AN: Ahh, sorry for the not updating thing but…well I have no good excuse, just enjoy this since I don't know when the next one will be up. And you can thank 'My Word' by SR-71 for this chapter, the song inspired me and I don't know why.

My Vietnam

Chapter 11

Jason's eyes widened as their lips collided but his eyes slowly closed as he pressed back to her, remembering all the good times they had had together. Then his conscience got the best of him and he pulled back quickly and backed up from the love of his life and inching towards the door. Sam opened her eyes and sighed softly, "Wow."

Jason shook his head lightly, looking down, and asked, "Why did you-"

"Do that?" Finished Sam smiling slightly as Jason lifted his head surprised that even without her memory she could predict what he was going to say.

Jason nodded, "Yeah."

Sam shrugged lightly, "I don't know to be honest." She walked over to the pool table and lifted the cue ball, "I guess I just wanted to feel something." She slammed it onto the table angrily looking down at it and said, "She lied…didn't she?"

Jason walked slowly towards her, "She?"

Sam didn't look at him, "Alexis."

Jason thought then carfully said, "Why do you think that?"

Shrugging, Sam answered, "I don't know…maybe I'm just being paranoid."

Jason mimicked her movement gently and took the cue ball from her hand, "I wish I could help but…"

"But you can't because you don't really know me and all you do know is that I slept with Sonny and I'm a horrible person."

Sam shrugged, "I just -- I just want to support you, that's all, help you get through this."
Sonny ran a hand over his face, "Yeah, and I appreciate that, but, you know, i –"
Sam waited for him to continue, "What?"
Sonny shrugged, "I don't think it's that good of an idea right now, you know, for you to be in court, you know."

Sam put a hand lightly on her head and Jason saw, he put a hand on her shoulder, "Are you okay? Is it a memory or-"

Sam cut him off, "No, just a headache."

Jason nodded knowing she was lying, "Okay, you should go lay down."

Sam nodded, "Yeah, which room?"

Jason gave her instructions and watched as she walked up the stairs, he sat heavily on the couch then remembered the baby's room and his face fell as he jumped up and ran up the stairs to stop her from seeing. He reached the top of the stairs and found she hadn't seen the other room and watched her unpack on of her bags and sit down on the bed and put her head in her hands and cry silently. Jason closed his eyes sadly and closed the door to the baby's room trying to be quiet.

Sam looked up as she heard the door close and quickly wiped her eyes and got up walking over to her door and said, "Hey."

Jason looked up at her, "Hey, are you okay? Do you need tylnol or something?"

Sam shook her head, "No, uh…" She looked at the door, "What's in there?"

Thinking quickly Jason said, "My wife's room."

Sam looked surprised and a bit hurt but she masked it quickly and said, "Oh, yeah, of course."

Knowing Sam took what he said the wrong way Jason tried to explain, "Sam it's-"

Shaking her head Sam said, "No, I understand, it's fine." She faked a yawn and then said, "Listen, I'm really tired, I'll see you tomorrow I guess?"

Jason studied her for a second then said, "Yeah…sweet dreams Sam."

Sam nodded, "You too." She laid down on her bed as Jason closed the door and leaned against it tiredly.

Sam closed her eyes and tried to fall asleep and eventually succeeded and although Jason wished her sweet dreams…

Jax looked at Sam, "Sonny will win, he'll take the boys away. And then they will tear each other apart fighting, and then he's going to take carly back, and he will shut you out of his life permanently. I just hope that you find the self-respect to walk away before that happens."

The next morning Jason slowly opened his eyes and sat up from his spot on the couch where he had been spending most nights. As he sat up a small piece of paper floated down off of his chest. His eyebrows came together in confusion as he read it:

Dear Jason,

You have been nothing but nice to me in the past few days since my accident. I don't know what happened before then to make you hate me so much, I guess sleeping with Sonny and pulling him and Carly farther apart didn't help much. I wanted you to know that although you've been nice in offering to let me stay with you I don't want to be a burden to you or your wife. I can guess how much you love her since you stayed up waiting for her to get home and fell asleep on the couch. This letter is getting longer than I planned it to be but I just wanted you to know that I'm sorry for everything that's happened and I never meant to make you cheat on your wife with that kiss. I know it meant nothing to you and I…well no I'm not sorry, that kiss made me feel something, the first thing I've felt in a while and I wouldn't take it back if I could. That sound so selfish and I guess I now understand why people call me a selfish home wrecker, I suppose I am. But it's getting light out and I would rather be gone before you wake up. So thank you for the third time and I hope you and your wife are going to be happy together.

Always,

Sam

Throwing down the paper Jason ran to the door grabbing his leather jacket and a gun, it was habit, and raced over to Carly's to get her help.

Finally Jason made it to Carly's and, channeling Carly, he just walked in and the sight he came to made him stop and forget about Sam. Standing in from of him was Carly and Sonny kissing. "Carly." Jason said monotone getting her attention.

Carly pulled away and regained her composure while Sonny tried to explain, "Jason this isn't-"

Jason shook his head, "I don't care, Carly listen Sam left and I think she might be going to the MetroCourt to get a room for the night, I don't think she knows that Kelly's board people and I seriously need your help."

Carly nodded thanking her luck that she didn't have to help explain, "Okay how? Refuse her a room?"

Jason shook his head, "No, offer her one. If she doesn't have a place to stay she will leave town, I know she will and I won't be able to find her again."

Carly nodded, "Okay, so I give her a room, you come in and sweep her off her feet?"

Jason sighed, "Carly…"

"Okay I'm sorry, can't blame a girl for trying though, right?" She gathered her purse as her cell phone rang and answered it, "Carly here." She mouthed to Sonny and Jason 'METROCOURT'. "Oh…okay, so she's there with no money…okay, no do not send her away, give her a room and send the bill to my account…just do it." She hung up and said, "She's there."

Jason nodded, "I have to go to her and explain."

Carly grabbed his arm, "Explain?"

Jason sighed, "She found the baby's room and asked what was in there…I said my wife's room and she didn't give me a chance to explain. I went downstairs to sleep and she thought I was waiting up for my wife and she didn't want to be a 'home wrecker' as she called herself."

Sonny finally spoke up, "Why would she think she was being a home wrecker?"

Jason took in a deep breath, "She kissed me."

Carly smiled and said, "Alright Sam."

Jason shook his head, "I've got to go."

Carly nodded, "Yeah, I'll go with you, come on Sonny."

Sonny followed the two out and went to the MetroCourt.

Upon arriving the three walked into the lobby and Carly to the front desk and asked what room Sam was in, she walked back over to Jason and repeated the information, "Room 306, go get her tiger."

Jason rolled his eyes slightly but walked over to the elevator and went to see Sam. He got to the next floor and saw Sam walking towards the elevator, "Sam." Sam looked up surprised and turned the other way but Jason went after her, "Sam!"

She turned around and said, "Listen Jason, I said all I had to say in the letter and this is just awkward now.

Jason nodded but said, "You got it all wrong…I'm not married, I meant my ex-wife's room."

Sam took in a deep breath, "Yeah?"

Jason nodded, "Yeah."

Sam shrugged, "Doesn't make a difference…I need to be on my own right now to realize where to go from here. I don't know if I can do that with you, like I said you have been nothing but amazing since the beginning." She turned and walked away leaving Jason a bit shocked as she went to the elevator and pressed the down button.

Jason turned to the elevator and waiting for it to come back up when he heard gunshots coming down from below, "SAM!"