Chapter 12

Meredith looked down at the grains of wood on the table waiting for Bailey to arrive

Meredith looked down at the grains of wood on the table waiting for Bailey to arrive. Across the table Derek stared at her.

"Meredith-"

"Derek," she said warningly.

They lapsed into silence again.

"Meredith I-" tried Derek again.

"Derek," said Meredith, "Shut up. This is not about us. Can you stop being selfish and arrogant and realize for one minute that this is about my future, my education about me pursuing the career I have worked hard to achieve?"

Silence. Then Bailey entered.

"Okay people lets get this over with. Grey do you have any questions?"

"No."

"Okay Shepard and concerns?"

"No."

"Anything either of you want to say to each other."

"Yes I-" Derek started but Bailey cut him off.

"About brain surgery?" she said pointedly.

"No" they both said.

"Okay then I guess I'm done here."

She stood up and left the room. Meredith began to follow suit bit Derek stopped her.

Meredith, please-"

"No Derek, not now, please just let me go."

"But I-" Derek started, but then thought better, reluctantly he stood back and meredith opened the door and rushed out of the room.

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Back in the residents common room the three recently specialize residents collapsed in chairs.

"Hahn is a mean, arrogant jerk."

"Sloan is a conceited pig."

"Derek is self centered ass."

"She thinks that I'm some sort of trophy wife of the surgery world. Did you know her excuse for being such a jerk is that she was testing me? Seriously!"

"Sloan thinks I should fall on the ground and worship him and be forever in awe of his greatness. I mean me? Seriously?"

"Derek thinks that by wanting to become a neuro surgeon it means I want to get together with him again and he used are meeting to try and talk about it. I mean our meeting? Seriously?"

"I hate Hahn."

"I hate Sloan."

There was a pause where Christina and Alex looked expectantly at Meredith and then Meredith stood up and left the room.

"Seriously?" yelled Christina after her.

"Seriously?" she said to Alex.

"She is so screwed," said Alex.

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Izzie and Hannah returned home that night to find Alex watching surgical tapes and eting pizza.

"Alex! Turn that off, not everyone enjoys seeing someone rip someone else's face off you know."

"Oh but-" Then Alex saw Hannah's face had truned faintly green and turned the tape off quickly.

"Since you aren't doing anything you can come help me carry things in."

"How much is there?"

"Heaps, Hannah, is an expert shopper, right."

Hannah just looked tired, but it was a happy tired. They all carried things up the stairs and dumped it on Hannah an Izzie's beds. On their third trip Meredith opened her door with a bang and look exasperatedly at Izzie.

"What is going on?"

"We just bought some stuff for Hannah, and her room is all."

Meredith crossed into the Hannah's room and looked at the pile of bags.

"Unicorn notebooks? Pink gumboots? A Barbie? A freaking Barbie in my house? Are you freaking kidding me Izzie?"

"Um, Mer okay I know your mad, but Hannah's downstairs so could you maybe tone it down a bit so she doesn't hear?"

Meredith looked at her for a minute then slowly collapsed against the wall.

"Sorry Iz."

"That's okay."

"It's just, it's only your third day being a Mom and you already are better than mine."

"Oh wow, seriously, you mean it okay I'm going to make you a cake."

"Seriously Iz, have you met my mother? That wasn't exactly a compliment."

"Um Meredith," Hannah said hesitantly, "um do you like the stuff I got?"

Meredith looked up and smiled tiredly, "Oh yeah Hannah, it's great. I love these notebooks, and the gumboots are great, too, especially in Seattle. Why don't you show me everything?"

Hannah, happily set to unpacking and displaying everything they had bought, running in and out of the room as she put on items to display as a one man fashion show to Meredith. Izzie looked over at Meredith, thank you she mouthed silently.

Authors Musings: So what do you think? I love suggestions (and reviews).