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Bella POV
Sunday afternoon stretched on endlessly. I tried my absolute hardest to produce answers to my homework problems, but it didn't happen. All I could think about was Edward. A few hours ago he was just some mysterious man...now he was a vampire, and unlike before, it no longer scared me. It actually made me like him that much more. I knew he was dangerous and this whole situation actually, was dangerous, but that didn't change anything. Everytime I thought of him my stomach filled with butterflies and blush rose in my cheeks. Especially the thought of him running his fingers down my face. It was undeniable.
I was in love with Edward Cullen.
But that only made things harder. I knew he didn't like me that way. He was just being a friend. So I was shocked when on Monday morning as I was tying my shoes that I heard a honk. I looked out my window to see him waiting in his shiny, silver volvo. My heart jumped erratically in my chest as I hurried out the door and into the car.
"You're picking me up?" I questioned as I buckled the seatbelt. He peeled out my driveway and went down the road at 90 to nothing.
"Why, did you not want me to?"
The look of horror on my face made him laugh. He knew I wanted this.
I noticed that his family was missing. "Where is everyone?"
He seemed completely at ease. "They went with Rosalie. She's not too happy with me right now."
I frowned. "Oh. Because of me? She doesn't like me?" I couldn't help at being hurt. What had I done to her?
"No, well...yes. But she's just a hateful person. It took her three years to love Alice and Jasper. She even cut Jasper's foot off once in protest, but don't worry, it reattached."
My mouth fell open. Oh God. What would she do to me? "Don't worry, I won't let her touch you!" he said with a laugh.
By then we were at school, but we stayed in the car.
"You're boyfriend looks mad that you're in my car," he observed.
I looked up too see Mike standing under the cover of the rain with Jessica. She was rambling about something to him but he was staring straight at us...well, glaring, actually.
"He's not my boyfriend. Definitely not ever," I hissed, adding the last part for emphasis. Edward seemed to find something funny about that.
"It's not funny!" I muttered. "You're right, it's not," he said. "It's damn funny."
I sighed and got out of the car. "Fine!"
But he was standing in front of me in two seconds. "Better watch it before someone sees."
Edward ignored me and put his arm around my shoulder. It nearly took the breath out of me and it took me a few seconds to adjust to this. He seemed so casual about it, like he touched me all the time. He walked me all the way to my first class, and stunned students stood back and watched as he smirked at him. I could tell Jessica was pissed when I walked into class.
"What was that!" she sneered, sneaking one last peek at Edward.
I shrugged and sat down. "We're friends."
And clearly she could tell that was all she was getting. So she Hmphed and turned around to face forward.
~.~
The next weeks flew by so quickly that I could barely blink. I spent every moment that I possibly could with Edward. He took me to school everyday and we ate lunch together (well, I ate lunch) everyday. He walked me to all my classes, most the time carrying my books or with his arm slug around my shoulder. On the weekends he'd take me to Port Angelas for a movie or out hiking to random little places he wanted to share with me. And most nights he stayed on the phone with me for hours and we'd talk until I fell asleep. I found out everything I possibly could about his whole life. His human memories were fuzzy, but he had plenty of adventures and stories to tell me.
And then he'd spend time asking me things. They were never general or obvious things one might want to know, like about me growing up. But instead he asked tiny, small details about my life; things only people intimate would want to know. I found it strange, but never complained.
Everynight I also dreamed of him. It was always the same; he'd rescue me and kiss me. It didn't take me long to realize how much I wanted this. I thought about it all the tiny, just reaching over and kissing him. Or even to hold his hand or have him wrap his arms around me. People at school started rumors about us being a couple in secret, which made sense, but we were friends. Edward was my best friend. And being with him didn't make me hurt. It made me forget the hurt. The pain I felt was gone when I was with him. It was like he cured me.
He also brought me into a new family. On days when Edward had to hunt Alice took over the reins and became the best girlfriend I could have. I grew to love her, and the whole family, in a matter of days. The only exeption was Rosalie who still glared at me whenever she got, but Edward ignored him and told me in time it would be okay.
And by the two month mark of me being in Forks, I gave up on him loving me back. I accepted our friendship for what it was and focused on that.
But one morning as he was walking me into school something changed. He held my books in one hand like usual, but the way he acted seemed different. He seemed twitchy and nervous. I kept asking what was wrong, but he changed subjects everytime. We were just entering the school when he suddenly grabbed my small hand in his. I tried my very hardest to keep my gasp in and I slowly but surely closed my fingers in his. Out of the corner of my eye I could see the tiniest hint of relief and a sparkle or pure happiness in his eyes. Had he really been that nervous to hold my hand?
But all the same, the butterflies rushed back into my stomach. Hope returned to my eyes and I walked with an extra bounce in my step. When we made it to my class, he handed me my books reluctantly and we both stared at our intertwined hands. They fit perfectly together. I didn't even want to let go, and either did he.
And then very slowly, he pulled me close so that our bodies were touching, and kissed my cheek with extra tenderness. My knees shook and went weak. When Edward pulled back and saw the goofy grin on my face he smiled instantly.
