Chapter 12 ~ That Should Be Me

Hello! Okay, well Chapter 11; Clare went back to school, She has panic attacks, and yeah… Adam wants to meet Clare & Eli for coffee and the Dot He has really big news! I wonder what it could be. Sorry for all the cliffhangers in the last few chapters; I got tired so I ended them quickly. Some of this one may be Adam's POV and this one is going to introduce Fiona and some more of Alli and Jenna, but I don't know (:

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Adam POV

After school Clare, Eli, and I all met up at The Dot. I ordered our food and coffee. We sat down and talked for hours. I told them all about Fiona and how she went to rehab for drinking. I said that I haven't seen much of her since she was last drunk.

"Clare; so tell me what happened? Are you okay?" I asked looking over at her.

"Yes. Adam, I'm fine. I just don't want to get into any details right now." She looked up and smiled. I glanced over at Eli and he looked pissed.

"So, I've heard that Eli is the big hero?" I asked them looking at Eli.

"Yes. I was there whenever she needed me." Eli looked over at me giving me the death glare.

"Uh… Am I doing something wrong?" I asked scarily.

"She said she didn't want to talk about it." Eli said raising his voice.

"Eli! Calm down, he's only trying to help out here" Clare said rubbing Eli's arm.

"I'm not trying to cause any-"I tried to finish my sentence but Eli started again.

"You need to listen to her Adam, when she says something you need to listen. You got that?" He yelled hitting his fists on the table.

"Eli! What's wrong with you?" Clare yelled trying to calm him down.

"God; No… please… I can't be here. Leave me alone." Eli mumbled breathing in between each word.

He stood throwing the chair behind him and storming out the door.

"What's his deal?" I asked looking at Clare's expressionless face.

"I don't know; I've never seen him like this before." She said looking back to see if he was still there.

"We should go check on him." She said.

"You go; I don't want to cause anymore drama… I'll stay here." I said motioning my hands towards the doors. She smiled and grabbed her purse before heading out the door.

Clare POV

I was shocked at Eli's behavior. I've never seen him go off like this before. I ran down the streets and looked inside his favorite shops.

No sign of Eli.

I checked his house and asked his mom.

Still no sign of him; I started to get really worried about him.

The final place I went to was the park. I looked around carefully; it was already starting to get dark. I saw a dark figure lying down on the ground where I was kidnapped by Fitz.

"ELI!" I yelled at him. He didn't even budge.

I ran over to him and turned him around so he was facing me.

"Eli?" I asked again… He still didn't answer me. I bowed my down and started to cry when I felt his and grab mine. He interlaced our fingers together and whispered things I couldn't understand.

"Clare." He said, still not opening his eyes.

"Clare… I miss you." He said again. "Come back; don't ever leave me"

"What? Eli, I'm here for you. I will never leave you." I said rubbing my thumb against his red cheeks.

"Clare…?" He quickly shot open his eyes and attacked me. He shoved me onto my back and yelled into my face.

"Don't hurt her! EVER! Leave her alone!" He yelled. He raised his hand but I caught it before it hit me.

"ELI!" I yelled with tears rolling down my face. I heard him take a deep breath before speaking to me again.

"Clare? Oh no, I'm so sorry; I had no idea what happened." He said pulling me into a hug.

"Eli! Get off of me!" I yelled pushing him away. "What happened at The Dot? Why did you go off on Adam? And why did I find you lying in the freezing cold at the park?" I yelled at him.

"I don't know Clare. I've been so stressed lately; with my parents, School, and other stuff." He took a step closer. "I didn't mean to hurt you in any way Clare." He grabbed my hands and I flinched at his touch.

"At that moment Eli, I thought I was going to go through it all over again." I looked into his eyes. "I really don't want to believe that you would be the type of person to do that to me." I stepped back.

"Of course not Clare, I would never hurt someone I deeply love and care about… I don't know what just happened. I truly am sorry Clare… Please, forgive me?" He pouted with his bottom lip sticking out and his eyes looking pouty.

"How could I say no to that?" I laughed and hit his arm playfully. "We need to get back to the dot… Adam is probably worried and I'm freezing." I hugged myself tightly and looked up at Eli giving him a look that I wanted him to make me warmer. He smirked and wrapped his arms tightly around me.

"You are beautiful Clare Edwards." He looked down at me and lifted my chin up so we were looking in each other's eyes. "I am so sorry about what just happened a few seconds ago; I promise it will never happen again" He had a serious look on his face, and I knew he meant what he said. Besides talking I put my hands on each side of his face and gave him a small kiss.

