I'm glad you liked the last chapter.

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Chapter 12

The next day Rachel and Puck were a bit awkward with each other. This ofcourse meant that they kept bumping into each other.

The only people who noticed the tension between the two were Santana, Sidni and Quinn and she was surprizingly curious. She has to talk to him soon. They haven't been them in such a long time. She felt she and Puck needed a conversation about them. Whatever they felt for each other she doesn't feel it anymore. She compared the way he is looking at Rachel this moment, he's stealing glances at her right now, to the way he looks at her and it's not the same. She really needs to talk to him.

"Puck, hey can I talk to you?" when she sees that he hesitates she says "It's important." she gets up and he follows her.

They take a walk along the beach. "Remember the day we got together?" she asks him. When he nods she continues. "Did you ever wonder why I went to you that day?"

"To be honest yes I have always wondered why you came to me. For a while there I began to believe that you didn't want anything to do with me."

"The week after I rejected you. I noticed a change in you. You didn't bully the nerds anymore, you were more relaxed and started to show an interest in your future. You applied to colleges and well... I think that's the moment I realised that you could be good for me." Quinn told him.

"Why do I feel like there is a but coming along?"

"When we started dating you turned into yourself but with a mix of the guy I've seen when we weren't together. But most of that guy just disappeared. I have seen that guy but he doesn't come out with me. He makes his appearance when Rachel is around. Puck you have feelings for her and you can't deny it. I think it's time we end our agreement." she tells him with a smile.

"Wait are you sure?"

"Yes. When we tried our relationship and it failed, we made this deal in order for me to not get hurt. I was afraid of love, you were avoiding something, I don't know what but you were. Since we came here and were staying in New York I could see how much you felt for Rachel. I can see that you are afraid of pursueing your feelings for her."

"I... Uh... How." he stumbles on his words. "I don't think she wants me Quinn. Not after what I did to her not after how she found out about us."

"Well you should try. Letting love go is not worth it... it's not worth stupid mistakes."

She turns around walking back to the house. He goes to sit down on a bench thinking about what Quinn said. He is not sure whether he loves Rachel but he knows that before this vacation is over he needs her back. He is not happy being her friend not after last night. There is no way he can go back to being just a friend.

He thinks of the day he and Rachel got together.

*FLASHBACK*

Rachel is busy dancing in front of her mirror, singing into her brush. She felt like being silly so she singing an old Spice Girls song.

... Slam it to the left

If your having a good time

Shake it to the right

If you know that you feel fine

Chicas to the front..

She stopped singing when she heard a knock on her window. She walked over to it to find Puck on the balcony out side her room. She opened the door that leads to her balcony and motions for him to come in. When he didn't move she walked out.

"Noah what are you doing here?"

"I'm tired Berry." he sits on the loveseat. She had her daddies put it there for her so she could have her 'me time' that she needs when the insults get too much.

"Of what Noah?"

"I'm tired of trying to get her to see me and not the person she thinks I am. She doesn't see who I could be and I'm tired of trying to get her to see me."

"Would you be up for one more try?" Rachel asks an idea popping into her head.

"What are you on about?"

"I could help you. I could coach you on how to make yourself better. I won't change you because to be honestI think you are great but you could show Quinn what I've known all along. You could show her what I see."

After a long talk about how he should start. They started talking about things that they haven't spoken about in years. Before they knew it Rachel's head is resting on his shoulder her knees pulled up to her chest and his left hand is on her right knee. Her right hand on his left knee. They are laughing about how their parents want them to be together.

She tells him about her insecurities, about how she's afraid she not good enough or pretty enough to get on Broadway. They lock eyes when he tells her she's more than good enough and that she's not pretty but 'fucking sexy' she smiles shyly at him even though she doesn't agree with his language. Their lips nearly connects when she looks away. He takes her chin in his hands and leads her face to face his again and rests his lips on hers. During the kiss she straddles his legs and when they end the kiss, both their lips are swolen and they decide to be friends with benefits until Puck can get Quinn. A kiss like that could not be ignored. That just means NO DATES!

*END OF FLASHBACK*

He starts walking back to the house he thinks back to the time Rachel found out about him and Quinn.

*FLASHBACK*

They had broken their no date rule about a three months ago when Rachel's grandmother died. He wanted to cheer her up so he set up a picnic in the park and after then they started dating but weren't really in a relationship. He was supposed to meet her, for some reason they kept their relationship a secret. No one ever knew about it.

He was waiting for her at the lake. All of the sudden there was Quinn he didn't know when she arrived but she was there.

She tells him how sorry she was about the the things she said how she wants and needs him to forgive her. He thought about turning her down and telling Rachel how he feels about her but all he can think about is how he isn't good enough for Rachel. He has realized that he is in love with her but she deserves more than him and she deserves more than he could give her. So he tells Quinn that he is willing to give her another chance. She hugs him and lifts her mouth to his. They kiss and all he can think about is how when he bends down he doesn't bend down enough, he thinks about how the hair that's entangled around his hands aren't dark enough or how it isn't long enough. When they pull apart he sees the one girl he didn't want there at that moment even though he knew she would be there he wished she came later than they arranged. When he saw the hurt in her eyes he wishes he could take it back. When she runs away he wants to go after her but then he thinks about how this would be better she is leaving for New York in a few days. It's better that it happened at that moment. So he lets her go breaking both their hearts in the process. So he holds on to Quinn hoping that her presence would take away the hole that just formed in his heart, it's even bigger than the one his dad left behind. He remembers how that hole shrunk in size he just hopes that the one Rachel left will too.

*END OF FLASHBACK*

He walks into the living room where he hears Rachel's voice mix with Sidni and Santana's as they plan on going to the docter's office later.

He thinks to himself 'I was wrong the hole in my heart just grew bigger the more she's away from me and it's even worse now that she's so close yet so far away.'

Well I hope you liked. You guys finally have a reason as to why Puck 'cheated' on Rachel.

Song used: Spice Girls, Spice up your life.