"I'll see you soon," he whispered.
I just nodded, to afraid my words would come out in a high-pitched girly squeal.
~.~
During lunch we sat side-by-side at our usual table, facing the wall so we could have our privacy. But today he sat close enough so that once again our shoulders touched.
I was busy peeling a banana with shaky fingers when he spoke up.
"So, everybody has been talking about us, that we're secretly together," he mentioned.
I nodded, obviously aware. Jessica had hounded me everyday since the first day he drove me. "So I've heard."
Edward seemed very hesitant about this. "Well, are we...together?"
I looked up into his glowing topaz eyes. They were happy and he wore my favorite crooked smile. He knew clearly what he was doing.
"I-I, I don't know. Are we?" I asked, getting lost in those eyes.
"I don't see why not. Why don't we just come out and be exclusive about it?" he suggested.
My heart started beating erractically in my chest. This was the moment. And Edward's grin took up his whole face, realizing the reaction my body was having.
"Okay," my voice squeaked.
"Okay," he agreed.
And right then his arm looped around my waist and pulled me closer to him. I nearly melted into his side with happiness. I couldn't believe it.
I was the girlfriend of Edward Cullen.
~.~
The day couldn't have ended earlier for me. Edward suggested that we skip ballroom and the was exactly what I needed. We rushed through the rain, holding hands, and into his warm car. I giggled with excitement and then admired how beautiful he looked with his dishelved hair sparkling with raindrops. He was perfect.
We drove out into the middle of nowhere and sat under a huge canopy tree while the rain poured around us. It was absolurely perfect. He lounged against the huge tree and pulled me close so I was sitting between his legs and resting my back on his chest and his arms conviently were wrapped around me. This was everything I'd ever wanted. There was nothing I wouldn't change, and nothing could go wrong.
"This is nice," I murmured, craining my neck up to look into his eyes. I thought that I'd seen him pefectly happy before, but it was nothing compared to the satisfaction glowing on his face now.
"I've been waiting a long time for this moment."
I grinned. "How long? Did Alice see it?"
He frowned suddenly. "Long enough." I twisted around in his arms so I could see his face better. "What do you mean?"
But as usual, when I asked a question he didn't like, he changed the subject.
"You're so lovely when you're wet," he whispered.
Edward lifted his hand and cupped my cheek in it. I couldn't help but sigh into it.
"Bella....there's something I've been wanting to try," he said suddenly.
I opened my eyes and looked at him expectantly. "Yes?"
"I want to kiss you."
Again, my heart took off at a million miles an hour. I tried to play it cool, but I'm sure it came off ridiculous.
"So kiss me," I whisered, pushing my head closer to his.
This was one of the few times when Edward wasn't sure of himself. "I'm afraid, Bella. I can't loose control with you, ever. I could never hurt you."
"But you said the thought of hurting me sickens you?"
He nodded. "It does, but that doesn't mean the desire isn't there. I'm so much stronger than you Bella."
I frowned too. "Well...just try. You'll never know."
Blush crept into my cheeks as a determined look crossed his face. Both hands now cupped my cheeks and he was pulling my mouth closer to his. I could smell the sweetness of his breath and instantly pushed closer. And then before I even knew it happened, our lips touched. It was very soft and very delicate, but it happened. Edward froze for a second before really pushing his lips to mine. And soon my lips found mobility again and moved to fit perfectly to his.
Right at that moment fireworks seemed to go off between us. Blood rushed throughout my body and all the sexual tension between us exploded out of me. My hands flew around his neck and I let my fingers knot passionately in his hair. Edward removed his hands from my face and let one hand wrap around my back and the other clutched the back of my neck. Our lips broke for a mere second, just enought for me to realize that both of our breaths were ragid. And then we kissed again. And again. And again. Until our lips stopped breaking and kept in the same rhythm with eachothers. Before I knew what was happening my front was pressed against his front and my legs had wrapped themselves around his waist.
Edward rolled us so that my back was on the hard ground and he was on top of me. I couldn't feel anything anymore. I could barely think a coherent thought.
And then as fast as it happened, Edward was off me and standing above me. He was panting hard, like he just got back from a long run and his muscles were strained. I realized that his hands were clenched into fists.
"Edward?" I asked, sitting up and shaking the dirt from my hair.
"Give me a second," he hissed.
I stood up slowly, cautiously.
"I almost..."
He could barely speak.
"What's wrong?"
Why was he freaking out? Everything was fine...well, more than fine.
"I almost lost control!"
The feeling returned to my lips and I felt tears rush into my eyes. I knew it was stupid for me to be crying now, but he seemed so upset and I was so happy.
He noticed this and immediately I was wrapped in his arms. I pressed my face into his chest and let out the few tears that formed.
"Please don't be upset, Bella. It was perfect, you are perfect. It was the best moment of life. I just couldn't stand the thought of ever hurting you," he whispered into my hair.
I nodded and hugged him with all my strength. "I know, I just want you to be happy."
"I am happy," he said fiercly. "You make me happier than I've ever been."
And just like that happiness was restored in our perfect little world.
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