Chapter 12: Can't Breathe In Here

Emma POV

I gently ran my hand through Jax's hair. His head now rested on my lap, his eyes closed. His breathing had evened out a while ago and I didn't know whether to be relieved or even more worried that he was asleep. He looked peaceful, and I hoped he was okay for the moment. At least now, if I thought something was wrong, I could wake him.

I traced my fingers lightly across his jawline and he leaned into the touch. He had fallen asleep almost instantly, and I was slightly disappointed. I hadn't got to talk to him, to tell him everything. Or at least start to. But he was exhausted, so I wasn't about to wake him.

I wrenched my gaze away to look over at Daniel. He was fine. Well, okay, so he was upset and I had caught a, few, jealous glares thrown in Jax's direction. Maybe this would be a good time to start explaining things to him.

"Daniel?" I started hesitantly. He turned to me. "Come here." He obeyed, a slightly scared expression on his face. I sighed. "I thought it would be a good idea to start explaining," I explained.

His gaze feel to Jax and hardened. "Yeah, I think that might be a good idea."

I sighed again. Just when they were starting to get along.

"Okay. So, do you remember even going back to school?" He shook his head no. "Okay," I nodded. "Uhm... Andi!" I called her, waving her over when I caught her attention. "Come help me."

Her gaze went from me to Daniel, to Jax lying across the whole couch, then back to me. Her face contorted into an expression that could only be described as 'ugh'. She started to shake her head and I pouted at her, giving her the puppy dog eyes. She bit her lip, looking between me and Philip before letting out a groan and making her way over.

I smiled widely. "You're a good friend."

She scoffed, "After this I better be the best friend in the world." I grinned, nodding. "Alright, what d'you want me to do?"

"I need you to help me tell Daniel everything. I don't even know where to start!'

She rose an eyebrow. "How about from the beginning?" I huffed and she rolled her eyes. "Or you could just go with the short version. You know 'we were right for each other, I chose Jax, get over it'." She shrugged.

My eyes widened. "Andi," I hissed, jerking my head at Daniel, who was now wearing a slightly hurt expression.

"What? It's what happened," she defended. I rolled my eyes, gesturing for her to try a, different approach. "Fine. What's the last thing you remember?"

Daniel squinted in thought. "It was, a week before school."

Andi nodded. "Okay, well, we met Jax when we started school. He was a jerk, you and I didn't like him." I was about to protest when she held up a hand. "You want me to help you, the least you can do is let me make fun of Birdman just a little. I'll be nice to him when it's his turn, okay? Promise."

I nodded, smiling. "Okay. Just, you can't make too much fun of him."

She rolled her eyes. "Fine. I'm sure you'll defend him anyway. Can I go on now?" I nodded. "Alright so Jax came, we didn't like him. He was with Em all the time. Then, we found out he was a wizard." Daniel's eyes widened. "Which was worse, 'cause he was already a jerk."

"Andi!" I protested. "Leave him alone. It's not his fault."

"Right," she nodded. "So, his dad's not exactly the nicest guy." That's an understatement. "Basically, Jax was an idiot, he tried to take over the Realm. That's where it gets interesting."

I bit my laugh, letting out a little laugh. "Well, that's one word for it."

"So why are you with him if he's a jerk and an idiot?" Daniel asked angrily.

"Because he's not," I said calmly. "His Dad was telling him what to do, he just didn't want to disappoint him. Jax isn't a bad guy. And he changed," I paused, smiling. "For me." Daniel rolled his eyes.

"Yeah, he isn't a bad guy now. He wasn't exactly great before," Andi pointed out.

I sighed. I didn't exactly like the idea of reliving the last two years of my life. "Andi, maybe we should go with the short version." I turned to Daniel. "Okay. We're just going to tell you everything, straight out. Anything you're confused about, you can ask questions after. Deal?"

"Do I really have a choice?" We shook our heads and he sighed. "Alright, go."

