HELLO TO ALL... WOW!!! THIS CHAP IS LONG AND TOOK ME ALL BUT TWO WEEKS TO WRITE. I HAD A BAD CASE OF CWS.. CAN'T WRITE SHIT SO THIS CHAP GOT PUT OFF TO BE WORKED ON OFF AND ON UNTIL I GOT IT TOGETHER. I WORKED REALLY HARD TO GET THIS DONE TODAY SO THAT I CAN START ON THE NEXT CHAP BUT I HAD TO GET A FEW THINGS DONE FIRST.
I KNOW THAT THIS IS THE LONGEST CHAP THAT I HAVE THIS WHOLE FIC AND I HOPE THAT YOU GUYS DONT GET TOO UPSET WITH ME BCASUE OF IT. THE REASON THAT THIS CHAP IS LONG AS HELL IS BECASUE I HAD ALOT OF THINGS THAT I HAD TO SAY AND I HAD TO GET OUT BEFORE WE CAN MOVE ON. THE NEXT CHAP IS GOING TO BE KINDA LIKE BOOK TWO INSTEND OF STARTING A WHOLE NEW FIC. THE WHOLE CONSCEPT OF THIS FIC IS BEING SET FREE. FREE FROM WORRY FREE FROM EVERYTHING THATS EVER HELD YOU DOWN...
SO IMA SHUT UP AND LET YOU GUYS READ ALREADY READ END NOTE.
~ Set Free ~
21 Candles
~Rachel PoV~
" Happy Birthday Rachel." She said as she uncovered my eyes to the winter wonderland that was in front of me.
" Wow, mommy there is so much snow!" I screamed so excited because it didn't snow on Becc's birthday but did on mine.
" Since it's your birthday we're going to make cookies and then play in the snow build you a birthday princess snow queen." She said as she kissed both my cheeks before pulling me into a big mommy hug that made me feel warm all over.
" You give the best hugs mommy." I said as I squeezed her as hard and as long as I could. " I never wanna let go." I mumbled into her shoulder as she held me closer.
" I will never let you sweetie." She whispered into my hair.
And I knew that I would always be able to get the best mommy hugs...
//**//**//**//
That was the last birthday that I ever spent with her
It was January 21st six in the morning and here I am watching the rain running down the front of the big picture window in the living room. The same window that mom had showed me all the snow from so many years ago.
It was my 21st birthday today given that's why I was up so early. It's not that I was expecting something great to happen or anything it's just a habit I picked up when my mom was still alive. On your birthday you would get up early and mom would do something really special with you before everyone else got up. She always made you feel so special that it would set your whole day to end up being the best birthday you ever had.
That year was the best birthday it tops all the others that I've had since and that I will ever have. I haven't spent a sober birthday since I was 13 the few before that I just remember dad trying to make it the best he could for me but it never made me feel any better. When I got to my teen years I would spend every birthday at the Clearwater's Leah would steal her dad's liquor and we would have my birthday party just the two of us.
I would get wasted and cry myself to sleep. Like I have done every birthday since my mom has died. Every year it never changes I cry myself to sleep. Because out of all days of the year I miss her most today. Being in this house makes it so much harder. I haven't spent a birthday here in years. Never thought that I would ever spend one here again.
I guess I was wrong, isn't shocking I've been wrong about a lot of things. To many things to name but just know the list goes on and on. I don't care though, sounds really bad but I really don't give a damn. And I don't give a damn about not giving a damn. That's just the way it is. Take it that's why I'm up at six in the morning. Haven't really been to sleep in about 3 nights. Not that dad has noticed because I've played it off every nicely.
It even shocks me that I have been so high these past few days and hasn't anyone noticed. I just draw in my book and mind my business. I've only taken three pills and I have a whole bottle so I would say that I'm not getting to carried away. Not too carried away because I'm still thinking about my her.
I hate thinking about her. I wish that I could be like Jacob and not have really known her, he kinda got the good end of it all it's always been dad as long as he can really remember. I used to try to make his day special but they never turned out that well. Not as well as mom wouldn't have done for her baby boy. I think that's why I love my little brother so much, he was her baby the person that spent the most time with her before she passed.
