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As I shot up out of Carter's arms gasping for unnecessary air, I heard many sighs of relief all around me.

"I'm so glad to see you back." Carter said squeezing me in his arms. I was so dazed I couldn't say anything. I looked around the room, I sure am back. I put my hand up to my neck and it didn't hurt but there was a crack.

"It will heal in about an hour." Carlisle said and I nodded and looked all around me but I didn't see Rosalie or Cordelia.

I looked Edward straight in the eye. You need to mediate for me. My thoughts are the only coherent thing about me right now. He nodded. first off where is Cordelia?

With Rosalie upstairs. She is taking a nap. He answered back in thought and I nodded.

You guys seem to know all that has happened to me. How?

For some reason when you were...

Ripped apart yes, go on. I finished for him. He did have to be hesitante.

You no longer had Bella's shield, so when your hand fell onto Carter's, you showed him what was happening. We all put your hand on ours, so no explaining is necessary. The way he thought was off. Like he was proven wrong about something.

"Leslie," Carter said causing me to rip my gaze away from Edward, I completely forgot anyone else was there. "Can you speak?"

I tried to smile but it didn't work out so well. Tell him, tell everyone, I'm fine.

"She is fine, Carter" Edward said aloud and his stare went to Edward. "She is too dazed to speak at the moment. Give her time."

Tell him I'm sorry about Evan. I know he's happy to see me but he's hurting, I can feel it. Edward spoke when I did and Carter grabbed my face.

"Don't even worry about him. OK? He's gone. But, thank you. Thank you for defending him. You didn't have to but you did and I'm sure all that booze and drugs will be catching up to him in no time." He laughed.

Your not hiding your pain very well. I said as Edward did aloud.

"Forget about me. And stop using your the mood sensing."

I genuinely smiled and looked toward everybody else. I'm so sorry about my family.

They all laughed.

"We all have had a few people in our lives like that." Esme smiled.

"Oh yeah, a lot of Grandmas." Jasper added.

"A few Aunt Julies." Carlisle said.

"Grandpas were inevitable." Emmett boomed.

"a couple Aunt Sarahs." Alice giggled. "Including me of course. Jasper wrapped his arms around her and kissed her hair.

"Trust me." he added laughing

"And I've known your whole family personally. So I think I deserve the biggest apology." Edward said chuckling and I could help but join in.

"So true." I said and looked to Carter and smiled. "Hi." was all I could say.

"Hi." He said with the biggest smile and kissed my forehead. "You don't know how good it is to here your voice."

"Most definitely." It was like I was still trying to find my words. Baby steps, Leslie, baby steps.

"How is she doing? Is she better?" Seth said panting at the door way.

"I'm fine." I said and stood up, a little wobbly before Carter helped me stay straight up.

"That's." He said trying to catch his breath. "that's good." He finally said. "I was loosing it a little when Jacob told me, well, didn't really tell, more of he couldn't stop thinking about it. He was a little on edge too."

"Thanks for caring." I smiled. "Means a lot."

"Well, you mean a lot, so why wouldn't I?" A surge of awkwardness spread through the room and there was silence.

"Jasper and I will be in the garage." Emmett said already half way to the door, with Jasper in tow.

"Bella and I will be in Port Angeles shopping!" Alice's face beamed as Bella's fell. Alice skipped to the garage starting her car.

"I'll be back later." Bella sighed and dragged her feet to the garage.

"Make sure Alice brings you back in one piece." Edward laughed.

"Carlisle and I have to go to a hospital staff dinner." Esme said grabbing her coat.

"We shall be home shortly." Carlisle finished and they walked into the garage and left.

Well, It's awesome to know I wasn't in to much peril that the Cullens couldn't continue their normal lives. I smiled to myself.

That's just the way we are. Edward said and my head snapped around to look at him.

Why can I here you! I whined. I don't want to hear you!

I don't know. Calm down and don't snap your head around like that again. You might pop it off. He smiled and I laughed.

"Uh, am I missing something?" Carter asked.

Why can't I hear him... or Seth... or anyone for that matter.

Edward shrugged. Beats me.

I looked to Carter. "No. You can let me go now though, I think I'm steady." He slowly moved his hands away and I was fine. I smiled triumphantly.

Seth and Edward closed in on my. "Take a step." Seth said cautiously.

"I think I know how to walk, thank you very much." I took a step and lost my balance, falling into Edward's arms. Our eye's connected. It was just like the early 1900s. I felt comfortable in his arms. In them, the whole world stopped around us. Carter was in slow motion trying to help me up out of Edward's hold. I automatically clung to Edward and closed my eyes. "Don't let them take me! Don't let them take me!" I cried.

"Leslie. Leslie." Carter shouted over my hysterical cries, yanking me off Edward, cupping my face. "Shh, shh. Leslie, its me. Carter. Your safe, sweetheart. Your safe." He hugged me tightly stroking my back.

"She's still in shock." Seth said after I had calmed down.

"No, shit, sherlock." Carter remarked.

