I have been waiting for my beta reader to get back to me, once again, for almost a week. I haven't gotten the chapter back yet, and I can't keep waiting. So I'm uploading without any editing(besides mine, which doesn't really count) Please try not to notice all the grammer mistakes.

Also, just to give everyone a heads up. I might not be updating for a while. For the past week I have been sick. If you followed My Fearless Bella, you will know that I was sick last year too. And it's the same thing - headaches, low iron, high blood pressure etc. Except its worse this time. I have passed out multiple times and am running a fever 102-3. The doctors are thinking that it is more that just the common migraine headache as they first expected. Needless to say, I have seen four doctors, been to the hospital, and seen a speacialist. None of them can figure it out. And to be honest, I don't know what that means at all or where I am going in the next few days... Just felt that I should let you guys know in case you didn't hear from me for a while.

On a better note, I am going to posting a blog on my wesite later today(because I am just that bored) trying to explain "this story". I have had a lot of questions from everyone, and I feel like they need to be answered. I have talked to Navygirl14(a brilliant person I must say) and she has really helped me with being able to explain what is going on and why, If that makes any sense? lol

Anyways, enough about me. Enjoy the chapter. It's a long one.... that sound so wrong. lmfao. Ok ok ok, im sorry. You can start reading right... now:)


Previously on Love, Pain, and the Whole Crazy Thing -

"Fine, be that way! But I'll be damned if I'm going to sit here and watch you let your life go to hell because you wont listen to me, or a doctor for that matter?!" I growled. I angrily grabbed my coat and keys and left the room, slamming the door as I went.

EMPOV

Why was I so angry?

I honestly didn't know what had happened back there? I couldn't control myself? I couldn't even stand to look at my own wife?

I got in my jeep and heading for the loft, but I only made it a few blocks.

I pulled over in an alley way.

"Damn it!" I yelled. I put my head in my hands. I hated getting angry like this, I couldn't stand it. I let myself calm down for a while, listening to the radio.

I looked down at my phone sitting in the cup holder. I kept looking at it, and looking at it.

Against my better judgment I picked it up and scrolled through my contacts. I noticed that she had been number in. messing with my phone earlier this morning, maybe there could be a chance she had decided to put her number in.

Yep, there is was. I pressed the call button and waited as it rang and rang.

"Hello?" I heard someone ask sleepily.

"Tanya?"

BPOV

He slammed the door as he left the room.

I stared at the space where my husband had just been for a while, and then looked back at Nathan.

Still the same.

I felt the tears on my face, but didn't even bother to wipe them off. There was no point anymore.

EMPOV

"Emmett? What? Huh?" She questioned. I had woken her up. I forgot that she worked nights. I felt bad now, I should have never called her.

"Tanya? I'm sorry? I didn't mean to wake you? I'll just hang up now?" I said, feeling stupid.

"No, no. It's fine." She assured. I could hear slight movement in the background, maybe her sitting up in bed or something. "Did you need something?"

"Well no? But…. Would you like to go out to lunch? With me?" I blurted out. There was silence on the line.

"Tanya?" I asked. I heard her sigh.

"Emmett? I don't know? What about Nathan? And your wife? Don't they need you around?"

"Well, yes. But I need a break. Plus I'm hungry? It's just a friendly lunch? I promise that's all it is?" I assured. There was silence again and I knew she was contemplating, going over the pros and cons in her head.

"Ok." She said after a while. "Where do you want me to meet you?"

"Well, I was just going to pick you up if you wanted? And then maybe we could go to Central Park and get some hot dogs at a vender or something? But we don't have to do that? We can go somewhere else?" I rambled. Why was I so nervous, it's not like it was a date?

"Central Park sounds good. Although it is supposed to rain later today? But if it is only lunch I think we will be fine?" she said.

"Ok. I can pick you up? If you want? Or you can drive?"

"Umm… yeah? I don't have a car." She laughed.

"Oh. Then I will pick you up." I chuckled. She gave me directions to her house, and I hung up the phone. I smiled to myself and headed over to the other side of the city.

A few minutes later I pulled up to the small shabby run down apartment building. I double checked the directions she had gave me, this couldn't be it. The place I was looking at looked like it should have been condemned.

