I am so sorry that I have not updated in a long time. I just kind of stop writing even though I had all of theses ideas. If you guys review that while make me right more. Also this chapter is for Lydia! I owe a birthday present because I did not update for her birthday. Sorry again for not updating a lot. Please forgive me and keep reading and reviewing.( P.S this is the new chapter. I guess I put the wrong one on sorry.)

Nudge:

All of those emotions that the flock was giving off were too much. Also seeing Max like that was hard. Even though it was not even the worst experiment ever it still was a lot to watch. I mean that was why I would to talk all the time about what ever pop into my head. Sure I still talk a lot but not as much. I used to talk so that Max would see me. So that she would love me more then the others.

But then I saw how she loved Fang more and how she never wanted to be normal. How she always wanted to be on the run. Not settle down and fall in love. No she fell in love with running and abnormality and Fang. That was why I kick her out. Sure I told her it was because I want to be normal. But really it was I wanted her to love me. Love me more then the thrill of running, more then being different, and much more then Fang.

I wanted her to love me as much as she loved Fang. I wanted her to love me even more. But that was impossible. That was why I kicked her out. I did not want to see the person I love be with another. I wanted her to be gone even though I loved her. I hated and I loved her so much. Kind of like Ari, I wanted her dead. I wanted her gone. But I also wanted her to love me and care for me.

But then I saw what I did to her by kicking her out and it hurt a lot. Maybe if Max was a gay like me then I would not have kicked her out. I just wanted her to love me but she was in love with a boy. A boy that was like her brother. I wanted her to fell the pain she put me though. But when I saw the pain she was in it killed me.

I thought that when I saw those videos I would stop loving her. I would be able to move on. But all I felt was the pain of seeing the pain you put someone tough. It was like hurting my self.

What also hurt the most was felling Fangs pain and Violets satisfaction and happiness. Even though Fang is a rock and can hide his emotions easily I can still feel them even if he can't. They were the exact same as mine. Pain, lose, grief, fear, sadness, anger, confusion and love. But Fang could not fell them. He had gone with out emotions for to long. He stopped feeling them the day we "buried Max".

I could barely take it. I was lucky I did not go all emo and start to cut my self to relieve some of these emotions. Luckily though some came in and stopped me from going in to another depression.

I had all of those thoughts running though my head when Iggy came and found me. Crying my heart out over all those emotions that the flock gave off and for my secret love and desire for Max.

Iggy then ran over to me and helped me. All he did was give a hug and said to let it out. Not to hold it in anymore. I think Iggy was the only one in the world who really knew me. Who knew about my desire and my pain and why I talked so much. Also how I kept it all bottled up.

As he hugged me something changed. I saw Iggy in the way I would see Max. I looked at him and though of how amazing he is. And I blushed because of how close we were. I then felt deep down in me something I had not felt in a long time. Something I only felt when Max would smile at me or hug me or even give me a kiss good night.

I was falling in love with Iggy. I had just fallen in love with my brother and I liked it. And I know that unlike Max that Iggy would love me. That Ella had just given him up and I wanted him. It was then that I knew that I would never give Iggy up like I gave Max up.

I then looked at Iggy and said" Lets watch those tapes and see what has happened to Max in these couple of years."

Sorry it is so short. I just wanted to give you a little something. What do you think about me making her a Lisbon? I am righting more as we speak. I also asked Silent Broken Heart to be my beta reader. My other chapter I while send to her. I just did not want you guys to be mad at me so my other chapters I while have her do the whole beta reader thing that they do! Peace Out.

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PSS: HOW DO YOU GUYS FEEL THAT IN MY NEXT CHAPTERS I ADD SOME SONG AS MAX ESCAPES? OR DO YOU THINK ADDING SOME SONG WOULD NOT WORK WITH THE STORY?

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