After she was gone Becca got stuck up and I hated her so I spent all my time taking care of Jacob, making sure that everything was perfect in his life. I will always love and support my little brother and nothing will ever come between that. My relationship with my twin sister is no existent. I didn't call her yesterday, no birthday wishes from me she gets everything so wants anyway so what a birthday wish from me matter. I wasn't expecting any from her either so that was the end of that.
I laid my head against the cool glass of the window as my thoughts faded back to the last birthday that I spent with my mom. My mommy, I felt the tears as they fell from my eyes making no effort to wipe them away. There was no use in it there would just be more to replace them later anyway.
What a perfect way to start the day that was supposed to be the best day of my life. A girl only turns 21 once, I was finally a real legal adult that can officially gamble in Vegas, by any alcoholic beverage that I wish and really do what ever in the hell I want to the full extent of it. Yet all I wanted to do was lay here and die.
" Rachel, are you up?" My dad whispered from making his way to the kitchen.
I didn't answer him just laid down deeper into the couch so that he would think I was still sleep. I didn't want him to ask why I was up and why I was crying on top of it all. I hate explaining my emotions to people, because no matter what I say they never seem to get that telling me it's all going to okay doesn't work and is one of the biggest lies you can tell in my book. I don't need peoples pity.
People to feel bad for me because of the things that has happened in my life. I'm not trying to be treated like a special case, because I'm not special never have been and never will be. I don't expect for people to understand.
" Good morning daddy." I whispered opening my eyes really slow acting as if I had just got up.
He wheeled himself into the living room with a big smile. " Happy Birthday Sweetie." He said as he held his arms out for a hug.
I got up and made my way over to him wrapping him in a hug. It had been so long since I hugged him that I didn't know how really good it could feel.
" I love you Rachel." He whispered kissing my hair.
" I loved you too daddy." I replied as I pulled away from him so that I could stretch my back.
Daddy went back into the kitchen as I made my way to my bedroom. Okay so the start of this birthday wasn't the best but I'm sure that a few little pills will make it a lot better. I thought about it for a second before I popped them in my mouth. Really, I was really messing up but on the other hand as long as I had it together no one would ever find out.
I had been clean long enough that they really didn't drug test me that much any more and the pills only stayed in your system for three days so I was in the clear on that. I wasn't going to have another issue like I had when I first got here either, I'm still not really sure why that happened. But trust me it wasn't going to happen again. The best thing about all this is that since I haven't used in a while it didn't take that much to get me higher then I had ever been before.
The feeling was unexplained, It's sorta like meeting back up with an old friend that you haven't seen in a while, and your filled with so much excitement that you really feel like nothing in your life could be better then that moment. To be jolting, so far above everyone else that no one can reach high enough to touch you. It was love, beauty all wrapped in one big giant bubble that kept filling with wonderfulness. The sky was the limit and I was reaching far and beyond the call of duty.
" Rachel?" Dad knocked at the door pulling out of whatever world I was drifting to.
I jumped up off the bed, shoving the pill bottle under the pillow before I opened the door. with the biggest smile that I could manage.
" Yes Daddy." I answered sweetly.
He looked at me as if he was reading me trying to feel the emotions I was having. Trying to get a touch on me.
He cleared his throat. " Rachel, You really don't know how happy it makes me to have you home on your birthday. It feels like all of my kids are just growing up, going there own ways and leaving there poor dad to watch everything happen. But, I am proud of you more then you will ever know, you have became a beautiful young lady, your mother would be very proud." His tone was sincere and his words cut me deeply.
" Thank-you daddy that really means a lot coming from you." I whispered trying to hold back my tears.
He laughed before pulling me into yet another hug. " I love you Rachel." He smiled. " Now don't cry because birthday girls shouldn't be crying." I laughed as I pulled away.
" I love you too daddy." I said as I made my way to the bathroom.
//**//**//**//**// 4 hours later //**//**//**//**//
Knock Knock Knock
I had just got done doing my make-up when I heard the knock at the door. Dad had already left to go fishing, He invited me but I had to pass. Never really got a thrill out of it. I gave myself one quick look over before I ran to get the door.
I wasn't all the way ready basically just had my hair and make-up done but had made no effort to get dressed in anything other them a pair of boxers that used to belong to an ex and a tee shirt.
" Who is it?" I asked trying to stand on my tip toe to look out the top of the door. Yeah the fact that I was short didn't seem to help me any.
