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She couldn't sleep. It didn't matter how hard she tried, she just couldn't. Every light outside the window made her paranoid. Every footstep from the people passing down the halls were driving her insane. It was like all of her senses were on high alert, and her off button for her hyper aware senses seemed to be conveniently broken. She had tossed and turned for hours before finally accepting that sleep would not happen for her tonight. It was almost midnight when she finally gave up. Kicking her covers off her legs, she climbed out of the bed.

"Kens, you awake?" Deeks asked tapping on the door to her room.

"Yeah, come in its open." She replied.

Deeks opened the door to her room, "Did anyone ever tell you it was dangerous to leave your doors unlocked?" He questioned turning to lock the door once he was inside with her.

"Maybe I was waiting on somebody." She said crossing her arms over her chest.

He smiled at her, "Couldn't sleep?" He asked.

She shook her head no.

"Nightmares?" Deeks questioned.

"No." She responded.

Deeks titled his head to the side, "Sensory overload?"

"Yeah, something like that. Did you get everything ready for tomorrow?" She asked trying to change the subject.

"We did. Plane leaves out to take us home tomorrow." Deeks explained.

"Thank God." Kensi said.

He hated this, he hated seeing her go through this. He knew all too well the feelings she was experiencing. He knew first her senses would be on high alert. That every little sound, every passing noise would make her flitch. He knew when she closed her eyes she would be back in that desert, that she would be scared and lost, desperately looking for away out. He knew everything she was dealing with because it was everything he dealt with after the torture.

"Your hand, Kens." Deeks said.

He reached out taking her hand away from her chest, and into his hand when he noticed her knuckles were bleeding. Deeks led her to the bathroom by the hand he was still currently holding. She didn't protest, this had to be a first for her he thought. He let go of her hand once they had made it into the bathroom, reaching under the sink he pulled out a wash cloth. Turning the water to the sink on he waited till it was warm, then put the cloth underneath the running water. When he was done he turned to find Kensi sitting on the edge of the bathtub. He reached down to her side taking her hand back in his, and gently washing away the blood that stained her knuckles. He ran his thumb back and forth gently over her bruised hand. Kensi flinched. She pulled her hand back slightly from his touch, but not completely out of his hand.

"Sorry. I didn't mean to hurt you."

"Everything hurts, and the bad part is half the injuries I don't remember getting." She admitted.

"Like this one?" Deeks asked referring to her hand.

"This, one I remember. I wish I didn't. Granger and I were taken back to the camp, Jack had hit me in the head with his gun, and everything after that is kind of fuzzy. Sometimes I remember things a little at a time." She said as she started to cry. Deeks kneeled down in front of her resting both his hands on her bare legs.

"I woke up in a cave. I… I couldn't remember how I had got there. Once I was able to not pass out I found Granger, he had been shot." Kensi exhaled trying to regain some composure before she continued. "Jack, was going to shoot me, Granger stepped in front of me, and got shot. Jack slammed me in the back of the head with his riffle. I blacked out….. He uh…. He thought we were dead so he left us. Granger carried me out there and to the cave."

Kensi looked down at her hand ,that she now had laid on top of Deeks hands, that were still resting on her legs.

"He died holding my hand. I couldn't just leave him like that. He didn't deserve that, he deserved better then being left behind in a cave. So I uh…. I did what I could." Kensi said as she broke down completely.

"Oh God Kens." Deeks said reaching over taking her in his arms as he realized her hands and been injured when she dug his grave.

She fisted his shirt in her hands, gripping it so tight she was sure her knuckles would bleed again at any given second. She buried her head in the side of his neck, as he rubbed her back trying to calm her down. He didn't know what to say to her right now that could possibly help her with everything she has been through. He knew the feeling all to well of people trying to tell you that everything will be alright, when in fact everything is so far from alright it's unreal. After a while her cries seemed to fade into nothing more then whimpers every now and then. Standing up from the floor, Deeks carefully took her in his arms. Walking back to her bed he sat her down on the edge.

"Get some rest Kens and we will be out of this place tomorrow." He promised.

"Please stay with me." She begged, grabbing his hand in hers.

Deeks touched her cheek gently wiping away stray tears, "Your crazy if you think I am leaving you alone." He said with a smile.

Pulling of his shirt Deeks walked around to the other side of the bed. He laid down reaching his arm out for her. She didn't hesitate, she moved into his arms laying her head on his chest. The steady reassuring sound of his beating heart, calmed her racing pulse.

"I'm sorry for falling apart."

"Hey, look at me." Deeks said tilting her chin up so their eyes would meet.

"Don't ever be sorry. I will always be here to pick you up no matter what. I will never let you fall Kensi I promise. I love you." Deeks confessed.

Fresh tears ran down her face as Deeks spoke of his undying love for her.

"I love you too." She said, moving her body over so she was now on top of him. Deeks reached out running his hands up her sides, and then letting them come to rest on her hips. Kensi rolled her hips against his body, causing Deeks to let out a low groan deep from this throat. Leaning down Kensi captured his mouth with hers. This kiss was not gentle like the one they shared earlier in the desert. This one was hot, passionate, and filled with need. Deeks broke the kiss first.

"Kens, we cant do this now your hurt." Deeks explained.

"I don't care. I want this." Kensi said, leaning back down to finish what she had started with Deeks mouth. She moved her hands over his chest scratching lightly as she went. She loved the way his muscles contracted under her touch.

Leaving one hand resting on her hip, he brought the other one up to tangle in her long dark messy waves. He moved his lips down her neck, when he reached her favorite spot he bit down lightly.

"When have I ever been able to deny you anything?" Deeks asked, grabbing her by the hips and flipping their positions around.

That night she laid there wrapped in his arms, safe. Safe from the world outside, safe from the horrible images that haunt her every time she closes her eyes. In his arms she was alright, she was her again. They were them, and soon everything would be alright. She had faith she could make it through this as long as she had him. Her entire life she has never understood what trust was until she met him. She could tell him anything, he wouldn't care. She could fall apart and he would pick her up. She could be her and he would love her with out a doubt. Tomorrow was a new day and they were going home. Closing her eyes sleep finally came for Kensi.