Hey guys!

So this has been a slight crap week for me, first my great grandmother died last Thursday, and now I'm scheduled for a surgery Tuesday. Since this might be the last update in a while, it's been a little long.

See you around!

Oh, P.S theres been another vote for connecting to twilight x) Thank you blackbloodbitch22

We're in 1978 now, getting closer!


I found myself in Anchorage on a trip with Edward. I was there in place of Carlisle, to represent both the Cullen name and his position as a doctor. It seemed the best plan to him, for his daughter to go and show up to a Doctor's without border's press meeting. Apparently, he wasn't able to simply because he hadn't aged since the opening of the organization's branch out here. It'd been nearly 10 years and his face looked forever like a 20 year old movie star that played fathers for a living. He was worried about it.

I was to comment on what the Alaskan branch would be doing to assist in the Vietnam war, all the refugees had moved up to the northern areas to be assisted in refugee camps. Edward instead was just there to keep me under wraps as well as a form of guidance. He could help via the mind reading. Carlisle had rehearsed it with me several times and it stuck in my mind but I kept feeling like there was more I should be doing than talking to a bunch of flashing cameras and microphones.

Jasper and Carlisle would never let me into the war torn area. Not without Jasper with me but at the same time, it would only time a bullet to bounce off of me before I'd be burned at the stake as a witch. Plus when I looked at the forecasts for the place, sun rays turning me into a disco ball seemed like a problem.

The rest of the family hadn't come with me, it was supposed to be a quick in and out, I'd talk then walk back home. Jasper found he couldn't stand being around that many people, he'd almost slipped a week ago and it seemed I'd have to go to school with him in the next move. I was apparently distracting enough for him to get the smell of humans pushed to the background of his mind.

After that only Edward was able to come with me, he'd controlled his thirst well enough and wasn't tied down by a previous commitment like Rose or Emmett. Both had decided they were going to try out fishing, I wasn't sure why she'd agree to it but I was totally ready to hear about Em throwing her into the water.

"Miss Cullen, do you know exactly how much Alaska will donate in funds for the medicines needed in Thailand?" A woman with perky eyes and an eager smile looked back at me as she held a pencil and paper in her hands. I'd picked her for a question simply because it seemed she wasn't affiliated with any of the larger company's, like she was pushed around a lot for that reason too.

"An exact estimate isn't known as of right now but we will be holding many fundraisers in the next week for this venture. All funds from these free entrance events will automatically go towards the refugee camps." I leaned toward the microphone and spoke pleasantly to her. Edward wasn't next to me for this part, in fact he was behind the red velvet curtain, quiet as a mouse. I only knew he hadn't moved because every once in a while an assistant would try to talk to him. He'd essentially grunt and I could hear her footsteps shuffle away.

"Miss Cullen. Is there a reason why Dr Cullen sent his daughter to do his job?" This came from a male reporter, sporting some News logo I didn't care to check. He smirked at me as I felt my face tighten and then forcibly relax. I'd expected this but at the same time I wasn't sure of what to tell him in a way that wasn't improper for a press group. It felt like I was on display and checked for every little impurity to be exploited and flaunted.

"Well as I am in ownership of a PhD, I am also a Dr Cullen. He is unable to attend and has sent me for good measure. He is just as involved in this issue as I and sends his regrets, Sir." I'd kept the entire debacle calm and contained but honest to goodness, I was on the verge of hissing the last portion. I was a little irritated with this human asshole. I knew exactly what he was trying to refer to but I wasn't about to snap and let him have it. I was much to stubborn for that.

"The conference is over now. Ms Cullen has a previous commitment she must attend too." Edward appeared, silent as usual, and spoke quickly into the mic. I stood and took a bow, choosing to walk behind the stage back with confidence. When I got around the corner and I was sure I was out of sight from the press, I leaned onto Edward and cussed the reporter out in my mind. He snorted and patted me on the back.

"Uh...Miss Cullen...we do actually need to get going on a meeting." A hesitant secretary tapped me on the back. I sighed into Edward's shoulder and nodded.

"Alright. Here we go." I spoke miserably, this was the last time I was going on a trip for Carlisle.

The bake sales went off without an issue...well I say that but honestly we were in the shade for a good reason. Edward and I wore sunglasses and attempted to bathe ourselves in sunscreen on the chance that either one of us got into the sunlight. No clue if it'd work, but we were ready to test it if needed. I knew most of the people believed that we were just pale people who were scared of the sun and interested in pale skinned trends.