" Emily." I heard a sweet voice whisper.
As I pulled open the door I saw her, she was pretty, really pretty small and petite like myself, her face was kind and she seemed to be a little nervous for some reason. She smiled as soon as she saw me a heart warming, probably the sweetest smile that I have ever seen.
" Rachel?" She asked. " You're even prettier then he described." She smiled.
I gave her a smile because someone thinking that I was pretty was something all on it's own.
" Thank-you." I laughed as I held the door open for her. I wasn't really sure why she was here or even who in the hell she was but she was too nice for me to leave standing out on the porch.
She made her way in and from the looks of it she had been here before.
She took a seat on the couch before she smoothed out her shirt and looked up at me with a smile. " I'm sorry, I bet you think that I am crazy. I'm Emily Young, Sam's girlfriend and I wanted to come by and meet you since Paul talks about you all the time." She smiled.
" Paul?" My voice filled with wonder why would he talk about me to anyone.
She laughed. " Yeah, he thinks a lot of you, and your such a great girl that I had to meet you." Her words laced with geniality.
I busted out laughing. " I could think of a lot of words to describe me but great wouldn't be one of them."
" We all have issues Rachel and I can see just by talking to you right now that your nothing less then great." She laughed. " Anyway the reason why I came over today was to invite you over to the house for a small get together. It's not going to be much but I know that everyone will love to meet you and Paul will be there." Her words was laced with hope and excitement.
So much excitement that even if I wanted to say no there was no way that I could have said no to her.
I smiled at her. " Yes I would love to come tonight." I said happy.
With that she popped up pulling me into a small hug " Thanks, this is going to be great I'll send Paul to pick you up at six." She told me as she made her way to the door.
Just before she was about to head out she turned back to me. " By the way I hope you have a very happy birthday Rachel." And with that she was gone.
WOW
I stood at a little in shock but also was filled with joy that I was really going to get to do something tonight if it was just meeting a few new people and spending time with Paul. That was far more then I thought was ever going to happen this morning.
Paul
Just the thought of him does things to me. I wouldn't say butterflies because that's middle school and the feeling that I feel for him starts much deeper then that. I can't really put my finger on it haven't really tried I just know that I have never felt the way I feel about him about anyone else ever. When I'm in my darkest moment I can think of him and know just some how that things are going to be okay one day. He gives me that hope.
So knowing that I was going to see him tonight made me want to do something special. I wasn't sure what I mean there isn't really much that I can give him or do for him that will ever add up to all the things that he has done for me. But all you can do is try right?
And try is what I did. I put all of my energy and focus on getting ready, which after taking four uppers was a lot, I went through all the clothing that I had brought, it really didn't matter what I wore really because in the past 14 months I haven't worn anything else but pajamas in some sort of form. I can't really remember the last time that I was dressed. I really wasn't sure on what to wear, I didn't want to go all out yet I didn't want to look like I do everyday.
It was my birthday after all
//**//**//**//**// 6 o' clock //**//**//**//**//**//
I had just got down putting the final touches on my hair and make-up when I heard the call.
" Rach, Paul's here!" dad yelled down the hall.
" Coming!" I called as I from the bathroom to my room.
I grabbed my over sized leather and chains purse making sure that I had everything that I would need for a night out. When I made sure that I had everything and two of my happy pills I grabbed my jacket off the bed and made my way to the living room.
As I stepped out into view I saw both my dads eyes and Paul's eyes stare in my direction as I felt my face go flush.
" You look beautiful." Paul mumbled totally taken away by the view in front of him.
I giggled putting my head down. " Thank-you." I whispered as I moved more into the room.
" I got gifts." Paul said snapping out of his haze with a smile.
Dad let out a deep laugh before he wheeled himself into the kitchen.
" You really didn't have to." I said taking a perfectly wrapped box from his hands. " Gift wrapped and all." I laughed as I pulled the paper away in a very childish manor.
He laughed. " Yeah, I shorta got OCD when it comes to things like that." His tone a little nervous.
I was far to excited to press the issue any as I pulled open what had turned out to be a very detailed keepsake box. I was taken back by how pretty the box was.
" Oh wow." I said in aah.
" Open it up." He replied back about as excited as I was.
I opened the lid of the box and all I seen was platinum. Later finding out it was actually white gold but at the moment it could have been made of sting it still took my breath away. Such sparkling blue jewels were blinking up at me and I didn't know what to say.
