Meredith sat in her bed, staring out the window. She closed her eyes and listened to the rain pound against the glass. She would be going into surgery in 15 minutes. She was nervous. Her thoughts were interrupted by Izzie tapping on the door.
"Hey Mer…"
Meredith turned away and ignored her. She was still hurt by Izzie flirting with Derek.
Izzie sighed then sat on the edge of Meredith's bed. "I'm sorry…I shouldn't have done that, I know how much you love him, it's just, my life has been so complicated lately that half the time I have no clue what I'm doing. I guess I just felt lonely."
"And jumping Derek was your first thought?"
"No! No, it wasn't. He's just always there and says all the right things; I guess I got caught up in it all. I don't know…I have a sucky love life."
Meredith continued to stare out the window.
"But, I don't want to be a sucky friends…so I'll say it again, I'm sorry…"
Meredith sighed then turned towards Izzie. "Okay."
"Okay?"
Meredith nodded. "Okay."
After Izzie wished Meredith good luck in surgery, she walked out the door. On her way out, she bumped into Alex.
"Oh, hey Alex."
"Hey, is Meredith in there?"
"Yep. She's going into surgery in 10 minutes."
Alex nodded then stared at the ceiling.
"Are you okay?"
"Do you think I should let her go?"
"Meredith?"
"Should I let her go with Derek? You know…walk away?"
"I'm in no position to tell you that…you should, you should do whatever your heart tells you Alex."
Alex looked at Izzie. "Did you get that off a hallmark card or something?"
Izzie laughed then touched Alex's shoulders. "Surprisingly, no…"
Alex smiled. Izzie grinned at him then left. He would've followed her advice…but he had no clue what his heart told him.
Derek sat outside the OR. In less than 10 minutes he would be operating not only on Meredith, but his kid. His kid. He sighed then took another sip of his coffee. Dr. Hillman came in.
"You ready Doc?"
Derek ran his fingers through his thick hair. "I think so, I hope so…"
"Ah, you'll do find! You're the best I've seen, and I've seen a lot."
"Thanks."
"Okay, well I'll go prep her for surgery…see you in there!"
Derek sighed then mumbled to himself, "See you in there…"
