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Shattered - Chapter 11
Meredith stared at Addison. She couldn't believe how right that woman was. She had to just look at herself. She loved him too, maybe not as intense as Addison, but she still loved him. And she was giving him up, for her former enemy.
"Tell me Meredith, do you still love him?" Addison looked at her with big, sad eyes. God, she looked like a little helpless child.
"Like you said, who wouldn't?" Meredith sat down beside Addison. "I want you to know that I am not a threat to you anymore. Derek and I, we are over."
"For now? Because, Meredith, if I go back to him now and you decide to want him back in a few months, I don't know if I am strong enough to stay in Seattle."
Meredith grinned. "Ah, yeah. 'Cause chief Webber needs you, right?"
Addison blushed. "That sounded very self conscious right?"
"You've got every right to be like that. Chief Webber worships the ground you walk on." Meredith smiled again, then stood up and said seriously "Derek and I are over, forever."
"But he loves you also."
"Not as much as he loves you. Every time he walks into a room, the first thing he looks for is you."
"Doesn't it feel weird for you to tell me such things? I mean he was looking at you … all the time that I was with him in Seattle, he was looking at you. Do you know how it feels when the man you love looks over your shoulder and his eyes search for another woman?"
Meredith sighed. She hadn't known a few weeks ago. "I do. I didn't when you told me all those things which happened in New York. But now I do." Then suddenly Meredith laughed. "Do you see the irony too? You loosing your husband over me and me loosing your husband over you. Our whole world is like a bad soap opera."
Addison laughed slightly and glanced at her watch. "I have to go now. McDumb is picking me up at eight." She stood up a little to fast and the room went spinning. "God, why can't this ever stop?" she groaned and sat down again.
"Should I get Derek? Or tell him that you don't feel well?"
"No. It's okay. The dizziness is over now." Liar, the room's still spinning. You just don't want anyone to find out.
"You sure? Maybe I should run a few tests on you." Meredith bent down and tried to feel Addison's pulse.
"Dr. Grey, stop that! I am fine, really. What is it with you interns that you want to run so many tests on me?"
Meredith laughed. "We are just worrying about our favourite Dr. Shepherd."
Addison pouted. "That was a really bad joke and very mean."
"You are Izzies favourite doctor and George really thinks that you are a good teacher. You even succeeded with teaching Alex a lesson. Christina doesn't really have anything against you, it's only me who hates you."
Addison looked up and smiled. "We could try to be friends and start to hate Derek together."
Meredith laughed. "We could do that. Or you could go on a nice date with your husband and try to make your marriage work again."
"A few weeks ago I really tried to hate you." Addison sighed. "But I couldn't."
"Why?" Meredith was surprised. She was sure that Addison would show her the cold shoulder or worse that Addison would play Satan on her.
"Because I saw how much you loved him. Because he was happy with you again. All I want him to be is happy."
"He's happy. Happy with you!" Meredith reached out and helped Addison up. "And now, go on a date with your husband and make it work again." Wow, Meredith you're a grown up now.
"It was nice speaking with you." The women shook hands and smiled at each other and then went their separate ways.
"You are a little late." Derek was waiting in front of the on-call room. Technically she hadn't been late, he just had been early, like half an hour.
"I am not late. Its two minutes before eight. You just were early." She smiled at him, but winced when he reached for her hand. She hid both of her hands behind her back and plastered a smile on her face. "Where are we going? I am starving."
He tried to not show that he was disappointed and answered her "I found a nice little Italian."
"As long as they have chocolate pudding, I am fine with everything."
"Okay, then lets go." Again he tried to take her hand, but again she hid both of her hands behind her back. "What's wrong, Addison?"
"I can't let you touch me now."
"Why?"
"Because when you touch me, I feel all those butterflies in my stomach."
He threw her one of his most gorgeous smiles and that made her heart leap. "Give me your hand, Addie."
She sighed and looked him in the eye. He looked at her with so much love it nearly made her cry. When was the last time she had seen that look? She couldn't remember.
"Come on, Addie! You're starving and we won't go until you give me your hand." He smiled at her wickedly and laughed when she blushed. When was the last time he had seen her blush like that? He could remember. It had been this morning when he had kissed her. It had been an innocent kiss, but he had seen her blush. And it had made him want her so much. "Give me your hand, Addie."
This time she reached for him and his happy smile made her smile too. They shared a silent moment, when suddenly her stomach growled.
"I think that means that we are going now." Derek grinned and held her hand even tighter. He wanted to go, but she stood still and looked at him. "What? Something wrong?"
"I have to tell you something." She said seriously.
My god, she wants to cancel the date. She's not ready. "Tell me." Derek paled. He was frightened, would she really cancel the date?
But suddenly a huge smile spread over her face and she said "If they don't have chocolate pudding, we have to go elsewhere."
He laughed. "Everywhere you want, my love."