Noticing the wordless surprise that must have been written all over my face Paul took a step closer lifting a bracelet out of the box before I knew what was happening he had my wrist carefully placing the bracelet on.
" It's aquarium, they said that it's not your birth stone but I thought you would make it look nice." He smiled as me moved my wrist around so that he could see the affect it had against my skin.
" It's wonderful." I whispered as I pulled a ring, and a pair of earrings out of the box. " Thank-you Paul." I said as I pulled him into a hug.
He wrapped his arms around me strongly and I melted into him. There are no other words to explain it I simply melted there in his arms. As of by some way he had felt what I felt because as I looked up at him I found that he was looking down at me. Meeting each others eyes, he began to move his face closer to mine and I knew that it was about to happen. I closed my eyes getting myself ready as I quickly ran my tongue over my lips. His lips brushed my chin, the corner of my mouth and his hot breath made a trail from the side of my neck all the way to my ear leaving shivers going through my body.
" We better go." He whisper into my ear letting his mouth linger there for a second long enough for my heart to speed up.
I exhaled the breath of air that I didn't know I had been holding pulling away for him just slightly but not enough to break his arms from being around me.
" Okay." I giggled as I felt the blush creep to my face again knowing that he knew if he didn't know before that my body reacted to him in such strange ways.
" Have a good time Rachel." Dad called from the kitchen. " Happy birthday."
With that Paul said goodnight to my dad and we was off.
" I've missed you." Paul said after we where a few minutes up the road from the house.
I smiled at him, and how sweet he was being to me. " I missed you too." I said back before I reached across and took his hand.
That's when I felt it, it was almost as if sparks where shooting off inside of me. As if my life as connected by some strong and unseen force, It was as if he was now my everything. I was in love with him and would be from that moment on. I felt it and just some how knew it.
We didn't drive for long and it felt like it was nothing before we pulled down the long drive-way that lead to the woods. It was kinda hard to belive that the sweet girl that was at my house would really live this far out. I mean wouldn't she be freaked out and sacred of bears or other wild animals that could show up on her door step at any given chance. I promise you that it took a full five minutes before I saw the thick woods around us give away to a small house that was seat right in the middle of on open field that looked as if it had only been cleared enough so that the little house could fit.
It was a pretty house for the outside with it's yellow siding and big front porch that wrapped around one side of the house. I noticed that there was flower boxes under every window that was covered it what looked to be blue plastic to protecting the plants from the cold winter air. Pulling up closer to the house I got to see that it looked very warm and welcoming from the front view and you could tell that a women lived her before you even got into the house. It could have been something out of a home and garden magazine and that's really under stating it big time.
Paul parked his big ass truck half way in the drive and half in the yard, there was only two other cars in the drive way but I guessed that more people was coming for the reason of his parking.
" We're here." He said squeezing my hand which he had been holding for the whole ride.
I smiled as I took a deep breath pulling down the visor so that I could get a good look at myself before I entered a room full of people. I don't know what I was expecting to see but when I realized that I was just looking at myself and that was nothing great to look at I huffed as I pushed it back up. Talk about a disappointment.
" You look great." Paul said as cold air hit me because he was holding open the door for me.
I laughed to myself wondering how in the hell he got over to my side of the truck with me hearing or seeing him move. It was like he just magically appeared on my side of the car. I counted it off the the pills as I climbed out of the truck. I felt my boot slip as I tried to make sure it was firmly planted on the stepping bar thingy but messed something up because the next thing I knew is I was slipping and there was only one way to go and that was down.
" Careful ba...Rachel." He said as he grabbed me by the back of my arm holding me in place long enough to get my whole body to one area.
" Sorry." I mumbled as I got it together and reached in the grab my purse, which was a reach all on its own with my little arms.
He laughed as he reached around me grabbing my purse and closing the door all at the same time. " My truck is really big to a girl as little as you huh?" He asked as he handed me my things placing his hand on the small of my back escorting me the up the walk-way to the door.
" Yeah it's like climbing a mountain for real." I laughed as he pulled me behind a little so that he could knock at the door.
