Sooooorry!! I'm so sorry! I took so long to update that… I'm sorry! But I was full with business with the school! Well, this is chapter 9... I hope you will like it! (It's nothing much... XD)

Ah! And little Allen thoughts will be written like this "...am I..."

"Is to want something, wrong essentially? But how you obtain it..."

Elena Agalei, -A twilight in a month-

9- Il ragazzo maledetto (the cursed boy)

"Shall I revive for you the spirit of Mana Walker?"

As he watched his younger one, slowly, raise his head to see the owner of the voice, a painful shot came through his heart. Not again this... not again...

"But..." The Earl continued "...in order to do that, I need your cooperation. More exactly, your voice, that has a connection with Mana"

The hope... he knew: little Allen was feeling the same hope he felt when those words hit his soul, the same happiness of being able again to hug his father, and not be alone. The same hope he felt as Mana's name was written on the Akuma's head, when he heard the man's voice... and the suddenly fear when he understood that it was all an illusion...

"...revive...?"

But why, again, was he feeling like that? Like he could believe in the Earl's words... even he knew very well, they were fake. Only fake diamond put in front of his eyes, and in the reality, merely grey rocks...

"Yes! I can take away Mana from the world you hate so much!"

If I could change my past...!!

"Mana..." And those world where filled with the deepest faith "Mana will return!?"

"Yes!"

And then, a suddenly light filled the whole cemetery, and from the nothingness behind the child... but little Allen didn't know what was, he only saw the light of the hope of hug again his father... but Allen... Allen knew: the body was only a box...

...a box?

Ah, ah... a box!? It's a prison!!

...a prison were a soul was taken, for the eternity, to kill and evolve... and he felt so guilty, to have turned his father into something so awful...

I am a stupid...

He sensed slight lines of tears came out of his now blurred eyes. He sensed them, but he didn't touch them... he didn't have any force, and he just continued to watch... despaired...

Little Allen got up, a unsure look into his pale blue eyes.

Am I right... doing this...? I only want to... see dad...

One step, two step, but he was still hesitant: what if was it wrong...? That skeleton body wasn't very good-looking... and... something, inside him, was screaming to the child: stop! You don't know what you're doing!!

But I only want to see dad... right...?

Was it a stupid reason? Was it... wrong? Want to see his only relative's face once more? To not be alone?

I'm right...

Yes, because the life was too cruel to him, too tough... he was only a child, and he was suffering more than anyone... and the cause of that...? The destiny? An evil God?

I'm right!!

He stopped, taking air... "MANA!!!"

And his voice echoed in the cemetery, on the wind, it echoed outside the graveyard, inside the city... and Lavi and Lenalee ended into their movements.

"What...?"

"I know that voice..."

"It's younger Allen's voice!!" The two looked each other, feared. Was... that time, already...?

"Damn...!!"

While, where the grave of Mana Walker rested, a huge red flame was covering the whole body of the Akuma. A star appeared on its forehead, and the name of Mana Walker was written under the pentacle...

Mana...!?

"Mana..." A relief... yes, there was relief into that name, because his dream, become reality, for the first time: the happiness was with him again!!

"A... llen..."

"Mana!!" He scratched his arms, tiny tears of gladness on his cheeks, the little hands readied to hold him, hug him... feeling him...

"How could you..."

He stopped...

...what...? His heart was hit with an hint of fear. Why Mana was talking with that tone...?

"How could you turn me into an Akuma!?"

What!?

He cringed. And now, that feeling of fear directly cut his mind. That voice... Mana wasn't merely mad, he was furious... but... deep, and only Allen(the older one) could see that: the gaze inside the eyes of Mana's soul were the proof... I can see that... I can see his tears: he's crying! He isn't angry! He's sad!! Only sad... Was it a relief? If he's younger one would know it... if he could say to him that Mana didn't hate him... he was only cheerless, but he still loved him...

"I curse you!! Allen!!"

The fright was now clearly visible on little Allen's face. But he just stayed still, nothing to do but watch his father, now attacking him...

...and a sudden sharp pain into his left eye. He fell on his knees, looking down... why was Mana doing that to him? Why was he hurting him? He... didn't love him anymore...?

Damn... my eye...!!

It hurts...

It was awful... and he could even feel the throbbing wound under the blood, the spilling blood.

