt.

"Yes, I'm sorry. I was just so angry with what happened with Ali and then my trying to hate Eli that I wanted to do something to get back at the both of them, But I cant do that. I don't want to hurt you and I'm sorry I even thought about it." I said looking over at him.

Drew smiled at me as he started swinging a little faster. "It's ok, I understand. You were really different today and I could see it. I knew that it was the whole situation but you starting to come back to the old Clare."

"Maybe just a little." I smiled at him. "But I am still getting rid of Ali for Christmas break."

He laughed and so did I. It felt good to laugh without feeling like I have to try so hard to make him think I am a big bitch or try so hard to get him to trust me or like me. This was a natural thing.

"I think I just want to move on. I love Eli with everything I have but something's just weren't meant to work out. Being with him is just to much and I don't think it can ever be the same now."

"Yeah, same here with Ali, but it sucks though."

"I know," I sighed.

"Well on the bright side we still have a fun night out on the town to take our minds off of everything!" He said standing up and reaching out for me to take his hand.

"Oh that's right! Where to Mr. Torres?" I asked letting him help me up.

"It's a surprise." He smile as we started walking to his car.

My phone vibrated In my pocket and out of habit I reached for it. It wasn't Eli, Ali, Adam, or Fitz. It was the damn number again and this time it really creeped me out.

"Have fun on your date with Mr. Torres tonight, but be careful. R U sure you know everything about him? Xoxo ; )"

"You coming?" Drew said from the drivers seat. I was standing outside of the car staring at my phone.

"Oh yea." I smiled getting into the car. As we drove off I looked around to see if anyone was around. How did the know I was going anywhere with Drew?

As we left the park I looked over to where we were swinging and I saw a person sitting on the same swing that I was.

Julia.

There is Chapter 12! I know its shorter than the others! But I needed it to be! Hope you enjoyed! Love you all!

-MunroInMyChambers-