Because of the small argument that Jessica and Jonghyun had the previous day, Jessica's mind started to fill itself with doubts. The first apology wasn't enough to convince Jessica that Jonghyun wasn't using her and that he was really serious. The sweetness started to turn into bitterness overtime. Slowly but surely, Jessica began to feel suspicious and paranoid. Though she and Jonghyun were still very much sweet, too sweet even, Jessica couldn't get the paranoia off her system. She wanted to give Jonghyun all her love and prove to him that she loved him truly but something was holding her back.

That something-paranoia-started to eat Jessica alive. It also contributed to the slight deterioration of their once sickeningly sweet relationship. Jonghyun stopped taking initiative and just stayed in his classroom. Though they had been doing this since, it hurt Jessica to a certain extent because whenever she'd go to their classroom, Jonghyun would be playing chess, reading a book, or using his notebook laptop.

A few weeks after their first fight, Jessica found herself unprepared for the next fight…an even bigger one.

Jessica did the usual going to their classroom. She knocked on the door and was warmly welcomed by Jonghyun's classmates. She looked everywhere for Jonghyun and found him seated with his friends, his nose in a book. Jessica thought Jonghyun knew she was there so she waited for him to come to her. While waiting, she sat with Key, Jonghyun's best friend. Key was silently eating by himself when Jessica sat next to him and began to speak to him.

"Hi Key!" Jessica greeted with her small, nasal voice.

"Hello." Key greeted back.

"Wow! I see you're eating very little." Jessica said. "Sticking to your diet?"

"Yes. Hey! Where's Jonghyun?"

"He's there." Jessica pointed at Jonghyun's group of friends. Jonghyun was still there reading his book. It's been 10 minutes and Jonghyun still hadn't gotten up to approach Jessica. This pissed her off so she decided to get up and walk out of their classroom. She knew it wasn't her classroom so she didn't throw a fit by banging the door. Instead, she walked with her head held high, with all the coldness and attitude in the world back to their classroom. As soon as she got in, Yoona and Seohyun were the first to notice the not so happy look on her face.

"What happened to you?" asked Yoona. Seohyun wanted to ask the same thing but since Yoona already asked her, she just kept her mouth shut.

"Jonghyun is such an asshole!" Jessica yelled. "I was there in their classroom for 20 minutes and he didn't even mind me. I sat there and looked like an idiot for 20 minutes. That's why I hate him! He doesn't have initiative! He's an asshole!" Jessica began to cry. Just a few weeks after their first fight they had another one and this time, Jessica was crying. Her friends tried to comfort her as she tried to explain her side.

"Talk to him, Jessica." Seohyun said. "If you want your relationship to work you better talk to him."

"I don't care about him. He's not serious and all he does is ignore me. He's not worth it. I hate him! I hate him so much!" Jessica wept while explaining and trying to wipe the tears from her face. HyoYeon, Jessica's thesis paper partner saw her crying and rushed to her.

"Oh my gosh! What happened to you?" asked HyoYeon. She sat next to Jessica who wept and wept, to the point that she was nearly hyperventilating. HyoYeon caressed Jessica's hair and waited for her to explain.

"Jonghyun…"Jessica said in between muffled sounds. "I went to their classroom and he totally ignored me. I waited for him for 20 minutes and he didn't even approach me. He's such a dick! That's all he does. He always expects me to come to him. He won't take the initiative to talk to me and actually do something for me. It's always me, me, me! I really want to break up with him now!" Jessica wept even more. HyoYeon, Seohyun, and Yoona hugged her. Time came and everyone came back in the classroom. They all saw Jessica crying her heart out and made a big deal out of it.

"Jessica Jung?"

"Jessica Jung why are you crying?"

"Oh my God! Jessica's crying again!"

"Aww…No more JongSica."

"What happened to JongSica?"

They all made noise. They kept on asking her what was wrong and kept on teasing her, praying that the so-called "favorite love team of the year" wouldn't break up.

"It's over! I hate him! I'm not talking to him." Jessica stood up and stormed out of the classroom. General Algebra was their next subject but since they had some projects to do, the teacher opted to give them the two periods for the project making. Jessica went to the restroom by herself and washed her face. Seohyun and Yoona went to the other section's classroom and called for Jonghyun.

"Yes? Hey Jessica didn't come over. Where is she?" Jonghyun asked innocently.

"Jonghyun, Jessica's flipping angry right now. She said you ignored her and didn't mind her." Yoona said.

"What? Why?" Jessica overheard this and ran out of the bathroom. The sight of Jonghyun made her curse in anger. Right in front of the Faculty Room.

"Goddamn you, you son of a bitch!" she yelled out loud while slapping Jonghyun's arm repeatedly. Jonghyun confusedly cringed and looked at her with a disappointed facial expression.