Well, you guys already know the story. We left out all the good parts anyway; the times I was with Jax. Telling him would be much better. I'd get to remember it all, the day we met, when we were trapped together because of the storm, our first kiss. All the good moments.

Telling Daniel everything that happened in our lives in the past two years was definitely not a nice experience. As much as I wished we could just tell him what was happening now, or only the 'big things' that had happened, we had to explain things. It's not like we could've just let him believe he was my boyfriend, and he couldn't just not know anything about Jax and Mia. I also had to explain that I had chose Jax completely; he was going to get me back this time.

He looked at me with sad eyes, the muscle in his jaw jumping. "So you just dumped me? Just like that?"

I sighed in exasperation, shaking my head. "It wasn't like that. I've been through a lot with both of you, it was the hardest decision I've ever made! I thought about it so much, I thought everything through. Then I chose Jax."

"Why? What made you choose him, after everything, Emma, what did I do wrong?"

"I, nothing," I bit my lip, lifting my gaze from Jax to meet his eyes. "You just, you weren't always there like he was, you didn't understand me like he did," I trailed off slowly, "and, you couldn't make me feel like he could. I did love you. You were my first love, my first boyfriend, but that never meant you'd be my last. Things changed, and I-I really love Jax. I'm sorry."

He looked slightly taken aback by my honest words. "Oh," was all he muttered.

I sighed. "Are you okay?" I asked quietly.

"Not really. But, I will be, once I get my memory back, right?"

"I hope so," I gave him a small smile.

He nodded, standing up from the seat he had taken on the table in front of me. "Well, I, thanks, for being honest with me. I, uh, I'll see you later. I just, need to think by myself for a while." I nodded in understanding before he walked away.

I sighed again, letting my gaze fall back to my still sleeping boyfriend. A small smile formed on my lips as I looked at him, gently running my hand through his dark hair. I took in his serene and calm expression and a sense of relief flowed through me. He wasn't dreaming yet.

Andi pursed her lips, her eyes traveling across the length of the couch that was completely taken up by Jax's tall form. She looked at me with a pout and I shrugged, stiffling a laugh. She glared at Jax's sleeping face before taking Daniel's place on the table.

"What are you gonna tell Birdman?"

I looked at her in confusion. "What do you mean?"

She shrugged. "Well, how are you gonna tell him? You know, about, everything," she said hesitantly.

I frowned, shaking my head. "I don't know. I wish I didn't have to," I sighed.

"You don't really, Em. If you don't want to. We'll get their memories back, and then everything will just go back to normal."

"I know, Andi, but I don't know how long that's gonna take. What if, what if something happened to him because I didn't want to tell him something? Andi you know I can't do that," I whined quietly.

She nodded, resting her hands on my shoulders reassuringly, and quite awkwardly. "I know, I get it. You can't risk putting him in any more danger, even by accident. Ugh, even when one of you is asleep you manage to be all mushy," she wrinkled her nose and I giggled. She smiled, "If you want my help, or just, need to talk, you know I'm here."

I nodded, smiling gratefully. "Thanks Andi. I would hug you but," I trailed off, looking back down at Jax.

She put her hands together as if she were praying, tiltling her head to look at the ceiling before looking back down at Jax. "Thanks Birdman," she joked, fist pumping the air. I frowned at her and she rolled her eyes, standing up and leaning towards me to throw her arms around my shoulders. I wrapped my arm around her back, giving her the best hug I could from this position.

"Can't breathe in here," Jax's muffled voice came from between us.

Andi scoffed, rolling her eyes and pulling away from me. "I'll leave you to it," she told me, rolling her eyes at Jax again. She made her way back to Philip and I looked down at my own, now conscious boyfriend.

I smiled down at him, lightly ruffling his hair. "Hey."

"Hi," he murmured, looking up at me with a weak grin. He snuggled into my lap, wriggling around and letting his eyes slip closed before sighing comfortably. "I could get used to this."