He knocked once before opening the door up and walking in pulling me behind him. As soon as I got in the house I noticed that the main room which from first guess was just a sitting room was absolutely mind blowing beautiful. There was paintings, candles, and vases all over in a pretty grouping, on the far wall there was a book case that looked to stretch from one side of the room the the other. There was two big over sized chairs that you would find in a therapist office set up around a small tall round table that was scattered with magazines and mail for the looks of it.
The vibe of the room was welcoming like you was at your grandmothers house or visiting your mom or something. I felt atomically at peace like I had been here a million times. I let Paul pull me to the end of a hall way that opened up to a big bright kitchen where a group of dark skin boys piled in around what had to be the biggest dinner table that I had ever seen. And as if I was a bilking light all eyes where on me.
" Rachel Black!" One of the boys at the table said filled with excitement.
I felt my face get hot not really sure why or who this boy was who was saying my name like he had known me all of my life. I looked over at Paul hoping that I could read his face and get a clue as to who this person was but the only thing that I got from him was a glare in the general direction of the boy that had said my name. I immediately wondered what the boy had done in order to get the look that he was getting right now.
The boy laughed before he stood up and I noticed that he was incredibly toned and really, really sexy. Not as sexy as Paul but still he was a looker.
" I can't belive you don't remember me I only spent every waking hour at your house when we was younger." He laughed as he punched the boy next to him in the arm.
I looked closer at the boy and then to the boy that was next to him and still couldn't place it. You would think I would remember tow guys as hot as they were spending time at my house when I was younger. I mean trust me I would remember something like that. The whole table seemed to have found my dumfounded funny because they all seemed to have laughed at the same time.
" Don't worry about them." Paul whispered to me as he pulled me down to the end the other end of the table filling in the two empty seats on the end.
I once again looked around the table these boys, well I should say men was of the usual La'Push decent, they were all fairly muscular boys all ranging in different shades of brown, some with more undertones to the light undertones like Paul. The first thing that comes to mind taking them all is is god, these men are sexy.
As soon as the thought crossed my mind entering the room was yet another one of these fine creatures. This one looked older then the rest but still young in every way, he was bigger, much more toned and chiseled then the others. This force radiated off him, I could tell that he was in charge it didn't matter what it was this man would be in charge. character traits is what it was, some people was born to lead and some where made to follow and this man that just entered this room was meant to lead.
" I hear it's someone special birthday today." The man said as he stride down by all the other that filled the table until he got to the only open seat at the head of the table.
I knew he was going to sit there, it was written all over his whole being. He took his seat the way a king would take there thrown, smugness was the emotion coming from him as he settled into it. Arrogance if you would, I have to say that it was impressive but also disturbing at the same time. In other words it pissed me off a little. I watched him. I couldn't help it I was drawn into him. I wanted to dissect him, take him apart piece by piece and humble him and I didn't even know this man.
" Rachel!" Paul hissed in my ear as he nudged my thigh successfully pulling me out of my mind.
" Sorry" I whispered quickly not really knowing why I was saying sorry in the first place. I guess I had been staring.
" So who's birthday is it?" The man that I had been looking at pressed on with a laugh.
I was taken back by the smile it wasn't something that I expected and once again my drug infused mind lead me to once again be looking at this man.
" Me'Chell!" Paul yelled this time pulling chair closer to him.
I jumped head on back into reality with that one and was looking into his eyes before I even knew what had happened. The look in his eyes told made me want to pull it all together and get back to this world instead of my own, and stop looking at the man at the end of the table.
" It's my birthday." I whispered not looking from away where but his Paul's eyes.
Paul's eyes where a mix of emotions, The one that was quickest to read was anger. Not mad beat someone up kind of anger but a what the fuck is going on type of thing. A jealousness over my dead body type of anger. It was fighting in this sensual seduction kind of way. Because under it all his eyes was filled with this sexy swag that whispered in my ear and sent chills down my spine.
The lights flashed off all of a sudden as I realized that it was dark I started to freak out as I reached out grabbing Paul's arm. The dark was one of my biggest fears, It always has been and will always be. The unseen lives in the dark, things you can't see but have full view of you. I thighed my grip as I closed my eyes breathing deeply trying to settle myself down.
" Happy Birthday Rachel!" Everyone called out. My eyes shot open and I noticed that the room was no longer dark but now light by candles on a cake that Emily was bringing in with a smile.