I switched legs again as I sighed looking at the humans in front of us. They too were pale but it was a different kind, they had a 'healthy glow' about them...i.e they could sweat. Edward and I couldn't. We'd stick out strongly if we weren't in the cold shade of a tall building.

I was dressed up for this, made up to represent the Doctors without Borders'... prettier and more feminine side. I had on a high necked, paisley print, shift dress. The shoes felt odd to me, so wide and wooden. Like large clunky sandals for god's sake. Honestly I don't understand this era's fashion. Rose had picked this out before we'd even left.

"You look fine." Edward muttered under his breath to me.

"Easy for you to say." I rolled my eyes and switched legs again. I was getting restless and I think Edward knew it. He stood up with me, the heels I had on gave me an extra 3 inches to add to 5'4. Edward still towered over me, essentially.

"Human approaching at 1 o'clock. Hes going to try and flirt." Edward whispered low to me as I looked for the human he'd spoken about. The man had an olive skin tone, obviously he'd been darker at one point but years of the Alaskan climate had paled him. He was wearing blue swinging bell bottom pants with a flannel red shirt.

"Miss Cullen is it? William Sable." He stuck his hand out as I nodded at him with a smile.

"You've put on a lovely spread." He nodded towards the emptying tables. Honestly half of it was Edward carrying food from Esme. Some how we'd figured out a system of once in every 3 days, he would run up and grab the food then come back and we'd sell them.

We really only had 3 bake-sales the entire week. I found myself getting homesick, being away from Jasper for so long. Eddie was the fastest runner. It only made sense that he would be the one to run for it all when I was writing responses to letters from fans, newspapers, and the Doctor's without Borders higher ups themselves.

"You'd have to tell my mother that. I didn't cook any of this." I replied with a small smile as I looked at the empty plates. Woman couldn't eat any of it but she was a damn good cook according to the humans. He let out a deep bout of laughter. It was pleasant if nothing else.

"Fair enough. I guess you really can't have the whole package then." He looked back at me, eyes drifting from my smile to my eyes.

"I'm sorry?" I wasn't sure of what to say really. Was this what courtship was like these days? You talk about food and then boxes in the mail? I heard laugh and looked over at Edward. He walked over with a contagious smile as he put an arm around my shoulders.

"Hello there, sir. Edward Cullen. You'll have to forgive my wife. She just can't cook worth a darn." Edward's fake voice was incredibly warm and inviting. As unnerving as it was, the fact I was supposed to be Mrs Edward Cullen was ridiculous. We'd never work as mates. It felt weird as fuck for him to just call me his wife.

"Well I must congratulate you then, sir. I'm surprised you even let her out of the house!" I watched as William's face changed instantly, the eyes turned away from me almost immediately as he started to crack jokes with Edward.

I felt a prick of irritation with the joke and had to remind myself it was a different area, people, time etc...That was definitely one thing I appreciated about Jasper. Even though he was forever the sweet southern gentleman, he still felt I could do as much as he could. Sometimes I needed to do things myself, just to remind myself that I could do it.

"I'll leave you two to it then." William nodded his head to us as we mirrored his action.

"What even?" I looked over at Edward and put my hands on my hips, I was glaring.

"Hey, it was needed. You were sinking into the trap, fast." He raised his hands in surrender as he looked at me. I rolled my eyes and went back to the table. After several hours of nodding, the sun was clouded over. It was close to 9 PM when everyone finally went home.

I went down to pick up a piece of parchment paper that seemed to be flying away when I started to lose balance in my wooden clogs that were supposedly fashionable now. I felt two hands on my waist and swiveled around to see Edward behind me with a raised brow. He shrugged as I shimmed away and stood. We worked in total silence as we cleaned the area.

We'd gotten only a mile before I angrily kicked off my shoes. I kept feeling my ankles give way as I tried to keep up with Edward, ahead of me by quite a bit. We were alone as I ended up decimating the shoes, kicking one clear off into the forest and the other into splinters.

"Are you quite done?" I looked up at Edward with a slight pout. He sighed and turned his back to me, crouching. I raised a brow at his hands out on his hips, palms facing up.

"A-are you?" I checked as I motioned with a finger. Looking at his palms and chicken wing arms, it was sorta interesting to see.

"Yes. I am with my chicken arms, hop on before I change my mind, Cat." He muttered the chicken arms and flexed to show he would leave me here. I sort of skipped and jumped lightly to land on Edward's back with a soft thump. I wrapped my arms around his neck as I rested my head on top of his.

"...Did you ever do this with Jasper?" I looked down at Edward, we were jogging in human terms but in ours it was a slow walk. There was a person every once in a while so he couldn't take off like he wanted.