Seth growled. "Stop. Just stop." there was silence. "Take me upstairs." I ordered.

"I'll take her." Seth said stepping toward me.

"No." Carter argued. "She's already in my arms, I'll take her."

"Maybe she doesn't want you to take her, leech? Ever think of that?" Seth said sourly.

"Now I don't want either of you to take me!" I yelled. "Just set me down here and both of you go. I'll get to my room myself."

"Leslie, you know I'm not going to do that." Carter said.

"No way I'm leaving you." Seth said too.

"Just go." I said breaking away from Carter. "Go, go, go." I was standing on my own now and took the little step needed to reach the couch with out falling over. Once I was situated on the couch, I looked up to see three faces. Seth and Carter's were stubborn while Edward's had mixed emotions. "Why are you two still here? Go!" I layed my head back and stared at the ceiling and and heard 2 pairs of feet leave in each direction. After a few moments of silence I looked up to see Edward in the same position as before.

"I'm sorry." I really wasn't but some of the Cullens were still around. "I don't know why I did that." I put my head in my hands.

"It was August 28, 1917." He said quietly with no emotion, like he was a robot.

I looked up and shook my head. "I don't remember that day."

"It was sunny, but cold. We met each other at the park, near that one restaurant we loved so much. We sat down at a little park bench across from an elderly couple, Mr and Mrs. Daily. They told us of their times together and what they had to conquer to get and stay together. Truly a inspiring couple. When our talk was down I took you by the hand and walked through the park. Looking at each tree and bush and animal with awe. We walked to the flower shop and I bought you 12 roses. 11 real and 1 fake. I said I'll stop loving you with all the roses have died. We walked happily back to my house until your parents came to pick you up. We were having such a great time together you didn't want to go home, so you clung onto me, just like you did a moment ago, and screamed the exact same thing as well. I felt terrible for just watching as you cried leaving my house. You forgot your roses too."

"I must of got them another day." I interrupted.

He solemnly shook his head. "That was the day your parents decided you couldn't see me for two weeks. So I sat in my room, watching the roses wilt away, day after day, night after night. Until the day you were aloud to see me again. That day I decided to just keep the last rose." He walked over to me and helped me up. "Come take a walk with me." I nodded, I didn't really have a choice, he already had me walking outside. We walked in silence. This wasn't awkward. It felt right. This is what I had waited for. All those years, and this is all I wanted. What I've daydreamed would happen when I found Edward does not come close to actually living it in reality.

I didn't know where he was taking me, but I didn't really care. As long as I was with him. He could of taken me to the edge of the universe and I wouldn't mind.

"Leslie." He said stopping to turn and look at me. There was silence. My name was just lingering in the air. Floating between us like a butterfly. Sweetly, fluttering around in the atmosphere. "This isn't the early 1900s."

"I think I'm very aware of that." I said.

"But, you being here. Always around. It..."

I feel like he's breaking up with me. "It's not good, blah blah blah." I said trying to hide the hurt. "I've heard this all before. I bring back memories. I make life difficult. Save it, I know what your going to say."

He looked at me for a moment. "I was going to say." he sucked in a deep breath. "It makes me wish I had not been changed. I wanted to have kids with you. I wanted to grow old and be together forever, like the Dailys, with you. I wanted to remind everyone I knew what a awesome girl you were, and that you were mine." I stared into his eyes. He was truly serious.

"Gotta love those past tenses." I laughed awkwardly looking down. He put everything into perspective and I really wish he hadn't. It makes everything so real... depressing.

He stepped toward me and cupped my face, forcing me to look at him. "I've loved you before. I love you still."

"Why are you telling me this?" I choked out. "It means nothing."

"It meant and means everything to you." He said.

I removed his hands from my face and held them between us. "I need to get over it. You..." I scaled him up and down with my eyes trying to find the right words. "You doing this is not helping any situation. I know what I must do and you are my perfect example."

"Leslie, I don't want to be an example. I just want to be yours. So be mine."

"You are Bella's." I said each word distinctly. "You are Renesmee's. I'm happy being nobody's right now." Each word hurt me to say.

"No your not." He argued.

"OK. I'm not happy. I'm sad and mad that I didn't find you in time. I could be yours. But, I didn't so I'm going forward because if I stay in this rut, I'm never going to be happy ever again. I'm going to become like my Aunt Julie. I really really don't want that to happen. I want to be my own person. And this, what I'm doing right now, is a step in my own direction. Away from being in love with you. Away from wanting to do what your asking of me right now, no matter how much it is hurting me to do this." I paused getting up the strength and courage to say this last part. "I have to move on, Edward."

He sighed sadly. "You are always going to be the love of my life."

"and Bella and Renesmee are the loves of your existence." I half smiled. "They trump me." He pulled me closer to him and hugged me tightly. A whole tsunami of emotions rolled off him. Love, Regret, Sorrow... Understanding. "OK. Lets go home." He pulled away from me and nodded.


It's short but I think it gets across a point.

Leslie's death put in perspective a couple things. I think it made her stronger. What about you?

Anyway thanks for reading. (:

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