She placed the cake in front of me with a the biggest smile that I had seen in a long time, she was filled with so much happiness that it reminded me of a mother.
" Make a wish." Paul whispered in my ear.
I thought for a second before I closed my eyes and blew. By the time that I opened my eyes again the candles was out and the lights were on. I heard a few snickers as I looked down seeing that I was still holding on to Paul's arm like the lights was still off.
I rolled my eyes pulling my arm away placing it back by my side. Emily came back to the table sitting a big oversized gift bag in front of me.
" This is from Sam and all the boys." She said as she waved her arms around showing me that when she said all the boys she meant all the boys.
I laughed before pulling the bag closer to me, I was really curios about what type of gift these 'boys' had gotten for a girl that was turning 21. I was almost sure that I might want to wait to open this in privet. Let just say that curiosity killed my cat and before I could even think it over I was pulling gift warp out of the bag. The firs thing that I pulled out was something that everyone girls gets on there 21st birthday and that's the whole crown, stash type of thing.
" Thanks." I said as i set everything aside before digging back in the bag for whatever was left. This time I was shocked at what I pulled out. Not because it was outrages but because it was something that I was never expecting. Well I expected it just not how it came. Before me sat a set of three shot glasses that had Marilyn Monroe on them each was inscribed with one of her quotes.
" Oh My God!" I squalled as I quickly opened the box pulling the glasses out one by one looking them over closely. " I love them!" I yelled not even knowing that I was being loud.
Everyone laughed as I bounced up and down in my seat.
" You like them?" The man at the head of the table asked.
I laughed myself. " Yeah, I love them!" I said as I looked back at them.
I heard a huff come from a little bit of a ways down from me.
" Huh, think we put in our money for a gift for someone that doesn't even remember us." The guy that harassed me when I first came in said hitting the guy that sat next to him before plating a pout on his face.
" Embry Call!" I yelled as realization hit me. That pout, I could recognized that pout anyway where.
" Bout time." He laughed and as if I needed anymore convening I had it when I heard his laugh.
I laughed taking both him and the boy next to him.
" Quil?" I asked as I covered my mouth.
They was far from the little boys that I had left. I mean they all used to be little skinny boys that I would push around and make do whatever it was that I wanted to do.
" What happened?" I asked pointing to there bodies. " Your so...grown up now." I laughed.
Before I could get an answer Emily was up in the cabinet pulling out something that looked like a box of bottles.
" Who's ready to drink?" She asked as she sat the box and cups on the table.
" Hell Yeah!" I cheered as I slide my jacket off letting it fall around me.
The room erupted in laugher as I got sat my first drink in front of me I had no clue as to what it was and I really didn't care this was what it was all about.
//**//**//**//**//** Later That NIght //**//**//**//**//**//
" I'm drunk as shit!" I laughed as started rocking my hip to the beat.
We had all moved from the table to a more social type of setting, a few more people showed up, more bottles where brought and the little small gratings turned into a party. The best part is there is only three other girls here, counting me. So that means that only two of the men in this room was taken. It would be any singles girl dream to be in here.
" Me too." Embry agreed before sitting on the couch.
I was in my zone moving my hips to the beat of the music letting it take over my whole body. It had been a while since I felt this good. Since I was back at school and used to do things. I would sit in my apartment with my friends and we would get up, drink and then do whatever you wanted. Tonight kinda reminded me of them nights, it was a comfortable feeling yet a freighting one at the same time.
" Where you'd learn to dance like a video girl Rach?" Quil asked as he squeezed past me trying not to touch me.
I didn't break my mind set as I stated back to him. " Collage, teaches you skills for life."
They got real quite, too quite for Quil and Embry and I knew that one of them was about to say something really silly.
" So, is the drunk knowledge you just shared with us something you learned away at school too?" Embry laughed Quil soon joining in.
" Shut up before I make ya'll get bugs again." I laughed glaring at them playfully.
That made them both laugh harder.
" Your too little to make us do anything now." Quil laughed before he got up making his way to the door.
" Yep! Those days are long gone." Embry smirked at me before busting out laughing all over again.
I knew what he was laughing about now. The look on my face as I realized that they was right, I wasn't going to make them do anything anymore. They wasn't the little boys that I left. It still kinda boggled my mind, that these two boys that I consider my little brothers looked like grown men now. Made me wonder about Jacob.