I laughed. "Yeah, you kinda already are," I informed him.

He hummed. "I can see why." He opened one eye so it looked like he was winking at me. "You could've just woke me up and told me to get the hell off you know."

"I don't mind," I shook my head. "Not at all actually."

He smirked, "Well, why would you." I rolled my eyes but laughed again. He opened both eyes now, giving me a wide smile before moving to push himself up. He swayed slightly, blinking dizzily and I gently laid him back down. He groaned, turning his head to the side and burying his face in my stomach.

I sucked in a breath, letting out a shaky laugh. "What's wrong?"

"I feel like I'm doing something wrong, lying like this," he frowned, looking up at my through heavy lids. "I feel like I'm taking advantage of your kindness or something."

My mouth formed an 'o' shape as I realized what he was trying to tell me. I shook my head. "Jax, just because you don't remember, doesn't mean you're not still my boyfriend. I want to take care of you. You do this all the time when you're 'tired'," I rolled my eyes and he chuckled.

"So, you're sure you don't mind?"

I shook my head slowly. "Jax, it's fine."

He nodded, smiling again. "Okay. Thanks Em," he moved to sit up again but didn't go as far, instead wrapping my arms around his waist and hesitantly resting his chin on my shoulder. This meant his body was twisted, and it looked pretty uncomfortable.

I bit back a smile, wrapping one arm around his back and slipping the other around his waist. I pulled him back slightly so he was resting back against my arm. His arms tightened around me as his head moved to the crook of my neck. He let out a content sigh, his warm breath tingling my skin.

I leaned my head to the side, snuggling my cheek into his hair. "See? This is us all the time." He chuckled, humming as he nuzzled my neck. I bit my lip to hold back a sigh.

He did it again, rubbing his nose against the skin before letting his lips brush it lightly. I shivered at the feather touch, hugging him closer. "Did I mention how hot you were?" He asked suddenly, sounding genuinely curious. I shrugged, blushing. "Well you are. You're beautiful Emma," he murmured.

I blushed harder, not bothering to try and hide my wide grin. "Thank you," I said quietly.

He nodded, yawning. The sound was muffled as he pressed his face to my shoulder. I weaved my fingers through his hair, moving my head to look down at him. "Are you still tired?"

He started to shake his head before changing his mind, nodding honestly. "A little," he admitted.

I pressed a kiss to his forehead. "Poor Jaxy." He hummed, laughing quietly. I smiled. "Maybe you should go lie in my bed," I suggested.

He pursed his lips and shook his head, leaning into me. "I don't like being alone," he whispered. "I'm always alone at home. I don't like it." My heart broke for him when he looked up at me with a sad expression. "Please don't tell me alone here too."

I swallowed, shaking my head quickly. "You're not," I promised him shakily. "Just because I told you to go doesn't mean I won't come with you if you want," I smiled reassuringly.

He smiled back widely. "Will you come with me?"

I nodded. "Of course. Are you okay to walk?" He rolled his eyes but smiled, nodding. "Alright, let's go then."


Hello, I am alive! Sorry this took longer than usual guys :( I was kinda stuck on this one, and it's still not great :/ I was working on my other, original story (which is FUN) and I've just been busy...with no internet for a while too.

Next update should be quicker again, and Jemmaful ;) I hope this is okay for now, I just really wanted to update something for you guys.

Now, about updating, and reviews.

Please don't review things like 'please update' or 'it's been forever, update' or 'UPDATE', especially when it hasn't even been that long. It was only a couple of weeks, most of the stories I follow haven't been updated in MONTHS. I try my best, and the reason I do it AT ALL is for FUN. It's not fun when you feel stressed and pressured, and then you don't want to write, you CAN'T. So please, understand that we work hard on this, we want to make it good, and that does take time. Okay? My stories are my babies, I love them, I will definitely finish them, and they will not be put up for adoption, I will write them. :)

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