"What the he-"

"Shut up!" Jessica growled."What am I to you, huh? You don't have the initiative, you lazy son of a bitch! What am I to you? A piece of shit you could waste your time on? Tell me!" Jessica yelled.

"I didn't see you. What the hell is your problem?" Jonghyun asked innocently.

"Shut up! Don't waste my time. Go away!" Jessica walked away from him. Jonghyun followed her but she continued to walk further away from him.

"Jessica, please-"

"Go away. Stop wasting my time." Jessica entered the classroom and slammed the door close. Jonghyun rubbed his forehead and walked away. Inside the classroom, Jessica sat in her chair and wept. She wept and wept, so hard that the others couldn't help but notice. Minho placed an arm around her and said,

"Boys like that are immature, Jessica. Don't worry about them. You'll meet more handsome boys in college. Let him go, Jessica." Jessica ignored Minho's advice and just cried. Taecyeon heard her crying and comforted her. He tapped her head slightly and placed his hands on her shoulder, a small attempt to comfort her. Jessica just wouldn't stop crying.

A few minutes later, Jonghyun called for Jessica. Jessica stepped out angrily, trying to wipe her tears away.

"What do you want?" asked Jessica.

"Jessica, let's talk about this."

"What's there to talk about?"

"Jessica, let's fix this thing."

"If you're not gonna have initiative then this thing's not worth fixing. Might as well just break up with me."

"I get what you're saying Jessica. You want me to break up with you. Am I right?"

"That's what you want, right? You see me as a burden. You can't do the things that you want to do because you have someone to care for and look after. That's why."

"Jessica-"

"You see me as a burden. So go ahead. Leave me now. So you can enjoy your life."

"Jessica." Jonghyun refused to let her go. He grabbed her hand just as soon as she was about to leave. He pulled her closer to him and talked to her. Jessica just stared at him, straight into his eyes.

"If I knew you were a burden, would I have courted you in the first place?" the two were talking right in front of Jonghyun's classroom. Many of Jonghyun's classmates looked on as Jonghyun and Jessica attempt to reconcile. Jonghyun's words made Jessica realize that he was right and that she was just being too emotional. Knowing this, Jessica flashed a smile and took Jonghyun's hand.

"Sorry for being too emotional. I made a big deal out of something seemingly harmless and unintentional. I hope you forgive me and try to understand my attitude. We have our shortcomings, you know." Jessica explained.

"Sorry for not being able to match your expectations. I'm still young and I'm not quite sure yet but I'm sure of one thing. I really love you, Jessica." Jonghyun said. The two looked at each other into the eyes even longer and smiled. They both laughed and hugged.

"I'm sorry…"Jessica said using her cute second voice.

"It's okay. I love you…"Jonghyun whispered in her hair. They broke apart and Jonghyun took Jessica's hand.

"Come on, we're not doing anything today. Let's go to our classroom." he led her to their room. His classmates were so happy that they made up. Jessica was grinning from ear to ear. The two pulled chairs and sat next to each other.

"My eyes are burning…" Jessica whined cutely.

"That's your fault! You keep on crying." Jonghyun teased her. Jessica cutely pouted in front of him. He pinched her cheeks and hugged her for a short while. Jessica just kept on smiling. Her head was spinning and her eyes were burning because of all her crying and all the stress that she put on herself. Jonghyun put an arm around her and massaged her shoulder. Because of all the pressure on her body (add that Jessica didn't eat lunch), she just laid her head on Jonghyun's shoulder. Jonghyun lowered his head and began to kiss Jessica.

"What are you two doing?" asked the Physics teacher that was in their classroom. It was their free time but they got caught doing what they were doing. Upon hearing the teacher's voice, they broke apart and faced each other.

"Sorry, Ma'am." Jessica apologized from under her breath. "I was just sleeping." Jonghyun and Jessica kept on giggling while trying to hide their faces from the teacher.

"Class, I'm allowing you to do whatever you want to do but don't be abusing my kindness." said the Physics teacher. Jessica lovingly scolded Jonghyun before leaving the classroom.

"This is your fault." the two giggled as Jonghyun led Jessica to her classroom where they were also having free time. It was the annual Science Week and everyone had to prepare.

"Hahaha. We got too cozy back there." Jonghyun said.

"I know. It's your fault!" she poked his arm. He poked her rib and tickled her while walking to her classroom. Minho, who was also in the other section's classroom, bade Yuri goodbye and walked with Jessica.

"Jessica, next time please be careful!" Minho warned. "One more act like that and we could get banned from going to the other section's classroom."

"My head was aching and I just rested on his shoulder." Jessica reasoned out.

"Next time please be careful." Minho said. "When there's a teacher in the room, you better watch your movements. Cause if the teacher sees you and the two of you are in a very…uhm…affectionate position, you two could get sent to the Office of Discipline."