" Hey! You talk to my little brother don't you?" I had the question out before my mind could comprehend what it had thought.
" Uh..Ye...Kinda...Why?" He stumbled looking as if he wasn't sure how to answer my question.
I read him like book, he was hiding something, the way that he wouldn't give me direct eye contact but tried to play it off like he was. He was worried about the reason that I was asking I could tell by his body language that he really wasn't trying to talk about what my question was.
" Embry, You know that you can tell me he's my little brother." I whispered hoping that I could clam him so that he would tell me.
He cleared his throat. " Well.. It's not really mine to tell you, plus he's my best friend and it was told in confidence so I can't really tell you. But to ease your mind he's alive and well."
" That's good." I smiled. " Tell him that I said I'm home now." I wiped my hand across my eyes because they watered up on the verge of crying.
I sat down beside him touching his arm as I did to let him know that I wasn't upset with him. I understood the whole best friend bond, It was different then all other bonds and couldn't be broken no matter who it was wanting to know something. I myself have a best friend that I cross my heart and hope to die for. Whats funny is that me and my best friends are more like sisters then me and Becca have ever really been.
Speaking of her
" Hey! Do you know what Leah Clearwater is up to now of days?" I asked my question filled with excitement.
" Being a female dog." Embry said tonelessly I could see that him and Leah must not have been the best of friends.
Every in the room snickered a little before going back to whatever it was they was doing.
I guess the whole room know about what ever issue Embry and Leah seem to share. I was clueless as always. Then it hit me what he had said.
" Don't call Leah a bitch." I hissed pushing him which didn't move him an inch the boy was sturdy.
Just as before the whole room started laughing this time they didn't stop but was really laughing.
Embry smiled at me. " I don't know what your referring too." He laughed.
Rolling my eyes I went on. " Well she's my best friend, so you can't call her that anymore." I stated proudly.
I hadn't seen Leah since her father death and that was a quick visit we shared given that I had only came down for the wake going back to school as soon as it was over. I talked to her on the phone of course but I hadn't seen my best friend in a while.
" I just call em like i seem em." He said laughing like it was the funniest thing he ever said.
With that I acted, One second I was sitting on the couch beside him, the next I had his pushed back against the couch straddling him. I was hitting him playfully until he grabbed me wrist holding me against him.
" I thought we done went through this, your too small to be trying to beat me up." He laughed.
I was stuck. Feeling his body against mine was messing with my head. It felt good, he was warm but something was off. I looked at him, Embry had grown into a really cute boy. As I felt him take in a breath my body reacted being pressed against him and all.
No longer being in control of my actions. I leaned my head in closer to his ear, pressing up against him harder. Before whispering in his ear.
" Your kinda cute Embry." I let my lips lightly touch his ear feeling him shiver under me.
That was the invite I needed as I placed my lips on his kissing him softly at first but coming alive as soon as it started until I put my all into it. It was the shortest kiss of my life as Embry pushed me off of him basically throwing me on the couch. That's when I noticed the music had stopped, no one was talking anymore and Paul was staring at us from the hall-way.
The look in his eyes was one that I had never seen before. It was wild, almost animalistic. He was shaking, shaking so bad that I felt myself start to shake because I didn't know what was wrong with him. Embry was up off the couch in a pace that was so quick that I had completely missed it holding his hands up as if to surrender. He didn't need to wave a white flag.
" OUTSIDE BOTH OF YOU!" Sam ordered in a tone that made me sit straight up sobering me up of the alcohol almost instantly.
Like some kind of mind control Embry and Paul both made there was the door. As soon as it was open Paul shoved Embry out as Sam and Jared ran out after them closings the door.
" What's happening?" I yelled standing up trying to make my way to the door only to have Emily stand in front of it stopping my exit.
" No!" She cried spreading her arms out which barley reached the width.
Emily was no bigger then me. A little taller yes but she was skinner then me so I knew that it would have took nothing for me to move her if I had to. But I wasn't trying to go that rout just yet.
" Why can't I go out there, I need to be out there." I reasoned not really sure on why I needed to be out there I just felt like I did.
" Go ahead and move Emily, She's gonna find out anyway." Kim said as she pulled Emily's arm efficiently moving her enough that I could get out.
As I opened the door stories of my childhood come to life and I realized that I never quite grasped the whole story
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