"Nope! We tend to just run side by side." I shrugged as Edward adjusted his grip on my legs. The panty hose were ripped from my hissy fit, but otherwise my legs just sort of flopped around as we walked.

"Not even when you guys first met? Ah..." Edward sounded confused as he said it. I shook my head no as I thought back to situation and he gave a sound of understanding. He nodded, he understood now.

"You were an absolute mess." He commented offhandedly.

"You try wandering around for weeks with the loss of a child and no idea what just happened to you. Jasper was the only good, honest, kind thing I'd seen in god knows how long." I hissed as I glared at the top of his head and let go of his shoulders to flatten his hair.

"You're right. I apologise." He nodded to me, ignoring the hair flattening. I humphed and laid my head back down on to the back of his head.

In places where the sun rose and fell every day, the humans left much faster. In Alaska, however, the sun was up for 6 months or down for 6 leaving the humans in bed early or up late. Sometimes it threw us, when we were supposed to head home as well, but Esme had it down to an art. 9 PM was the time to leave if you were close to them, and 6 PM if you weren't close to them.

"This was a long day." Edward commented from next to me.

"It was. But we're going home now." I looked up at him from the book I was reading and nodded. We were back in the hotel room sitting side by side, in the larger arm chairs.

I just had to wait until 9 AM exactly to be there for some ceremonial hand off of the cash and a hand shake of a representative from the original Doctor's without Borders's company. However, after that, we'd be out of of there. Edward would check us out while I gathered all the stuff in the suit case and we would be out of here.

"Catharin..." Edward spoke again, this time sounding hesitant. Yes, Edward? I looked up again and raised a brow, waiting for him to continue.

"Things are...different now, from when you were changed. A long time has passed." He spoke slowly, watching my face.

"Obviously. I'm sitting in a hotel, a hundred years later, with someone who I consider an annoying brother." I shrugged and looked back down at my book. It was a favourite of Jasper and I's. We decided that to keep some kind of close feeling between us while I was gone, we would read the The Shining at the same time.

"Theres more good, honest, kind people nowadays." He mentioned just as off handed as before. I shrugged, not really listening.

"Catharin...I wanted to tell you since we'd spent some time together. I-" Edward stopped abruptly as I looked back up to stare at him. His head was tilted with his ear to the side. I was focused on him now. He shook his head and looked back at me, as he put a hand on my own.

"I just wanted to tell you that there are others who are just as good and honest as he was. He's changed from when he was a human, I mean...think about it. He killed hundreds of newborns after he was changed. He's a hardened war veteran. Is he really the same man from when you met?" He shrugged and looked back at me for a reaction.

"Jasper never knew me as a human, maybe of me but he didn't meet me until I'd turned." I tilted my head and I thought about his words.

"Then are you two still that compatible? It could just as easily have been some guidance from way up above to bring you to the coven." He looked at me as he spoke slowly. I rolled my eyes at his otherworldly advice.

"Look, Eddie. We've all done things that we regret. Okay? Your rebellion wasn't that bad." I spoke sympathetically as I patted his hand and withdrew back into my book. I heard him stand and watched as he pulled the book out of my hands. I sighed and looked at him, propping my head up with my arm.

"Catharin, you're not understanding what I'm trying to say here...I-why do you stay with him? Why is he so perfect to you? You think about him nearly all the damn time." He was crouched down in front of me looking nervous and exasperated. I tilted my head, wondering why in the hell he'd ever ask that when I realized he'd never felt the pull.

"Because he's my soul mate." I shrugged and waited for him.

"But how do you know? I mean I could be your soul mate, just waiting for you to realize it." He took both of my hands at this point. I was a little startled. I knew that under all the depression and angst, Edward was a romantic at heart. He was less similar to Heathcliff in Wuthering Heights than Jasper, but still had this need to love.

"Edward...I'm going to pretend you haven't practically confessed to me." I gave him a pointed look to take the bait and let it go.

"One day, you'll see." He stood with some amount of anger and spoke with determination. I raised a brow as he hit the end table, shattering it and sending wood splinters everywhere. I felt a few bounce off my skin but land in my hair. His temper tantrum would stop eventually, I thought to myself.

"Temper Tantrum? I'm not a child Catharin. I know you're 113 and I'm only 58, but enough." He bellowed as I pointedly ignored him, choosing to brush the slivers out of my hair. He snarled and wound up ripping the window up to jump through it. I got up and looked out right as he disappeared into the forest.