Allen, at the same time as his younger one was fell on the ground, he felt, an unexpected... very well-know ache inside his eye... his left eye: the past was reflecting on him... again.

"Damn..." He dropped him too on the cold ground, stopping himself with one hand, the other one on the hurting lesion.

"Allen!!"

Damn... I don't want they to see...!

"Allen, are you okay?"

He felt Lenalee's hands approached his body... he felt her warmth near him.

"Go away!!"

He clenched his teeth: it was already enough hard without them, and now...!!

"Allen...?"

"Go away!! Please!"

He didn't want they to see...

"Please!!"

...to know that...

"How could you turn me into an Akuma!? I curse you, Allen!!"

He closed his scarlet eyes... it was too much. Too much. In the past... in the past was painful, yes, but bearable. To revive that, one more time, the pain inside his heart, inside his eye... Mana's voice screaming at him those words... again and again...

Again...

Stop.

"I curse you!!"

Stop that!!

"Allen!"

"Are you okay!? Hey!"

STOP!!!!

"Allen!!"

Please... just stop...

His friends' voices became slowly far and more far...

I don't want...

...he fell...

...them to know my pain...

Then, the black, surrounded him.

Mana...?

Lenalee and Lavi watched their friend slowly lost consciousness "Allen!" They saw his crimson eyes closed, but tensed, as he was clenching them, as his whole face, and his body... was he suffering that much...? Was he...

"Allen...?"

"Lenalee, he's unconscious..."

She felt tear came to her eyes "Why the is Innocence... doing that?" She didn't want to see Allen in such pain... he already suffered so much...!! "Why is the Innocence doing that!?" She screamed, leaving her tears to fall on the ground "Why!?"

"It's protecting itself..." Her friend answered, a sad smile onto his lips "...we must find its the soon possib-"

"AHHHH!!!!"

A suddenly screamed echoed in the air, making them turn... and the cringe: little Allen was watching... astonished and scared his left arm, changed into something new... and it was killing the Akuma... it was killing Mana...

What's this... WHAT'S THIS!?

"Mana!! Run!! Don't touch him!!" He screamed, like if an arm would ever hear him... "Please!! Don't do anything to him!! Run!! Mana!! RUN, DAD!!!!"

"Allen!!"

The time seemed to stop...

"I love you"

He loves me!? He STILL loves me!?

"Please..."

"...destroy me"

Destroy me!? No, no, no, no, no... I don't want that...!! I DON'T WANT TO KILL MANA!!

But... his left eye suddenly stopped to ache. Something new, something different... little Allen couldn't understand what was happening, but he felt as somewhat switched on inside his body... just inside his eye.

For the first time after two month...

...he watched Mana's pupils, Mana's face.

"Please, destroy me..."

Was it his soul!? Was it... pleading to him to destroy the body where he was a prisoner without free will...?

But he didn't want to...

I DON'T WANT TO KILL MANA!! I DON'T WANT TO KILL DAD!!! NO, PLEASE, THAT NO!! DON'T KILL HIM!!

"MANA!!!!"

Don't kill... him...

He felt hot tears, hot tears start to wet his cheeks... Mana wasn't anymore, again, with him... he killed him, he killed him... He was a murderer.

He was a monster.

No... Mana... sorry... sorry, I'm sorry... I didn't want... to... didn't... want to... to... sorry... dad… I'm sorry... I'm a... I'm a monster... I'm a monster... sorry... didn't want to...

"The souls inside an Akuma's body haven't free will. The only method to save them, is kill them"

"General Cross!?" Lenalee watched, surprised, even if she already knew, the man slowly approached the crying, silently child.

"You're a parasite type... what an unlucky destiny..."

I didn't want to... sorry...

The child felt an hand on his shoulder, and he turned back, looking at the exorcist "Why don't you become an exorcist?"

Well... you liked that? It's not very good, but neither very bad! Right? After this, it will be the last chapter with Allen's past, "Exorcists and poker". Following, the first chapter with Lenalee's past: "An imaginary demon"

See you all soon! And REVIEWS!! EVEN IF YOU DON'T LIKE MY STORY!

:D AcqueCristalline

p.s. I forgot a thing... in the story suddenly, I don't talk anymore of how the Earl disappears... I forgot him, while I was writing that... and I didn't know how to remedy that... can you forgive me...:C