"And that smells like trouble." Jessica said.

"Exactly! Just be careful next time, okay!" Minho said. They entered the classroom and spent time with their friends.

Later dismissal time, Jessica went to the other section's classroom and looked for her tupperware which she gave to Yuri. She saw Jonghyun inside and asked him to help her look for it.

"Is this it?" he put up the Tupperware that was Jessica's. Jessica smiled and grabbed it from him. There was still some Spam left so they decided to eat it.

"All that crying made me so hungry." Jessica said.

"See! It's because you don't eat." Jonghyun pinched her cheeks and kissed them.

"You know what Jonghyun, I'mma tell you something."

"What's that?"

"I want you to be my first and last. If ever we don't get married or if this thing fails, I will not have another boyfriend." Jonghyun felt butterflies and sparks in his body.

"Say I gotta go now, Jessica. I still have to look after my younger sister."

"Okay. Take care. I'll go with you." Jessica and Jonghyun walked to the gate where Jonghyun usually exited. There she waited for the bus that Jonghyun usually rode on to get home.

"Bye, Jonghyun." Jessica said as soon as she saw the bus.

"Bye. Take care of yourself." he kissed her cheek. Jessica smiled and waved goodbye at Jonghyun. Minutes after the bus left, Jessica's mom came and picked her up.

For that particular month, Jonghyun and Jessica never fought again. All they did was spend happy times together, sweetly caring for each other. Until one day, Jessica just felt really annoyed and was convinced that something was wrong.

She went to the other section's classroom as she always did. It had become her routine since December. As she shyly entered the classroom empty handed, as she didn't eat her lunch, she saw Jonghyun playing chess with Choi Siwon, the Student Council president and the tallest guy in their batch. She tapped him on the shoulder and he turned around with a smile on his face. Jessica sat next to him with her notebook.

"I'll just finish this game, okay dear?" he said.

"Okay. Take your time." Jessica sounded calm but deep down inside, she was jealous of chess. Chess had more attention from Jonghyun than her. She just noticed that ever since their fight, Jonghyun had become more and more drawn to other things and started giving her little importance. Jessica just wrote her thoughts down, random thoughts down in her notebook. Jonghyun peered from time to time at what she was doing but she closed her notebook each time he would and tell him to continue doing what he was doing.

"You seem irritable today." Jonghyun said. "Is something wrong, baby?"

Jessica just pouted. She nodded later on.

"What's wrong? Tell me." Jonghyun pinched her cheek. Jessica pouted even more.

"Later." She closed her notebook and rested her head on the table to sleep. Jonghyun patted her head and continued playing chess. Jonghyun won the game and Siwon stood up to leave him and his girlfriend alone. Jessica still pretended to sleep with her head on the table.

"Jessica, I'll just go downstairs to check on something. I'll be back." he patted her head and went on his way. Jessica lifted her head and rubbed her eyes. Yuri and Minho then entered the classroom.

"Hey! Where's Jonghyun?" asked Yuri who took her tupperware out of the lunchbox.

"I don't know." Jessica said. She just continued to write in her notebook. She wrote her name. Over and over again. Then she wrote other names. Names she made up. She then wrote her friends' names and Jaebum's name. She also wrote random song lyrics. Jessica felt tears in her eyes. Once again she was crying yet she didn't know why. She just felt something was wrong in their relationship though everything was going perfectly well. Jonghyun didn't think that way, though. Jonghyun thought everything was perfect just the way it was.

Jessica thought differently. Her paranoia was eating her up again and it prevented her from enjoying the relationship she was in. Hell, it prevented her from sleeping well at night. It prevented her from going home with a smile on her face. Jessica was just too paranoid.

She knew Jonghyun well. She knew he was very friendly with girls and that sort of pissed her off. The ideal boyfriend, to Jessica, was Minho. Minho cared about nobody else but Yuri. Minho would sometimes go out of his way, sometimes as far as accumulating 15 tardy reports just to wait for Yuri so they could go to school together. Minho would take note of his parents' schedules and let Yuri come over when they're gone. Minho would stay up til 1:00 am just to talk to Yuri on the phone. Minho would do anything for Yuri. He'd wait on her. Forever and a day.

But Jonghyun? What was Jonghyun like to Jessica? Well for starters he was sweet and all but that was about it. Jessica felt used because she thought she was just for show. For experiment. All because Jonghyun was curious. He had no initiative, as previously mentioned. He had no knowledge about being in a relationship. Jessica had to do everything for him. She would go to their classroom and call him, remind him that she was already there and sometimes she'd find him still playing chess or doing something else. He wasn't the "drop everything and attend to my girlfriend" kind of guy. And for this, Jessica felt like she was a burden, matter of fact, she was convinced that she was a burden. She didn't have to question it. All she was to Jonghyun was a chore. Something that he had to do because Jessica constantly reminded him. Jonghyun was just in it for the fun. There was no depth in their relationship and she felt that he didn't want this as much as she did. Jessica, God if you only knew what Jessica had in mind and in heart for Jonghyun. If you don't, here's the lay out for you.