"Good grief." I sighed to myself as I went out myself, trying to keep an eye out for humans. I ran into the forest, trying to smell his trail. He'd just about disappeared as I looked around for him.

I paused as I heard the sound of feet hitting the ground at a quick pace. The only thing that gave him away was the sound of his shoes on the leaves and brush on the forest floor. Ah shit. I tried to take a step out of the way but found he changed the trajectory, running right into my side. It was forceful but not enough to hurt me, merely knock me over.

"How do I know that I'll ever find someone I feel that pull for? What if every girl I meet, I just compare her to you?" He sounded worried now as he rolled off of me and laid next to me.

"You compare people to me?" I asked softly.

"Apparently so. I was thinking of giving into Irina but I kept thinking 'She doesn't enjoy my music like Cat.', 'She likes putting make up on, Cat doesn't.' 'Shes not interested in one guy like Cat.'." He sounded miserable as he talked about the unmated Denali sister. The other two were slowly finding that the multiple string of lovers were only getting them nicknames like Succubi.

"Sometimes that works best, not being bonded to any one vampire. You could have anyone you set your heart on, Edward." I looked over and squeezed his hand as I spoke. I was trying to be comforting, he seemed to have a hard case of angst and sadness.

"Then why can't I have the one person I want the most?" He sounded miserable as he asked, looking at up the Alaskan trees. I frowned at him, it hurt to see him so miserable but at the same time, it would have never worked.

"It won't ever work if you keep telling yourself that. I'll go pay for the damage. See you at home, Cat." He whispered my name as he stood and darted out of sight. For some reason he'd always been the faster runner out of all of us. I laid there for an hour or so before I stood and dusted off the leaves. I scared the wildlife as I stood, the sound of squirrels and rabbits scurrying away from me crunching leaves as they went.


I'd been running through the Alaskan wilderness for a little bit, trying to figure out exactly where I was by scents. If I went to far to the left or to the right I'd lose the smell of our coven and get turned around again. I knew for a fact I was going in circles because now all I could smell was myself.

The sun had clouded over again leading me to believe it was either incredibly late or early, really at this point I was just beginning to panic. Edward wasn't around and I couldn't actually seem to find my way back. It wasn't like I could stop and ask a tree for directions. It felt like another few hours had passed when I started to hear...something.

Right now it seemed like it was just a breeze going through but at the same time, I kept hearing snaps and pops. They came from above me but they were farther away. Either someone was jumping from branch to the ground then to another branch or they were moving branch to branch quickly.

I was starting to seriously freak now, stopping my breathing as I froze. I felt like the breathing would some how give away my position as I jumped into what seemed to be a Spruce or a Tamarack. I remembered it from a year or so of looking at the trees with Jasper, he'd become interested in them for carving purposes but quickly lost interest. A crack was closer now as I tried to scramble for higher ground.

I listened to the air shift with some worry building as I did. I didn't know who was coming but it seemed it was one of our kind with how smoothly they were moving. It was really only the leaves that seemed to make noise as they fell or rode the wind.

The tree I was balanced on trembled as someone landed below me. They didn't push off again, they were just standing there. A second later, I could feel eyes on me as I tried to mold myself into the tree's shape. I was trying to move slowly, see where they were in relation to me.

"Catharin?" A southern voice reached my ears as I spotted the familiar pale face below. The worry ebbed away to calm and familiarity of the emotions switching so quickly gave away who it was.

"Jazzy!" I was excited now as I climbed down the tree and hugged him.

"How'd they let you come up here?" I asked excitedly as Jasper pulled me towards him, kissing my forehead. I found the warm fuzzy feelings run all the way down to my toes and back up.

"Well it's after bed time for everyone, darlin'. You're a little late getting back home." His words were accented with some undertones of worry.

"Either way. You smell good." I nestled my head into his clothed chest and took in a deep breath. I felt Jasper pause as he started to shake with laughter.

"So do you." He muttered into my hair.

"Wheres Edward? I've been meaning to ask." He pulled away after I didn't respond. I wasn't sure how to phrase it without pissing him off.

"Hes uh...I'm not sure." I replied warily, looking at his grey wool vest.

"What do you mean 'not sure', he was supposed to travel with you, Cat." Okay now he sounds pissy. I was not doing well at the whole "don't piss off Jasper" deal today. I shrugged mutely in his arms, I didn't want to get Edward in trouble.

"Fine. We'll talk about it when we get home, but I'm not going to be happy about it." He warned as he put out a hand for me to take. I nodded just as mutely as before as I placed my hand in his and we jumped down to the forest floor, taking off towards what was now for sure the right direction.