"I love you Eli." I smiled and wrapped his arm around my neck and I put my hand around his waist. We walked slowly to the dot to meet up with Adam again

We didn't bother to take Morty since he was almost out of fuel so we walked the 4 miles to the dot. I was freezing cold by the time we reached it. I looked inside the window and saw Adam talking to a dark headed girl… when she turned her head; I knew exactly who she was. Adam saw us through the window and gave us a signal to stay outside. She turned around and a big smile appeared on her face.

"Clare… Please; we need to talk." Alli said grabbing onto my hands

"Alli; we've been over this a thousand times. You hurt me; you were supposed to be my best friend. When I saw you with KC I decided I was done with you. I knew I made the wrong decision when you came to my house drunk with Bianca. But seeing you; the only person that made me feel like I actually cared about my parents' divorce and when Darcy killed herself; with my boyfriend… I realized our entire friendship was a lie." I choked on my words… Alli was one of my best friends; and I will always love her. But she hurt me so bad; it was time to let go.

"Clare just please. Let me talk to you; just for ten minutes and you can erase me out of your life. That's all I need; 10 minutes." She begged and her eyes filled up with tears.

"Clare, You should… she has something to say…" Adam said walking out the door next to me. "Really; It's important."

"10 minutes… and this better be good." I said while Alli dragged me to a table.

Adam POV

It has almost been an hour and Clare still hasn't shown up yet. I was about to get up and leave until I heard a familiar voice behind me.

"Alli? What do you want?" I asked giving her a dirty look.

"I know I've made mistakes in the past; but I really need to talk to someone." She said sadly sitting down in front of me.

"What? When Clare gets back; you better leave." I snapped.

"I really would like to talk to her also; this involves her mostly." She said looking back behind me.

"Fine, go ahead."

"Okay, well KC and I went to a bar in the summer and well… on our way home we sort of got drunk and went driving that night… I had to stop on the side of the road to throw up; and I heard a big crash… I didn't think of it until I turned around. KC was all the way across the road; the car was flipped over. There was another car off to the side where they got hit." She stopped for a brief second. "I ran over there and looked inside the passenger seat; KC had a piece of metal sticking through his chest… blood was everything; it was the worst night of my life. When the ambulance got there; they had said that he died on the scene… but I walked over to his motionless body and he had a note in his hand…" She stopped and pulled out a piece of paper. "This is what it said." She handed it over to me.

I know I've been a jerk; but I will always love you. Remember that; and never forget it. If I were still alive; I would be honored if you forgave me for the things I've done. You will always have a place in my heart.

I love you Clare

-KC-

"Oh my god… you have to show this to Clare… Or she will always dislike him." I looked off to the side and saw Eli and Clare walking. When Clare noticed that it was Alli; her eyes widened. I gave her a signal with my hands to wait inside Morty. But of course; Alli turned around. She grabbed the note from my hand and ran outside.

I followed behind them and heard Clare yelling at Alli.

"Clare just please. Let me talk to you; just for ten minutes and you can erase me out of your life. That's all I need; 10 minutes." She begged at Clare.

"Clare; do it… it's really important." I said rubbing the back of my head.

"10 minutes; that's all you get." She snapped and Alli pulled Clare over to a table. I wonder how Clare is going to take it.

Clare POV

"Thanks for coming with me Clare… this is really important." She said, but I nodded my head to tell her to get on with her story.

"KC and I went to a bar during the summer; he had fake ID's. And we pulled over to the side of the road and I got out throwing up… and well; I turned around and KC's car was all the way across the road and another car was on my side… I ran over to the car and he was lying on the ground with a piece of metal threw his chest." She was about to start again but I was freaking out...

"He died?" I asked taking deep breaths

"Y-yes… but he wrote this note; it was like he knew he was going to die." She handed me a piece of paper and I looked up at her with tears streaming down my numb cheeks.

I read the note slowly and covered my hand with my mouth and closed my eyes tightly.

"No… he couldn't of…" I said disagreeing with Alli.

"Clare, the ambulance said he died on the scene." Alli said rubbing my hands softly.

"After all the nasty things I've said about him; I feel terrible." I said rubbing my eyes.

"Don't be… her hurt you he sort of deserved it."

"ALLI! How could you say that? No one deserves to die… yes he hurt me; but that doesn't mean I hate him." I yelled standing up…

"Clare; please just listen to me… I'm not done. The guy in the other car it was-"

"Alli, I've heard enough… just, go home." I walked away from her slowly and approached Eli and Adam.

"Baby, what's wrong?" Eli asked pulling me into a hug.

"N-nothing… I will tell you later." I looked up at Adam and he was sitting down on the steps. He had his head in his hands. Before KC cheated on me, Adam and KC were best friends. They did everything together. But since KC cheated; Adam had nothing to do with him anymore…

"Let's go Eli… I need to sleep…"

OOOOOOOO

Hahaha Big shocker? I think so! I wonder who was in the other car? Hmmmm?