From the first day they became a couple, Jessica thought of the future. She thought and thought about the future. She knew she was leaving for the US so she wanted them to carry on by going on a long distance relationship and she'd come back for him. Jonghyun had the same vision in the beginning but only. And Jessica knew that he wouldn't be able to keep that promise because if he couldn't show seriousness in their relationship as early as now, what more when she leaves for the US? She couldn't trust him, that's for sure.

Jonghyun came back later than expected, Jessica's inner mood went up but her outer mood went down. (Inner mood is what she's really feeling; outer mood is what she pretends to feel) She was happy but Jonghyun saw her sad so most likely just stay sad.

"Are you okay?" Jessica pretended to wipe her tears.

"No. But it's okay, don't worry about me." Jessica said.

"What's wrong. Please tell me." Jonghyun pleaded.

"Just between me and my mom." Jessica lied. Her and her mom? Is she crazy? She and her mom are getting along just fine. She's got no problem in the family. It's just that, she didn't want her and Jonghyun to fight again. Well they didn't because right when he saw her so sad, he did all in his power to comfort her. He hugged her and stroked her hair while she rested her head on his shoulder. A few minutes later, she looked up, pulled away and kissed her boyfriend.

"I'm okay now."

"You're okay now? You sure?"

"Yes." Jessica said with a reassuring smile. Jonghyun smiled back but coughed and coughed. Jessica tapped his chest but Jonghyun, the ever playful Jonghyun, grabbed her hand and tried to place it under his shirt. Jessica laughed, giggled, and tried to pull away.

"What are you doing?"

"I'm just trying to get you to heal me." he said.

"That's not healing! That's bad!"

"No it's not! What's good and what's bad, huh?" Jonghyun asked playfully.

"Shut up!" the two started tickling each other. Jonghyun then leaned forward and kissed Jessica on the cheek.

"No wonder I get sick a lot! I get it from you!" she said.

"It's because you kiss me a lot, is that right?" Jonghyun pulled her into his embrace. As soon as they broke apart, the bell rang and Jessica and Minho had to go back to their respective classrooms.

"Bye, I love you." Jessica kissed Jonghyun once more.

As soon as Jessica got back to the classroom, her mood sank once more. She still wasn't convinced. Why wasn't she convinced? Because she never told Jonghyun the real reason behind her tears. She didn't tell Jonghyun what she was REALLY crying about. It wasn't about her mother. It was about him. She didn't want to let him know that she didn't trust him enough because she was afraid that it would ruin their relationship. Instead, she swallowed it all and pulled through the pain.

Later that afternoon, Jessica opted not to wait for Jonghyun who was busy training for this Math Contest that he joined. Jessica felt that Jonghyun wasn't taking her seriously (again) and that Jonghyun only saw her as a burden so she decided to go home by herself. Her mother wasn't around so that meant walking from school to home. She walked that short distance which seemed very long because she had a lot in mind. She kept thinking about Jonghyun and comparing their relationship with the other couples in their batch. Minho and Yuri. Their relationship has already been elaborated. Ga Yoon and Taeyang. Taeyang was very controlling and abusive but Ga Yoon was patient enough to deal with it. But you can see that Taeyang really loved Ga Yoon though he was overprotective and controlling. But Jonghyun…it was as if all he wanted was fun and touching. Jessica wanted more than just that. She needed trust, commitment, and real love, not just kissing and hugging. She felt that his love for her wasn't as deep as her love for him. It was as if he didn't want it, as said, as much as she did.

Because of thinking too much, Jessica didn't realize that she was already in front of their house. She shook her head and took her keys from her pocket to open the door. Jessica stressfully dropped her things and ran to her room where she closed the door, put on some sad ballad and cried herself to sleep, the way she always did whenever she and Jonghyun would have a fight. Jessica forgot that she still hadn't locked the doors so she went back downstairs to lock them, all the while tears were flowing down her face. Jessica wiped them from time to time and rushed back upstairs to cry herself to sleep. Fortunately, she did fall asleep and didn't even notice her mother enter the house.

She woke up at around 6:30 am. It was Friday but since that day was dedicated to the Math Contest and other Science and Math related things, Jessica opted not to go to school. She would rather stay home.

Later that day, she still couldn't stop thinking about Jonghyun. Matter of fact, the thoughts she had yesterday were still the thoughts she had now.

Jessica cried for 6 days straight…all because of the same thing.