I got out, because despite my hesitation, the address was right.

"Do you know which one Tanya Denali lives in?" I asked a man, bigger than myself, who was walking out of the building as I was walking in. He grunted at me and pointed to a door on the left.

I thanked him and went to knock on the door.

The door opened but no one was there?

"Hi." A chipper voice said, scaring me. I looked down to a small blonde girl who seemed to be about Nate's age. "You must be mommy's friend. I'm Kate." she said and held her hand up for me to shake. I took it and smiled at her. She led me in.

Despite what the building looked like on the outside, Tanya's apartment was nice. It wasn't up to date with the latest trends, but it was a nice place none the less.

"So who are you anyway? What's your name?" The little girl asked. She walked out of the kitchen, cookie in hand, and plopped a spot right next to me.

"I'm Emmett McCarty." I smiled. The girl was very out going, she reminded me a lot of Nate. They would get along.

"Nice to meet you Emmett." She smiled.

"Kate, who are you talking to?" I heard Tanya yell from somewhere in the back of the apartment.

"Emmett McCarty." She said proudly. I laughed at her. She definatly was Tanya's kid.

"OH! Emmett I'm sorry. I'll be done in a minute." Tanya called to me.

"Your fine. I'm in no hurry." I yelled back to her.

"That's a pretty bracelet." Kate said to me as she observed the bracelet that Nathan had made me at boy scout camp this summer.

It was one of those leather ones. It was a nice touch with everything I wore and was made to never be taken off. So I never did. I had forgotten all about it. I had just gotten so attuned to it being on my wrist that I hadn't even recognized it lately.

"My son made it for me." I said. Kate smiled at me.

"Oh, what's his name?" She asked politely.

"Nathan." I smiled.

"That's a pretty name." She said. I chuckled and nodded. She took my wrist and held it up, looking more carefully at the bracelet.

"Baby, what are you doing?" Tanya asked as she came walking down the hall. I looked up and smiled at her.

"Nothing mommy, just looking at the bracelet Mr. Emmett's son made for him." She set my arm down and ran into her mother's arms.

I'm sorry, she can be a handful at times. I hope she didn't bother you." Tanya apologized.

"No, she's fine. It's nice to have a kid around. She's really sweet actually." I stated honestly.

"You just met her. I guarantee you would think differently if you had to spend 24 hours with her." Tanya laughed jokingly.

"Mommy." Kate wined and jumped out of Tanya's arms.

"Get your shoes on and I'll walk you down to Aunt Irina's." Tanya told the young girl, then looked my way. "I hope you don't mind. She lives three doors down. It will only take a minute."

I shook my head and smiled at her. "It's perfectly fine. Like I said, I'm in no hurry."

"Ok, I'll just be a minute. Make yourself at home" She said. "Come on girl. Lets go." She called and held her hand out for Kate. The little girl skipped over and took her mother's hand and they both walked out the door.

I laughed at the two. They really looked like best friends.

I looked around the living room that I was sitting in more closely. I recognized that there were pictures everywhere.

Most of them were of Kate and Tanya. It looked like those two spent every waking moment together. I wonder why Tanya hadn't mentioned that she had a kid before?

"I'm back." Tanya said breathlessly as she walked into the apartment.

"Ready to go?" I asked as I got up and walked over to her.

"Yep. Just let me get my purse."

She grabbed her bag and I escorted her out to my jeep. We climbed in and got going.

"So how's Nathan?" She asked me, starting the conversation.

"He's still the same." I said sadly.

"Oh Emmett, I'm sorry." She sighed and carelessly put her hand on mine that was laying limp on the armrest in between us.

"It's ok I guess. I'm just glad he hasn't gotten worse. I don't know if I could handle that." I said truthfully.

"Yeah, I don't know what I would do if something happened to Kate. She's my whole world." She said. We were quit for a few minutes. It wasn't awkward. More like peaceful.

"Tanya?" I asked.

"Hmm." She hummed. I stole a glance and it looked like she was half asleep.

"Why didn't you tell me you had a kid?"

"It just never came up."

"That's not the reason." I protested. She sat up and sighed.

"I didn't want you to think that I was some whore off the street who had a one night stand in college and was rewarded with a kid." She whispered, almost angrily.

How she could think that? I had no place to judge, seeing as the exact same thing happened to me in college, but I'm different I guess. I happened to be in love with the girl I got knocked up.

"Tanya, I would never…" I said, but she broke in.

"Because I'm not. I really loved him. I thought he was the one I wanted to spend the rest of my life with." I said sadly. "But when he found out I was pregnant he cheated on me, just so that he would have an excuse to get out. Kate has never met her father."

"I'm so sorry. I had no idea. I never should have said anything about it." I apologized.

"It's fine. You couldn't have known." She said and then smiled at me. "If it means anything at all I wouldn't change a single thing about what happened."

I grinned at her and turned down the street the loft was on.

"Do you mind if I park my jeep in my parking garage, and then you and I walk the few blocks to the park. I feel safer when I know my jeep is safe." I chuckled seriously.

She laughed and shook her head. "I don't mind."

I pulled into the underground establishment, scanned my card and was let in. I parked the jeep and got out.

"You live in this place?" She asked astounded and she looked around.

"Not the parking garage, but yes the building I do live in." I smirked at her. "Pretty isn't it?"

"More like gorgeous. My apartment must look like I live in hell." She said all to serious.

"Your apartment was great… inside." I kidding and she smacked my shoulder. I joked with her like I joked with Jasper or Jacob, and yet I haven't even known her for three days.

We walked out onto the street and turned the corner, heading toward the park.

"So, talking about apartments. I don't mean to get personal or anything, but why do you live in a place like that?" I asked, hoping that I hadn't gone to far.

She shrugged her shoulders. "It was the only place that I could find that I could afford. Plus my sister had been living there for a couple of years, so I felt safer. It's really not that bad. As long as people keep to themselves everything is fine."

"Well I personally don't like you living in a place like that. I could find both you, and your sister a better place if you want." I told her. "For the same price your paying now." I added.

"I don't know Emmett… I would have to think about it." She said hesitantly.

"It was just a suggestion." I said, holding up my hands in defense.

"Well thank you for the suggestion." She said with a smile.

After that we walked in silence for a while, taking in the view.

"OH! Can we get our food their?! Please Emmett, PLEASE?!" She begged, as she pointed to a street vender. "I love that place, and haven't been there in almost a month!" She said, grinning from ear to ear.

"If we must." I sighed dramatically, making it sound like it was a bother for us to have to eat there.

She squealed and hugged me tightly. "Thank you, thank you, thank you!"

I laughed and she grabbed my hand. Dragging me along as she ran to the stand.

"Hello Sal." she smiled at the old, skinny man who was working the place.

"Well hello Miss Tanya. Haven't seen you around here in a while. Hope everything is ok?" He greeted.

"Everything is great, thanks for asking. I would like you to meet a friend of mine." She told him, and pulled me around her so that he could get a full view of him. "Sal, this is Emmett. Emmett this is Sal, the best hot dog maker in the world."

I shook the guys hand, and his face changed expressions as he got a good look at me.

"Your that guy…" He stated with shock. "The one who ran his son ten blocks to a hospital after he got hit by a taxi. You were on the news?" He said. "I'm so sorry about that young man. I can't begin to tell you how sad that day was for both me and my wife when we saw you two on the television."

"Thank you. That really means a lot that you were thinking about my family at this time." I said sadly and shook his hand.

"I hope everything is ok." He said, and smiled at me.

"Well…" I said, but Tanya cut me off.

"Hey Sal, can I get a foot long dog and I coke please?" She asked. I looked at her and smiled, thanking her for saving me from that situation.

"Of course you can. And what can I get for you?" he asked, looking at me.

"I'll have the same, just add another hot dog." I ordered.

"Ok, it'll be right up." He said happily.

I felt something wet hit my head, and I looked up. A dozen tiny rain drops hit my head. I looked at Tanya as a steady stream of water decided to soak us.

"Its raining." She stated.

"Yeah." I said dumbly.

"Do you mind going to my place to eat this so we don't get pored on?" I asked her as she looked back at me nervously.


Don't you just love cliff hangers? lol

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